DEAR DIARY,
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DEAR DIARY, OH BOYS...
By now high school seems like a different life, and after having read my old diaries, I wish it was someone else’s life. It was an awkward and humiliating phase that seemed superior to middle school but is equally as cringeworthy. Many of these moments I have repressed but going over them now I'm glad that I have grown and become a better person. Somehow all of this lead to who I am today, which makes these faded memories a little less horrifying. So here it is, all my secrets, love affairs, sentiments, and mistakes from 2009. By Mariana Silva
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DEAR DIARY,
August 21st
So game day today! But we lost. We
We lost again, because our coaches are
trouble for skipping practice and An-
could have won if it weren’t for stupid
stupid, but it’s whatever. Going to Lau-
na’s mom didn’t want to bring her over.
coaches. Spent the night with Kel, it
ren’s for a sleepover!
P.S. parents almost found out I skipped
was uber FUN. Picked up Cole and An-
practiced. Blehhh.
drew then went to sonic, it was yummy.
August 29th
Painted my nail and also got to talk to
Had a GREAT time at Lauren’s house,
September 5th
Marcos with Kel’s phone. P.S. Kel has
her family is cool but oh my gosh her
Went to a ranch, but first stopped by
a thing with Jared. P.S.S. during the
room is a mess! HA! I miss my brother
Salado Town Square. It was fun, espe-
game Kel, Anna, Carolyn, and I made a
and Marcos. Went to target, then went
cially cause we are with Ana and Mayra.
gangster dance.
to Addison and hung out with Ana and
We are eating cookies but we are really
Mayra, but it was torture at first when
craving ICE CREAM. The ranch is real-
they weren’t there.
ly cool and pretty. We watched a whole
August 23rd Last day of summer! Got ready for school like all day. AH! High School.
bunch of movies all day like All Dogs September 3rd
Go To Heaven. I ♥ Marcos!
Best thing about today was Vishva’s August 27th
birthday! Got my pencil bag and
September 8th
AWESOME DAY! Super funny!
athletic bag stolen. UGH. Skipped after
So apparently Pooja died. It was really
Learned abc’s in French! Jared gave
school volleyball practice (never again).
sad finding out. Her funeral is today
Anna a weird look so me and Edward
but I didn’t go. Half the people that
taught her that she should give him
September 4th
went barely knew her but just wanted
a weird look back. I love my classes.
School was fun, except well you know,
to leave school. It makes me mad, I was
Vishva is in World Geography with
ENGLISH! URG… DARN YOU KIRK-
at least nice to her but still felt weird if
me but we don’t have Chemistry any-
LAND! HA! So at the game today we
I went. It just really sucks. School was
more. P.S. did awesome at volleyball
were so hyper before the game we kept
okay. Game today. We lost, we need to
today-hizzle! I ♥ Marcos!
cheering. We even did the Cardinal
learn how to play like a team.
Claw! We won the first game and lost August 28th
the second, because we had sucky
September 9th
Brother left today. He came to my art
referees. During the first game people
Good day. Cole didn’t wear red. Lunch
class. it was pretty cool. I’m going to
that didn’t skip practice got to play as
was weird. No volleyball practice for
miss him so much! Madi and I kept
the starters but oh well. Hurt my knee
once, I got to be social! Took Austin
giving people the look it was hilarious.
when I finally got to play, but they let
home and talked about Trisha. I miss
Chemistry was fun, as always. Game
me serve so it’s okay. Kel and Anna
my brother. Watching Project Runway
day today at Weatherford (rich school).
were going to come over but Kel got in
with mom! I ♥ Marcos and Cole!
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September 10th CROSS COUNTRY MEET!!! They are so much fun, got to bond with all the cross country people. I got 42nd place out of like 200 people and came in first for MAC! When Ericka, Jazmin, Genesis, and I were stretching we drooled over an uber hot guy DANG! Got into a
OH MY GOSH WE WERE FLIRTING SO MUCH! September 17th
water bottle fight with a guy and then Ericka and I went looking for hot guys to ask for their safety–pins. It was uber fun, especially at the dance off against Irving High School. September 17th Cross country meet today, get to run with varsity! I was nervous at first but I did pretty good especially since it was UBER muddy! OMG when I was done I went straight to pee, then went to go cheer the next group. Talked to Hugo about me being on varsity and about how he collapsed. He said that next time I need to carry him. We danced sorta but it was funny, then we went to go cheer for the JV boys and girls. Kept talking and flirting with Hugo even more and he carried me back to the camp ground. But OH MY GOSH WE WERE FLIRTING SO MUCH! UGH! After the meet we went back to school. Volleyball practice sucked, I still had to do conditioning and I got the air knocked out of me. I’m so confused.
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Group photos where everyone gets uncomfortably close to eachother's faces
September 21st Decent day until I told Marcos about
lapsed at the end. That was nothing in
Hugo. Now I feel like an idiot because I
comparison to Jenhi though, who got
want him back. I don’t know.
a heat stroke. Got into an ice fight with Hugo. Also during the JV girls race,
September 23rd
Hugo and I were playing around. I told
Pretty good day at school. No practice
him his name sounded like juice and
today. Went to Travis with Vishva and
he got mad and said he wouldn’t talk to
Eunice. Saw Mrs. Bizzel, Mr. South,
me anymore. So I stole his hat and then
and a little bit of Mrs. Alexander. I
he chased me. He stepped on my shoe!
MISS THEM SO MUCH! Oh and Coach
Now I’m giving him the silent treat-
Stoneburner, she kept making Mr.
ment! That’ll show him.
South mad/jealous. Went back to Mac with Eunice so she could talk to greg. I
October 2nd
miss my brother really bad! P.S. appar-
Good day at school, had a game..oh
ently Danielle has a new boyfriend!
yeah. I saw Hugo and I wouldn’t talk to him and he kept like trying to me
October 1st
talk then he grabbed my hand and
Got to sleep in until 7! Orchestra was
gave me a paper asking if I could text.
easy, math was chill, Kirkland was
HE’S SO CUTE! So back to the game,
simple, and French was cool. For cross
played against Irving and well MAC
country I found out that I was going to
SMACKED BACK. WE WON! DUH!
run varsity since Jenny wasn’t there! I
Then went to cross country party. I also
got 15:09 which is awesome but I col-
got my back tuck! And a muscle spasm.
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October 31st Decided to talk to Hugo again. Went to
P.S. Austin sucked on my finger but I
COOL RUN was soooo fun. Chili was
Mayra’s house for cross country party.
wiped it off on Hugo
delish! Sachi’s casa 4 ANTI Home-
We ate pizza, played ping–pong, sang
coming. We almost went to a haunted
karaoke, and I flirted with HUGO like
October 12
house. Made jack–o–lanterns and
tons. He was the last one to leave.
3 More days till my birthday! Cross
shirts instead. Rolled the twins’ house.
country practice was easy. HUGO
Watched scary movies for the rest of
October 3rd
ASKED ME OUT AND TO HOME-
the night.
Tournament today, so fun! Lost against
COMING. Went to Katie’s house and
Arlington, won against the 2nd team,
watched lots of movies. About to go to
November 7th
and lost against L.D.Bell. Spent the
the movies with Hugo. I had a load of
We went to Lubbock. The trip was so
night at the twinsies with Anna (she
FUN! Got in trouble with my parents
much FUN. We all just like bonded.
left after 11 though), Ali, Kel, and Sachi.
about lying though. UGH!
The food was great, except lunch.
We took billions of pictures! We had a
Played “Hey Cow”. We were ALL SICK! October 15th
Jenny, Jazmin, and I did terrible. Hotel
MY BIRTHDAY!!! Brother called in the
was cool, we got to party. Parents came
October 9th
morning. School was FUN, got presents
and got me shorts. MISSED HUGO!
Cross country meet got cancelled!
and cookies. Cross country meet, got
School was pretty fun though. Hugo
my best time of 15:01! It was PJ day!
November 18th
asked me out on a date sort of. School
Pep rally! I was in it! Volleyball game
Got schedule changed and started gym
ended at 3 cuz of lame pep rally. Then
against Nimitz. We lost, but whatever
today. Got a 90 on Antigone test! Made
went to cross country meeting. Went
we could have won! Football game!
new friends: Angie, Esther, and Daniel
to Travis to see Mr. South with Katie.
Chilled with Hugo and Dani mostly. SO
(sorta knew him already). One month
UBER FUN, then Valerie came over.
FUN! Went home had cake!
anniversary with Hugo! YAY! ♥ HIM!
blast! I ♥ them!
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Showing off our ankle monitors for our Cross Country race
November 25th
December 15th
Hugo came over and we went to the
So Hugo kinda said “I love you”, well I
my baby–giants. Well I do but it hurts
park. We kept making out hehe (for
know he does, he just hasn’t told me he
to do them. Once I got home I just
all the time we haven’t). We made out
loves me haha. School was chill.
watched Buffy, best show ever!
♥ him sooooooooo much it’s crazy! I
December 24th
January 6th
fell on top of him cause he dropped me
Christmas eve! Finally put up decora-
Bad day! At least until 6th period. Gym
when he picked me up it was weird.
tions! Everything looks so cute! OMG!
was chill, I got giant rips. Was on the
Walked back home and just talked in
Hugo came over. P.S. He finally said I
phone with Hugo and it was weird! I
the living room.
LOVE YOU, but I didn’t say it back…
told him that I can’t tell him I love him
under the tires and in the field hah. I
HE SAID IYOULOVE , BUT I 'T SAY DIDN IT BACK... December 24th
December 5th
cause we haven’t been through much January 4th
together. We just kept talking about
Well I woke up at around 9 but I didn’t
that, it was weird.
feel like getting up so I stayed in bed until 2, then my mom told us we were
January 8th
going to church at 5 so I showered and
GOT SICK! I threw up. Went home af-
did my hair. Then I watched tv until
ter 4th period and slept until 3:45. First
4:30ish then ate, then church. We were
gym meet tonight! I got a 7.9 for vault!
30 minutes early, but we stayed. My
We made fun of Nathaniel’s girlfriend
brother and I whined about it the whole
HAHA. The we (Daniel, Izzy, and Es-
time. We went to Argentina Bakery
ther) had a tickle fight. Daniel decided
after, yummmm. Got home, played tag
we are getting married. Eunice came
with Reggie and mommy. Remodeled
over for All City tomorrow.
room. P.S. Doug and I talked about being married to each other!
Spent the night at Valerie’s last night!
January 9th ALL CITY. We woke up late, but it was
Went to Big Lots first and this guy tried
January 5th
okay. I did bad duhhh, and my wrist
to make us buy everything we would sit
School was bleeeeeeeeeeeeeh but I
started bleeding like halfway when I
on. It was funny. Ate like a prego. Con-
didn’t really do much. Hugo made me
was playing. Chilled with Mario while
cert was uber fun but Travis Orchestra
a necklace. He is the cutest thing ever,
Eunice and I waited for Teryn to get
sucked!!! Anyway Thomas came and
I like him so much! He definitely is the
done. Then went out to eat with them.
sat with us, he is such a hottie. P.S. but
best boyfriend ever, even if he always
I didn’t eat cause I still feel sick from
I ♥ Hugo! P.S. Bake sale soon so Bri,
says “I’ll make it up to you” and never
yesterday. P.S. Doug said he love
Eunice, and Teryn came over to bake!
does. Well gym was chill, I sorta got
LOVES me!
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So many sleepovers , so many selfies with my mouth open.
January 12th Well exams start tomorrow, didn’t go to
Esther. His name is Alex, we were just
and ensemble tomorrow. We were the
volleyball because Carolyn and I had to
talking to him and he gave it to us.
first 3. I did alright. Then we chilled
finish an art project. We hung out and
at my house until we went to Teryn’s
she bonded with me, I still don’t like
January 18th
house. It was cool. We watched She’s
her much but she’s alright. Suzanney
Valerie spent the night and then we
the Man, then we went to Teryn’s
and brother took me to gym, YAY! 4
watched a bunch of movies. Then she
grandparent’s house. It was sooooo
month anniversary with HUGO. Daniel
left and went early birthday shopping
much FUN!
and I made plans for our wedding
and out to eat for my brother. Before
during gym. Japan on a mountain.
we went out to eat we stopped by the
February 1st
old Ridgefield house. I MISS IT. Hugo
TODAY SUCKED. Gym was alright, I
January 13th
and I are weird right now because we
sorta did a fly–away. Hugo is being an
Well got to use my notes on
were talking about love and he stopped
ASS and now things are worse. Hugo
french exam and finally done
talking to me if I didn’t tell him who I
came over and my parents weren’t
with research paper for Kirkland.
used to love (Brett). I eventually told
home. It got out of hand, we keep fight-
WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO! Also retook
him and now it’s bad. Bleeeeeeeh. P.S.
ing and ughhh. Blehh.
math test. I have an 80 again. Orches-
got mad at Alex for wanting nude pho-
tra exam was chill. Left school early for
tos of me. Odd story.
gym it was fun, Esther said Daniel and
March 1st Well I forgot to write in you for a really
I are perfect for each other and that we
January 24th
long time, sorry I’ve been busy. School
looked cute together. Then home, tv,
Been in a fight with Hugo about love.
was okay, TAKS this week. Definitely
shower, some homework. Marcos said
He came over (secretly so shhhhhhhh),
failed Chemistry test like everyone else.
he still likes me.
we kept making out. Then went shop-
GYM was cool got routine down better.
ping with mommy and got sharpies!
UGH! Hugo is being such a weenie-
January 15th
head. He won’t walk me to the car but
Half day! Almost didn’t finish my art
January 30th
he’ll walk Teryn all the way to Farine!
exam, but it looks crappy anyway.
School was alright. Gym meet was so
Whatever! He also found my tweet
Chemistry was terrible, I got a 52 on
awkward but fun. Teryn, Eunice, and
which called him a hypocrite. FML.
the exam. Went to go see Avatar with
Hugo came. There was like no one at
Vihang, Eunice, Austin, and Hugo but
our meet. All the guys place but only
he didn’t stay the whole time. GYM
because they were the only guys at the
MEET! I got an 8.0 on vault! Daniel
meet. Then at the end Daniel proposed
and I had a tickle fight again, I won!
to me in front of Hugo and I said yes.
Then got a hott guy’s number with
Teryn and Eunice spent the night. Solo
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NOW HE WANTS ME BACK
April 22nd
March 17th Uhm sorry again for not writing in you.
and Izzy have told me they like me.
college strangers have been at our
I have been getting distracted. Well
Gym has been chill, Regionals sucked
house. Went to Wood Spider concert
this is what happened since last time I
but I had fun! Track is cool. Started
(brother’s new band). Fell off bars and
wrote in you. I got a fever and went to
liking Lazo, he’s a sweetheart. I still
onto my neck as I was trying to jump to
school late one day. I had Districts and
kinda like Hugo so me and Lazo will
the high bar. Now I’m really freaked to
did not end up competing floor because
take things slowly until I’m over Hugo.
jump but will do it if I have to. Relearn-
of my fever. I also collapsed doing my
There might be a slim chance of me
ing how to do back tuck and punch
bars routine because I started crying
going back out with Hugo. Also school
fronts. Madi and Dani eventually had a
from stress. Other than that I did pret-
is almost over. SUMMER! P.S. Vishva
late Summer Party. Went to the drive–
ty good at the Districts meet. Got to
might move!
in on the 4th of July!!! I’ve been getting
ride in Valerie’s new car when she got
better at bars, vault, and punch fronts!
it! Hugo and I got in a fight becasue
July 12th
he didn’t want to talk to me. He came
Hey again! Sorry I haven’t written in a
over and we went on a walk to try and
loonnnggg time. So to catch you up this
talk He stopped talking to me for who
is what has happened… Hugo went out
knows what reason. Well then we got
with Teryn. Teryn and I got in a huge
better but then broke up and it really
fight. I ♥ Lazo (he is really different).
truly sucks. Especially because I’m cry-
SUMMER! Madi and Dani didn’t have
ing my eyes out and he is fine. Ali and
an end of school year party, instead
valerie have spent the night a couple
we just had a sleepover at Sachi’s with
of times. Valerie and I found a weird
the others. Velocity and gymnastics
abandoned train. Another day I sent
have been going well. Oh yeah! Before
the night with Ali at Anna’s too. I really
school got out, day of the Powder Puff,
miss Hugo and I can’t stand all of this,
Daniel kissed me. I told Lazo about it,
but he won’t want me back because he
he was upset but not mad. Hugo was
is totally fine.
and is a Dick. Hugo and Teryn broke up. I talked to Teryn and hopefully we
April 22nd
can be friends again. Also Vishva isn’t
Ugh! I haven’t written in a LONG time!
moving until next semester. I really
Well here’s another summary. Hugo
like Lazo but we haven’t really seen
started liking Teryn. I’m mad at him for
each other. Valerie got her license and
it but now he says he doesn’t like her
we have been having fun with that.
anymore, that he wants me back. Josh
Switched rooms with brother. Many
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Well Lazo calls at 12 so later!
I've made out with everyone in this photo
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