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Volume xxv, issue v | MO 63017 | MARQUETTEMESSENGER.COM | February 2018
UNDER PRESSURE: mahika MUSHUNI • greg SVIRNOVSKIY WHEN JOHN SMITH, SENIOR, WHOSE NAME HAS BEEN changed to protect his identity, first started taking Adderall in preparation for his first semester finals junior year, he only meant to use it to aid in his study habits. “It was pretty great,” Smith said. “My hair felt like it was standing on end. I had goosebumps. I felt incredible. It was the best feeling in the entire world.” For two hours, Smith felt on top of the world, faster, smarter than anybody. But only for two hours. “Then I crashed,” Smith said. “I felt like the world was coming down around me. So I didn’t try it for a while.” That was supposed to be it. Smith had been around drugs long enough to know the dangers of a bad experience. He now knows he should have stopped forever. But he didn’t. He started using it in parties and during AP exams, one or twice a month. But he didn’t call himself an addict until the beginning of that summer “I tried snorting it for the first time,” Smith said. “That’s like nothing else. It’s all going straight to the brain. I was probably doing 90 milligrams a day and I couldn’t wake up without it. Your blood vessels constrict, your fingers get cold, you can’t perform sexually.” Smith said he hasn’t touched Adderall in two months, having quit cold-turkey immediately after Thanksgiving Break. “I don’t need anything or anyone to be there to help my performance,” Smith said. “It took me a long time to come to grips with that. I hope for the day that I don’t wake up and crave something to snort.” Smith said the abuse of the drug is in large part due to the cutthroat environment amongst high-achieving students at MHS. “But there’s a reason that this affects some of the smartest people,” Smith said. “When you have a rat race that is as violent and competitive as ours is, you get people that will win at all cost, no matter the price to their body or mental stability.” While it took Smith time to realize the impact Adderall was having on his life, those around him noticed sooner. Adrianna Arnold, senior, said she knew Smith was on Adderall, and she tried to get him to quit numerous times before succeeding in November. “I was the one who told him, ‘You can’t use it anymore. You’re going to hurt yourself. You’re going to hurt your heart. I don’t want you dying,” Arnold said. “I really didn’t like him using it.” Arnold said she saw a decrease in her friend’s confidence immediately after he quit, but it’s since rebounded significantly.
As teenagers continue to struggle with the effects of “the study drug,” professionals grapple with its implications.
8.6% of students
in St. Louis County have used prescription drugs not prescribed to them
Source: Missouri Department of Mental Health
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