Life has a play and pause button on it. Your life continues to play when you are free. It pauses when you have no freedom, no guidance, You are wasting your time. You sit there and say that you are going To do something with you life. But instead you go out and trap with your men. Why do you think the trap is called the trap house? Because you sit there, Count money, Move work. When you think things are good And the feds run down on you in the trap house. The word trap speaks for itself, You set yourself up for failure. So what are you going to do? Are you going to make the right choice? Or not.
We are not on earth to stay forever We are only here to visit God only puts us on earth to set things up, For the people of the future. While you visit, don’t waste time Trying to be a thug, a killer, robber. Be yourself, show people what you are made of. Life on earth is easy, Life in jail is hard. Doing my visit I had been Having some ups and downfalls. When you get back up, Just don’t try to get up too fast. If you get up too fast You will just fall again and Feel more pain than you Felt before. My pain is still there, Why? Because I’m n a place with no freedom, Staff always geeking, Always playing you fifty. But what can I do? I’m bitching about the things that go on,
It’s my fault I’m here, You never will get far crying About things that are your fault.
In this life I live, I never seen so many fake people. In my life, so many people play you. Filthy, they might say that they fuck with you, But really they don’t. I can count on my hand how many people I know that are a real nigga. I know over eighty fake people. This world, where in is cold, It becomes hot when the mice and mouse bit the cheese. I have seen and done a lot of things that I’m not Proud or happy to speak on. I regret who I’ve become Because of the things I said and did. There’s no going back into my past. The pain I feel, I wish It never lasted. The days in the system go too slow, Days on the street seem too fast, The pain I feel, I wish it would Never last.
Never gotten a chance to say bye. You left earth while I was away, I wish you were still here to tell me The things that I should stop. I saw you as a brother to me That could help me. I think about you every day, Wishing you were still here. When you got on that bike Nobody was going to stop you, If I had the chance to be there I would. I did my best to stop you. Almost every day I was with you, Even though it’s not a good thing, That you taught me everything I know, I never got the chance to thank you. Rest in peace Sport. Man I love you.
Guns are not something to play with. People might keep guns, but never use them. What’s the purpose of having a gun? Is it to have protection or For the rush of power? Having a gun doesn’t make you a man. It just makes you weak. There are holes that need to be filled, But how do you fill The holes?
The streets are no game. Can’t play both sides. Females are snakes, not all. Niggas are fake, not all. People hate you when you are up. Niggas don’t fuck with you When you’re broke. People think you’re a joke, When you’re broke.
Life is always going to have struggles. People are always trying to bring you down Because they see you doing something positive. Everybody ain’t loyal. Niggas say shit! But, do different, holes and gaps we got to watch out for. You ain’t got to prove anything to anybody But yourself. There is always a struggle, For money, Better living. To survive in the life that we have We have to depend on ourselves.
Every young nigga Wants to grab a gun, Steal cars, Rob people. Every young nigga Don’t want to get caught, Go to jail. Why not pick up a book? Go ask for help? Everybody can’t be killas, Robbers, Trappers. Go find yourself, Do something Positive.
The things we want but can’t have… Fame, The fame that we all want, It’s just people in our life. It’s just your face on a TV screen. We all want money, power, respect. Everything does not come When we want.
I’m tired of going through the revolving doors. In and out of the system, Every time I leave I’m back Like I never left. It’s time for my change. I’m tired of seeing the same thing Everyday. When I’m home, I get tired of seeing my people suffer for Money, tired of being judged before being known. Tired of when you make a mistake, People don’t want to give you a chance. Always that one thing Against you.
The days we spend locked up, We waste the chances you have to be something. Life moves fast, When you are having fun. Life goes slow when you are away. Wishing we had the chance To be free again. You say that you want to be a man. She says she wants to be a woman. There’s no effort in doing bad, But always a process of being a man. Can’t get back the days lost, But you can take back the wrong doings. Life is short, Days are slow, Do something positive, and Let time fly.
Some day we all can fly with the people we loved. Never had the chance to say goodbye. Never had the chance to say we love you. Never made it to the funeral. I’m sorry bra. Please forgive me. The pain I feel as my two bravas die. I know you still watch over me. One day I can fly with all my men. Rest in peace.
Sometimes we second guess our thoughts. Sometimes I second guess why god took my moms. Maybe if she was here, My life would be different. Things always happen for a reason. I don’t know the reason. One day I will make my moms proud And show the people who said I wouldn’t be shit. Why do we second guess? Sometimes we just got to go along.
Black people are always ready to kill The same color skin. So quick to kill the opposite. All black people are supposed to stay together, But instead most of our people Fight, kill, sell, and more. We are doing the job for the devil, You are making it easy for him. Like myself, I’m making it way easy for the devil to kill me With his poison By doing all the things I should not do. Such as, Smoking and drinking. Instead I do those things because I think it’s cool. I’m a fool, doing the things that hurt me, Kill me slowly. As you kill yourself slowly, Your life moves faster. Every day I will make a change.
Find yourself, Find what you are good at, Do something you like, Before it’s too late. I have hit my rock bottom, I realize that I was a follower, I learned that being a follower is not bad, It’s who you follow, Everybody is a leader and a follower. I was following people who didn’t care about me. I was trying to be something that was played out. I know what I want to be, Do you know what you want to be? Find yourself, Make something of it. People always think it’s about the money, It’s about finding a way to live. Selling drugs, killing, robbing… Those are not ways to live. But you can’t stop someone living. If you are gonna get money the right way, get it. If you are gonna get it the wrong way, go get it. When you have your down fall, Don’t be mad at others, Be mad yourself, You had your chance to change
And hopefully you get another chance.
About me, I’m a good kids who’s always in the wrong places, Always trying to be an adult, If I say something, I mean it, I plan to keep my word. Me, I can’t trust a soul. I don’t let anybody change my mind Or how I care for myself. I’m always going to be myself. If you are reading my art, Don’t let anybody change you, Always be yourself. Letting others control you or persuade you Can mess up your life. I’m fifteen and have seen it all, I’ve seen people follow others and go somewhere They didn’t want to be. Always be yourself And you will go far.
The things people lie about, Why lie? Just be yourself. People think it’s cool to lie, Think people gonna believe them. I’ve been lied to so many times in my life. Stolen from so many times in my life. I may tell you that I believe you, Until I see proof for myself. Why lie? Where do lies get you? It will just lead to more lies, Then one day you won’t be able to Back up the lies you told. People lie about their life, Just to compete with other’s lives. Why lie? What does lying prove? Nothing at all.
Every day you learn something new. Today I learned that I was my problem, Always trying to be something I’m not, I learned my solution in my life. Sometimes I wonder who I am, What’s my purpose on this planet? My purpose is to show the world that I’m different from the black kids you Hear about. Robbing, killing, selling, and ect. I love who I am. But, I don’t like the ways I have chosen As a young man. So I’m going to change the things I do, To put myself in a better plan When you have to do what others say, You move when they say move Not when you want. Once again, you learn something new everyday. I learned I’m my own problem, But also, I’m my solution and My solution is to change.
People get mad when you say That you are broke People don’t understand The meaning of broke. Broke means you have money, Just that you need to care of family and yourself. People think you have money, but don’t want to help. I’m broke. Broke doesn’t seem Like what people think It means.
Have you ever been stressed? Have you ever been homeless? Have you ever felt scared? Have you ever almost faced death? Have you ever? Have you ever seen junkys do them? Have you ever seen a dead body? Have you ever talked to your moms? Have you ever been locked up? Have you ever?
Fear, Most people don’t like facing their fear. My fears, I don’t want to face. But gonna have to one day. Karma, It’s always looking for its come up. The bad habits we do so much, It comes and back to bite you. Death, Someday it will come for me, The only thing you can do is live your life And make the best of it. Birth, Coming to this world, There’s a lot of things we have to learn and know. Sometimes the things we learn We will have to teach, Give lessons and take lessons. You help people and when it’s time You receive lessons. You win and lose battles.
Fight with fists, not weapons Learn from others And ask questions.
People get mad when you say you’re broke. People don’t really understand the meaning When you tell them that. Broke means you have money, But not enough to give out. You only have the money to budget for your family and self. I used to be the same way, Don’t get in your feelings because someone can’t help you out With your financial needs. My whole life I have been broke, But I gave out money so people could think that I had it. If you are cool with someone, Will you give that person your last? Because I know I would. People get mad when you say you’re broke, First people think you are playing, Take it as a joke, when they realize you are being for real. Then they want to curse you out, For something that you don’t have for them. Sometimes I don’t understand people, I get tired of doing for others before myself, Ever for people I don’t know, But I know it will come back in the end.
It’s a revolving door. Every day you see the same stuff. Even when you aren’t on the street. There’s always one person who does the Same thing throughout his or her whole life And doesn’t even know it. Right now it’s like a revolving door for me Because I’m in and out of the system, Doing the things that got me there. I said I wasn’t going to do the same things again, But somehow I got sucked in or the things I ran from. You can’t always run, One day you will have to fight back. Don’t get stuck in the wrong revolving door. Get stuck in the one where everything you do is right. Learn from mistakes so you don’t go through the same things Again and again and again and again. Doing wrong never wins, It may take the battle, but never won the war. As I look at myself, I thought I was going to win by doing wrong, Now I look at myself, I’m at New Beginnings, This is where I start My new beginning.
Today’s generation, Most of the people are too flashy, Talk too much, Always minding others. I used to be the same way. People told me I did the same things. I didn’t want to believe that They were telling the truth about me. Until I watched myself do the things People said I do. I became annoyed with myself. So, pay attention to the things you say and do. My talking almost got me into a fight Because I said something that I should have kept To myself. Words can be very powerful to the weak, Words can be very weak to the powerful. The things we say, The things we do, The things you say can come back to hurt you.
White vs. black, When a white person sees a white person Doing something wrong, they push away the thought Of their own color or their skin. When it comes to a black person, Whites think we are instantly doing something We don’t have any business doing. Today there are still racist people in the world. You can be walking and ask A white person for the time, They clench their wallets, purses, lock their doors. It’s like the color of your skin gets attention From certain people because they realize the bad bones we have Because of the things we have done. Whites really don’t care about us, Only yourself. People may say they care, Do they really? You never know what people might say behind your back. You can’t trust anyone. Only trust yourself, your gut, your heart.
What do you want to be when you grow up? I want to be my own business owner. I want to be a navy worker. Most kids today want to be thugs, robbers, killers, They want to live life the easy way. People think it’s the easy way, When really they live the hard way. Always watching your back for the law, Always watching your back for crabs that Try to pull you down, When really you pull yourself down by doing wrong. You are the crab that can’t let yourself do right. I want to help my own kind of people, Help feed the people who can’t feed themselves, Do things that people wouldn’t do for me, Give the guidance to the young black kids that want to Be something. I used to be a victim of the fast life, Doing wrong to live my life. My life is not over. Make a change and do what’s right, For the color of your skin.
The word happy means nothing to be at all. Why? Because I never have a reason to be happy. People say you should be happy that you woke up Why should I be happy when my mother is dead? My father, I don’t know of. I’m never happy, People don’t understand not ever hearing the voice Of your mother or never seeing the man That planted you on earth. Never having a family that really cares, With no support from others except for their loved ones. Why should I be happy when I see nothing but fence? You have some that care and some that say they care, When really they don’t. I only know one person, who cares, That’s my uncle
Where do we go when we see? Are there really such things as heaven and hell? Do we become reborn into different stages of life? The things we think of, But never speak of, I don’t like talking about What I think, so I write. The things we think of, But never speak of. The important things you hold back Make you weak. The more you hide, The more people try to seek. And I don’t plan to let anybody see me weak. The things we think of. But never speak. Always stay strong. Never show weak.
Hate being locked up. Hate having no movies. The words I never tell. In the street it’s too much heat. Maybe I’m in hell. Don’t know who to trust, Not ever myself. Don’t have real friends, Everyone seems too fake. When I feel trouble, It feel as though the earth starts to shake. Never done anything good, But always done wrong. Doing wrong is like a drug. Doing right seems like doing wrong, When you are always doing wrong.
Just want to know why… Why my mother? Some say I’m lucky, But I don’t see. Never heard her voice. Never seen or talked to her. I try to hide my pain, But getting into the fast life. Life is a gamble, But I see no dice, Just thugs, hos, rats mice. If I can have my moms on earth And take me away, That would be my sacrifice.
What is love? Is love something you know? Or is love something you feel? Love can be a lot of things. It could be pain, Something you hate to show, So you put a smile on your face To show that things are okay, When really it’s not. So you talk about how good your life Can be, but you blame others For your down fall. Why are you on earth? I’m o earth to make a difference, To show people who I really am. So, what is love? Love is something people have for you, When someone cares too much about you, To see you in a bad situation. This is what I think of love.
There’s this girl I like, But don’t know how to talk to her. But at the same time I do. She’s not into most things that A usual female would be into. There’s a special kind of vibe You feel when you are around Someone you like. Can’t say that I love her, Because truly I don’t know What love really is. She has a smile like a sunflower, A body to me that’s unexplainable. When we talk, we see eye to eye, We talk to each other like We know each other. Most things I try, She doesn’t accept. I don’t see her just as an object, I see her as a female that I want To be in my life, Will she feel the same way?
Where I’m from Things are always happening. Most are bad, Everywhere you go You have few to do Good things. I’m tired of being In the system. I done missed a lot of things Because of the things. I heard that too many people Live in their feelings, When you should live In your actions. That person was right, But they were wrong, It depends on how You live in your actions. I was living in my actions And my feelings. I was showing all the wrong ways, To live and try to make money The wrong way. If you want to live in your actions, Live the right way, With a positive mindset
And that’s what I plan to do.
Why do we do the things we do? Most of the things I do are sometimes wrong. I smoke weed because I wanted to be down. I drink because I wanted to be down. I didn’t go to school because I thought It would make me see like a clown to be smart. I stole card cause I thought it was cool And wouldn’t get me hurt. I realize I’m hurting my people, The same people with my same color Of my skin. What did these people do to me? The answer is nothing at all. Later in my life Karma will come back to get me For the wrong doings I committed. I’m on 15 years old and talk Like I have an old soul, Maybe I do. Why do we do the things we do? Because most of the time We think before acting And that was my downfall. Doing right from now on, Will be my rise of being a man.
Life is like a big dream. You think about all the things you could have. When shit goes wrong you wish things could go away. Don’t know what to do, don’t know what to say. You hide your feelings by acting happy, When you are not. Today I wish things could go away. I thought life was a dream. I knew it was real When I felt the pain.
Not blaming others for the things you are scared of speaking. Not blaming others for not stopping you. Blame yourself, People helped you, People tried to stop you. I wasn’t a real man at first, And still, I’m not. I’m in the making of a man, I’m a young black Who learns from mistakes I have done. A man does not go along with Something that’s not worth your freedom. A man speaks for himself, Makes his own choices. Not blaming others is what you can do. It’s only one person to blame— You do the math!!!
Life is a big stage. You paly your part. You gotta stay in your own lane. At any given moment, Things can go wrong, People will try your hand to see Where your head is. On this stage I’m in a world Of trouble. I did what I did, So I have to take my loss. Life is a big stage, Don’t get trapped in a cage.
Selling drugs is easy. Becoming something is what people say is hard. We can all be something, If we put our mind to it, we can do it. Can’t means you won’t do it. Me, I’m going to make something positive Out of my life. What will you make out of yours?
Niggas ain’t real. Niggas are only real to the white man. Bitches ain’t real, Only to the white man. Blacks don’t exist to the white man. I’m black and happy to be it, I love everything about my color and race. I love the black women, Anything good about my people, I love it.
Women, Women today are not what I expected. I don’t see a female just as an object, I see another human, That should be treated with respect. Our young black brothers today don’t have respect for females. I used to be the same way. You treat a female how you want your mother treated. If you show disrespect you are a fool, Some women don’t have respect for themselves as well, But that is because a boy that thinks he’s a man Has taken advantage of her. Now she expects you to do the same to her, No you help her. Reflect her spirit. Sometimes it’s hard for a man to push away his needs, But it’s easy to make a baby and run away. This is why I watch the females I have sex with. I don’t mess with females who give themselves away too easily. I don’t like sex. I like passionate sex with a female. Not just to feel good, to feel something, to feel what is unexplainable.
Men are mainly thirsty for women, Thinking with their needs, Hurting their own kind of people. Women are the same, Not all men and women are the same. Women use men for money. But where does it start from? Men, help your people And life, not push down.
The poor, no money and no help. Nothing in this world is free, Someway, somehow we are gonna have to pay. Always got to work for your own. Cause don’t shit come when you sit on your ass. Everything has an ending, The poor, no money and no help Gotta go get it. Don’t get caught At the ending.
I’m From the street where shit ain’t safe. I’m From the hood where it’s never good. Born with no mother or father. In this life it’s always going to be a cold world. You gotta make it warm for yourself. Always can’t be what you want. Can’t always be a lover, fighter, giver, boss, thug, trustworthy. Things can go wrong at any given moment. This is where I’m from, Where are you from?
Roll the dice, rob or kill. Beef or get money, be fake or real. Everybody claims they are real Because of their experiences. It doesn’t mean anything. Being in the field or stay on the porch. Always have to watch people Because the streets are hot Like a torch. In this life there are only Four types of animals in the field – Dogs, which don’t give two fucks. Rats, who bitch out because they can’t handle their shit. Snakes, the ones who ain’t loyal. Lions, the ones who make it to be a king.
Night and day, We waste by doing nothing. Always trying to have fun Until things get tough. We ask for help, 9 times out of 10 Help is never given. We wonder what to do, Will god just help me next time? What’s next?
Loyal, Everybody ain’t loyal. When you stand tall, People try to make you fall. People that try to make you fall, Are the crabs. While you climb to the top These crabs grab and pull To bring you back to the bottom. Loyal, Loyal is when somebody helps you do right, Tells you what’s wrong, Lifts you when you’re down. That’s loyal.
What would the world be without women? The loving, caring women we have in the world. What would the world be without men? The tough love, hard working, we have to do and take. What would I become without education? A no life, another black man, already the whites see me as that. We always can change. But you can’t change your future, Unless you do something about it.