Age 54
Heating Engineer
In the kitchen doorway
In the garage with her changing expeditions
When it happened - it was early for me - I didn’t know what was happening. I was confused. I didn’t like the person I was, I got bitchy, paranoid, I thought I’d got over that years ago. I lost friends - I had low tolerance and looked too deep into things, analysed things too much and then found a way to be pissed off with them. Being single, fear of losing youth. Finding that the time is now
Feel the fear and do it anyway. Not “making do” or “settling” for aspects of your life that you have done ie. previous marriage.There’s a whole world out there that needs to be conquered. Taking HRT has balanced my anxieties and fear and I’ve found re birth, strength; hence first degree that used to scare me and make me feel inadequate, and now I’m doing one.
Also, I’m really funny now. I used to be funny, but I’m super funny now. When things go through my mind I used to feel anxious but now I think “fuck it”. Inspired to be my creative self that’s always been there with the mediums I love.
Alison Butterworth