Issue 03
Coolit Silvie Schlein
This one is going to be about how things move from very fast to very still. This one is going to be about how surprising that realization is, and how Coolit wanted all of her thoughts to be beautiful. Coolit was big but she seemed small. She knew that she was big, and she wished that she seemed big. She wanted to be seen so bad it hurt, but even when people saw her it wasn’t enough. She saw an old man (old because that’s how he seemed to her) eating a bagel in a pink hat one day. This was a big moment for Coolit because, in that moment, that man was very beautiful and big to her. She wasn’t sure if he felt big or beautiful, but she could see that he was. After that, Coolit would walk around and stare at things very closely and make them big. If Coolit walks by you, this is what it feels like: it feels like that shrinking is gone. It feels like that wall you were just staring at is full of soft speckles and shadows. It feels like “holy shit, did you see that? That makes me think about how I felt when I jumped into cold water last summer, that makes me think about how I felt when I realized that I was making things all the time.” But also it feels like “I am doing so much while I do nothing, if I stand really still can I watch things change?” and “I saw a shooting star and you missed it, I wish you had seen, I wish I could share that with you.”
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