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Dur i ng t he f i r s tf ew t r i psmy i mmune s ys t em woul dl eavemebedr i ddenf ordaysatat i me. Layi ngi nt hef et alpos i t i on,r unni nghi ghf ever s wi t honl yovert hec ount ermedi c i net oc ount er t he unknown ger ms t hat had c aus ed t he s i c knes s .Ir emembers hi t t i ng my pant s whi l e r unni ngt ot heout hous eonet i me.Mydad' ss i de oft hef ami l yl i vedi nt hec ount r y.I twasbeaut i f ul butt he out hous e wasa di s gus t i ng s hac k.The t oi l etwasac onc r et ebenc hwi t hahol eoni t .The l oudhummi ngofi ns ec t smadeever yt r i pt ot he bat hr oom ner vewr ec ki ngbec aus edur i ngt heday yous aw t hatal loft hef ec almat t erwaspi l edup about 5 f eet bel ow your dangl i ng bum. Ni ght mar i s ht hought swoul dber unni ngt hr ough myheadatal lt i mess oi twasi nevi t abl et hatmy t er r orwoul dr es ul ti nanepi cpants hi t t i ng. / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / / /
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He ra n dIp l a y e dt o g e t h e ra sc h i l d r e n . Ki d sg l o wi n gwi t hs i l v e rt o n e sa l o n gs i d ee mb a r r a s s me n t . He rc o n t r a s ts e n tt r e mo r su pmyo wn . Na u s e o u s l yIs a ti nt h ec o r n e r . Du et o h e a v yp a r a n o i a , a n dr a p i db r e a t h i n gs h ef o u n dme . Hi d i n gd e e pi nah e a po fb a t t e r e d s h o e swa sI . Co mb e dh a i r , a n dat u c k e ds h i r t . I n n o c e n c ewa st a k i n gah u g eb i t eo u to f o r d i n a r y . Do l i c ewa sh e rn a me , a n ds h ewa sa sa l i v ea sa n ya ma t e u rc u r r e n t . As i n i s t e rb u z z i n g f o r me dab a r r i e rb e t we e nh e r , a n dI . T o r t u r e dy e l l o ws t r a n d sl e a k e df r o mh e rh e a d , f u e l i n g myi n f a t u a t i o n . T h a tb l o n d eh a i rc h o k e dme . An e e n y a l s oy o u n g , b u ta wa r eo fa l l x e n y a l i n t e n t i o n . T h ex a n t h i a ns k yb e g a nt of l o o dwi t hv i b r a n tl a v al i k ear e dc o l o r e dma t t e rc o n s u mi n g ab l u es u b s t a n c e , u n f o r t u n a t e l y , c r e a t i n gac o l dp u r p l eb l a n k e tc o v e r i n go u ra l mi g h t ye x t e r n a l e n e r g y . Ad n a l af o u n dx o l f u l n e c e s s i t yi nab u s yp a t t e r n . He rmo t h e rf o c u s e dmu c ho nf u n d a me n t a l e x p e r i e n c e . F o rh e rd a u g h t e rs h es u b s c r i b e dd e t a i l e df o l l ya b o u tg u a r a n t e e d s t r u c t u r ei no n e sc h i l d . T h i swa sax u n a n i a nb u r d e n . T h ex e n k i t h swe r eac h a l l e n g i n g t a s kwi t h i nac o n t r a c t o r ’ sp o i n to fv i e w. An dt h e nt h e r ewa sCa l ma n . F i v ef e e t , e l e v e ni n c h e sc l o s e rt ot h es k yt h a nt h ep a v e me n th ewa l k si np r o n e . Ab o r e df e l l o wh ewa s . S i t t i n gd a y si n s i d eo fab o xt h es i z eo f i n f i n i t y , h ewo u l dy a wna tt h el a c ko fi n n o v a t i o ni nh i sr o u t i n e . Re p e t i t i o n . Dr . Oe r n z b r a u g hwa sh i s“ me n t o r ”f o ry e a r su n t i l o n ed a yh ed r o p p e dt ot h ef l o o rd u e t o“ my s t e r i o u sr e a s o n . ”F r o mt h emo me n to fd e a t ht ot h ec u r r e n t , Ca l ma nh a sb e e no n as l o wd e c e n ti n t ot h ei n t e n s e , u l t i ma t eg r i p p i n go fr e a l i t yt h r o u g ht h ec o mp r e h e n s i o no f a ni n f a n t . Ca l ma nwa sa b o u tt ob e c o mee i g h t e e ny e a r so fa g e , b u tu n d e rt h ec o n t r o l o f Dr . Oe r n z b r a u g h ’ swo r dh ewa sb u tap r o g r a mo fa d o l e s c e n c e . Ca l ma n . . . Ca l ma nDe n t r a l gwa sr e l e a s e df r o mt h eHe n s o nI n s t i t u t ed u r i n gt h eXa n t h i a n s u mme ro f’ 47. S omu c hh ee a r n e dt h r o u g ha u d i o . Ca s s e t t e , a n dv o c a l r e a l i s m. Amo n g h i sp e e r sh et h r i v e di nme n t a l c o r r u p t i o n . Ap r i mec a n d i d a t ef o rc o n t r o l . Ap o s t e rc h i l d f o rd i l u t e dc o n v i c t i o n . Ax o l u n d e rt h ei n s i d i o u si n f l u e n c eo fad r o o l i n gd e mo n . On ed a ya l l o ft h es u d d e nag i a n tc i n d e rb l o c kh u r l sa c r o s st h eg y mn a s i u m. Ke i t h He n d e r s h a ws t a n d swi t h i nt h ed i r e c td e s t i n a t i o no ft h e“ s p e c i f i c ”o b j e c t . Br o k e no f fo f t h es l a b . Bo t hc a l mi no p p o s i t i o n . Ke i t h , a n dt h es h a p ewe r et woe n t i t i e so n l yt ob ea s i n g l ep i e c ea mo n ga l l c o n c r e t eo r i g i n . Bo t hc h a r a c t e r swe r eax u n a np u z z l e , a n dal i f e l e s sT e t r i s . Ho p eo v e r t h r o wsa l l d e s p e r a t eg o a l i na na b s e n th e a d . Ke i t hHe n d e r s h a wl a i du n c o n c i o u s . On ewi t ht h ef l o o r .
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