QUIZ&quill OTTERBEIN UNIVERSITY’S STUDENT LITERARY MAGAZINE | VOL. 93 | SPRING MAGAZINE 2012
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OTTERBEIN UNIVERSITY’S STUDENT LITERARY MAGAZINE | VOL. 93 | SPRING MAGAZINE 2012
MANAGING EDITOR Tony DeGenaro PAGE DESIGNER Mike Cirelli COPY EDITOR Whitney Reed advertising COORDINATOR Jeff Kintner faculty advisor Dr. Shannon Lakanen Staff Mackenzie Boyer Emily Clark Kayla Forshey Meg Freado Alyssa Mazey Brittany Peltier Kathleen Agnes Quigley Jordy Lawrence Stewart
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table of contents 8 16 38 52 72
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nonfiction
The Zen of Fortune Cookies – Tony DeGenaro On the Southern Accent – Vian Yohn Heart of Atlas – Emily Swank Uncovering My Dad’s Secret Past – Mike Cirelli Wordless – Tony DeGenaro
fiction
That Burning Ring of Fire – Emily Swank Miss Austen – Jennifer Rish Soft Cell – Andrew Miller For Anita – Brittany Ivy Dorow Color – Jennifer Rish
poetry
Don’t Go Out! – Jordy Lawrence Stewart Dead Write – Alyssa Mazey Highway Prayer – Tony DeGenaro Choke – Meg Freado Chewing Water – Boris Hinderer About a Color. – Brittany Ivy Dorow The Full Moon’s Suicide – Meg Freado This Writer – Lindsey Rowland Oranges – Tony DeGenaro A Blue Jean Wax Poetic – Jordy Lawrence Stewart The Lighthouse, the Tree – Tony DeGenaro As the Clock Claps Its Hands – Vian Yohn
DRAMA
13 Monsters – Whitney Reed 78 The Kite – Brittany Ivy Dorow
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art
Spring Wonderland – Marisa Rence Yin and Yang – Brittany Ivy Dorow Bobcat – Katie Zaborszki Entrance to a Dream – Brittany Ivy Dorow Four in Charleston – Marisa Rence Heart – Katie Zaborszki City View – Marisa Rence Drawing with Skull – Hannah Farley Common Ground – Brittany Ivy Dorow
90 Author and Artist Bios
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Don’t Go Out!
JORDY LAWRENCE STEWART
SPRING WONDERLAND MARISA RENCE
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THE ZEN OF FORTUNE COOKIES TONY DEGENARO
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DEAD WRITE ALYSSA MAZEY
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HIGHWAY PRAYER TONY DEGENARO
YIN AND YANG
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THAT BURNING RING OF FIRE EMILY SWANK
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MONSTERS WHITNEY REED
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Haywood Killer
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Stops
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on the southern accent VIAN YOHN
I But when I hear a Southern accent, no matter how poorly rendered, my immediate reaction is to then think of home.
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only
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IT WASN’T EVEN UNTIL I LEFT HOME THAT I REALIZED THAT IT WAS, IN FACT, HOME.
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BOBCAT
KATIE ZABORSZKI 20 | QUIZ&quilL
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MISS AUSTEN JENNIFER RISH
M HE’D SAID HE COULDN’T HANDLE BEING WITH A ROMANCE NOVELIST. I TOLD HIM HE WAS PROBABLY RIGHT.
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HOW CAN A WOMAN DENY THE SEDUCER IN HER IMAGINATION, WHEN THERE IS NO MAN TO SHOW HER THE REALITY OF LOVE?
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CHOKE
MEG FREADO
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SOFT CELL ANDREW MILLER
M The good ones, they keep their heads down, they don’t point out the obvious, or question the ridiculous – I am not one of the good ones.
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In the cold darkness of my eight-by-eight cell, I await the next announcement from the PA, like Pavlov’s dog, expecting that this time, for once, I’ll hear something useful from that crackling, tinny voice.
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entrance to a dream BRITTANY IVY DOROW
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CHEWING WATER BORIS HINDERER
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HEART OF ATLAS EMILY SWANK
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ABOUT A COLOR. BRITTANY IVY DOROW
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FOUR IN CHARLESTON
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THE FULL MOON’S SUICIDE MEG FREADO
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THIS WRITER LINDSEY ROWLAND
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ORANGES
TONY DEGENARO
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FOR ANITA
BRITTANY IVY DOROW
A HIS APPETITE FOR FOOD WAS UNQUESTIONABLY LINKED TO HIS APPETITE FOR LIFE. HE USED TO CRAVE JUICY STEAK AND RICH WINE.
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SHE COULDN’T HELP THINKING THAT EVEN BEHIND THE WEAK SMILE WAS A HARDENED LAYER OF GLAZE, LIKE A CANDY APPLE COATING, OVER THE EYES THAT TRIED TO COMFORT HER.
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HEART
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UNCOVERING MY DAD’S SECRET PAST MIKE CIRELLI
C THE TOPIC HE PLANNED TO DISCUSS WAS, OF COURSE, NOT AS MUCH ABOUT ANGELS AND CROSSES AND LAST SUPPERS AS IT WAS ABOUT LOVE, BUT CINDY DIDN’T KNOW THAT.
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“Your life is in your control. It’s in your head and you’ve got to deal with it. Place and circumstance have nothing to do with it. It was a depressing realization.”
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A BLUE JEAN WAX POETIC JORDY LAWRENCE STEWART
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city view MARISA RENCE
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he was an ardent watcher, a lover of the secret paleontology of listening in on a conversation, often viewing the lives of others like a flickering slideshow of possibilities in his mind.
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“I KEEP PAINTING THEM,” EMMA SAID SOFTLY, “BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE ONE MORE WILL GET IT OUT OF ME.”
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that
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DRAWING WITH SKULL HANNAH FARLEY
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“Now,” she whispered, guiding his hand up to the canvas, the black leaking up their arms, over their shirts, Neil’s robe, staining the skin underneath black. “Show it who’s boss.”
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WORDLESS1
TONY DEGENARO
As in, when we talked, I said, “I don’t have anything to say.” I didn’t have anything to say when you asked me if I wanted “this to work.” Not to cleanse, to feel pathetic. I didn’t need to shower, there is no amount of grime that only THREE hours
nose, rolls over my lips; I will never kiss you again. Not that this should come as a surprise: how often do we think about showering when we are taking a shower? Do we ever really focus on the lathering of the soap, the slippery stuff on our arms, how when the good, but refuse to cut them out. Showers are a shitty place to escape. I do this all the time, bad day: shower-time. Because when problems overwhelm us, why not devote ourselves to an isolated, cell-like place where all we have to do is soap up and think?
there isn’t anything funny about someone telling you you’ve ruined her life. The end of the world, not birds, not snakes, not airplanes; a begging girl plucking my heartstrings like an indie band’s more punk-y tunes. I can’t believe it, I can’t believe it goes like this. “How can you do this to me?” You ask me that so many times. I don’t know what to say, I remain wordless. I can’t say anything when you ask if I ever wanted this to work, I can’t say anything when you ask if I ever loved you. out I settled to freeze in the cold water, and climbed out numb again. Surprise! It is ten when I leave the aquatic
shocked.
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“But sometimes these kinds of things don’t work out, it’s not anybody’s fault, you can’t blame yourself.” it hard to remind myself that the only reason we are here is because you left me, and I told you I’d give it a try.
failure. Things start to blend... Piling up, I need a release... You’re gone, but I’m still burning in the face... I cannot bear all of this, I’m too young... I should take a shower to clear my mind. I suspect it will take a long time.
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COMMON GROUND BRITTANY IVY DOROW
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THE LIGHTHOUSE, THE TREE TONY DEGENARO
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THE KITE
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AS THE CLOCK CLAPS ITS HANDS VIAN YOHN
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AUTHOR and ARTISTBIOS The 2012 spring mag includes work by the following Otterbein students. Listed in alphabetical order.
MIKE CIRELLI
UNCOVERING MY DAD’S SECRET PAST, 52
TONY DEGENARO THE ZEN OF FORTUNE COOKIES, 8 HIGHWAY PRAYER, 10 ORANGES, 44 WORDLESS, 72 THE LIGHTHOUSE, THE TREE, 76
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BRITTANY IVY DOROW’S
YIN AND YANG, 11 ENTRANCE TO A DREAM, 33 ABOUT A COLOR., 39 FOR ANITA, 46 COMMON GROUND, 74 THE KITE, 78
HANNAH FARLEY DRAWING WITH SKULL, 66
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BORIS HINDERER
CHEWING WATER, 34
ALYSSA MAZEY DEAD WRITE, 9
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ANDREW MILLER
SOFT CELL, 29
WHITNEY REED MONSTERS, 13
MARISA RENCE
A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP, COVER SPRING WONDERLAND, 6 FOUR IN CHARLESTON, 40 CITY VIEW, 60
JENNIFER RISH
MISS AUSTEN, 22 COLOR, 61
LINDSEY ROWLAND THIS WRITER, 43
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JORDY LAWRENCE STEWART DON’T GO OUT!, 7 A BLUE JEAN WAX POETIC, 58
EMILY SWANK
THAT BURNING RING OF FIRE, 12 HEART OF ATLAS, 38
VIAN YOHN
ON THE SOUTHERN ACCENT, 16 AS THE CLOCK CLAPS ITS HANDS, 88
KATIE ZABORSZKI BOBCAT, 21 HEART, 51
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WRITING AND ARTWORK BY: (IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER)
mike cirelli tony degenaro brittany IVY dorow hannah farley meg freado boris hinderer alyssa mazey andrew miller whitney reed marisa rence jennifer rish lindsey rowland jordy lawrence stewart emily swank vian yohn katie zaborszki ON THE COVER
A Close RelationshiP by Marisa Rence
A round of applause for Marisa Rence’s A Close Relationship, the firstplace winner of our campus-wide cover contest. Rence said her inspiration for the piece was her relationship with a very close friend. They were going through a rough patch at the time, and painting was a way for Rence to come to terms with it. She represented her own feelings and thoughts with yellow (her favorite color), his with red, and their relationship with the 96 | QUIZ quilL Rence has three other works in this magazine. colors in & between.