August 07, 2019 :: News + Culture by OUT FRONT Magazine

CO LO R A D O'S LG B TQ M AGA ZINE | F R E E

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CONTENTS AUGUST 7, 2019 VOL43 NO9

6 MARIPOSA IS AN LGBTQ SAFE HAVEN AT THE ALTHEA CENTER 8 WHY THE FEDERAL COURTS ARE STILL RELEVANT TO THE LGBTQ COMMUNITY 12 JOHN WALSH’S SENATE APPEAL: HOW A LEGAL NOTION SET FORWARD MOTION 15 THE QUEER HISTORY OF HOUSE MUSIC (PART I) 17 WEIGHING OUR OPTIONS: QUEER FAMILY PLANNING 21 DAN BAER WANTS TO RESTORE HOPE IN POLITICS 24 THE RESILIENT AND ELECTRIFYING OLIVIA NEWTON-JOHN 28 KATYA CONQUERS THE MILE HIGH CITY 30 NOW I'M HERE: QUEER LOVE IN SMALL TOWN OHIO 31 A LETTER TO CONSUMERS CELEBRATING PRIDE 34 HEINZESIGHT: IS LOVE STRONGER THAN FEAR? 38 AUGUST 2019 ASTROLOGY & HOROSCOPES 40 EXILE 7 FETISH BALL & LOKUSDOR PRODUCTIONS 42 DUELING WITH DEPRESSION: ANXIOUS ABOUT ANXIETY 43 WHO ARE THE DENVER CYCLE SLUTS?

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Mariposa is an LGBTQ Safe Haven at

the Althea Center By Rick Kitzman Photo provided by the Althea Center

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or thousands of years, religions damned, persecuted, and murdered LGBTQ people. In February, the United Methodist Church continued that exclusion, albeit less violently, when it voted to strengthen its official opposition to same-gender marriage and ordaining open LGBTQ clergy. No wonder the word “church” engenders abhorrent feelings within many of us.

As a kid raised in the Lutheran church, I learned I was an abomination. As a gay neophyte, that damning dogma didn’t stop me from exploring Denver’s dance clubs, most memorably The Apartment and The Broadway. My trip back to the college dorm in Greeley took me through Capitol Hill by a beautiful, neo-classical building with a curved colonnade and portico. Five decades later, as a gay expert, I learned it began as a church. However, today’s incarnation, the Althea Center for Engaged Spirituality, is definitely not a church. As its board president, I can guarantee that. Althea is exactly as its title implies: a place for anyone to explore their spirituality, their relationship to God, Nature, and Spirit. This inclusive heritage began in the 1880s. Three extraordinary sisters living in Pueblo, Colorado, Nona, Alethea, and Fannie Brooks, played decisive roles in founding New Thought ministry: Divine Science, a belief in Oneness, individual divinity, and unconditional love. In 1922, the sisters’ vision culminated in Capitol Hill’s landmark sanctuary at 14th Avenue and Williams Street. Nobody honors that history more than member Tim Wilson. Embracing the same beliefs, he launched Mariposa, “a program that creates a safe haven for LGBTQ individuals of all ages and their friends and allies, providing supportive environments for spiritual exploration and self-empowerment.” Walking his talk, for his 70th birthday party, Wilson solicited donations and netted over $11,000 given to LGBTQ charities. After college, 45 years ago, Wilson moved to Denver from Charleston, West Virginia and immediately embraced activism. Through his long-term relationship with an African American, he said, “I finally understood discrimination firsthand. This must be [his] daily life. It was the best teacher, the beginning of my activist life. I learned about white privilege and the power dynamics of interracial relationships.” Wilson became involved with San Francisco-based Black and White Men Together, starting Denver’s local chapter (currently inactive), and later serving as national co-chair. He has been active in AIDS causes and PFLAG. He was on Mayor Webb’s initial Gay/Lesbian Advisory Committee whose members spearheaded the Colorado Legal Initiative Project to overturn Colorado’s anti-LGBTQ Amendment 2.

Last year’s events included screening Raising Zoey, a documentary film that puts a Latina face on the struggles of a mother supporting her trans child, and a discussion with James E. Laws, Jr., author of Wilmington Manor, a novel of historical fiction about a gay, interracial relationship during the Civil War. Panels covered a wide range of topics: Lesbian Live –Womyn (sic) for All Seasons; Bisexuals Beloved; Transgender Terrific; Two Spirits–a Native American embrace of multiple genders.

2019 is proving to be just as dynamic: Diversity Dialogues: monthly, first Wednesday panel and discussion beginning with a view of Before Stonewall (August 7), the documentary film and follow-up to spring’s After Stonewall.

Randy Rainbow: September theater outing at the Paramount Theater. (Past shows have included The Boys in the Band, Boston Marriage, Gross Indecency: The Three Trials of Oscar Wilde.)

LGBTQ History Month: October, panel and discussion LGBTQ Military: November, celebration of active members of the military and veterans

Grief Workshop: in development and not LGBTQ-specific But Althea is more than Mariposa. It’s a community embracing all teachings, welcoming everyone. Volunteers keep the place running with their love, time, talents, and tithes. At any Sunday service, you may hear jazz, Bach, country twang, native Indian chanting, or the bangles of dancers from India. The congregation has sung Rocky Mountain High, Hey Jude, Dancing Queen (no un-singable, lugubrious Lutheran dirges). Courtney Leduc leads the children’s group with her boundless energy, creativity, and love for kids, organizing Althea’s first summer camp. After service, the dining room is a din of chatter sparked by its $8 lunchtime smorgasbord prepared by Chef Tom. Weekly, Althea offers classes and events—from yoga to spiritual psychology, musical improv to chanting—all furthering spiritual exploration and drawing on worldwide mystical wisdom. Monthly, the dining room becomes a shelter for the Women’s Homeless Initiative.

“Serving my community that is under attack is my life’s purpose, why I’m on earth,” said Wilson. “So many people have been wounded by their church. The Althea Center is the perfect place to set up my work, and has been incredibly loving and supportive.”

Althea’s spiritual director, Dr. Jonathan Ellerby, delivers heartfelt messages with compassion and a sense of humor. He draws upon vast experience: his teenage quest for purpose, Jewish upbringing, work in healthcare and the business world, his deep connection to a Lakota tribe, a doctoral degree in Comparative Religion. Dr. Jonathan and Tim led the way for Althea’s second participation in this year’s PrideFest parade.

Wilson began Mariposa (Spanish for butterfly) by conducting a poll asking Althea’s attendees their interests regarding the LGBTQ community. The majority response was getting to know those members and their culture better. Mariposa spread its wings and flew.

We chart our own spiritual journey. If you seek a loving, joyful, inclusive community, a deeper connection to the mysteries of life, check out The Althea Center (altheacenter.org). Sunday service begins at a civilized 10:30 a.m. Remember, it’s not a church. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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Why the

Federal Courts are Still Relevant to the LGBTQ Community By Ruben Gallardo

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ome may think that marriage equality was the end of the queer struggle, but that’s far from true. There are plenty more reasons to have your eyes on the federal courts.

as of May 2019, Trump has outpaced all of his three most recent predecessors. In comparison, 22 were appointed by Clinton, 24 by Bush, and 19 by Obama.)

The judicial branch was intended to be composed of judicial arbiters to ensure that everyone had their case weighed on their merits and nothing else, according to Kylee Reynolds, a Legal Fellow for Lambda Legal, a nonprofit legal organization focused on achieving full recognition of the civil rights of LGBTQ people. However, in just two years, Donald Trump has appointed several judges to the federal judiciary with a demonstrated history of anti-LGBTQ bias.

The significance of the Circuit Courts of Appeals lies in the number of filings received in comparison to the Supreme Court. For instance, in the 2018 term, the Circuit Courts received 49,363 filings. The Supreme Court, in comparison, receives approximately 7,000 to 8,000 filings and only grants a review with oral arguments to 80 of those cases.

The concern over appointing individuals with controversial records on civil rights is that people will not get their fair day in court, Reynolds said. For LGBTQ people, the courts continue to be the final battleground to seek protections due to the absence of nondiscrimination statutes on the basis of sexual orientation and gender identity at the federal level and in most states. Despite the legalization of same-gender marriage, there is substantial evidence of discrimination in education, employment, housing, public accommodations, and credit on the basis of sexual orientation and gender identity in the U.S., according to the Executive Director of the Williams Institute and UCLA law school professor Jocelyn Samuels. “It is an incorrect narrative that discrimination against LGBT people ended when the Supreme Court legalized same-sex marriage,” Samuels said. “There is unfortunately still a persistent pattern of adverse treatment of LGBT people on the basis of their sexual orientation and/or gender identity.” According to Executive Director of the National LGBT Bar Association D’Arcy Kemnitz, a judicial branch representative of the population is critical to ensure that people from all backgrounds are treated equally, without prejudice or bias, and to further public trust in the justice system. As of May 2019, The Senate has confirmed 112 of Trump’s nominees to the Article III courts, which includes the Supreme Court, 94 U.S. District Courts, 12 U.S. Courts of Appeals (Circuit Courts), and the U.S. Court of International Trade. By contrast, Obama appointed 86 Article III judges, George W. Bush appointed 127, and Bill Clinton appointed 145.

A significant portion of the work conducted by the Fair Courts Project at Lambda Legal includes researching and vetting judicial nominees’ backgrounds to ensure that these individuals, who will potentially sit on the courts, administer justice fairly to all people, according to Reynolds. “The Fair Courts Project, broadly, does more than just federal judicial nominations work,” Reynolds said. “But, since the Trump administration has been taking on the courts in such a rigorous fashion, covering these changes has been most of my job.” According to Lambda Legal’s research, one in three of Trump’s Circuit Court nominees have a demonstrated history of antiLGBT bias. The confirmed nominees to the Circuit Courts with a documented record of anti-LGBTQ bias include Stephanos Bibas, David Porter, Allison Jones Rushing, Kyle Duncan, James Ho, Don Willett, John K. Bush, Joan Louise Larsen, Eric Murphy, Chad Readler, Amy C. Barrett, Michael Brennan, Steven Grasz, David Stras, and Allison Eid. Kemnitz explained that justice demands that judges follow legal precedent regarding civil rights, criminal justice, employment, and every other area of the law. However, she added, many of the judges appointed by Trump outright reject settled legal precedent concerning critical issues such as abortion and same-gender marriage. “There is a very real risk that these conservative, activist judges will disregard precedent and substitute their own opinions for the law, resulting in a patchwork of judicial interpretations of formerly-settled law,” Kemnitz wrote.

Seventy-five percent of Trump’s confirmed nominees to the circuit and district courts were male, and 90 percent were white, as of April 2019.

Press Secretary of Lambda Legal’s Washington D.C. office Ian Wilhite said that organizations like the Federalist Society often handpick the Trump administration’s judicial nominees based on an ideological litmus test for the type of views they will uphold and the rights that they will protect as judges.

Reynolds noted that the Senate has the power to decide on which individuals will be put on the federal bench through the confirmation process; therefore, people have the power to advocate for a more representative judicial branch by voicing their opinions to their home state senators.

According to Lambda Legal’s report, about 85 percent of Trump’s judicial nominees are also current or former members of the Federalist Society, a conservative and libertarian society of legal professionals seeking to reform the legal system with originalist interpretations of the U.S. Constitution.

“For far too long, all branches of the governments have been made up of white, straight, cis-gender, able-bodied, older men,” Reynolds said. “The country itself doesn’t look like that. In other words, the government should look like the people.”

“We’ve seen throughout the Trump era that judicial nominees are more than likely going to have views that are opposed to marriage equality, employment discrimination, and protections for LGBT people,” Wilhite said.

A notable aspect of Trump’s appointments lies in the number of individuals whom his administration has successfully appointed to the Circuit Courts. With 41 individuals appointed

Now more than ever, it is important to pay attention to the current judicial climate in order to see how queer rights are being protected and sometimes potentially violated. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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John Walshâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s Senate Appeal How a Legal Notion Set Forward Motion By Veronica L. Holyfield Photo provided by John Walsh

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s a practicing attorney, and even serving as United States Attorney for Colorado during the Obama administration, John Walsh has actively spent time focusing on the advancement and protection of civil rights for the LGBTQ and other marginalized communities. Growing up in Colorado since the age of 12, his roots have planted in the soils of the progressive Rocky Mountain state, and he, alongside the rest of the country, has watched as the nation has fallen under a leadership that is now challenging everything he has worked for. Walsh is now aiming for republican Cory Gardnerâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s seat as Colorado senator, and because of his experience in advocacy and law, he believes he is fully equipped to do it. While he joined the race only four months ago, Walsh has quickly ascended to become one of the top democratic candidates in both support and fundraising, in a pool of nine hopefuls.

Was there a defining moment that made you decide to enter the race in April? Well, there's so many. Right now, with this administration, the steps of this president have undermined the way our constitutional system works and prevented this country from being the best United States of America it can be. That really led me to the notion that I have something to bring to this and an experience level and commitment that I felt compelled to.

How does your experience as U.S. attorney make you a good fit for senator? Having that experience of not just campaigning all around the state but actually working with Coloradans and getting things done is something I'm proud of, and I think is very relevant experience for a senator. I had to take the issues that are facing Colorado back to Washington to fight on behalf of people in the state within the administration, so I have a lot of experience dealing with the federal government. That expertise of how to represent Colorado in the very complicated machinery of the federal government, that's something that no other candidate in this race has got and puts me in a position to do the best job possible for the state.

my career. I feel very strongly that we have it within our power to move this country to a new, even better place for the LGBT community.

Under the current administration where the LGBTQ community is under attack, how do you plan on being a voice to advocate for them? I've spent a whole lifetime doing that as a lawyer, and that's exactly how I would be as a U.S. senator. I was very proud to represent the Denver Metro Chamber and One Colorado in filing an advocacy brief supporting the Colorado Civil Rights Commission in the Masterpiece Cakeshop case before the Supreme Court. One of the things that this administration is after in particular is the rights of transgender persons and the efforts to roll back so many regulations and protections that the Obama administration advanced. These are things that we have to keep our eye on. As senator, I will be very focused on this. I have a transgender nephew, actually, so it's not it's not something that's all that far from home.

What would you say to you encourage people to remain optimistic in politics and the role of government? Well, the thing that I always remember is that the United States has had, over the course of its history, moments like this in which things seemed dark and difficult, and in those moments have come some of the greatest examples of courage and determination to move the country forward. Whether it's Martin Luther King, Abraham Lincoln, or any number of real American heroes who have fought so hard for a basis to galvanize people to make this country a better place. I think we're in one of those models; it's a moment of great challenge, but it's also truly a moment in which times call us all to do our best and what we can to help other people.

Why have you made it a point to specifically connect with the queer community as you are on the campaign trail? I was U.S. Attorney during the Aurora Theater shooting and the Planned Parenthood shooting here in Colorado, and I had developed a reputation for, unfortunately and tragically, being someone that people reached out to. Itâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s because of this experience that when the horrific Pulse Nightclub shooting occurred, I made a point to reach out to the LGBT community to reaffirm law enforcement commitments in protecting them. The LGBT community is one that matters to me a great deal, and that is reflected not just in what I'm doing as I campaign but what I've done over the course of OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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Norah Jones

The nine-time Grammy Award winner lit up the rocks of Morrison at her sold-out performance on Tuesday, July 16. Playing songs off her new record, Begin Again, as well as some of her beloved hits, the crowd at Red Rocks Amphitheatre was romanced by the bluesy, R&B songstress underneath a gloriously full moon.

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The Queer History of House Music (Part I) By Padideh Aghanoury

any people who call themselves EDM enthusiasts today fail to recognize the roots of house music and its distinct connection to the LGBTQ community and the communities of color that created dance music as we know it today. Some have even failed to recognize that the foundation of almost all genres of current electronic music today is house music. Certain folks seem to think that house, techno, dubstep, drum ‘n’ bass, electro, and the many other sub-genres spawning from the universal need to dance were created by white, European men in the early-to-mid 2000s, which couldn’t be further from the truth. As a matter of fact, house music has a long and sprawling history that began at the end of the 70s in Chicago. The nightclub The Warehouse first opened its doors in 1977 in Chicago. It initially operated as a members-only club almost exclusively frequented by black and Latino gay men. At the time, gay bars and clubs were the only safe spaces for queer folk, especially considering the constant barrage of police raids, often without warrants, that terrorized Chicago’s gay community.

and Euro-disco. Knuckles would use a reel-to-reel tape to create loops of his favorite disco tracks, editing them to last a little longer. Around 1983, Frankie Knuckles got his hands on his very own drum machine. The combination of bare, insistent drum machine pulses and an overlay of cult disco classics defined the sound of early Chicago house music. Though the name “house” derived from an abbreviation of the Warehouse, the club became inundated with whiter and straighter patrons, prompting Knuckles to leave and open his own club, Power Plant. Ron Hardy took over as the resident DJ of the club, which had been renamed the Music Box. House fused the symphonic sweep and soul diva vocals of 70s disco with the cold futurism of synthesizer-driven Euro-disco. A response to the anti-disco sentiment in the rock world at the end of the 70s, an attitude directly rooted in anti-blackness, house music became a protest against the forces attempting to chip away at the right to exist for queer, and black, bodies.

The first official city ordinance that even acknowledged sexual orientation as a protected class, The Human Rights Ordinance—which prohibited discrimination against any person because of “race, color, sex, age religion, disability, national origin, ancestry, sexual orientation, marital status, parental status, military discharge status or source of income,”—passed in 1988. This meant that the 70s and most of the 80s forced queer people in Chicago underground.

Symphonic elements of disco melted away, gradually replaced with synthesizers and drum machines, slowly gaining traction in a city where machination dominated: Detroit. Mixing Kraftwerk with David Bowie, Italo-disco, and funk, prominent artists from Detroit such as Juan Atkins began injecting post-industrialist elements and science fiction imagery into the dance music they created. According to Atkins, house music served as an evolutionary step from disco, and he and his fellow producers took on the task of progressing house music into early techno and electro.

The sounds at The Warehouse first and foremost focused on R ‘n’ B and disco under the musical direction of Francis Warren Nicholls, Jr., aka Frankie Knuckles. His style at the time was a mixture of disco classics, unusual indielabel soul, the occasional rock track,

Affluence played heavily into the evolution from house to techno. While Chicago’s underground club scene catered to marginalized communities, the club scene created by techno in Detroit was a way for suburban blacks in Detroit to distance themselves from “jits,” or

“jitterbugs,” slang for lower-class African Americans living in the inner-city. Clubs named Plush, Charivari, and GQ Productions reflected European fashion and luxury, a signifier for high class and extravagant wealth. Afrofuturist philosophies influenced early techno through the re-purposing of technology to create a new form of music that appealed to a marginalized underground population. Especially within the context of Detroit, where the rise of robotics led to a massive loss of jobs, technology at the time was very relevant.

House and techno continued to rise in popularity in the mid- to late 80s, slowly penetrating the U.K. pop charts in the second half of the 80s. In January 1987, Chicago DJ and artist Steve “Silk” Hurley’s “Jack Your Body” reached number one in the U.K., showing it was possible for house music to achieve crossover success in the mainstream. As house music spread to cities across the U.S. and Europe, each region developed its own, distinct flavor of the genre. At the tail-end of the 80s, Chicago producers injected deeper bass lines, which, combined with the squelching sequencer of the Roland TB-303 synthesizer, created a distinct “acid house” sound. U.K. producers took this early acid sound and ran with it. Raves in England began cropping up despite its illegality, and with those raves came newer, faster styles filled with breakbeats, early drum ‘n’ bass, and early dubstep—which was a portmanteau of the slower, two-stepping deep beats known as 2-step overlaid with samples borrowed from dub reggae. House music spread around the globe and inspired a movement of dancing, acceptance, and freedom, but it all started with the queer people of color who founded the genre, dancing their hearts out in a grimy Chicago club. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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Weighing Our Options Queer Family Planning By Veronica L. Holyfield

hen folks decide they are ready to expand their families, there are some key issues to consider. From balancing finances to job flexibility and time off, even current home and neighborhood situations, a lot must be weighed before an individual or couple are ready to add children into the fold. Yet, for queer families, the list of things to examine grows significantly, and starts in places that many hetero-normative families may never even have to consider. In order to grow a family genetically, queer folks often begin at a natural deficit and are thrust into a world of navigating through technology and medicine, and the options can feel overwhelming. However, places like CCRM Fertility and IVF clinic specialize in helping LGBTQ families maneuver through the uncertain seas of possibilities. CCRM is a network of scientists and doctors who specialize in the realm of intrauterine insemination (IUI), in vitro fertilization (IVF), and other reproductive technologies. With three locations in Colorado and 11 across the nation, CCRM’s mission is to help families experience the joy of having children. When it comes to working with LGBTQ folks, CCRM is committed to being a leader in inclusive fertility healthcare. “All of our employees are undergoing training to really understand the unique journey and situation about LGBTQ individuals and couples, so that we can provide them the support that they need as they're building they’re families,” said Jordan Peel, CCRM’s PR and content manager. “Building a family is emotional and difficult anyway, and it's just another layer; it’s our goal to make the process as easy as possible.” The first step for people is overcoming the large learning curve when it comes to the process of how reproductive science actually works. Alongside education in what options are available for same-gender and transgender couples, deciding what direction is best suited for each unique family is a journey in itself. For gay, cisgender men, the first consideration is actually two-fold. The choice of an egg donor, in addition to a gestational carrier, are equally necessary in getting started. For lesbian couples, the decision of whose egg to use, if either, must be decided as well as who in the couple is the best choice to carry, if either. For couples who have a trans-identifying person, all of those options may be available or completely unavailable, which is identified within the first few rounds of consultations and appointments. Terms like embryo, sperm washing, and insemination can be thrown around and feel rather intimidating to discuss with a total stranger, especially for those who identify as LGBTQ. Most queer people can attest to having faced some kind of discrimination or uncomfortability around healthcare providers; however, CCRM

encourages LGBTQ couples to ask questions and discuss these things without fear of judgement or prejudice. Right here in Colorado, Family Equality has partnered with One Colorado in compiling an LGBTQ Family Law Guide, a resource providing detailed information on the current status of queer family’s rights throughout the state. From relationship recognition to children and parentage laws, as well as non-discrimination protections and recommended legal documents for same-gender couples, there are a lot of protections that currently exist to ensure LGBTQ families are treated fairly and equally. When it comes to family building, the Family Equity website is full of information and resources that help queer folks prepare for a lot of what their options are and what they can expect if pursuing in vitro fertilization, surrogate pregnancy, and other reproductive medicine routes. For CCRM, investing in reproductive medicine through new, proprietary technologies and scientific techniques has resulted in more than 50,000 babies being born through their fertility options. Additionally, they have a 97 percent satisfaction rate among their patients, and they have a faster success rate at 1.2 IVF cycles to get pregnant versus the national clinic average at 1.6 cycles. For couples like Mark and Tony Delisa-Ludwig, the biological option was the route they wanted to take in starting their own familybuilding journey. Tony entered their relationship with a child OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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from a previous relationship, and Mark felt that he wanted to have a biological child as well. After watching an episode of Bill and Guiliana on E! which featured the couple navigating the world of IVF, the Delisa-Ludwig’s discovered CCRM and wondered if there could be an option for them there. After meeting with CCRM, they began to take steps toward getting ready for their new family. However, Mark encountered roadblocks right off the bat due to being a person in a same-sex marriage. Not only did he go through the process of ensuring his sperm was viable, since he’s a gay man, the FDA required it to be placed on a sixmonth holding period. “It’s kind of a let down; it’s not CCRM’s fault, but right away we felt discriminated against,” Mark explained. Once the Delisa-Ludwig’s were given the go ahead on Mark’s sperm, the couple then began the process of choosing an egg donor and a gestational surrogate. “It’s kind of an overwhelming process just picking an egg donor, because there’s tons of other couples that come to CCRM for the same purpose,” said Tony. “It was like new donors were released on one day, and they were taken up right away; it was insane.” Simultaneously, the couple hired a company named ConceiveAbilities to find a gestational carrier for them. Mark and Tony requested someone in-state so they could be a part of the pregnancy and attend doctor's appointments, so the process was now starting to take longer than they had originally anticipated. Now closing in on nearly two years since they originally sat with CCRM for the initial consultation, the gestational carrier that was found was located in Grand Junction.

“There is a cost factor, unfortunately. Expense plays into a lot of it when they're looking at this,” said CCRM physical liaison Kelly Stude. The cost of services can easily reach upwards of more than $100,000 and quickly prices people out of even considering IUI, IVF, and other options. “I think the biggest barrier is the lack of medical coverage through insurance,” said Dr. Bradford Kolb, MD of HRC Fertility in Pasadena, CA. A top reproductive and infertility expert, Dr. Kolb has received multiple awards and was named “Super Doctor” by Los Angeles Magazine for four consecutive years. As an active researcher and developer of cost-efficient fertility protocols, he has worked closely with the LGBTQ community in ensuring that patients not only receive fair treatment but the best options out there in creating families of their own. “There's ways to keep those costs down,” Dr. Kolb explained. He said folks can do so by using family members or friends as sperm donors and surrogates, as well as exploring considerations outside of biological options and the services that even his business offers. However, those also come with their own set of complications. “There's certainly other options that our gay patients have: adoption in certain states, co-parenting, and foster parenting,” he said. “Unfortunately, with the political landscape, that’s not going in a very positive direction for our patients right now.” For Dr. Kolb, working with his patients not only gives him a sense that his work is significant in the broader landscape, but working with the LGBTQ community gives his life a special meaning.

Though not ideal, through a combination of in-person meetings and Skype calls, the couple implanted embryos in November 2017 and welcomed their daughter to the family in July of 2018.

“I think I've got the greatest job in the world to be honest; it's really cool what I get to do,” he said. “Especially within the gay community of the LGBT community, many of our patients have never thought that they can have children. So I'm in a very special place in life where I get to help people realize these dreams come true. I almost get emotional thinking about it.”

While every situation is unique for couples, co-parents, and single parent households, when all are seeking family growth through means of these methods, there is always one common factor: expense. For Mark and Tony, it meant getting a second mortgage on their house to even be able to attempt to have their daughter.

Normalizing biology, that’s what Dr. Kolb said his practice does well. A body is a body; a couple is a couple, and every circumstance that walks in the door is unique regardless of gender expression or sexuality. CCRM’s Stude explained that while LGBTQ couples are unique, some of the challenges they face in getting pregnant

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fall within the same challenges as the general public. “The LGBTQ community also faces infertility, and so sometimes that comes as a surprise with family building,” said Stude. “They may need more advanced treatment.” According to the National Institute of Child Health and Human Development, about 9 percent of men and 11 percent of women of reproductive age experience fertility problems. Fortunately, and unfortunately, nature does not discriminate when it comes to these types of issues for all demographics. In fertility, age does matter, as those numbers continue to creep higher as folks with eggs and a uterus wait later in life to attempt to get pregnant or use their own biology. If creating a family feels like an uncertain endeavor or something that is far down the road of possibilities, CCRM encourages people to take measures now that can ensure success if and when the time feels right to pursue that. “We've had people in their late teens that have frozen sperm or eggs, and that’s a lot to think about, but we’re hoping there is more awareness around it,” Stude said. Thinking ahead in this way is also important for trans-identifying people who may not know where their transition journey will lead them. Taking steps before any hormonal additions or medical procedures that alter the body physically gives people more options later on. “As teenagers are thinking about the future of how they want to transition, they know that they can still have a family of their own. We have patients that have come in and frozen eggs and sperm and then have come back after transitioning and have built their families that way,” she said. For CCRM and people like Dr. Kolb who work in the field of family planning and fertility, and working with LGBTQ folks, it comes down to fulfilling a dream, and the lasting human connection makes the work worth it every single time. “It's special stories of patients that have had particularly difficult journeys, and when they do have success and find their way, it really draws you back in, how special it is, the things that we get to do,” said Dr. Kolb.

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Dan Baer

Wants to Restore Hope in Politics By Veronica L. Holyfield Photo provided by Dan Baer

s a young boy growing up in Littleton, Dan Baer thought the idea of a career in politics was not only far fetched, it was nearly impossible. At the age of 15, Baer saw the passage of Amendment Two and experienced the state of Colorado deemed “The Hate State.” As a gay man, politics was not a realm that seemed possible. However, in 2019, things look very different for Baer, the state of Colorado, and the condition of the nation. The married, queer politician has served the state as executive director of the Colorado Depatment of Higher Education during Governor Hickelooper’s term and was appointed U.S. Ambassador to the OSCE under the Obama administration. Now, Baer is taking on republican Cory Gardner as he hopes to remove the “Trump lackey” from his seat as Colorado Senator. From climate change to education, from LGBTQ issues to human rights issues, and even removing big money from politics, Baer has a plan for it all. His success at grassroots fundraising has people taking notice of this senate hopeful while his steadfast campaign and eagerness for change have granted him an LGBTQ Victory Fund endorsement. If he wins, Baer would become the first openly gay man elected for senate and only the third LGBTQ person to serve in the chamber. In a recent conversation with OUT FRONT, he shared his vision for Colorado, why he is challenging the current sitting senator, and how much being an openly gay man plays a role in his chances at the seat.

How was leading Colorado Springs Pride as the Grand Marshal? It was great! I would say that the part of running for office that my husband has been mostly into is marching in parades

[laughs]. As you probably know, the whole vetting process includes a lot of things that are grind work behind the scenes, but getting to be out there at a festival and getting to do it with Brian is super fun. On a personal level, I grew up in Littleton in the 90s, and the idea that I was going to be comfortably out and the Grand Marshal of the Pride parade in Colorado Springs sounded like a fairy tale.

You’ve said you didn’t see your career going in the direction of politics; what made you decide to get involved in this way? The fact that we've gone from Amendment Two to having an openly gay governor in less than 30 years is not an accident; it's a testament to the efforts of many, many people who fought to make change possible. I'm very conscious of the fact that I stand on the shoulders of lots of folks who believed in the possibility of deliberate progress through politics.

What is the biggest issue you see our community right now? When I look at the moment that we're living through, I think the biggest risks that we face as a community is if we give up on the idea that anything good can happen in government. What inspired me in the last year is that in 2018, we had an election where tens of millions of people around the country didn't give up, even though the president was attacking our institutions, even though Mitch McConnell’s cynicism was in full effect, they didn't give up. We voted, and we won. We flipped the house. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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How much does being an out, gay man impact your chances of being elected in 2019? I hope not at all, and I think the evidence would point to the fact that it isn't a meaningful hindrance. I hope that it does give me a sensibility when I’m elected, because I know what it's like to fear exclusion. I hope that I bring a sense of empathy that would allow me to be not just the leader on policy issues but somebody who's thoughtful about making sure that we're building a Colorado and America that protects the rights of all.

What are the biggest barriers you see that queer folks face, and how do you plan to address those? I think it's really important that we recognize within the LGBT community that, while we have had some significant victories and there has been enormous progress, progress has been neither comprehensive nor irreversible. We see that President Trump has reversed the policy of the Obama administration that allowed trans Americans to serve their country in the military, and we see the Trump administration has taken steps to limit the access of LGBTQ people to healthcare services. Progress doesn’t happen because we fight for it and we win; progress happens because we remain dedicated to making sure that we lock in the gains that we've made.

Right now, policies are being put into place around the country in regards to women’s reproductive rights. How do you plan on protecting Coloradans? It’s important that we eject Cory Gardner from office, because the senate is crucial for confirming federal judges and justices to the supreme court. The fact is that Cory Gardner promised Colorado that he was going to be a moderate, independent voice. He has not been that; he has been a lackey for President Trump, and the reason those laws are being passed is because of right-wing ideologies. So, it's really important that we have a senator who's committed to examining the records of judges

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What makes your vision of Colorado and national leadership different than your opponents running against Gardner? This is a moment where we see a strong demand for people who aren't career politicians and haven't spent their whole life running for office. That profile is winning for democrats right now, because people want a fresh face and have a deep, intuitive sense that what's going on in our country right now is really a crisis of values. I'm just different from the others, and I don't think that necessarily makes me a better human being, but I think it makes me a better candidate and a more likely candidate to defeat Cory Gardner in the moment that we're living in.

What have been some of your big takeaways from being on the campaign trail? Human rights sounds like a big, global concept, but the way that we experience it is in our own homes, in our own communities. Politics generally starts in the small places close to home, because that's where it really matters and where we judge whether political leaders are doing a great job of making our lives better. So, the most exciting part of this campaign so far has been the opportunity to listen to people and understand what it means to make their lives better.

Is there anything else you would like to add? We have a primary coming up, and I think the most important thing is that we have the strongest candidate to go up against Cory Gardner. For me, as a kid who grew up here in the 90s and now I am a top candidate to take on the sitting republican senator, this is a testament to what's possible when we join together to make progress through politics, and I'm really humbled to be in this position.

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The RESILIENT and ELECTRIFYING

Olivia Newton-John

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or more than five decades, Olivia Newton-John has been one of the most successful and adored entertainers within the industry. A fourtime Grammy award winner and the leading lady in iconic films like Grease and Xanadu, her stardom has proven to be eternal. However, in addition to her screen and music success, Olivia is an inspiration for millions around the world. Her strength, courage, and grace have been put to the test after she was diagnosed with cancer three times. No matter how scary and disheartening the situation is, Olivia has not let her illness prevent her from living life to the fullest. Do you think she is going to sit at home and wait for death? Hell, no! She is giving her cancer a much-deserved ass kicking. In addition to that ass kicking, she also just released her long-awaited memoir, Don’t Stop Believin’, this past March. Don’t Stop Believin’ covers everything from Grease to her journey with cancer to her passion for charity work and the founding of the Olivia Newton-John Cancer Wellness & Research Centre in her hometown of Melbourne. This memoir is truly a pager turner, and OUT FRONT had the absolute pleasure of chatting more with her about the book and her life.

Thank you so much for taking the time to chat with me, Olivia! OUT FRONT is very excited for the opportunity to feature you. Of course; my pleasure!

I would like to start off by chatting more about your memoir, Don’t Stop Believin’. Why did you want to write the book? Well, it didn’t start off like I suddenly wanted to write it. What happened was, I heard that a movie about my life was wanting to be made in Australia, and you know, to cut to the chase, I wanted to write my version. The right version. I don’t know what they would have said. That was the inspiration, really.

What do you hope readers take away from the book? I hope they are entertained and they feel motivated, and they feel positive things. That’s not why I wrote the book, but I truly hope they are entertained and feel something.

It sounds amazing. And of course, you talk about Grease. Oh yes, of course! But that isn’t like a moment; that’s been a lifetime spanning five decades. The Olympics was just one night, but Grease keeps going.

What was the writing process like for you? Did it energize you, or was it an exhausting process?

Did you ever think Grease would become one of the most successful movie musicals in history?

It was both. I worked with a wonderful woman who helped me and interviewed me, and we talked for hours. She wrote stuff down; then I would put it in my own words. It was a learning process; it was emotional; it was a journey, and it made me think about a few things I haven’t thought about in a while. But it was fun. So, it was a mixture of all those things.

Oh, no! Of course not! I wish I had the crystal ball [laughs]! I am still blown away by the fact that people ask me about Grease almost every day, and we filmed it all those years ago. I think that’s amazing, and the movie has such great energy. I am glad to be a part of it.

And how did you come with the title Don’t Stop Believin’? I have always loved that song, and John Farrar produced the album, and it built my career. I always thought it was such an inspiring lyric. It is one of the first songs I sang with lyrics like that, so positive, and consequently, I have done other albums and more kinds of those things. That song kept coming to my head, and I thought, what a perfect title for this book.

Your career spans more than five decades, so I am sure there are many moments that you will forever cherish. What are some of your favorite moments that you highlight and talk about in the book? Throughout my career, the first thing that always comes to mind is singing at the 2000 Sydney Olympic Games with John Farnham. That was such an incredible experience and I was honored to walk out on that stage and see all those people. It was amazing.

Do you still stay in touch with John Travolta? Yes, very much. In fact, we spoke yesterday. He’s doing great.

Fabulous. Now, another big issue you talk about in the book is your health and battle with cancer. How are you doing these days? I am doing really great! I am out of my home, shopping. That may sound like nothing to you, but when you have been through what I have, I mean, I had to learn to walk again. I am very grateful to be back in life and doing things. Do not take anything for granted.

I am so glad to hear that. I mean, at the beginning of the year, tabloids were saying you were basically on your deathbed and ready to cross over. Yes, I saw that. I thought, it’s time to put this to bed. This is so stupid, and it was a very strange feeling to read that. I don’t know if you have ever read your own death, but it’s odd! [Laughs]. I needed to face this head on and put an end to it. It was stupid. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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The tabloids can be quite a pain to deal with. So, is your cancer in full remission? I don’t call it that. I try not to label things, but I am doing very well. I am living over it and winning over it. How does that sound?

Sounds great! When you were diagnosed with your latest bouts of cancer, how were you able to come to terms with it? Oh, you just do. It wasn’t the first time, and it’s the same kind of cancer I have had. The same old one rearing its ugly head. So, you just have to have a sense 2 6 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

of humor about it. Obviously, it’s scary, but I think it makes you realize the gift of every day even more. I know that sounds like a cliché, but it’s really true. Especially as you get older, every day is a gift anyways. I have lost friends lately who were much younger than me, and they seemed to be in perfect health. You just need to be blessed to be alive and never lose sight of that.

For people who are currently battling cancer, what is the best advice you can offer? Oh, gosh. I think, try to stay as positive as you can. You create

what you believe, and if you believe you can do this and you believe you can win over this, you can do it. Also, have something to look forward to. Take time for yourself to do the things you want to do. Everyone’s cancer journey is different, and there is no blueprint. Everyone copes in a different way, but get as much information as you can, and remember, you are the one making the decisions. Do not let anyone do something to you that you don’t want to happen.

Solid advice. Another great achievement happened for you earlier this year. You were appointed the Companion of the Order of Australia?

Yes! You know, they stopped using the word dame, but I would be a dame! The closest I’ll get to being a dame is a companion [laughs]. This was such a wonderful honor, and it’s such a beautiful award.

And you truly deserve it! What’s next for you, Olivia? What other projects and philanthropic endeavors should we be on the lookout for? Well, the book of course, but I also have Gaia Retreat & Spa, which is my beautiful retreat in Australia. It’s in one of the most beautiful places in the country. I have my cancer wellness and research center, fundraisers, and overall raising awareness. I would like to see an end to cancer in my lifetime. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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Katya Conquers the Mile High City by Denny Patterson Photo by Magnus Hastings

I would like to begin by talking more about your Help Me I’m Dying tour. What can audiences expect? Well, let’s see. Thrills, chills, and spills, but no narrative logic or making sense [laughs]. It’s sort of like a character study of three different characters that I do. One being the sort of origin story of the Russian hooker, and then another one I do is a junkie alcoholic named Trish. She’s a bit hypersexual, so there’s little segments with her. Then it’s like me sort of without a character but just in drag talking about my life with video segments and parodies of different films and TV shows I love like Game of Thrones.

Have you always wanted to do a one-woman show? I have. I wanted to do a show like this for a long time, so it’s been a long time coming. Even before I went on Drag Race. It’s like a dream come true to be able to do it on this scale and travel to so many places. It’s been pretty awesome.

What are you looking forward to the most about the tour? Mostly that I don’t have to perform in a nightclub at 3 a.m. and get puked on by people. I’m going to be doing the puking this time!

Our readers have been warned! How did you come up with the concept for the show?

ook out, Denver! The bright, red scare with the long blonde hair is making her way to the Mile High City. Katya Zamolodchikova, or simply Katya, will be at the Paramount Theatre August 30 performing her brand-new, one-woman show, Help Me I’m Dying. This multi-media, multi-character, and multi-faceted live stage show is a fusion of stand-up comedy and storytelling from everybody’s favorite Russian wh*re who captured the hearts of millions after competing on RuPaul’s Drag Race Season 7 2 8 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

and All Stars 2. OUT FRONT had the pleasure of catching up with Katya and talking more about the show, in addition to upcoming projects and life after Drag Race.

Thank you so much for taking the time to chat with me today, Katya! I have been a fan of yours since the beginning, so this is truly a pleasure. Awesome! Thank you!

I kind of wanted to do something to reintroduce these characters. Especially for fans of Drag Race. We don’t really get to showcase a lot of what we actually do on the show; you know what I mean? Like my characters. People know me as, like, she’s a Russian wh*re. So, I want to give some backstory on these characters I have built over the years. And speaking of Drag Race, thanks to the show, you have become one of the most well-known and beloved drag queens in the world. Did you expect the show to change your life this much? What did you originally expect? Oh my God, no. It’s so funny; I was talking to one of the queens I worked with before the show in Boston, and I remember one night before Season 7 aired, I remember crying to her. I was like, ‘nobody is going to like me; this was a mistake; I shouldn’t have

done it; I’m going to be humiliated.’ Well, you know, the exact opposite came true. I was, like, so pleasantly surprised to see how well-received I was. I was so anxious and horrified. I expected the worst.

If you never pursued drag, what direction do you think life would have taken you? I’d probably be, like, an undertaker or doing autopsies. Chopping up dead bodies, possibly a serial killer. Believe it or not, I was going to grad school to be a mental health counselor, a therapist.

If given the opportunity, would you compete on Drag Race again? Hell, no! Hell, no. I’m done. I did it twice. That’s it. No, thank you. I’d love to go on as a spy or fake character, but just the terms of having to compete again, it makes me want to sh*t myself right now. It’s awful.

[Laughs] I bet you're not the only queen who feels that way! I want to ask you about Trixie Mattel. Did you two know each other before the show?

cherish the most about you? I know she’s only friends with me because of my long, luscious legs! But the thing I like the most about her; she’s really patient. She’s in it for the long haul, and she’s willing to withstand a lot of bullsh*t, and she puts up with a lot of my crap. She’s very gracious and forgiving.

And congrats on UNHhhh being in its fourth season! Did you ever think the show would go this far? My God, no. I didn’t, and it’s so much fun. I am continuously excited about it, and I really don’t lose interest, which is rare for me. It’s the most fun thing, and we actually just got a book deal, so we will be writing a book together.

Nice! What kind of book? It’s going to be like Trixie and Katya’s guide to modern womanhood. It’s going to be funny.

What’s your number-one tip? I would say, the best thing I ever learned is that Dawn dishwashing liquid will help take your makeup off in less than a minute. It’s soft on hands, and it cuts the grease.

No, not at all.

How did your friendship develop into what it is today? We bonded on the show a little bit, but we mostly became great friends afterwards, and we talked on the phone a lot. We sort of realized we had similar personalities, and we weren’t like the typical drag queens. We both kind of had the same anxiety and concerns about the show, and then we just sort of watched our popularity rise. Then we hopped on the train together.

I know Trixie shares her perspective about your friendship in her Moving Parts tour. Do you share your perspective in Help Me I’m Dying? Yes, but obliquely. It’s in one of the video parodies I did. I won’t give too much away, but it’s a nice little nod to our friendship.

What do you cherish the most about Trixie, and what does she

Fabulous. Do you have a favorite episode of UNHhhh? I like the episodes about shame. They’re more recent. Those are my favorites.

When you did The Trixie & Katya Show on Viceland, was it weird transitioning UNHhhh into a TV show?

[Laughs] I thought it was so weird! Those ranking things are so arbitrary, and the description for some of the queens in the ranking we so bizarre. They almost felt like reads in a way. I don’t understand the criteria for the ranking. Why don’t they just list our checking accounts, you know?

What number were you? I was 13, and I was like, great. Sure. Wonderful.

If you don’t mind, I would like to talk a little bit about the hiatus you took from drag not too long ago. You did it for mental health reasons. How are you doing today? I’m good! I have struggled a long time with substance abuse and all that, but I went totally cuckoo bananas. It was like a new thing that had happened. I didn’t know if I was going to quit drag totally, but I was so lucky to be able to take time off and get my head straight. Now, I feel great.

Do you know what exactly caused the relapse? My life was changing so much with all the traveling and stuff. I went from a silent movie to an IMAX film overnight. At the time, I just took all the opportunities that I could, and I didn’t pace myself. I got wrapped up in it and was swept away.

Well, I am very glad you are doing much better! What would you have said if I was doing awful? [Laughs].

Yes, it was. I don’t think it was done all that successfully. It probably could have been better adapted. I think what’s so successful about the web show, it’s freeform, and there’s no restrictions or parameters. I felt the TV show was kind of forced, and it lost a bit of magic. Also, the network is tough ‘cause it’s such a bro network. It’s like wongs, race cars, and then there’s us. It was weird.

I would still love you and wish you well!

Your hard work, fame and popularity also landed you on Vulture’s “The Most Powerful Drag Queens in America” list. What did you think about the article?

Perfect. Thank you again, Katya! We look forward to featuring you and promoting your tour in OUT FRONT Magazine!

Aww, thanks!

Of course! Is there anything else you would like to add to this interview? No, I think that about sums it up.

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Now I'm Here

Queer Love In Small-Town Ohio By David-Elijah Nahmod

on boys even then, and David is based on a combination of guys I knew or admired secretly. I made David's invitation for Joshua to join him at a Queen concert a tie-in to their common interests. It sparks their friendship. Both of them have a sort of distance from the popular kids, but in different ways. That they are so different makes it work, because they don't judge each other." The music of Queen plays a prominent role in the telling of the story—the book derives its title from Queen's song “Now I'm Here.” Queen is a big part of Joshua's life—his brilliant piano cover of the band's classic song "Bohemian Rhapsody" wins him a few appearances on television and a brief burst of minor fame in Hollywood.

Now I'm Here by Jim Provenzano

358 pages, Beautiful Dreamer Press

n his new novel Now I'm Here, author Jim Provenzano paints a vivid picture of queer life in small-town Ohio from the late 1970s to the early 90s. The book, now available in Kindle and paperback editions at Amazon, tells a poignant tale of love found, lost, and found again. Joshua is a musical prodigy who was sickly as a boy. David is the rough-around-theedges son of a pumpkin farmer. They meet when David steps in to defend Joshua from a schoolyard bully. Joshua instantly falls in love, but David has a girlfriend. It isn't long before David and the girl break up, which leads to the boys becoming closer and closer. Their first date is to a concert by the legendary rock band Queen, and they are soon deeply in love. Things take a sour turn when a school prank by David goes horribly wrong—he's sent to a halfway house for delinquents, and the pair are separated for several years. Eventually, they reconnect as adults, moving in together just as the horrific specter of AIDS begins to engulf the LGBTQ community. Provenzano explains why he felt it was important to make the AIDS pandemic part of the story. "AIDS was and is the most impactful experience of an entire generation," he said. "To ignore it in a gay novel, unless it's set long before it or on another planet, 3 0 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

would be inauthentic. I had written about AIDS from many aspects, including my own experiences in New York City, in three previous novels. But most of the novels and memoirs of that time take place in big cities. I had several high school friends who stayed in Ohio, or who returned there, and died. I wanted to tell their stories." But Now I'm Here is so much more than an AIDS story. The book touches upon themes of religious intolerance, rejection from family members, and the sometimes harsh realities of gay life in rural America. For Provenzano, writing the book was reliving his youth. "While I was born in New York City, our family moved to Ashland, a small town in Ohio, when I was four," he said. "Serene, the fictional town I created, is smaller and further south, but it is built from a lot my own experiences going to the mall to buy concert tickets, driving around with friends, getting drunk and stoned at the cool kids’ parties. I knew farm boys and actually worked on a produce farm one season when I took a break between college years. It was excruciating work, but it left a strong impression. All those details are quite real. Ever since then, I've had a special affection for pumpkins." Provenzano acknowledges that Joshua and David are two very different types of people. He explains what brings them together. "Their first encounter is a playground fight in grade school," he said. "I had crushes

"Queen had a significant meaning for me," said Provenzano. "I knew, of course, that Freddie Mercury was gay. So, to see him take the stage, at the same 1978 concert described in the novel, in all his flamboyance, was a revelation. Also, as in the novel, I performed a piano solo version of "Bohemian Rhapsody" for my high school recital. Joshua's later TV appearances are fictionalized. I loved learning how to play rock music on an old upright piano my father retrieved from a demolition site in Cleveland. I still can't believe that my family tolerated all that playing for hours every day." Even at over 350 pages, "Now I'm Here" is a quick and easy read. Joshua and David come to life through Provenzano'a prose, as does the town of Serene. The story beautifully conveys the exhilaration of love, the power of music, and the profound sadness of loss. The book is also a slice of pre-internet life when downloading music or meeting people online wasn't an option. In those days, people had to listen to the radio or buy records in order to hear their favorite songs. They would meet by chance, as David and Joshua did, in real-life situations. The late 70s and 80s were, in many ways, the last remnants of a more innocent time. Provenzano's deft writing whisks readers back to those halcyon days. "Back then, you had to work to find a community," he said. "This story covers the last years of 'analog' life, pre-internet and before cell phones. I wanted very much to document that kind of life before it's forgotten. Even though this is a fictional story, I value cherishing real life experiences and memories." In "Now I'm Here," Provenzano's memories serve up a bittersweet nostalgia and a plethora of emotions which readers of all ages can relate to.

A Letter to Consumers Celebrating Pride By Kate Dooley

his year’s Pride season felt a bit soul-sucking with all of the major corporations shoving their rainbow product lines down our throats. It feels like around every corner, another huge name brand is profiting off turning a movement into a trend. So, how can we be ethical consumers in a market that is over-saturated with choices and brands appealing to us based largely off what they’re selling rather than whom they’re supporting? Throughout June, it felt like every time I logged onto social media, a new influencer or obscenely good-looking model was sporting an article of clothing from a major retailer who had created a Pride line out of thin air. The bombardment of advertisements that popped up across social platforms, within emails, and in store-fronts was overwhelming and often exhausting. Admittedly, when I sat down to write this article, my intentions were to express a restrained rant on how capitalism is ruining Pride Month. This may be an unpopular opinion. To be fair, plenty of major corporations have increased the visibility of queer communities, and they are donating some of their sales to LGBTQ non-profits, campaigns, and projects. For instance, many companies are donating large portions of their undertakings to organizations such as the It Gets Better Project, GLAAD, Human Rights Campaign Foundation, and OutRight Action International. This includes corporations like American Eagle, Nordstrom, and Levi’s, who are donating 100 percent of their proceeds. So, it’s difficult to sit here and claim that capitalism is the enemy, and we’re all doomed no matter what we do. Because these corporations are giving back, even if it’s ever-so-slightly. And the visibility they are contributing to is in many ways incomparable and opening up spaces that have not been there before. But Pride Month comes every year, and with it, so do companies and brands who are seeking to capitalize on the new, hip trend: queer liberation via rainbow shirts and accessories. And as consumers, every year, we eat this up. Seriously, articles this year bore titles such as “This is How to Rock the Rainbow in Style this Pride Month” and “What to Wear to Pride 2019 If You’re in Need of Some Outfit Inspiration.” Could it be that Pride Month is starting to feel like the new Coachella? Even the president, who is actively against showing supporting to the LGBTQ community through his anti-queer platform, went ahead and discounted his “Trump Pride Tee” at the beginning of

June. This was immediately followed by pleas from the queer community for consumers to buy from anywhere else. Seriously, anywhere else. So, beneath all the glitter, pride hats, fanny packs, and whatever else one can afford to order from the myriad of retailers jumping onto the month’s trends—what is left? This year was the 50thanniversary of the Stonewall Riots. That means some of us have been bravely leading this fight for half a century. And some of us are fairly new to the struggle, which is okay too. The only thing that matters is that we’re here, and now, the celebration has made its way to the public. However, what becomes especially frustrating with the magnitude of commercialization that has taken over Pride Month is that the focus has shifted from what people are fighting for to what people are wearing. After the Pride collections fade out and become discounted will the support stop too? Let’s be clear—just buying an LGBTQ t-shirt does not make you an ally. However, buying the shirt does not make you an evil spawn of capitalism, either. What I am learning now that Pride month has pased is that intentionality is everything. In doing a little research behind the companies donating their substantial earnings to support the LGBTQ community, this capitalism nightmare becomes a little easier to navigate. It’s easy to spot which brands are being genuine allies and which ones have simply show up to appropriate queer pride into monetary earnings. Buying from the Pride collections is wonderful if the money is going to the organizations that are working hard to make a difference within queer spaces. However, buying products simply to post to an Instagram feed without any awareness behind what this clothing means can be problematic. So, spend your hard-earned money on the decadent rainbow look, now and when Pride season comes back again. But make sure to take time to educate those around you about what it took to bring LGBTQ oppression into the national spotlight and into the national store-fronts. Being an ethical consumer and vigilant queer person or an ally does not mean it is your duty to fix everything wrong in the world. However, being a supporter does mean that Pride Month cannot just be limited to thirty days of the year, a limited-edition tee, and a post to social media. With this 50-year anniversary coming to a close, it’s time to reflect on how we sincerely contribute to the LGBTQ community and possibly try to do better as we patiently wait for next June to come.

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Heinze Sight Is love stronger than fear? By Brent Heinze

I really want a long-lasting relationship, but it never seems to work out. Some people have told me that they think I don’t fully engage with them. I think there is truth in that, but I get scared to open up to guys I date out of fear that they will judge me or I will get hurt. It’s hard to be honest about my insecurities, and I think it partly makes me fail in relationships. Why do you think I’m so afraid, and what can I do to learn how to trust others?

t’s hard to convince someone to not be afraid, especially if those fears are strong. Fear is a normal part of being alive, and most of us grow up being afraid of something. We are taught not to stick our fingers in light sockets or talk to strangers who might offer us candy. We don’t want to get hurt, abducted, or injured, but sometimes the fear of emotional pain affects us more than the concern about physical wounds. This can come from a variety of avenues. Maybe we grew up with overprotective parents or in households that were unstable or abusive. We may not have been encouraged to try new adventures out of a fear of failure or were scared to be anything other than perfect. There are so many experiences that can cause us to develop anxiety and fear around particular situations. It’s those circumstances that can stop us from facing our fears to achieve something we actually want. Many fears we feel can be based in actual concerns, and people should be cautious regarding them. It only takes a few experiences to learn that pain hurts, and fire can burn you. Wrecking on your bike without wearing a helmet can cause you to have a concussion, and not paying attention to where you’re walking can make you trip and fall down. Although humans are considered to be the most intelligent animals on Earth, we are still susceptible to the basic, animalistic feeling of fear. It is our survival instinct to use our senses and 3 4 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

experiences that give us warning signs of potential danger. Although we may not have to worry about being hunted and eaten, predators or pitfalls may still exist in our lives that can cause us to experience a legitimate fear response. As far as trusting people in relationships, it is important to figure out what you are feeling. You can then use that knowledge to determine if your love for someone can be stronger than your concerns regarding fears involved with loving them. It doesn’t matter if it is friendships, family, or romantic love. There are many elements that bring up concerns, anxiety, or dread. Some stress about the potential to get hurt emotionally or have people abandon them. Others worry that people may judge them for having a poor self-image or a lack of pride in their accomplishments. We may fear rejection by someone we care about or want to get to know. These types of fears stop many people from attempting to fully engage in relationships. Feeling scared about how others may perceive them or fear of judgment and being potentially tossed aside can drive someone to put up their defenses. To get close to someone, you have to offer some aspect of vulnerability. That’s hard to do when you put on you suit of armor because you’re scared about getting hurt. The first step in addressing these concerns is to determine what you’re actually afraid of. This may take the form of remembering traumatic situations or difficult people. You may even feel some of the emotions of fear, anxiety, anger, sadness, or grief when thinking about things in the past. In your present life, take some time when you realize you are feeling uncomfortable or notice you are pulling back emotionally to discover what thoughts or memories are being brought up in your mind.

You can work to determine if these are things that are relevant to the person or situation at hand, or if it is just old crap rearing its ugly head. You can’t fight an enemy if you don’t know what it is. Don’t forget that feelings and emotions are not always factual or rational. Just because you feel something doesn’t mean you have to act on it, but addressing it is extremely important in learning how to deal with it. The process of self-discovery, healing from past pain, and developing better confidence can be daunting and scary. It may be extremely challenging to create new patterns and frustrating that change does not happen as quickly as we desire. Gaining success in these areas can do so much for us. Most importantly, it can help us become more comfortable with feeling uncomfortable. The fear of discomfort is something that stops many of us from tackling certain tasks. We build up the apprehension that particular experiences will stress us out and be difficult to face. The potential benefits are overshadowed by our concern of feeling distressed. It’s like having a sore throat and experiencing terror that it will hurt when you swallow. Avoiding something doesn’t mean it will go away. Most times, these issues we try to ignore simply hang out in the shadows and wait to affect our lives, often when we least expect them or want them to impact us. There are times when we feel that something or someone may pose a potential danger to us and we may perceive the need to be increasingly aware of our surroundings so we don’t get hurt. On the flip side, we also have a strong capacity to want to build bonds through friendships, other relationships, and romantic entanglements. This desire to connect and develop loving feelings is absolutely one of the strongest drives we can experience. Unfortunately, there are many potential concerns and insecurities that exist to stop us from trusting others so we can find those connections. For many of us, the experience of finding a love is exhilarating. It makes us feel connected not only to a particular person, but also to everyone else around us who finds happiness when engaging with other people. It is important to stop allowing fear to dictate how we care about others. Start by being courageous and facing the things that scare you. Prioritize which elements you think are the most important to work on, and discuss them with people you trust. Focus on acting in ways that challenge your insecurities and discomfort in letting people get close to you. Bring these concerns out of the darkness so you can shine light on them. It is extremely important to actively confront those aspects of yourself that stop you from building healthy relationships. It takes practice to get more comfortable and confident when incorporating these new patterns into your life. The more you challenge yourself to address these fears, the more assurance you can build in yourself and your ability to have faith in other people. OUTFRONTMAGAZINE.COM

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August 2019 Astrology & Horoscopes By Joshua Lionlight

ARIES:

Listen to the ebbs and flows of your emotional body. There is an overflow of joy coming to you through relationships. A romance or new partner will soon approach, and you’re invited to seize the moment with them! This loving relationship is familiar and is reminding you of what it was like to be utterly carefree. The way you love is a shining example to those around you. Bare your heart.

TAURUS: A relationship from the past is making a surprising appearance and is making some demand. Although it may be difficult, Taurus, let go of everything that you thought you knew about them. The bond between you wants to be healed, but it will take your effort and forgiveness. It’s time to break down some walls. Emotional maturity will be gained. Something about this will feel whole.

GEMINI:

You’re being asked to close your eyes and really feel the wind around you. Where do your beliefs stand now? Don’t feel bad if you must relearn some things. This will help you master your energy and current outlook. Don’t be so intimidated that you refuse to ask for help. You’ll be happy to see several options manifest from your dreams. Marching to the beat of your dreams will bring you abundance.

CANCER: Family and financial security will be a big theme for you this month. You are encouraged to grow your wealth. The key to your success in August is to relax, fully accept, and with minimal effort, you’ll see an abundance of blessings. Your emotional and intuitive connections are growing. A breakthrough will evolve once you step through the gateway that beckons you. Magic surrounds you!

LEO:

There are some happy interactions to be had! Positive breakthroughs are happening within your relationships, especially once you accept the light and dark side of others. Did the universe give you your wish, and now you’re doubting and second guessing? Stop fighting yourself, Leo. Allow yourself a moment to grieve and accept what has been. Peace will come once you release what ails your mind.

VIRGO: You’re encouraged to take a broad view and then plan your next move accordingly. Let others do a bit more of the heavy lifting this month. Paying heed to your spiritual values looks important. Do your spiritual values contradict what you do in the real world? If you must begin again and look for alternative ways of getting spiritually fed, do it. Expect a ton of things to come flying at you all at once! 3 8 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

LIBRA:

You may find that there are more fertile opportunities capable of producing great results in August. It may be difficult to identify how you’ll achieve these results, but you’re on your way to more abundance. With your work, try incorporating something new or search for a job where you feel you’ll fit in better and have structure. Where you feel emotionally stable is also where you’ll see work stability.

SCORPIO: August is inviting you to share your feelings with any person that you’ve been withholding from. You’ll be glad to find that others are willing to build trust by being an open book. Your imagination is at a high, so apply it to your work or what you desire to see come to pass. The key to tempering your actions because of old wounds is to freely express your emotions as if you were a child.

SAGITTARIUS:

Ask yourself where you might be holding yourself at bay. If you’ve been feeling stuck, then the best solution is to get rid of the thing or person that may be blocking you. You are encouraged to make a radical change which may involve leaving something or someone behind. Surprising insights are coming to you that will give depth to family and financial decisions. Your legacy is calling for your attention.

CAPRICORN: The universe is asking you to get clear on what it is you’re willing to accept. You may have to get a little extra firm this month. It’s now time to critique your recent endeavor, project, or study. There are some improvements to be made Capricorn, whether internal or external. Taking the time to reflect will be most helpful and restorative. The answer that gives you the key to completion can be found in quiet.

AQUARIUS:

Is there lingering pain that is preventing you from joyfully connecting with others? Are you allowing your heart to be open to love? You are being welcomed to sit with these issues. If your emotions feel like they are overpowering you in August, then it would be wise to release the energy through physical activity. Should any confrontation arise, try being the humble one and pay heed to the lesson.

PISCES: Two new paths will be calling or offered to you. August will be invigorating and inspiring you to take leaps! Whatever option gives you the biggest sense of creative and personal freedom, looks the most positive. You may find that your business perspective grows especially with the guidance of an older professional. Experiences that are increasing your strength and endurance are occurring.

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Exile 7 Fetish Ball & Lokusdor Productions

By Brent Heinze or over 10 years, the team at Lokusdor Productions have been active members of Colorado’s creative community focusing on raising money and awareness for LGBTQ and sex-positive initiatives. During this time, they have produced eight large-scale events that have generated over $60,000 in donations to local and national organizations doing important innovative work.

Through unconventional and emotionally arousing events like the Exile Fetish Ball series and musical festivals like CoDE-13 and Flame, they have established themselves as an entertaining part of Colorado’s underground culture. Their next event is the Exile 7 Fetish Ball on Saturday, August 17 at the Exdo Events Center. During the night, this amazingly versatile space will be transformed into a kinky playground for the confident and curious. There are over 55 performers, artists, DJs, vendors, and live musicians providing a visually striking and provocative show that is educational, entertaining, and fun. With a variety of opportunities for voyeuristic or interactive engagement, live entertainment will include rope bondage, impact play, wax, boot worship, hook and rope suspensions, burlesque, domination, aerial erotica, go-go dancers, performance art, and some unexpected surprises. Exile pulls from Colorado’s LGBTQ, leather, and kink communities in celebration of pushing limits and turning people on. Some of this year’s performers include Denver Bound, Sol Tribe, Bobby Ackerman, Nadja, Kouger DeVille, Quezta Cuddles, Studio Friction, Lady Sativa, RU Entertaiment, Becca Wrex, Studio 3sixT, Hawke, Domina Elle, DJs Necrotek and Even Flo, Probe 7, Faces Under The Mirror, and a number of other fantastic entertainers. All of these performers volunteer their time and talent to put on an amazing show. National and local companies like Romantix, Sol Tribe Piercing and Tattoos, VooDoo Leatherworks, Bear Things, OUT FRONT, Industriarts, Oxballs, CORE Group, Thunder in the Mountains, and Climax Colorado provide financial support so bigger donations can be made at the end of the event. Proceeds from Exile 7 will benefit some exceptional organizations, providing well-needed advocacy within our community. Groups like Woodhull Freedom Foundation, Transgender Center of the Rockies, and ESPLER Project support sexual health and sexual freedom initiatives, while groups like Marquis Lifestyle Center and Rocky Mountain Leather Alliance create educational opportunities within our community. Other remarkable organizations included in this list of beneficiaries are Leather Archives & Museum in Chicago, Denver boys and girls of Leather, Eagle Plaza, Leather Colorado Foundation, and Colorado Leather Fest. Participants can expect to see a variety of personal expressions that represent the diverse composition of the Colorado community, including leather guys, furry bears, kinky women, goths, punks, gender-neutral, and fluid individuals, gay, straight, pansexual, and a variety of people that defy inclusion in a single group. It is an event that encourages people to have an evening of enjoyment and entertainment together in a safe and affirming environment. For more information about the Exile Fetish Balls, pictures from past events, and to purchase $10 pre-sale tickets, visit LokusdorProductions.com. Physical tickets are also available at Sol Tribe Tattoo and Piercing in Denver. Bar-legal attire is required, but a clothes check is available for those who may want to wear something more exciting to the party. There are event listings on Facebook and FetLife to provide networking opportunities, ask questions, and to invite your friends. Come get your freak on at the Exile 7 Fetish Ball. 4 0 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

DUELING WITH DEPRESSION: ANXIOUS ABOUT ANXIETY Words and Background Photo By Mike Yost I think I need to change the title of these articles. “Dueling with Happiness?” That would be a welcome change, but no. I feel too panicked all the time. “Parlaying with Panic”? No. Anxiety is the new depression, apparently. “Squabbling with Anxiety”? If only those squabbles were actually effective. Didn’t you write that depression hasn’t been knocking you around as much lately? I once felt like I was living my life beneath a vast ocean. Almost everything I experienced was muffled, distant, and cold. But somehow, I broke through the surface off all that immersive darkness. Now I can breathe a bit. The sun warms my clammy, pale skin. But your mind didn’t become a calm, tranquil pool on which you float effortlessly into a bright horizon. I’m kicking my feet just to stay above the whirlpool of racing, fear-inducing thoughts. I’m often panic-stricken with simple tasks. I’ve torpedoed freelance jobs because the idea of the work involved was just too overwhelming. Now you feel bad about dodging work and clients. And I need the money, too. But I’d rather sidestep the paralyzing panic—falling headfirst into a deep canyon, cringing to hear my bones break and shatter on the jagged rocks rushing towards me. Wait, you’re falling now? As you draft this article? Along with the accompanying, derisive voices in my mind yelling that I’m a sh*t writer. What? You’ve been writing these articles for years. I know! 4 2 \\ A U G U S T 7 , 2 0 1 9

So, it doesn’t make any sense that you’re anxious about drafting an article about anxiety. I know!!

Guilty as charged! And you feel obligated to be panicking or depressed about something. A corrupt, default way of thinking.

It all seems so irrational and ironic and disheartening.

If only I could find the reset button.

I f*cking know!!!

“Hopping with Happiness.”

I know the sensation of falling, the increased heart rate, and the sweaty palms are all physical reactions to mental mirages screaming out of my skull. But, knowing anxiety is an illusion doesn’t prevent the panic my body endures, constantly distorting my thinking.

No.

So, now what?

And I thought you were getting better.

I have no clue. Maybe I should take up knitting. At least I’m not suicidal anymore.

Sounds like your mind is being an asshole. Too late to exchange for a new brain? If I had a content brain, these articles would be titled “Dueling with Happiness.”

I was. I am. I have a cavalcade of cognitive tools that keep me (mostly) above the surface of that depression. I pay close attention to how I react to the monsters that claw their way into my thoughts. I work at not reacting when it feels like I’m sinking. But all that is replaced by the sensation of falling? And I’m weary of always falling. My muscles are strained. I’m tired all the time, no matter how much I sleep. It’s almost like in a video game where you find all these cool, new powerful guns with exploding rounds to blow up the flesh-eating zombies hiding in the dark corners of a derelict spaceship. But the zombies get stronger as you upgrade your weapons and gear. Exactly! They’ve learned some new tricks I wasn’t ready for. Like what? Unearthing mistakes I’ve made out of fear. Once-in-a-lifetime moments I should have seized. No amount of mental gymnastics will free me from this cyclical thought process that seems determined to make me feel guilty about every misfortune. Sounds like your brain has been conditioned to think that way. Did you grow up in a Protestant church?

Maybe there is one.

There you go! Just look at the bright side of— I just want to kill the part of my brain that manufactures all these awful sensations. A self-induced lobotomy with a hammer and a nail. Then YOU wouldn’t be YOU anymore. Well, now you see the conundrum. “The Conundrum of Anxiety!” No! Maybe it’s okay to just be lost for a while. Maybe we all need time to find ways to sit inside quaking uncertainty without reacting to fear. Fear is the mind-killer! Being hopelessly adrift at sea with no land in sight in a constant state of illusion-based terror is a good thing? Someone will relate. It’s certainly forcing you to redefine who you are without having to swim beneath that frigid ocean of depression. If you can do that . . . So it stands to reason I can redefine who I am without being defined by fear. Give yourself permission to work that out— while feeling hopelessly adrift. Once more unto the breach. Dear friends.

Who are the Denver Cycle Sluts? By The Cycle Sluts Photo courtesy of The Cycle Sluts The Denver Cycle Sluts are Colorado’s longest-lasting camp-drag comedy performing ensemble.The group was started in 1979 by members of The Imperial Court of the Rocky Mountain Empire to spoof the drag queens and help raise money for charity. They wore big hair and lingerie.The group lasted a few years, then faded into the background. A few years later, they came back with a vengeance. The reboot came with more structure for the group. Performing members would dress in outrageous, over-the-top costumes; brightly colored, colossal wigs; outlandish, over-sized eyelashes; glittered facial hair (whether grown or glued on); and makeup so thick it’s often put on with a spatula. Don’t forget lots and lots of glitter! Over the years, the group has watched performers come and go. The ones who have left to pursue other interests are lovingly referred to as SLOTS (SLutty Old Things). New members join the group by either trying out at Slut Search or by entering into the SLIT program (SLuts In Training). The group looks at their role as the jesters of the community, providing humor and offering a different view on issues to bring understanding. Currently, the Denver Cycle Sluts (consisting of Queen Mother 15 Cookie Fortuna, Zoey Diddim, Winnie Bego, Jack-Lynn Hyde, Kay Hausensues, Cherri Chola, and Mae D’Misteak) are hosting a monthly drag bingo at Dulce Vida at 12th and Cherokee St. on the second Friday of each month, with a few exceptions. The bingos are fundraisers for a different charity each month. The charities include

youth foundations, AIDS support and outreach programs, Women’s support, scholarships, and animal care. The group also steps in to help other fundraising organizations with their efforts. To find more information on what we do and where we are, or to find out how you can join our merry band of misfits, check out the Denver Cycle Slut website at denvercyclesluts.com or like us on facebook. You could also do both.

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