The Healing Begins

Kkashon Melendez Avilez

Once the trauma bond and emotional attachments are gone true healing begins. I lost emotional attachment to him, without it he is so… Ordinary.

It was my love, my energy, my effort. That made him seem so special. That toxic cycle was always there, But each time I grew less and less fixated with… With the version I created of him. Kind… Gentle… Loving… He was never those things. Not… not with me at least, I did not want to live in his fantasy, His world of adversity, abuse, and constant misery Of what he thought was love.

I am tired of the blame, Tired of being shamed, tired of screaming in pain.. I want peace…

So, I passed the torch.

I am a nightmare healing from fear, open wounds, scars, I don’t hate you, I hate what I allowed you to do. after everything was said and done, I ended that chapter… Closed the books… and refused to open it.

I wish you the best... I will be better, I will heal. And you can’t hurt me. Ask me to explain how I feel about him…

It’s like he was never there, I see him, but as a stranger to the eye. I feel nothing, Am I healed!