God is Better Than 2020 Psalms 139:14-16: I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. At nineteen years old, my young, first-time mother tried to convince doctors something was wrong with her baby. She even tells of a dream she had during her pregnancy of all the family gathered around after I was born talking about what a beautiful baby I was, but then someone asked, “what is wrong with her eyes?” She tells me that’s when she knew I would be a girl. Medical professionals of the time quickly silenced her concerns. Many people have glaucoma, an eye disease characterized by increased intraocular pressure that causes damage to the optic nerve, but I was one of the few born with it. Congenital glaucoma occurs when the eyes’ drainage system does not develop correctly. At birth, my pressures were over 100 in my right eye and the 90’s in my left. This was astronomical, and the damage to my optic nerve was irreversible—leaving me with 20/100 vision in my left eye and in my right, 20/400 vision, which is legally blind before the aid of corrective lenses. My mom says God used that dream to prepare her for the roller coaster that would be the first year of my life. I had many surgeries and spent much of that time in hospitals. My mom was right there with me the entire time, even sleeping under my hospital crib on the floor when she had nowhere else to go. Throughout my childhood, the prescription in my glasses changed often, and eye drops were a necessity. Putting drops that burned into my eyes and keeping up with my glasses were challenges for my parents. Early school years also had their difficulties. I could not see the board for assignments, had to use huge text14 treasure
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