Looking COVID-19 in the eye Frontline healthcare workers risk their lives to help patients during the pandemic

BY SHEHREEN KARIM

Aman alone on his deathbed looked over at his wife and son. He wanted to be able to hold them close, but he was forced to say his final goodbye through a glass door.

Joy Gerales, 34, witnessed this. She is an intensive care unit (ICU) nurse at a Los Angeles hospital who declined to give the location for safety concerns.

“That was the most depressing thing that I’ve ever seen because this is not the norm,” Gerales said in a phone interview. “I’ve been an ICU nurse for 11 years and I've seen a lot of deaths, but this was totally a different feel.”

Gerales said hospitals normally accommodate families by letting them stay in the room as they’re close to dying. But because of COVID-19, hospitals are forced to take precaution and limit how many medical personnel enter the room once the patient dies to limit exposure.

“It was so different unlike any other cardiac arrest because when you see the patient is in cardiac arrest, you can’t even drop a needle in the room because everyone is there like doctors and nurses,” Gerales said. “Now we cannot even jump in the room because it has to be contained and controlled.”

Despite these precautions and limiting how many nurses go into a COVID-19 patient’s room to preserve their protection gear and to limit exposure, Gerales managed to contract COVID-19 and was required to self-isolate in a separate room and bathroom from her family for a month.

At first her fever wouldn't go above 100.4, but within a matter of days Gerales started to experience shortness of breath.

“If I start panicking, my breathing problem will get worse. I'll probably end up calling 911. I'll end up tubed in the ER. I will never see my family,” Gerales said. “That's what I'm thinking and debating alone at 3 a.m. in my bed.”

Gerales said what kept her going and remaining calm was the thought of her husband and 4-year-old son waiting on the other side of the door for her to get better.

“I know my son missed me so much because everytime he passed by my room he would say, ‘Mama I love you and miss you’ outside the door,” Gerales said.

After more than two weeks in isolation from her family, Gerales said the moment she was finally able to hug her son felt like she was granted a second chance at life.

But at the end of their shifts, the anxiety doesn't leave. Instead, they fear that they’re taking home COVID-19 to their family.

Ryan, 38, is a full-time nurse at Kaiser Permanente and who declined to give his last name for safety concerns. He said he takes precautions by taking his temperature before and after every shift to protect his family.

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Pierce parents have become teachers at home

BY ARIELLE ZOLEZZI

Since the shutdown of the Los Angeles Unified School District (LAUSD), many Pierce professors and students have doubled as their children’s teachers while continuing to fulfill personal and work obligations.

Communications professor Jennifer Rosenberg reflected in a Facebook direct message about the transition to homeschooling her children, while still maintaining her courses, which are now taught in an online format with Zoom and synchronous classes.

“If you want to know what it is like to homeschool and teach at the same time, watch a three minute video and have someone interrupt you every 20 seconds,” Rosenberg wrote. “Homeschooling is both challenging and rewarding, but I am looking forward to summer.”

Sociology professor James McKeever chimed in via voice recording that when he isn’t integrating quality time doing activities and sports with his son, homeschooling is a tag-team partnership with his wife who is also a professor.

“His mom does most of the homeschooling, and when she can’t handle it I step in and that has been really helpful,” McKeever said. “I feel in some ways this has helped me connect more with him, so I am grateful for the time to do that.”

But it isn’t just professors who are feeling the effects of schools closing. There are students who have their families who now have to learn and teach all at the same time.

Pierce student Ashley Shellmire (a Roundup photographer) said via Slack direct message that she has yet to go insane with balancing being a teacher, full time cook, cleaner, babysitter, coming up with new ideas to keep her 4-year-old busy, all while striving to maintain a 4.0 GPA.

“I would compare it to trying to stand on a balance ball while holding 6 cups of hot coffee but only having two hands to use. You're gonna get burnt,” Shellmire wrote. “I take it day by day and try to make time for myself at least 30 mins a day. I call it my ‘Me time.’”

He said preading COVID-19 to his wife and daughters would be the biggest regret of his life.

“We [healthcare workers] all took an oath that we’re going to take care of patients, but our families did not take an oath,” Ryan said in a phone interview. “That’s our main fear: to bring the virus home.”

COVID-19 stays in the back of his mind even while celebrating his daughter and wife’s birthdays. He must distance himself from his high risk elderly parents, which forced them to celebrate behind glass windows.

With healthcare workers working full time, many cherish the little moments they have with family. But even at home, the fear of COVID-19 doesnt leave their mind.

For 24-year-old Lizbeth Rodriguez, being an ER Nurse during the pandemic helped her realize how precious life is and to appreciate each day.

She also explains how even her intimate moments with her husband are clouded with anxiety from COVID-19.

“What if this kiss is my kiss of death and what if I give it to him through this kiss,” Rodriguez said in a phone interview. With the added strain of healthcare workers being at the forefront of the pandemic and having difficulty enjoying their private lives, people have deemed healthcare workers as “healthcare heroes.”

For 34-year-old Ziska Arnold, a surgical ICU Nurse at Cedar Sinai, she understands why people call healthcare workers heroes but explains it’s part of the job.

“It's nice they’re calling us heroes now, but we’ve been heroes all along,'' Arnold said. “Not many folks can do what we do and deal with what we do on a daily basis. I wish they could give us all this respect pre and post pandemic.”

Despite the sudden praise for healthcare workers, Rodriguez says people who break social distancing rules are going against the efforts of healthcare workers.

“People flocking toward the beach right now and not having any sentiments towards social distancing, feels like a slap in the face,” Rodriguez said. “We are working toward so much to get this to the point where we can go back to our normal life.”

Although elderly people are at a higher risk of contracting COVID-19, Gerales said healthcare workers are seeing elderly patients go on ventilators as well as young patients without any medical history.

“It doesn't matter if you're over 65, we get patients in their 20s and 30s,” Gerales said. “This pandemic made me see that everyone is able to get sick and vulnerable.”

Gerales sympathizes and explains that efforts to end the COVID-19 pandemic must come from healthcare workers and the general public.

”If only people understood how emotionally draining it is to see patients dying alone in the ICU bed, and their families to be so helpless that they can't even be there with their loved one as they die,” Gerales said. ”I know it's hard right now, but everyone has to do their part and have to stay home for this pandemic to end.”