MUSIC NOTES ROBYN HUBBARD
Open Heart, Open Hand He leans forward, elbows on blue jean knees, face in hands, silent. With eyes clamped in a squint, he appears to be waiting for words that will not come. I am interviewing singer/songwriter David Wilcox, an artist whose work I have relished for 15 years, a man from whom a river of poetry flows unhindered — at least when on stage or in the midst of a song. I’m wondering now if I’ve asked the right question. When he finally speaks I am surprised by the space between his words. He seems to be mining his depths to bring forth rough diamonds. I begin to consider Wilcox more as a sculptor than a poet, a man who chooses raw material carefully and works precisely, chiseling away all that impedes beauty. The singer’s winsome appeal on stage — his easy laughter, natural poise, and genuine offering of love to his audience — must spring from this commitment to the truth. His willingness to dig, prod, question, and contemplate the deepest places in his soul is the reason his songs resonate with so many earnest truth seekers. Sitting now with this gentle, pensive man who searches for words like a mountain climber feels for a foothold, I glimpse the arduous process behind Wilcox’s seemingly effortless songs. Wilcox describes his concerts as conversations beginning with ordinary small talk and moving on to deeper content, “to the things that really matter.” He builds trust with his audience by considering where he is with them after each song. He often makes spontaneous decisions regarding the songs he will sing next, depending on the connection he makes with his listeners. “The
audience thinks it’s me, and I think it’s them! Not like I have to prepare them for what I want to say, more like I have to get out of the way to allow for the right song at the right time for the right person.” Audiences in small venues across the United States appreciate these intimate conversations, Wilcox’s candor, sense of humor, and his sudden outbursts of hysterical laughter. He cocks his head and appears to be listening to instructions in his heart as he deftly plays with his guitar until he finds the place to start. I feel “a little pull in my chest that says ‘speak.’ If I trust it and say the thing on
the tip of my tongue, I have a sense that I am listening and being present with what this moment requires. If I doubt it and ask where it’s going, it can suddenly stop and I have no idea where I’m going!” Wilcox’s transparency can make you feel as if you know him and he knows you. He puts language to your longing and pain where before tears and ache were their only expression. He strokes his guitar and you are comforted. Songs like “Rise” (Into the Mystery, 2003) whisper the possibility of hope following a crushing loss. PRISM 2010
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I know that a heart can just get buried/Stone by stone, crushing hope until it dies/Far away, but the message somehow carries/Beloved, it is time for you to rise up/ With a sudden sense of wonder/Though the promise goes unspoken/As the joy comes to your eyes/When the joy comes to your eyes/From the burden you’ve been under/For your soul was never broken. But this easy familiarity comes with a price. Listening to “Beyond Belief ” (Open Hand, 2009), Wilcox’s confession that “Jesus called me a hypocrite,” you can sense the uneasiness of being known too well. Where once you delighted, “He’s singing to me!” you now hear yourself saying, “Uh-oh, I think he’s talking to me.” Jesus called me a hypocrite/when I said I’d spread the word/He said, “How can you teach of love/unless you live what you have heard?/Faith can’t be your fortress/arrogant with pride/ Come walk here beside me with the humble ones outside/And be the mercy, all my people need the peace/This fightover faith won’t bring them relief/ I love them beyond belief.” Wilcox declares himself “lucky” to have grown up in a family without a faith tradition. Both his parents were weary from the weight of their own traditions, he explains, and in their desire not to burden their son, they erased the lines and structures of institutional religion. But Wilcox recalls his growing awareness of the spirit, a sense that there was more to life than meets the eye. “I had no language for my experience of the sacred. I would wonder if anyone knows this sacred truth and if so, why isn’t anyone talking about it? Then I heard stories about this crazy carpenter and I began to realize that there was a lot of company for this mystic journey!” As any visitor to his website can see, Wilcox loves a challenging journey. Whether shooting down the highway in his silver bullet Airstream trailer in