Rob Conrad

Hmm, what to say. It seems that I just can't win with men. I try to tell them just how i feel about them but they don't want to hear me. I have been scorned by "love" and all that is envolved in it. It has hurt me like nothing else in my life, and i don't know why. It's all i have ever wanted to feel, like i am truely loved for whom and what i am. I regard love as a word now, and nothing more. It is a way for us as humans to simplify all the feelings we have for someone so we don't spend eternity telling someone how we feel for them. Me, i would rather spend eternity telling someone. It would make me the happiest guy in the world if i could meet a guy that just understood that. I wouldn't just say "I love you" all the time. It's so cliche. I would tell them that my heart beats faster when they hold me, that i hold my breath everytime they open the door and i see them there, that i get a funny feeling in my stomache when they smile cuz i could see them smile forever, and so on. I could go on with the list fore