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The Tale of the Creative Style; LS.
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In this style Ls; of sharp lines and fringe realism has origin in 2016 spring and comes from the design of lego boxes and the minifigures in how each part of their body and design is in a shape of sharp lines and emphasis. The drawing that I drew with this style at first I could say is a drawing of an individual whom I drew for MM culture 2015. Yet this design redesign inspired many more images that makes up the sketchbook that I worked on in the era of fall 2016 and even in and from 2017 to 2018. Yet it now rests in an “uneven” place of reference in a place it should not be placed like trash-on a bookcase even if physically straight in placement horizontally. I came up with some great ideas today. This style has changed over time but I am not getting into that here but later. This is just to talk about the style and its importance. The style has been used since this one drawing reimagining to this very day and finally the cycle is over and I have finished what can be said preparations to a new MM culture season and a new and better MK MZODERN amongst the Safari effort to launch all my comics into being. I tried my best to include headshots only with the people facing one side facing direction and it did and did not work in some instances and yet; the images I have compiled will not be seen till later. May be in any future magazine or not. But in the time I was redrawing this drawing of a certain person in the summer’s end-it was a dark time indeed in the world and yes in my life. I had worked and worked so much to an achieve a goal to get basics down and then I realized my work would not be good if I just forced myself to go to the next stage. To a break to improve myself. It ended up being a long break in the end as I could not complete activities to take the “ break” and had to do other work just to take the “break”. Manner to say I am pissed and things need to change in society-should not be supporting hostility towards art in universities, its social rounds and yes education itself in school and in the public’s eye of what art is. This new Safari effort brings the work I was going to do in the launch of a new MK MZODERN and MM culture season to fruition! All the comics will be completed. A person does not work three years to do something and then whimper out. No; this time I go big and large and finish works that people coward from and have no way
to even complete nor do.
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On a hinge note of something of importance through this all; people say that great men are supported by great women or women in general. Well fuck that shit. I have drawn women and all the women I have encountered since last year’s conclusion-none of them where the helpful in goals and dreams. And they make objective decisions so starky, on their privilege, misinformed, disingenious, regal even and decisive and snarky -based on whether you can fit into their life as their husband or spouse or significant other. WHEN YOU NEVER ASKED FOR THAT! And these people; alot of people are so delusioned with their own feelings ~ they think of the end of the world significance when you only want to know them. Going from 1 to 101 -real quick because they all just want to find someone to live their lives with in the most shitty ways. Because their manners of who they should live with are dreams and they will never understand the realness of what is “ real love”. They only want some fuck that is going to beat them and do them harm. Harm mostly to what they want to achieve in life and then place that image on me for just wanting to get to know them. I refuse to dress up as a rapist or a criminal or so lowlife just to get the girl. Or tolerate their bs; I never sink to their level. I continue to treat people as they need to be treated. And if these girls ever wake up and realize how damned “alone “ they are or abuse they are because of their pliant misconceptions. To weaponize ideology of superiority off the bat where and when they surely have none. For all the little women in the world wanting to be successful people-they never will be. They don’t know how to work for their goals and they have next to no morals and are jerks to everyone who they don’t see belonging. What if I was so damned hostile to everyone because they were not my dream girl? It would not make the world a better place and just introduce discord for no fucking reason and for all the privilege of me thinking I am so much better than everyone else~it would not be right when surely if I was like these girls no of my dreams would be accomplished and still stuck in community college and everyone knows your number and yet you still don’t get how greatly you sow nothing into being by being such an asshole. When I talk of their goals is to get a four year degree by transferring. And let me tell you; that is no easy feat especially when you fail some classes and are likely to with your know it all self of the world. Or when you especially expect to transfer and with your low knowledge of the world don’t know what a real college experience is like. Don’t have a
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handy associates degree to get you money so you don’t end up in too much debt. I have been candid not to address why I even bring up relationships but I have said here and before it is because they impact the artwork and yes the view of the author upon the world. I cannot tell you how many times plans of here were impacted just because of women and then ditched and rethought just because of disappointments. This style of artwork I have created while based on the toy of Legoes and its boxing and packaging art can only go just that far in interpersonal connections. It can only be in realm of anywhere to children lifestyle and perspective of fun, success and glory of completing dreams to adult and alone just completing it alone and in maybe in the spirit of youthful fun, success and glory. As the box of Legoes says its age range. However in this style it is limited in a different manner. If you never looked at the box of Legoes-you can’t play when you are 100 or below the age of probably 5 or even 6 or 7. There are no women who are included. There are no women on your side and if ever try to include them in art or anything-it is a failure because they will make you pay so dearly for ever even having a heart. And what I have learned my friends is to frankly ignore all that shit. If people have problems with you and your progress, you art and your work and how you truly are and do things and want to make judgments when they don’t know you; let them go-its not worth it. You will only just end up alone but later with poor company too all that time you could have been with someone better. This style is built behind stories of women who you think you can trust, dream about and even “love”-but for pathetic, silly and quiet evil reasons they will always let you down. And namely so stupid many times to only notice their own social mannerisms as key for all social life which is not ever the case at all when they suck so poorly at communicating and look like an emo low life on their fucking phones-not giving a damn about the world. Just a chain of women you think you can be to know upcoming but always think you are so good to be this object that is passed over because you are not the “husband” or “ dream” material you are only to them to even be an option to ever be. Try to find women who aren’t delusional and are confident; but its all the same damn thing. So confident in living like a failure on the sidelines in their own lives are many of these women. Maybe try to associate with women who have control over their actual lives and sought and
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fought for it and if they go to school-they actually work for it and care about it. But none of these people are so heavy in appearance in real life but appearance in the real legal sex industry. People who don’t conform to ideals that are just bundles of hatred indeed and supreme. Don’t conform to the ideas they should be lesser than they want. And by gods name; would not blame people for wanting to truly to get to know them instead of blasting them with incoherent pictures on a phone. Yet live in a world where women bash you for being the person you are and not the bastard they want-it shows you the ugliness of their character. The unholiness and faulty laughter that they don’t have any form of religion understanding at all but myths to fit in with every stubborn fucker in the world. Want to blame you for only what they see. And frankly if you are going to go as far as to think of a person as “husband” it shows your level of attraction and your level of respect as well when you never act to treat this person but another commercial item to pick from. And toss away the real prospect of ever getting to know them when you just prompt yourself to think they are just going to be yours. Toss away the real worth of what they give in reality.This is the shit that drives people mad. If not for my discipline and overt respect for women- I would have stopped and just let things be. Being so fulfilled to think in cliques and not in real reason. Pondering people a threat only because they are attractive to you. Fucking everything over that these people have to offer in reality because they don’t look like a “now” consumer product supported by your so and so gang on the net or in social that does not even represent real social life and reality! Pissing on everything nice they have to say and all their good intents just because you think you know it all with your privilege. Hauntingly referencing a boyfriend that does and does not exist! Never caring that they have a heart and only want to do good for you. Only rejecting they live in the land of sanity while you live swinging in self denial of things only in which you see. And most importantly never caring to see that they only built up courage to speak and talk to people which is something frankly you will never do and just expect everything to fall into order with your “ dreams “ and your “plans” when they are immoral and just expect it with no work. Read the next line carefully to think that great women make men do great things. I truly bled my heart out these three damn years of my life. Just ven-
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turing and dreaming and hoping that people would play some part in my life if anything good at all but no one had anything but evil to offer- everyone so devote in religion and helping people only want to target people for their looks and murder them in frank; the worst of it was that all these people could see a connection and then wipe away as if it was shit on their faces and then try once when they realized they fucked up to think that it was so good and okay they realized it at the end. Realized they fucked up and yet wanted to feel good that there is still you in their options. Or some people so disgusting hate you for just being an option. Particular girl I went to school with in middle school in 6th grade only was satisfied when she could look at me angry anytime I just happened to look at her. Nothing worse than seeing a racist who is not this pop culture definition of one; white and blond-but she was latina and trying to be oh so blond. Going to so office away from the hostile people with mental issues and daddy issues even to the back of the school just to work in peace with all this made up drama around people you don’t even fucking know. So much drama for talking to people they must be royalty and you on the lowest rung of a caste system. Had a girl pace back and forth as if “ trying to decide with friend to do with ‘negro stalker’”. When I was just sitting down to draw in a place I drew every day I had class for the longest time ever before I ever noticed she existed or rather she is the one who noticed me. Having people ignore you and make fans and speak shit for just speaking to them is the worst thing ever. Having people true and true turn around a stab you as a hinderance just because they are lazy to do anything at all and make everything too seriously or as if they have done a crime. I wish I had smashed the girls phone over her fucking head before ever taking a dumb picture of her “outfit” think she was so good looking-she had the frame work of a fucking stick. The worst of this abuse if it is to be said that; being this individual everyone wants yet are too damned evil to even deserve it - is that it hurts to see people suffer and not really are even adults and you know they are going to fail because of what happens and has happened to people just like them in the past. Or rather that they believe hype of cultural nonsense and pop culture before they ever believe in you despite them seeing you as gold hanging from a tree or trees or a pasture of trees even! I was once young, full of energy and optimism. So full of these dreams of women who never existed not for the hell of it. Yet continued on and on. Like everything was good. But just been forced to watch the ugly in people because of “you” or their im-
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age of “you” which is not you at all but their twisted heart crying in pain is the worst thing at all. Realizing all that time ago you would not commit suicide to just be with a person. “Suicide” in the fact that everyone would have attacked you for even being with them and show a motive to be said in all you see each and every day why they would. Because they all all hate/love you and put a target on your back as if an enemy in which helps them be the hero in their own fucked up story. Realizing you could not be a “ you” who would fight for a girl who would truly love you and support you even. That every one of these angry heads of non repentance might as well just be a punishment for never doing what ever had to be done! That you are being punished forever and ever-just to have people like you to only hate you in the end and do the most fucked up wrong as if shit or even black make up to smear. Acting as if you are bad news. So committed to this hatred and will never realize the real feelings they hold to even care about a person who is just a stranger in truth. Its like being rained onthis endless cycle of would be strong badgers who think they are better than everyone else. You dream and you work and move and don’t even process the wrong-so you don’t get caught in childish bullshit that you are so type of wrong, bad news and criminal in the most cringest manner of them all. Work tiredlessly you forget the real expectations of life and how things are done and when miraclousy when you worked up the social level suddenly the rain stops falling and expecting the bad bitch of them or even a final boss or even a worse foe discover there is no one. And that there never was anyone. And you just been alone, suffering, talking to people who don’t take you seriously, drawing and trying to make ambition real. Continuing in pain. That is not physical but spirtual, of the heart and mental. Eventually closing off the heart from any real expectations until you see that people do care for you. But never will remove the closed off heart because there is only one person who ever did that and no one will make it so. While these people suffer truly to think they are winning with these trifle ambitions and short dreams and goals that go no where and not even morally done good- they think they are “orderly and adults” when really they are just spoiled bitches and children who will never ever know what true adults are like. Forever making people who are not the problem-the problem and never pointing a finger at theirselves. Tried; a person is seeing these people become republican like scum- or people comfortable with committing crimes and doing wrong and most importantly fucking every good and honest working person over with their bs. Why do you think there are so many teachers who sleep with their students in the modern era? Its not because it was undetected so much before; it is because society gives air to the end through how shitty education is taken and the idea that the teachers who really do not care about their students and only think of them as means of a paycheck can do anything to these “sons of bitches” whom they assume are all on some form of welfare or even just can do because of their appearance! The teachers think they are justified to fuck over people because they only care about their paycheck and as well to be said of many people who come from education systems as graduates into the workforce only care about their small perspective of believes and doing things and nothing else and all their mismanaged learnings ~ just do wrong in the world and anyone they are too encounter. Such to be said while people think they know where you are going-some guy who might as well be this item to just be lucky enough to end up in bed with these “godly” women or not all and stepped over like a bad rug~the future is quiet clear for these people. Despite their colorful backgrounds and their dreams and ambitions will only led to more prejudice and abuse and destruction and hatred of real human values. So diversify the fuck you want; the system is what is broken. A system that attempts to correct right people by murdering them-and attempting to injure their heart and beliefs and yes
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spirituality. I learned so much from talking and drawing and people only doing wrong for the high level of input I gave. How little consideration for my dreams these people ever had. How damned stupid they are and never will ever know anything worth knowing when they think people are items to be bought in a magazine. Avert nothing to say- this style of mine is not with any really good stories of romance and people’s involvement as I would else try to “suggest” in public or herein which I never ever said at all. Whenever I try to put down the mechanical pencil; all these happenings resurface and they keep on growing and growing-try to clear the pan-yet nothing works anymore to keep down this raging disbelief, agony and pain or disdain for all these bitches and “women” who have gone and came! Realize this is supposed to be fun, draw great images and finally clear the mind but it still sticks to the back of me like a damned shadow and a haunting yet continue. Talk and talk to these various women and realize how dare damned; its a waste of time. Realize again that its not when you know how to talk to people better and not in the self hating way but in a self respecting away but it does not change the drown of people who really are just splatting ink all over the walls and proclaiming the world as empty as truly as they are of any meaning of honesty to theirselves. So low they are hindered teenagers even if approaching their thirties and not good nor honest ones either. Tried of being hit with bad news that does not think it is bad news. Realize that when you find people and yes people-its good finally to be accepted by folks who are honest. But yet does not change all the story it took to ever reach this point. Realize that you want no one using later or thinking this style is something happy with a happy story behind it when really its something so terrible as walk a mountain where boulders always crash down and while there seems to be breaks and peace inbetween-there is none-a boulder just crashes down on you. You can make a progress and feel good. Until someone just rips out your heart by unfollowing you and dumping all the trust you had down the drain. Detecting to say just thought to judge you as wrong in a personal space in which you have sole freedom and control over and nothing you posted was ever the fact wrong. Maybe this and maybe that you can say but you can never come across so steadfast and pointing fingers because two wrongs don’t make a right. Honestly wishing your next talk or happening with them would not be wrought with the concern of why they unfollowed or these igornances of you because you are not this product that was guaranteed to work. Wishing for a return.But then you don’t and realize-how scared
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you are afraid everyone will turn against you all the same. And will get to a point of realizing you cannot control anything and if you did even try to do anything it would be morally wrong and disrespectful and always allow people to hit you and betray you because would never become this person of bad character and bad manners in all honesty. In the last few days even a unfollow has become unbearable but its not because you are about to break. It is because you know that there is a potential of you getting hit and someone always walking away smiling because of it. I am so glad I returned to the beginning where I implemented this style. Realize how much of life people try to take away and how much you give. How well you live in reality while others struggle. How people cannot help others nor theirselves and shirk from any honesty of their pathetic religious beliefs to help anyone. “Pathetic� because they are just for show when the world knows what is real and their beliefs never are.Realizing this artstyle is capital and representative of hard work and strife and hard work to overcome strife.Which it was not meant to ever be but cannot shake the memory and one should not if they respect theirselves and the meaning behind the art influence by the background happenings whilst pursuing using the style in work. That to be said the reason why I am going to talk about it various changes is because the style is connected to many stories that can only be explained in the broad context of the story of MM culture itself plus the author’s own story and imagine that will take some time. This is what I have been working toward of late. But I always did want to explain my art in such complex ways and this is that place for it...
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