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Inside the Mind of the Depressed

Depression slowly drains the life from you, making you feel like a certain darkness follows you everywhere that you go. No matter how bright and vivid the background is, you always feel like you stand out due to your depression.

People who suffer from depression tend to have scars, some visible and some hidden, bot of the battles that they have overcome. Every day is a war bu

th leaving them wounded. They forget that their wounds are battle scars that tell the story ut the past has been overcome and the future is ever inviting.

During countless therapy sessions, group and individual, you begin to notice how people have their own indiviaul nervous ticks. I tend to grab my necklace when I feel a rush of anxiety coming on. Instead of focusing on other peoples stories, my eyes are drawn to how they react when they are speaking. The way people pick at their nails when sharing a story about a rough encounter they had or how they twirl their hair when talking about a lover adds more to the story then people let on.

Depression causes you to view yourself in a way that no one else can see. There are times when you feel as though everything around you is spinning and you have just become an insignificant blur. You have a distorted view of who you really are.

One of the only places that I feel safe is when i grab my legs and pull them close to my chest. When my mind is breaking apart I feel that if I can literally hold myself together that perhaps all of my broken pieces will come back together. This photo to me captures the quintessence of depression.

Depression causes you to focus on all of the negative things in your life. Even though there might be beautiful aspects in your life, you always focus on the darkness.

Depression has a tendency to consume all of your thoughts, you feel an overwhelming desire to shut out the rest of the world. When this happens to me, there are only two things that can save me from myself; music and my bestfriend.