the thing i think about most is that there’s an infinite number of possible things to think or say or do so how do you know if that’s what you are supposed to say [are they subconscious things just below the surface, do all the possible things to think already exist somewhere just not in the space of our consciousness, or are they potential energies]
know which to do and when you do finally produce said thing, what makes you choose that specific thing? like honestly it just seems like there’s so much fucking clutter over everything, i’m constantly decluttering everything, yet when i’m faced with a clean room, a clear schedule and a calm mind, i feel like it’s so wrong. ever since i can remember being conscious it has been natural to worry about something, or feel ill over something.
Releasing
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Trying
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I don’t want to be seen as messy or stirring up negative energy I just want to be light and airy …………. positive light gentle and pure it’s funny because i feel like my intentions are just that, so innocent and caring yet I feel like I have this energy inside that’s just dark and ugly. but honestly that’s everyone and i can’t be perfect but I just need to work on releasing the negative energy, in private or through creative ways, and then emit rays of light