Still Life 2020

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toxic Jaden O’Berry i hope you see me. every time you close your eyes, every time you blink, every time you see a girl with long brown hair and miles of pale skin—i hope you see me. i hope you hear my laughter resonate through quiet rooms and i hope you can still feel the way my cold hands would trace patterns on your bare skin. i hope when you cradle her in your arms at night you are plagued with the way my legs curled around yours as we slept. i hope that you smell the scent of lavender and feel the ghost of my hair through your fingertips; i hope you smell peach and remember the velvet softness of my skin. i hope i envelop your mind the way a disease envelops patient zero, because, my god, i was your patient zero. ever since i laid eyes on you i have been plagued with this feeling slinking among my day-to-day routine, taking over my every waking thought. i am the patient that still experiences symptoms through quarantine walls, i feel nothing but the ghost touch of a boy who i thought could redeem me. and while i’m stuck behind this one-sided glass all i see is you and her and the way her eyes shine at the caress of your hand. that’s when i realize: i was never the disease—i was the diseased. and now she’s been infected, too.

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About Our Benefactor

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pages 96-98

About Our Contributors

21min
pages 86-94

there and back again,” Madeline Bruessow

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page 84

Our Own Magic,” Jolyn H. Ohlendorf

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page 83

tu me manques,” Madeline Bruessow

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page 81

La Fiesta de Traje de Saginaw,” Lauren Wells

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page 82

Standing Song,” Joshua Jordan

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page 76

The Moral of the Movie,” Eric P. Nisula

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pages 79-80

toxic,” Jaden O’Berry

1min
page 77

Stars to the North,” Taylor Tucker

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page 75

Tomatoes,” Kathleen Tighe

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pages 73-74

Love Cremated,” Rachel Diehl

1min
pages 70-71

Taraxacum,” Austin Bauer

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page 65

what america has done to its veterans,” Matthew Sauer

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page 66

No Longer Me,” Devonn Fernbach

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page 67

The Conversation, with a Golden Shovel,” Deda Kavanagh

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page 63

do you remember,” Denise Hill

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page 62

Grandma’s Hands,” Chris Lucka

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page 61

Social Media Friends,” Julie Debats

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page 60

Offerings,” Jared Morningstar

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page 59

Falcon, Fly On,” Tristan Harman

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page 58

Existence,” Matt Chappel

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page 52

Post-Post,” Cbxtn Fig

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pages 54-55

grief is the song stuck in your head when you wake up,” Katy Haas

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page 51

Humanity’s Rainbow,” Michelle Perreault

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page 50

Home from the Conference,” Bruce Gunther

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page 49

Miles,” Mark Sheffield Brown

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page 47

Consumption,” Todd Stockmeyer

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page 48

Journal of Life,” Andrew Dudewicz

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pages 41-42

Naturally,” Caroline Helmstadt

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pages 43-44

Heartsong 2020,” Serena M. Pittman

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page 46

I Wish I Was an Astrophysicist,” DJ Slater

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page 40

Lauren Wells

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pages 38-39

Cathedrals,” Karen Lulich Horwath

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page 36

Student Experience,” Imari Cheyne Tetu

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pages 34-35

A Box of Diamonds,” Rosemary Kavanagh

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pages 30-31

Broom Clean,” Stuart Barbier

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page 25

Light in the Dark,” Kaili Goodrich

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page 24

Upside Down Club,” Josh Crummer

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pages 28-29

Traffic Signs,” Hannah Gradowski

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page 23

Social Surgery,” Alexis Beauchamp

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page 20

Beach Towel Fashion Show,” Jennifer Nichols

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page 19

Split Personality Parade,” Vanessa Willette

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page 16

Strike,” Brenna Dean

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page 18

Goodnight Moon,” Mark Brenner

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page 12

The Cinder Blocks Remember,” Donny Winter

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Editors’ Note

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Food Coloring,” Marjorie Talaga

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