Ultra-Alone Digital Booklet by Andres Monroy

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CONTENTS PAGE 1. ALBUM COVER PAGE 2. TABLE OF CONTENTS PAGE 3. ULTRA ALONE PAGE 4. MY SOUL PAGE 5. BEATS 4 U PAGE 6. OUT PAGE 7. HAUNT ME INTERLUDE PAGE 8. INSIDE PAGE 9. NOW PAGE 10. ON MY OWN PAGE 11. ULTRA ALONE POSTER PAGE 12. DONT MAKE SENSE (POEM) PAGE 13. INTERVIEW P A G E 1 4 . I N TE R V I E W ( P A R T 2 ) PAGE 15.WONDERING (PICTURE) PAGE 16. SAY ARA (POEM) PAGE 17.SONGS YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO B4 U DIE PAGE 18. FIELDZ (PICTURE) PAGE 19. FAVORITE MOVIES PAGE 20. SELF PORTRIAT (PICTURE) PAGE 21. ALLIE TO MY NOAH JUNIOR (POEM) PAGE 22. THIS FEELZ LIKE A MOVIE (POEM) PAGE 23. RACHEL PAGE 24. BILLY PAGE 25. DUANE PAGE 26. SEBASTIAN PAGE 27. THANK YOUâ&#x20AC;&#x2DC;S PAGE 28. CREDITS PAGE 29. E ND.

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my soul my soul and all i know is changing and i grow the time has slipped away the night took all the day

MY SOUL

busting in on days and nights where family is forgetting how to make things alright / and all my friends just don’t really make me (no) feel good / and all my girls they forgetting just how to hit it right they forgetting / on my own im forgetting what i know / please set me free / why i always feel alone / changing colors and the tones / for me to feel free my soul my soul and all i know is changing and i grow the time has slipped away the night took all the day and now i feel this emptiness in my soul and now i feel this calling i don’t ever wanna feel again i don’t ever wanna feel again i feel like its an abyss / of distilled water / love ever since i kissed my mother told him / run forrest / so he’d run the check / off the deck / pushed off fools / and hugo boss wearing tools / no money / or medication can come solve this / or stupid online test lets / the world revolves us / everyones around but yet theres no world, unless there is some signal / i think thats a sign / that everyone is maybe single / its an issue we can take some pictures in the hotel my soul my soul and all i know is changing and i grow the time has slipped away the night took all the day take it back / maybe it is not them who cannot see / maybe it is me / it is all in me its all in me help me / its all in me / its all in me my soul my soul and all i know is changing and i grow the time has slipped away the night took all the day

BEATS 4 U

i only know my heart, it only beats 4 u no part, of what we promised is forever but i always know its true i know

i never wanna go, never wanna know, the whole truth but i always wanna go, always wanna know, the whole truth if we know that we are meant to be baby you know that this love is free i only know my heart, it only beats 4 u no part, of what we promised, is forever but i always know its true i know another a call, another day by the sunset are my days always flying high away and i know that we are here, so maybe i should enjoy right now and not let all my fear eat away who i am as a person who i can, see and be you know baby i am searching, 4 u and me and i know we are destined, but maybe i am affected, by the way you move my heart, it only beats 4 u no part, of what we promised, is forever but i always know its true but i know baby my heart, for you is always gunna beat, always gunna beat my honest truth is never gunna be all you want from me iâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;ll make the move, if all its gunna take is a simple mistake for us to die iâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;ll walk on the thin line all i want is you i only know my heart, it only beats 4 u no part, of what we promised, is forever but i always know its true i know

bitch hold up i got the money, tell me im funny i like attention, now this your redemption you can come get it / yea you can come get it

OUT

old skools, with the navy blue / introducing what you already knew keeping on keeping it cool / i do not fuck with a fool i do not leave it to chance / you know i love an advance and that i am stuck in past / some how the future too fast she come to me and she ask / “what life you living today?” champions only, champagne consoles me bottles at 12 / questions in 5 you coming with me or you living a lie? / my hands on her thigh i fucked her the first, fucked her the first never thought i’d die / never asked why / always looking high / yessir clock so heavy / so cold / so bold / really / my wrist hurt / just like heavens gate / i know my fate / ima die soon / (be)’fore that / i ignore that / and i get to work / and i get a purse / with some lingerie / send it to my bae / she done tell me straight / that she heard my name / everybody talkin / synadrace is poppin’ / and she ready hoppin’ / on the fucking boat / how i hit this note reaching for the stars / at the seminar / i don’t need this shit / you all getting tricked / and i tell that bitch / ima be so rich / ima be so rich / iam be so rich sold out the venue she text me / you like a pro in the Bentley / pictures she sent me / “your voice is sexy and calm” / then she go blow like a bomb / mine-ing my business / text me and i said “who is this?” / she is the real / voice in the deal aye aye / i am the best in the city / come test me if you don’t fuck with me / ooh you been gone 5 years now / pour one out cause you were poor with me i think i drank too much and im bout to feel the floor hit me you ain’t never seen a hoe test me i’m off two xans, please no exams i’m the man / cause i got a plan button down with my black pants / leather seats and i drive fast i don’t need you got contacts / i don’t see you no contacts i’m busy right now call back / promoting the image i pour one im feeling, rolling the civic / i don’t like lobster. but i like the image so imma buy 40 and i hate my dinner fuck on her best friend the usual / bitches address me as beautiful she say i’m full of myself / she fool around with my belt tell her she’s mine and for nobody else / send in your man, i’ll talk to him you’d be surprised yeah im charismatic / if they mad man i don’t care about it that’s just a part of my check / pardon my French, we are not friends kubrick / i move like two bricks / with my eyes wide shut / i knew it / when i dropped FS / that they would give a fuck / they hitting me up on the celular / aye call pretty on the regular / aye they ask me syna can you take me there / i wrote a tape and now they start to care

i got the money / tell me im funny / i like attention / this your redemption / you can come get it / yea you can come get it /

HAUNT ME INTERLUDE

baby the sooner i go you know the soonest, i know you only want me when im not there by your side, its a thought that will haunt me

INSIDE baby what you doing? why you tryna-why you tryna show em? the power that you got inside is glowing and i can feel your inside baby, yo girl bring that here / we can dance / till our minds / then are so clear / suns will rise / new day skies / i am all here / if you want / me i’ll take you on a ride / show you new highs inside baby what you doing? why you tryna-why you tryna show em? the power that you got inside is glowing and i can feel your inside baby, yo takin’ it back like too quick and if you wanted 2 aye and if you wanted 2 aye and if you wanted 2 aye filming a nude like kubrick and if you wanted to aye and if you wanted to aye then we can go and ooh hey play in my futon / grey suit on 50 shades / my gray poupon / no need for alone / i got you / you got me / sonny and cher / we can share for us / we / can dance alone but why do / just me and you / just you and i baby what you doing? why you tryna-why you tryna show em? the power that you got inside is glowing and i can feel your inside baby, yo Part 2: “Mental” baby you so fine i would like to take you on a magical ride idontknow what is it with you, but i’m hypnotized in your trance take off your pants and let me inside baby you and i my mental, my mental / my mental could not hold your image is painted on my eye lids / to hold / - you are the sun babe you are the sun

NOW no baby please don’t feel alone now now baby we could get along now i wanna, feel your skin against mine we could, love each other all night we could do it off sight we could go / we could go all night all night all night baby you / spread apart like / all the mar when im whippin / whip my car / stick shift / till i’m at the bar / i can not go / you put on a show / put on a show / (baby you know) baby you know / we feeling our skin / we just begin / killing me softly / i will surrender / under your reign (rain) / fuck to this soft beat / i wrote it in stone / i wrote in our name / baby i couldn’t go days, without you by my side that temple is power, i praise, what i feel inside no baby please don’t feel alone now now baby we could get along now i wanna, feel yo skin against mine we could, love each other all night we could do it off sight we could go / we could go all night all night all night

ON MY OWN baby you know baby you know, if you give me your soul baby you know where my heart really lies i will not cry when tears drip down on where i reside i hide the tears whenever i feel, like im all on my own no matter if its night or if its day i think that i need your helping now i want some love, and in the rightest ways i think that could be so healthy now baby this love that i just feel inside i cannot hide i have to let some one in on my love for you ultra alone

INTERVIEW Hello, who are you? Hey, I’m Andres Monroy, or Synadrace, which is what I make music under. I am currently sixteen years old. Umm…I make music, haha… I produce and compose my music from scratch, and I also sing and rap, and I like designing, designing is cool in all aspects. I’ve made music for a very long time, and I like coffee. Oh also, I’m typically a really sad person, I don’t know so much about lately though. What was your purpose and inspiration for your project “Ultra Alone”? Anxiety and depression. That seems to be a trending topic amongst the kids these days so labeling it as that seems almost annoying but I think they’re both things I’ve dealt with the majority of my life at this point. On top of that, and I guess intertwined with that, comes feeling alone. I watched a Jean-Michel Basquiat documentary once and it talked about Basquiat feeling this way, just like an abyss that you fall deeper into, endlessly. Well, that’s not what they said in the film but what I’m trying to say is that some of my biggest inspirations like him and Marina Abramovic talk about this feeling of “alone” and the fact that these passionate artist accomplished what they always dreamt of and made connections and probably did most things they wanted to do, they always had/have this feeling. The thought of this feeling of being truly alone, creates this endless anxiety, and you feel that feeling before you cry, but without the crying, and you feel it all of the time. Makes you want to throw up and shit like that. Point is, I came to the conclusion that this is a feeling that I will feel for the rest of my life, and that sucks man. Like it really sucks. That’s why great artist resort to drugs to solve these problems and I don’t know, it’s just all stuff that haunts you in a way. Progression is a big part of being an artist; do you see this as a big step for your career or artistry? I don’t know so much about my career, being realistic, that has a lot to do with the success I gain and in this new day and age success seems almost sporadic. For artistry though, oh yea, this is probably some of my favorite music I’ve ever made. Artistically, I think I’m at this point in my local career where I came out as a certain artist with my first project “Falling Short.” And that artist was a very new and insecure artist, almost in every aspect. I felt as if I vocally didn’t do my best, and I didn’t present my best bars, I think the one thing that attracted people to the project was that I was able to depict myself as a person very well. Now, the content which I was covering was automatically vulnerable and insecure because of the time of my life in which I wrote Falling Short, it was a pretty bad time for me. Falling Short did really well though, and the kids around the city loved it, which gave me a confidence I think I needed. Ultra Alone is the product of that. My friends told me that when they first heard the music on the project, there’s definitely an underlying confidence throughout the whole project, especially in my vocals and production. I feel comfortable as an artist and went ahead and made and R&B/Pop EP haha. Another equally important part of artistry is self-critique, in which ways do you feel like you fell short on this project? Yea I completely agree, I’m usually pretty hard on myself and as you know Sebastian, I’ve trashed like 3 albums and two mixtapes haha. Although this is the project I’ve been the happiest with, I’m not completely content with certain things. For one, my mixing and mastering is not to the level that my production is and that’s always going to bother me until I up my mixing and mastering. Also, my songwriting, I took a personal and sentimental approach with Falling Short, and on this project I focused a little too much on the song as a whole, and the melodies and production rather than the lyrics. They are well structured songs, probably my best, but I’m talking I want Frank Ocean, Rex Orange County, Ed Sheeran type of writing skills. That’s just something I haven’t necessarily attempted to execute, but I’ve definitely explored. Speaking of, it’s been almost a year since your debut project “Falling Short.” If you could give your younger self any words. What would they be? Good job man, don’t be so hard on yourself, you made a move, you did some shit people don’t do down here. Also keep doing your thing, you’re doing just fine by taking your time and crafting your skills. You did a good job at getting people’s attention; I know that was one of your biggest fears. You also expressed yourself clearly; I know you always feel like you haven’t said everything you need or want to say. Give the letters to Sebastian, Billy, Duane, and Rachel. Don’t throw them away bro. You’ll continue to experience hardships throughout this year, but dude, this next year is going to fly by, probably the fastest any year has to date, and I don’t think any year from now on will slow down again. So get on your shit man, don’t waste a moment because death isn’t as improbable as you and every kid thinks. On a similar note, what questions would you ask yourself a year from now? Is everything okay? Things are getting so hectic right now, and I feel like I have to make decisions that are going to affect the rest of my life and I don’t know if I’m making the right ones. Does Ultra Alone do well? How is full time DE? Have you gotten accepted into any colleges? Are you finally completely over her? You probably are, I’m just wondering though. Have you found someone else? Part of me wants to wish that you have so that you can feel that joy in your heart again, but half of me wishes you haven’t even searched for love, because you should probably focus on your shit man. Have you advanced in music or do you have to do it less? Please tell me you haven’t slowed down the pace for other things. Also, how are your friends? How are mom, dad, and Isabella? That’s all, I think.

Besides obvious musical inspirations, do you have any subconscious inspirations for what you do today? Everyday life is inspiring. The relationships you build with people and the experiences you share with them are inspiring. Fashion is inspiring, I take a lot of inspiration from the fashion world, stylisitically of course. Movies are inspiring. In the summer of 2016 I got grounded for getting caught drinking and at the time a lot of other things were happening and i was really sad, so without a phone or anything to communicate, I started watching movies, ever since i’ve loved films and they inspire me to write. Oh, art as well, like Picasso. Performing arts like Marina Abramovic. And probably my favorite photographer Ren Hang who actually died a month or so after i found out about his work. Rest in peace man. If you could sum up the steps to becoming who you are today in five events, what would they be? -The day I told my parents that I felt like crying but couldn’t. -The day i quit swimming to start acting. -The day i downloaded beatmaker2 on my iPhone -The day my dad got his U.S residence -The day Isabella was born -Midnight on new years Tell the first story that comes to your head. Why did that one come up? One time i was outside running at around 10:30pm and i ran into my neighbor. He was fully clothed and had on some slides. Keep in my mind this man is like sixty-something. He walked up to me and i asked him what he was doing outside and he said he saw me running and wanted to run as well. I could smell the alchohol in his breath. He asked if he could run with me, and although he interrupted my paced run i politley said sure. I told him that he’d have to keep up though because I was in the middle of running, he told me to not worry. So i started running and he started to as well. He had a limped type of run and I slowed down my pace and would look back to check on him every couple seconds and in one instance he lost a slide. I stopped running and i told him I could walk him back to his house if he wished and he said no, put his slide back on, and insisted we kept running, so we did. We ran for another thirty seconds or so as he attempted to keep up. I looked back to check on him as I was doing so repeatedly and he finally fell. He tripped flat on his face and i looked at him for a second as he lied there and didn’t say a word. I ran over to him and asked him if he was okay, and he said he was, and that he felt embarrased and stupid, and I said it was okay and that he shouldn’t worry about that. I told him that i should probabaly walk him back home and he agreed. On the walk back he said some creepy shit about me bringing girls over to his place and that he could provide and that he was lonley at home. He said he had just gotten back home from the bar where he struck out with some “chick.” And i was like okay man lets just get you back home and safe. When we got to his house (which is right next to mine), he thanked me and apologized again. I sent him off inside and told him to be safe. After that i finished my run and went on inside to end the day. Thats the first story that came to my mind. I’m not sure why. No reason in particular. Lastly, any announcements for the future or general words for anybody reading this? One day I’m going to release an album. I’m not sure when but I will make it the best thing i have ever created in my life. I’d like to thank anyone reading this interview. All of my “Thank You’s” are at the end of this book so I’ll save those for later. I love you all. Thanks for having me man. Thank you very much for your time.

SONGS YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO B4 U DIE Something About Us by Daft Punk Computer Love by Zapp & Roger So Anxious by Ginuwine Just The Lonely Talking Again by Whitney Houston Curse by The Internet Redbone by Childish Gambino Baby Be Mine by Michael Jackson Rock With You by Michael Jackson Beijo (Interlude) aka Brazilian Rhyme (Interlude) by Earth, Wind & Fire Me and Your Mama by Childish Gambino Over My Head by Alabama Shakes Love Song by The Cure Feels Like We Only Go Backwards by Tame Impala Chamber Of Reflection by Mac Demarco Impossible by Travis Scott Flight Of The Navigator by Childish Gambino Nikes by Frank Ocean Pink Toes by Childish Gambino Hold On, We’re Going Home by Drake Learn From Each Other by Majid Jordan Meet Me Halfway by Black Eyed Peas Only One by Kanye West Forrest Gump by Frank Ocean Hello Stranger by Barbra Lewis You Send Me by Otis Redding Coming Home by Leon Bridges One Step Ahead by Aretha Franklin Bless The Telephone by Labi Siffre She Lays Down by The 1975 Bonita Applebum by by A Tribe Called Quest Sing About Me, I’m Dying of Thirst by Kendrick Lamar Shadows by Childish Gambino Tell Your Friends by The Weeknd Bound 2 by Kanye West Premiere Gymnopedie by Erik Satie Pavane pour une infante defunte by Maurice Ravel Suite bergamasque: III. Clair de lune. Andante tres Expressif by Claude Debussy Ravel : Bolero by Maurice Ravel

MOVIES YOU SHOULD WATCH B4 U DIE The Pursuit of Happyness by Steve Conrad Synechdoche, New York by Charlie Kaufman Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind by Charlie Kaufman Moonlight by Tarell Alvin McCraney & Barry Jenkins Whiplash by Damien Chazelle 500 Days of Summer by Scott Neustadter & Michael H. Weber Life Is Beautiful by Roberto Benigni 50/50 by Will Reiser The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky Yes Man by Danny Wallace Forrest Gump by Winston Groom 12 Years a Slave by John Ridley The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks The Truman Show by Andrew Niccol Palo Alto by Gia Coppola, James Franco Up by Pete Docter Along Came Polly John Hamburg Friends With Benefits by Harley Peyton

SHE’S THE ALLIE TO MY NOAH JUNIOR HER EYES IN MY EYES, SHINE BRIGHTER THAN THE MOON HER LOOK, SHE GLOWS IT REALLY IS CRAZY, THE WAY SHE GLOWS IN MY EYES WHEN WE’RE AMONGST ALL OF OUR PALS, SHE STANDS OUT LIKE A PRIZE BEAUTIFUL IN MY PUPIL, SHE PREVENTS MY DEMISE I WONDER AND I GET SCARED, SHE COULD BE LUCY IN DISGUISE NEVER THOUGHT, THAT I WOULD FEEL THESE FEELING FOR ANOTHER THE LOVE ONLY RESERVED FOR FUTURE CHILDREN AND THEIR MOTHER OH BROTHER! SHE IS THE ALLIE TO MY NOAH JR. NOW THAT SHE IS GONE I WISH I WOULD HAVE MET HER SOONER.

THANK YOU‘S

I’d like to thank everyone who plays any role in my life. I’d like to thank my mom, for giving birth to me, loving me, and taking care of me my whole life. I’d like to thank my dad for loving me my whole life and just wanting whats best for me, as well as being my hardest critic. I’d like to thank Billy for always being there for me, that man has done been the best friend i could ask for. We’ve formed a bond that seems like it’d take a lifetime to form. I’d like to thank duane for always supporting me creatively. When I see your face light up after discussing an idea or anything it makes my day and validates the idea for me. You’re super talented man. I’d like to thank Rachel for always being there for me as well, you mean the absolute world to me and hopefully we will always be in each others lives. One day we’ll achieve our dreams and have happy lives, and i’m excited to see us both in those positions. You’re very special to me, and will always have a special place in my heart, don’t you forget. I’d like to thank Sebastian for being the brother i never had, i don’t know what I’d do without you man, the world is ours, and the future is ours. I’d like to thank the gang haha. Coral, Iriana, Jalynn, Emma, Erin, Evan, and Ryan. No matter what ever happens you guys have been so supportive and loving for the last year and i feel like i’ve known you guys for so long. I’d like to thank any one who has ever played a role in my life, because of you I get to experience life in a beautiful way, and because of you, at times i might not feel as alone. Thank you. -Andres

ULTRA ALONE written by

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A. Monroy 25