The Eight O’Clock
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November 2015
8 am Service, Christ Church, Kenilworth
Thank You, God
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Gretel and Tortie. Good friends
When I was a little girl and my
birthday was approaching, I’d excitedly check the postbox every day for a letter from my aunt who lived far away. She always sent a birthday card with a ten-rand note tucked inside. (In those days it was a lot of money and it also found its way to our house without being stolen!) I never spent the money straight away and kept it in a safe place where I could examine this generous gift at regular intervals. My mother was sure to check soon after receipt of the letter that I had penned and posted a ‘thank you’ note to my aunt. Handwritten and posted, not an SMS or email—we didn’t have those then. Recently, I was reminded of this when I wrote a handwritten thank you after receiving the special gift of a prayer shawl. Knowing that I’d been prayed for as this shawl was knitted into being and that I was so cared for; caused me to decide that a ’phone call or email was somehow inadequate to convey my heartfelt thanks. More so, then, however do I begin to thank God for His grace, goodness and many blessings? The other day I was feeling a bit down and audibly told Him so and then proceeded to rant at Him because He had allowed my tortoise to go missing. I had rescued her 30 years ago from a fire and just wanted her back, I’d searched high and low on the greenbelt behind my house; justified to myself that at least she’d escaped to a nice place and not into the street. I was overcome though that my reaction and outpouring of anger to God was so intense. On the one hand, I praised and thanked Him for some very specific blessings but also reminded Him that I had suffered a great loss earlier in the year and now He had taken Tortie too! I felt mad, bad and sad! I related this to my spiritual companion who made me feel better by saying that the missing of Tortie was magnifying the memory of my other loss. She also reminded me that God knew exactly where Tortie was and He was only answering my prayer journey— that in seeking greater intimacy with Him, I would relinquish November 2015 Eight O’Clock News
control to Him for all things, the outcomes to all situations and that included missing Tortie. Lynn D Morrissey in her book, ‘Love Letters to God’, writes one day she took the time to write a letter to God. Her emotions poured forth, spilling from her heart’s reservoir of love. ‘The act of writing, this praying on paper, had released a geyser of feelings formerly unexpressed’, she said. So whether we speak to God aloud or commit our prayers to paper, ‘It is the gift of your whole heart that God most desires— a heart without pretence or posturing; a heart in all its honesty, beauty, passion and brokenness; a heart pulsing with love, joy, sadness, delight, doubt, pain, anguish, even anger. True love expresses all emotions and true love; God’s true love for you— accepts them’. On Sunday I arrived home from church, changed into my bundubashing clothes and headed out back to search for Tortie. It was slightly overcast and a good time to find her seeking out a patch of sun. My friend and I went in different directions searching through the luscious wild fig and undergrowth. Still nothing. I then decided to search in a sandy, grassy area near some bushes and said to God, ‘I’m going to stop looking soon, I give up, if You want her to stay here, I’ll let it be’; and I thanked Him for all His goodness, power and protection. Then I turned my head to the right and looked down at the scrubby earth— there was Tortie, craning her wrinkled neck and looking up at me. I shouted ‘Hallelujah’, my friend came running and I burst into tears! Prayer to God becomes ‘our heart on our sleeve, our battle standard, our essence, our indelible signature, our emotional fingerprint, our private well of memory… our true secret self.’
- Cheryl Anderson