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MASTERHEAD Editor-in-Chief Managing Editor

Hannah Teves Ale E.C.

Editorial Board Members

Bee Gurleen Kang imari m.m. clement Kate Minzner Lauren Glevani aulina ierra a uel ins n B urs

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m immensel r u t have een a art this issue. A l t e le inclu ing a g han ul cl se rien s mine r e reall har t ma e sure this issue as actuall inishe s reall a reciate an ne h ta es the time t rea it. hen Hannah an irst starte tal ing a ut starting a lit mag as s che . till even in ur share e citement asn t sure it ul actuall ha en hich is h en e u sen ing ut a t eet as ing r su missi ns e re e even ha a e site r reall ha an i ea r hat e ere lanning n ing ith an that might e sent ur a . Less than h urs later ur ver r ugh e site as u an Hannah an ere us te ting all ur riter rien s. t s een a ut three m nths an s much m re r than hat ul have ever e ecte since then. That ma r ma n t e h en e u riting this letter uring m E GL class s rr ut u are a c ar l c ar l man ther ise ul never have are s reall this ne s n u.

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e eci e that ur irst theme ul e H ME. n t n h ever ne else li e it ut un it t e e actl hat as l ing r in this urnal. As an English ma r ust e t rea ing m re an m re st ries here ust asn t resent. Alm st ever ne as hite alm st all ere straight an i an ne ever c m laine a ut the lac iversit the m st e ere luc t get as s me ane Austen thr n in there. rea m re s that c ul h nestl ever a r ut still c ul n t in m sel r the rl inha ite in an th se ages. That s hat ante The Fruit Tree t e. ant it t e a urnal here LGBT e le es eciall e le c l r n t ust eel at h me in the ages ut als elt c m rta le s ea ing u an a ing t the c nversati n. still can t elieve that ther e le i n t ust agree ith this ut ut in the r t ma e sure this s ace as create . Than u s much t all the ther e it rs all the c ntri ut rs an again t all ur rea ers. e reall a reciate ur trust an ur time. Than u s s much. L ve

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TA LE OF O TE TS

La Sequia

a uel B urs.........................................

M ender s nl n Theor ................................... Stri es

Grace im................................................

Long istan e Kate Minzner................................ ntitled Lauren

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here s The earest Starbu s ............................... Life as Easier Then Matthe in ne .............. ea h Emo i.............................................................. ane

C nstance B ugie........................................

Turtledo e

Grace im..........................................

Brush M air el Hans n.................................. ur - igged rtemis

Christie an....................................

Talia Amat .........................................

Found in Hale Teves...................................... Boo store

Bee.......................................................

irls an a elgane.......................................... um ing nto The b ss

Hale Teves...................

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Grace im.............

Kate Minzner.............................................

ne More ie e of Stolen Land ome Less

Ale E.C..................

aulina ierra........................................

Time sn t eal But m Still Late................................... The ueer ome

Hannah Teves...............................

rag ueen issed Me ere..................................... s of et Smart

ile uglich.............................................

Kate Minzner..................................................

oint Bois..................................................................... o to Sa m a Lesbian in S anish ea hing for Sunlight aternal Falla homebod .

Ale E.C......

Hale Teves..........................

C nstance B ugie.........................

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O TE T AR I S

Stri es H m h ic vi lence escri e in irectl Turtledo e H m h ic slurs e

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La Sequia a uel B urs Crec en una e ue a ciu a en el n rte e M ic urante e una se u a mu larga. T av a recuer la rimera vez ue vi ll ver. ecuer el s ni ue hac an l s iecit s e mi herman mientras c rr a a mi cuart recuer sus manitas alman mi cara suavemente ara n asustarme n sa ien ue a esta a es ierta sus s ca s rill s s en la scuri a e su cara. u v z se a esa a c n in uietu . a uel a

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ecuer llevarl e la man al ar n s stenerl uertemente mientras le grit am s al ciel ue tan herm s era ue tant agra ec am s la luz ue n s rin a a urante el a ue a n le temer am s a la scuri a e sus n ches. Le i im s ue n s gusta a esci rar las iguras ue inta a en las nu es er n e e ll rar t a la n che. es e ent nces es es t l ue ve cuan llueve un ciel ll ran triste s l . am s r a en arme c n la lluvia c n las l grimas e alguien hirien . El ciel ll ra ace t las g tas cuan caen r ue recuer a ue t s tenem s c sas ue cuan e am s ue se acumulen esan tenem s ue e ar ir.

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1 The rought gre u in a tin cit in the n rth Me ic uring a l ng r ught ut can still remem er the irst time sa it rain. remem er m little r ther s eet against the en l r as he ran t m r m remem er his tin han s gentl ta ing m ace s as n t t startle me n t n ing am alrea a a e. His r n e es ere i e his v ice thic ith rr . a uel hel me the s is cr ing. remem er his little han arm in mine as lea him t the gar en remem er h l ing it tight as e t l the s h eauti ul she as h much e a reciate the light she sh ne n us uring the a an h e ere n l nger a rai the ar she r ught at night. e t l her that e l ve iguring ut hat igures she ainte in the cl u s ut she crie all night. Ever since then that s hat see hen it rains a cr ing s sa an al ne. c ul never e angr at a cr ing s at an ther hurting s ul. The s cries an let it rain n me ecause n h har it is t h l nt things until the eigh n u s much that u have t let them g .

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M ender s nl n Theor

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12 Stri es Grace im C ntent arning H m h ic vi lence escri e in irectl Tigers earn their stri es. But the art the n t tell u The stri es aren t a ch ice. u are ur stri es An ur stri es are u. as hen g t m irst stri e A iss ehin a girls l c er r m. he taste li e uic ruit gum ur um ling as n t h g t it. g t it n the al h me. M m ther ught the lie a ut m ruise. as al a s r ugh uring ractice. c ul lie a ut the ruises ut n t the stri e t ran n the right si e m ac h ul er la e t uttchee .

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13 Long istan e

Kate Minzner

Hi A crac le n the ther en the h ne A smile in ave rm. ever t see ever t hear The a li e an rien shi un u te .

ntitled Lauren

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here s The earest Starbu s

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Life as Easier Then Matthe in ne n the last a summer e re le t r c llege m irst rien esse an ent t ur av rite little sha s t n the cree an sat in the grass t gether t atch the a r ll . There as a magic in the air in th se aning a s summer. The atter ater ver the sm th river st nes the uzzing at ees hanging lazil in the air an the laughter chil ren en ing their three m nths ree m ille the air at all h urs the a an ell int the night. Ever ee the smells meat c ing l an sl n ar ecues ul a t thr ugh ut the h le t n ringing ever ne t gether in the t n s uare ith the r mises Tina ansen s asta sala Michael La rence s garlic rea an Alice Gar ner s lem n ca e. hen it as s me ne s irth a amm Cassell ul ring ut a ig r ste sheet ca e r m his a er ree charge an the h le t n ul sing t them. n the urth ul the men the t n ul lea us all ut int a iel an light u the s ith ire r s ught ust ver the c unt line. The t n Hu s n Cree as sh c ingl name a ter this little stretch ater that ran ast its ric an laster h uses. r m its h me s ring s me here in Kansas it r lle ver the heat an c rn iel s Ba er C unt thr ugh the s n the

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1 est si e t n ast the ert a s n High ch l t all iel un er the ri ge that c nnecte the t halves Main treet ast the hite alls an glimmering stee le the H l Grace Lutheran Church an inall l e ut t n. Eventuall it ul tum le in ne s nchr nize urst thr ugh the cit e rleans an int the Gul Me ic ver a th usan miles a a r m this insigni icant s ec n the ma . trange h the ater ha m re a li e in its e a s n the Mississi i than ha in m h le li e living in this t n. M st the time living in Hu s n Cree elt li e living in a little c et utsi e the rest the rl . t elt li e ur nl li eline ut this lace as thr ugh a screen either ur T s at h me r the c m uters at the la at sch l r ur h nes herever e c ul in service. But s metimes hen the stars aligne an c ul ut a a all m an ieties r a m ment an ust en the e le ar un me it asn t t a . An c urse there as esse h ma e things etter ust eing himsel . esse an his amil m ve t Hu s n Cree uring eighth gra e. The irst a e met he sat n ne t t me in irst eri an as e me r a encil. gave him m av rite ne an t l him he c ul rr it r the rest the a i he ante . ull e ecte him t rget li e m st e le ut as as leaving sch l

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1 he ran u t me an returne it. e ecame rien s uic l a ter that an in ur s h m re ear e starte ating. An t a he as l ing ne t t me in the grass l ing ust as eauti ul as he ever een. His e es ere a ee r n his s in an even c ler sha e his hair a tight m un ense lac curls. c ul have ha m a ul have ta en h t s r m ever angle cast the h le scene in r nze etche this int the s in ver m heart. ul have un a a t ca ture ever as ect this m ment in s ace an time an reeze it s c ul live in it rever. Because this as the a e th ne as c ming ever since the irst a licati ns ere seale in envel es an shi e ut acr ss the c untr the a as shi ing u t rth estern an ut Hu s n Cree . ssi l rever. reache ut m han t cr ss the c u le inches gr un et een us t gra his. He turne his hea t l at me as ur ingers sl l intert ine . He smile ut it as small hesitant. smile ac an ulle m sel in cl ser t him an isse him gentl . e lai there t gether r a e m ments atching the cl u s sl l ri t . esse li te his arm an lace it ar un me letting me rest m hea n his chest. let m sel as in the armth the a eeling his chest rise an all sl l eneath me. i u ever hear a ut th se t i s that g t

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1 run ut t n esse as e . c urse ha . esse as al a s c ming u t me as ing i ne a ut these l l cal legen s. al a s sai n th ugh. li e hearing him tal . haven t sai . t all ha ene a ac in li e the i ties. There ere these t gu s n the t all team. Ever ne th ught the ere ust reall g rien s ecause the ere al a s s en ing time ith each ther. t asn t until their c ach al e in n them ma ing ut a ter a game that an ne even un ut the ere ga . esse ause . r e ect n ere r t mentall rea himsel r the rest the st r . hat ha ene then as e . ell it as the i ties s naturall the c ach l st it an t l as man e le as ssi le. The asicall rme a m t g a ter them. These t i s nl esca e running n int the cree t l se them an stealing ne their amilies cars. The manage t sli a a int the night an ere never seen again. hat u thin ha ene t them as e a ter letting an ther l ng ause ela se. n t n . h e ever thing r e ut r them. That the re living in a nice h use s me here ha an t gether. n that s r a l n t true ut it s nicer t thin that g things ha en t

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le h eserve them u n gra e esse s han an ulle m sel in cl ser t him. eah sai thin s t . e sta e there t gether ra e u in each ther an the uiet serenit nature until the sun starte t inall sin an the lue lac cl a night as lai acr ss the s . e al e h me t gether ne inal time han in han . t ne inal l at the t n as leaving ehin all lit u in s ium an ne n. t r the irst time elt a t inge sa ness. As much as li e in Hu s n Cree c ul e sti ling an m n t n us it as the nl h me ever n n. esse an st n the hite ashe r nt rch m amil s h me h l ing each ther s han s an tr ing t igure ut hat t sa . l e int his e es ig an s eet an smile . e chuc le a little t rea the tensi n. G ill em u in Chicag hear he sai . ill. r mise me u ll c me an visit Ever chance get. t s a it a rive th ugh s ma e sure the e s nice an arm hen get there. smile . eal. leane in an isse him g night then atche as he al e n the rive a an turne t al ac t his lace isa earing int the ar . Then turne ac an ent insi e t s en m last night at h me.

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Christie an

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24 rtemis

Talia Amat

t light smells li e a mea in summer ahea the stale heat an sunscreen s l tches high n ur chee nes. ur smile is a secret am su se t n s su se . u laugh li e u are imm rtal an ant t learn a ut u r eternit ra trees n ur s in until mine are the nl trees le t n earth an the eer have c me egging r shelter. h am t turn them a a hen the have e es li e urs

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Found in Hale Teves

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2 Boo store

Bee

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2 t rea s aringl . learne a ut genres an hich nes re erre . learne hich s t return t hen nee e a rien . n ere hat in ul e. ul e an a venture A m ster A r mance r a l n t that last ne. ther e le ere s t . M est rien r m seventh gra e as The rin ess iaries. M reshman English teacher as Bloomabilit . M m ther as Emma ane Austen. ther e le ere easier t rea than m sel . M chil h as e le s s learne t rea e le as ell. learne t rite h ing c ul live a st r rth telling. ante a lace am ng the ruits m uth tuc m sel int a tree shel s ul al a s have a lace t el ng. asn t li e an ers n ne ut the s ere even stranger than as. it. An ma e i c ul rite m sel a h me in a st re calle sim l B K ma e c ul live a li e n n s litu e c m an .

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2 irls an a elgane C ntent arning H m h ic slurs e h m h ia

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i n t n li e girls even th ugh the ile u in m reams ith giant s t h ne e es an re li s curling li e crescent m ns. i n t n li e girls ecause hen the ance acr ss m min the e carr ing a sign screaming S E in right l letters. hat is this heart s aring this arming all ver all these ears s ent si ting thr ugh m n imm ralit thin ing do admire this girl am en ious or do ant to di e into the el et of her s in do ant to taste the sun in her hair ne m est rien s sees a g rge us man ith a i ie cut an sa s loo at that d e that ne s lla le smashing m rgans. i n t n li e girls ecause c ul n t imagine a rl here that ul e a . m ather atches t men iss an grimaces in isgust sa s t me than god ou ll onl e er be some man s ife. all these ears aste s ing c n essing sti ling the s eet in me nl in leeting th ughts an shame s lattere reams. letting s an er int m m m uth li e an unl c e h use ecause ma e ne a it ul ill the unnatural in me. there are girls living in m heart an the ill never ie. the lant a le trees an eg me t have a taste. ne a ll ring ne h me ta e her c at at the Proof Copy: Not optimized for high quality printing or digital distribution

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Hale Teves

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Kate Minzner

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Ale E.C

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hen h me le t me tran e hen it t l me as n t elc me hen the r rame al e ar un me An the r shi te ut sanctit M e es rg t h t cr . nstea ut n m armest c at An it ecame m h me an tan ing n the same s t Th ught hat it is t reathe An c ntinue t s . . hen le t h me hen al e ut n it hile the remaine Mesmerize their su ur an antas As i the c ul ssi l learn h t remem er me egan c unting the nights sta e u L ing at the stars Thin ing a ut hat it meant t live im rtantl A li e that m ve e le t un erstan ut m heart in m inner c et An e t al ing M uth tuc e un er m scar An n m us. Proof Copy: Not optimized for high quality printing or digital distribution

. hen un h me t elt center. l e at the amil h t s n the mantle An i n t in a s ec ust. The c uches still ha a la er lastic n it. M m ther i n t uite l li e me An she c ul n t remem er the a e use t sa g night. sat n at the ta le h ul ers slac eache r m sec n av rite cereal An ma e m sel at h me. . have n h me an er an er in an ut cus am gh st am grave ar am s irit am light am intangi le at the t uch An the rl l s right thr ugh me. n t remem er hat it eels li e t n T see m sel in technic l r n c l r in rain c l r nstea gra .

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The ueer ome The Contem orar eed for Shared omesti a S a e Hannah Teves A t ent ear l s irst a artment is rarel uni ue ree urniture ic e u the street anti ue lam s r m G ill an chi e Target ishes are sta les virtuall ever c llege stu ent s s ace. mmates t are alm st a re uirement r a irst h me as ell as ights ver h s turn it is t ash ishes r ta e ut the trash hen it starts t smell. egar less its c ntents r c nte t a irst a artment r rente h me is al a s tem rar an al a s mem ra le. r ung ueer e le h ever a irst a artment is a reci us thing. Alm st ever ueer ers n has elt un elc me in their h me an LGBT uth are at a higher ris r h melessness an vert than their cisgen er an straight eers. The mestic s ace is a gen ere area t a s ace here certain acti ns must tra iti nall e er rme acc r ing t ne s assigne gen er. r e am le as a chil assigne emale at irth as e ecte t clear the ta le an ishes a ter inner hile m r ther an ather ere ree t atch T r la vi e games. C nversel m r ther carrie all gr ceries r m the car t the ri ge es eciall an thing heav . The irst time ic e u a ac iet C e m sel an realize h eas it as t li t m ers ective

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3 n the mesticit the h me an its c nnecti n t gen er se ualit an the tra iti nal amil as shi te . The r h me ten h l s a c nnecti n t a nuclear amil a straight c u le an their chil ren living in a ig h use ith a green la n an a g. This im licati n heter se ualit an n rmative gen er r les is r lematic n multi le levels hich is art the reas n that man m ern ueer e le are turning t ar s the ueer h me a i erent un erstan ing the h me as s mething m re ra ical an ell m re ueer. c urse the term ueer h me as ever use the term ueer in this magazine es n t inten t invite stere t es ueerness ut rather t mean the h me as n n heter se ual n n cisgen er an n n n rmative. A ueer h me ma in act e a c u le ith chil ren an a la n an a g ut the m re ra ical versi n the ueer h me an the c nce t the ueer h me that man ung LGBT e le l r ar t is a c mmunal mestic s ace share ith m re than t e le an en t th se an gen er i entit r se ualit . Much li e the i eal ueer traight Alliance r LGBT ri e gr u the ueer h me is s m lic the LGBT c mmunit an is a s ace here ueer attitu es an ractices ur ueerness at its c re can e er rme ith ut u gment threat harassment r h sical a use. The h me ma even e ra ical an anti

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Kate Minzner

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le E. C. Managing E it r is a Me ican c mmunist les ian. The share an a artment ith a cat uh an ith t man s an t little time. The currentl s lit their a s et een stu ing English an Ethnic tu ies in an ieg an rea ing an riting in Ti uana. u can in her n t itter as s rginale. u can als see her zines at issuu.c m m ssm n. he the . Bee is a l am r us ar ace en ma ring in English at . The have n t u lishe an thing et ut h e t s s n. Christie oan is a ear l trans man living in Brist l Englan . he ma es a variet au i an visual r usuall cuse n magnetic ta e techn l g han ma e electr nics an the m ster gen er. hen creating r er rming she alternates et een using the name Christie an an the m n n m . he can e un n t itter christina . Constan e Bougie is an un ergra uate English ma r ith cuses in creative riting an LGBT stu ies. He has revi usl u lishe ems an sh rt st ries in ulture Bones olemi al ine an el et iant an has r u c ming in eon Mari osa an Theta a e. He e its the lit mag ilde Bo .

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el Cordelia is theatre ma er stu ing r s an immersive theatre at Ham shire C llege. Much el s time is s ent atching r r ing n theatre. el is nee ee in their thesis centere n ects an mem r hich ill h e ull en u l ing li e a large llh use. el reall li es ma ing things an h es t it rever. Chec ut el s rt li at el hahans n. ee l .c m. urleen ang E it r is a man ma ring in English ith a creative riting em hasis an a min r in nternati nal elati ns at . he rites icti n an n n icti n centering ar un issues immigrati n an race. he lans n inishing la sch l an u lishing r in the uture. ale Te es E it r is the t en cis straight all . e l ve her an a s. he is a Televisi n riting an r ucti n ma r at Cha man niversit an en s h t gra h atching et li an her cat. annah Te es E it r in Chie is a n n inar ueer stu ent an et h lives an r s in range CA an an ieg CA. The en s en ing time listening t sa l music an h l ing cats. C ntact them at hnteves gmail.c m r n T itter unise l ve. The them.

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ith an e e r creating entertaining an s ciall c nsci us me ia acr ss a variet rmats. His e ut n vel Birth lame is availa le herever ine e s are s l . He him his . aulina Sierra E it r is a cis i Latin m n ma ring in ec n mics ith min rs in litical science an theater. he rites icti n an etr in her s aretime ut she als r s as the ini n secti n e it r her sch l s ne s a er. he l ves theater an intersecti nal eminism li e the music anelle M nae. aquel Bours E it r is ur resi ent gr er great hair. Creative riting an estaurant evie s. she her ile Sugli h E it r is a trans ueer c ntri ut r an he is ver enthusiastic a ut r ing n The ruit Tree. He is a iti nall ver enthusiastic a ut the tential science an c l animals. He has r e n a e ther in e en ent literar r ucti ns an es s me material cra ts r as ell. Talia mato she the has een riting since she as seven ears l an ac n le ges that her est r ma have c me r m th se irst e ears cra n n a er. n a iti n t her sel u lishe

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cha sterismos s me her m re recent r has un a reluctant au ience n ace an ritersal n an at The cene Hear . he is currentl stu ing litical science an human rights at C avis. anda eglane is a night l ming esert l er r m Ariz na. he is the aughter eruvian immigrants an atten s Ariz na tate niversit ursuing a Bachel r s egree in s ch l g an amil human evel ment. Her etr has een u lishe r rthc ming r m ust Moth lass oetr L E hemere e ie an Former Ca tus am ng ther l vel laces. an a is the auth r ainlil an La aturn h thm Bones .

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