Assurance, Mary Margaret Flook

by Mary Margaret Flook

My heart just hurts, Lord, I don’t understand How I will get through this; It’s beyond the scope of my plans.

Years of battling just to be sure of one hope, God, I have not walked completely away; Simply in your hand I want to stay.

No pastor nor teacher could give me that peace. No counselor nor parent could reassure my heart, For only before God I’ll stand, when I surely do part. They don’t understand; in my mind it’s not that easy. So only on the cross, I simply rest in Thee.

I have no words to pray, My heart beyond the fight. My strength is weak; my heart is broken; I just want to be sure of my only Hope. Have no other option, No one else to go to. So, I set my weight, my very life, on Christ alone. There is nothing else that I can do.

For if I am, indeed, too far gone, I have no living purpose. My life a breeze Of empty seas, And I am left dirty.

God, I know you’ve seen every time I’ve come to You, The tears I’ve cried And questions why; You simply won’t grant me peace. Been times I’ve been way over it all, Forget the whole thing, Maybe just let me fall. Yet, I cannot stay there very long, For there is no hope in any wrong. Over and over again I pray, “God please come in,” Waiting for the feeling; that assurance within, When you’re the only one to confide in. Our world, you see, has gotten it all wrong. My hope of salvation is not a date of the past. It’s not an experience that has washed away. It’s the living Jesus, the hope that lasts.

For when I doubt a decision I made, I question my own doings that saved. So, Instead I look back years ago, To a cross where you died and an empty grave, For that is how I am truly saved. There you find the hope for your weary soul. The questions you have are just an empty hole. The doubt may linger for a long while, Yet each day I will look to Your trial. The one thing you’ve told me to do countless times, It’s always only been to trust in you. God I pray I’m not too late, too far gone, Cause I rest my soul, my hope, in You. You’ve given me so many chances in the past, LORD, I hope that I’m not too late, Not beyond Your grasp. Once again, I lean all that I am, My fear, my sins, My lost hopes within, My weakness, doubt, Apathy, drought, My insecurity, and everything else, LORD, I lay down, need You to carry the weight. My eternity can’t be a debate. I rest in You by grace through faith.