VOLUME 106, ISSUE NO. 26 | STUDENT-RUN SINCE 1916 | RICETHRESHER.ORG | WEDNESDAY, APRIL 13, 2022
TALHA ARIF
NEWS EDITOR
Content warning: This article contains references to discrimination based on sexual identity and references to sexual assault. Editor’s note: Students interviewed were given the option of remaining anonymous in the interest of safety and privacy. Anonymous students who are referenced multiple times were given false names, which have been marked with an asterisk on first reference. One of the last things newly matriculated students expect at Rice is intolerance based on sexual identity. However, the Thresher spoke to three students who shared experiences with exactly that in the national Christian organization Chi Alpha, as well as issues regarding victim blaming and alcohol consumption. When Noel* first told her Chi Alpha small group she was bisexual as a freshman, it seemed like it wasn’t an issue. She was given the green light to begin small group leadership training. “At least three people contacted me at different points after I shared something during a Chi Alpha activity related to being queer,” Noel said. “One or two of them were queer questioning and we found strength in each other.” Later, in a required form prior to the exit interview to become a small group leader, Noel said she reemphasized wanting to have a safe and reaffirming space in Chi Alpha to celebrate queer students. “By this time, I’d had several conversations with my mentor about queerness,” Noel said. “I knew that they thought queer attraction and relationships were sin, but they were also very open in talking with me about it, and I thought that their heart was becoming more open to viewing queerness as more beautiful diversity, which is loved and valued by God.” However, Noel said her mentor and Chi Alpha staff questioned her about wanting to be a leader for queer student spaces during the exit interview. “I explained that it was really important to me … but my mentor said that they wouldn’t let me lead if I was going to tell my members that it was okay to be bisexual, to be queer,” Noel said. “They told me that I was still welcome to come to Chi Alpha events, but only as a member, since ‘I still have a lot to learn about the queer issue.’” Noel’s mentor then told her a story about a transgender person at a different university who joined their Chi Alpha chapter. “[They said] after reading the Gospel, this person decided that they were no longer trans,” Noel said. “And I think that this was my mentor telling me that queer people can and are changed into straight and cisgender people by their faith.” Noel said that although Chi Alpha did not say it explicitly, she thinks the organization believes that a person’s queerness will go away by God’s hand, and this is why Chi Alpha says they welcome queer people with open arms. “I found that it was always with a hidden expectation that queer people would become cis and straight,” Noel said. “I think they meant it in the same way that they might say we welcome abusers with open arms … or we welcome sinners with open arms.” Noel said she would never have joined Chi Alpha if she had known they expected and hoped she would become “un-queer” as she deepened her own spirituality. “If I had known that they would never let an openly queer affirming person be a small group leader, or ... that I would hear comparisons to pedophilia, I would have never joined,” Noel said. “They compared same-sex attraction specifically to being no different than any other sexual sin.”
‘This is in your best interest to leave’:
LGBTQ+ students share discriminatory experiences in Chi Alpha
ANDREA GOMEZ / THRESHER Jesse* also came out as queer Chi Alpha website. to one of their Chi Alpha The Assemblies of God website denotes small group leaders soon after joining and said that the organization still seemed very homosexual behavior as a spiritual disorder. “The growing cultural acceptance of welcoming at first. “But my friend who got me into Chi Alpha homosexual identity and behavior (male … later left Chi Alpha and told me that she and female), same-sex marriage, and efforts was kicked out because of her sexuality,” to change one’s biological sexual identity Jesse said. “And I didn’t want to believe it, so are all symptomatic of a broader spiritual disorder that threatens the family, the I stayed.” Jesse ended up becoming a small group government and the church,” the website leader after their first year. However, they said states. Similar anecdotes of homophobia and this past summer they had a conversation with a Chi Alpha staff member that felt similar discrimination within Chi Alpha have been shared at the to their friend’s University of Virginia experience, causing and other colleges. them to leave the According to organization. They told me that I was Jesse, Chi Alpha “It wasn’t like, still welcome to come to staff also gave them ‘we’re specifically a contract to sign in kicking you out Chi Alpha events, but only the exit interview because you’re as a member, since ‘I still to become a small queer,’ but it was have a lot to learn about group leader. Jesse more like, ‘I really said they did not think this is in your the queer issue.’ remember ever best interest to Noel being told about the leave,’” Jesse said. “It felt very much like they were trying to make contract beforehand. “I was sitting in my exit interview to it my choice, but it wasn’t really my choice. That just sat very poorly with me. It [seemed] become a small group leader, and they’re like, kind of an ultimatum where it was like, you ‘okay, here’s your contract, sign it,’” Jesse can stay and hear us preach things that you said. “[So] I told them when I left [Chi Alpha], ‘hey, this [contract] is super manipulative of disagree with, or you can leave.” Jesse had come out two years prior to you,’ and I hope they’re changing it.” The Thresher obtained a copy of the this conversation with the staff member, but believes the conversation occurred when it contract; it outlines several guidelines for did because Chi Alpha recently decided to dating and sexual purity. These guidelines approach Christianity more aligned with the include only dating someone who shares Assemblies of God, whose guiding belief is “a foundational belief in and commitment the Bible as “all-sufficient rule for faith and to the Lord Jesus Christ,” a call to “carefully maintain our sexual purity” and to “avoid practice.” Chi Alpha is sponsored by the even the appearance of evil,” asking that Assemblies of God, according to the national “a servant leader’s boy/girlfriend spend the
night at a location other than the leader’s home when visiting.” The contract also specifies guidelines for alcohol consumption, which include prohibiting excessive drinking, following drinking age laws and asking leaders to be thoughtful about their social life at Rice due to their influence on others’ lives, including at parties and bars. Robin*, a former small group leader, said that after she was sexually assaulted at a Rice public, she talked about her assault with a Chi Alpha staff member. Robin said the first question the staff member asked was if she had been drinking. “I don’t have [the next part] verbatim, but it boiled down to something like, ‘that’s the punishment for the sin of drinking,’” Robin said. “It was worded in a very nice way, so I think that was why at the time I believed it. We also talked about that person [who assaulted me] and [the staff member] said these are the people who need forgiveness the most and encouraged me to pray for him and to stay a friend to him.” Robin’s privacy was also not respected by staff — she would find out afterwards that the staff member shared information from their conversations with other staff and in some cases, other Chi Alpha students. “I did kind of not drink as much [after my assault] because I bought into and really believed their response [at the time], and so they would tell other people, ‘it’s reformation from sin,’ or make it a story to tell others,” Robin said. “So it’s under the guise of being helpful, but later, after finding this out, I would ask them to not tell anyone and then that still wouldn’t be respected. So then I just stopped saying anything.” In a past article, students shared fears of judgement for being queer in Chi Alpha and a lack of explicitly expressed support from staff for queer students. Robin said there was a culture similar to that of “don’t ask, don’t tell” at Chi Alpha. “If you drink, don’t talk about it,” Robin said. “If you party, don’t talk about it. If you have sex, don’t talk about it. If you’re queer, don’t talk about it.” Robin is bisexual and said that based on her conversations with other students, there are more students who have experienced similar remarks or discriminatory behaviors in Chi Alpha. “I knew someone in the organization who told a staff member that they were queer, and they were told something along the lines of, ‘I don’t agree with it, but I still love you as a person,’” Robin said. “I had another friend last year, who was another [queer] small group leader, and we were talking about the fact that you just don’t talk about being queer, because you just don’t know [how people will respond].” Jesse found it difficult to leave Chi Alpha because they made really strong connections with some of the organization’s members. “There’s some people who I still really value my connection with that I met through Chi Alpha,” Jesse said. “But there were some where it really hurt because they’re like, ‘well, we still care about you,’ but it’s hard to believe that you care about me when you disagree with fundamental identities.” Jesse said they still respect the people in Chi Alpha. “If you take a very conservative approach to religion, I think Chi Alpha is a great fit for you,” Jesse said. “But I know for me, I felt very forced into it when I was a student, like it was the only option, and that’s not true. There are so many other ministries on campus that I wish I had explored instead.” Chi Alpha declined to comment. Thresher Alumna Ivanka Perez contributed to this article.