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Front Cover Artwork: First Steps into the Cosmos Back Cover Artwork: Moon Glow This Page: Butterflies Go Cosmic Copyright Š 2017 by Hayward Enterprises Inc. All rights to text and illustrations are reserved by Tracy Hayward. This work may not be copied, reproduced, transmitted, distributed, stored in a database or retrieval system, or translated in whole or in part without written permission of the publisher.
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2700 Napa Valley Corporate Dr. Suite L Napa, California 94558 (707) 261-5100 ext. 121 Tracy@heicreativeconcepts.com www.surrendertoyoursenses.com Third Edition: November 2017 Graphic Design by Montia Garcia Editors Camille Hayward & Marissa Roche
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Life Lessons - 62
Preface - iv
Soul Awareness - 90
Heartfelt Love - 2
G.O.D. - 136
Wisdom - 20
Playful Whimsy - 160
Inner Angst & Battle - 40
Poetry & Proverb Index - 169
Being At Peace - 50
Art Appendix - 171 iii
A Path of a Buddhist
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This book is dedicated to His Holiness Buddha Maitreya & Mandarava Tara
www.buddhamaitreya.org www.shambhalahealingtools.com
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PREFACE I write this preface to Expressions from My Cosmic Origin from the front porch of my family’s cabin in June Lake, California. Located in the Eastern Sierras, it is a place that has not changed much in the past fifty years. Its rugged, natural beauty and frontier sites of the old west attract curious visitors from around the world. Beautiful aspens, abounding in full autumn color surround me. I come to this remote place often to practice being present in nature. This morning I am alone, playing music of Sœur Sourire, or The Singing Nun, on my thirty-five-yearold-year old Bang and Olufsen turntable. I enjoy listening to her sweet voice in harmony with her guitar celebrating God, allowing my soul to dance freely as in childhood. This book of art and poetry is a compilation of creative expressions made during the past two years when I found pockets of time to be
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Photos: Cabin view, June Lake, California
alone on my quest to recover my childlike sense of wonder and imagination. Funny enough, I found time to retreat while trapped in a grizzly divorce with a corrupt judge (who was forced to recuse herself), outrageous collusion with opposing counsel, a forest of legal shenanigans, and a protracted legal battle that jeopardized my business, a specialty foods company I began 25 years ago out of the back of my parents’ home. Add to all that an attempted corporate siege and takeover of my business in 2013 and I had a perfect storm for forcing change. As painful deceit was revealed and I began to encounter criminal legal abuse as part of these unethical divorce proceedings, I had to work hard to become and return to being peaceful. My sanity and healing required I retreat regularly from the world to remain in balance in spite of my challenges.
Photos: Mono Lake and ghost town of Bodie nearby
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In January of 2013, a surprise IRS business audit taking four months, allowed me a health retreat to Grand Cayman Island. Surrounded by Caribbean blue-green waters, I allowed myself time to recover from the darkness that had crept into my marriage and from lingering ill health. There in quiet solitude, in different seaside villas I rented on the backside of the island, I discovered that the safer and more secure I began to feel, the more openly I began to express from a place inside myself I had not known in a very long time. By giving myself time to play, dance and be peaceful, I fell in love with myself again. My poetry recounts my rediscovery of my inner light energy—a cosmic gift to all humans seeking to experience God’s wonder and wisdom. Peace, the greatest gift born from a spiritual awakening, has rekindled my sense of spontaneity and childlike nature, allowing me to come to terms with the loss of my friend and marriage partner. I now admit openly that I can behave like a modern day hermit, finding delight in being quiet and seeking time in God apart from an otherwise noisy and fractured world. By taking pen to paper in prose, poems, and proverbs, I have written love letters to my soul, which I now share with you. Making the most of the time being to heal my physical and etheric body, I have been made as new through my art as therapy. When I began to paint in abstract, I let myself play in color, express my feelings, and respond to the viii
Photos: The Cayman Islands
harmonic sounds of music I played while painting. Letting go of many artists’ rules, I became tuned into my inner voice and senses. I have taught myself to look at each painting from many viewpoints, turning my board regularly to forge a fresh perspective. I do not know my subject in advance. Only when my canvas speaks to me, offering up self-understanding, is it finished. I paint with a variety of art mediums—pastels, watercolor, Sumi inks, and loose mineral pigments. Personal as it has been profound, I have quietly been revitalized by the light of Christ that dwells inside of each of us. Through my practice of becoming still, I now understand the power of self-healing through a daily practice of meditation. Buddha Maitreya’s teachings, music, and healing tools have generated telepathic insights and wondrous cosmic light energy—gifts that have massaged my soul through my personal trial. I make time to play each day and I allow my imagination once again to soar. By taking stock of myself, reducing many of my life’s glamours and distractions, and slowing the pace of my daily routine to a sweeter rhythm where I can ‘feel’ my day, I have healed greatly to enjoy being more peaceful and present. I am managing the criminal legal abuse better and I hope to find a platform to expose the unethical and unlawful dealings in our current legal system. Until then, I dare to dream of a more peaceful world where we humans may connect in love to live as One.
Photos: The Cayman Islands and Tracy at play
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Heart Strings tugged Makes space. God dwells inside all space. Does your love expand?
Dancing in the Flesh
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Heartfelt Love
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TANTRIC LOVE Tantric lovers are lazy. They don't plan. They run short on housekeeping, But run long on intuition. Tantrics run their lights like crazy! Eternal lovers of One, Moving always into the Light They hold God's energy within. Our love is entwined with the universe. From afar, we come To light the world In a canopy of cosmic intelligence.
Opposite Page: Cosmic Highway to Infinity
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Make Tantric Love
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ETERNALLY YOURS I am your eternal lover. My love is yours, And yours, mine. I give to you, my love, Tantric light-energy as my Expression of One love. Forever and always. Let our fusion Light the world And be our gift to all. May all humanity come to Experience this ever Expanding brilliance as Cosmic lovers in One!
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YEARNING Sea foam drapes my legs As I walk the beach Flirting with the ocean's call. You whisper to me, Lapping a light touch Across my skin. Alive, Awakened within I am wet thinking of you.
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Tropical Eternity
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Ethereal Tickle
TICKLE ME Share yourself fully, my love, Whisper your sweetness in my ear. Your words are like a feather, They tickle my soul.
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SOFT MYSTERY My softness opens to your touch. I become a swirl of clouds, Whipped cream gone hot. My body transforms in an instant. Ethereal ribbons ripple in waves, I am washed in undulating sensations. It starts in my brain Like a waft of sea air and smoke, The deeper I drift, your arousal lifts. I relax, my muscles loosen Into a dream state of desire— A beckoning ache stings and prickles. I desire you more now than ever. Transfixed by body memory, Celebration of Life 3
My soft mystery awaits your call.
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PERSONAL AD I placed a personal want ad: Shambhala Warrior Seeks playmate for Both heaven and earth. Seeker he must be, With talents and abilities Divinely inspired. He must know how to Play, be intimate lovers andlaughcryandlovealloveragain. Make true friends. Be alone and also, be in One. In other words, be himself. Only One answered. I found new Love.
SPEAKING OF ESSENTIALS When I speak from my body, I speak not. When I make love with my body I light up. Who needs eyes when my Lover's light is seen by touch?
Opposite Page: Changing Perspectives
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SWEET SLUMBER I did not make love to you last night. How could I have? I don't know myself well enough, To make love to me, let alone you! I am fascinated by the thought Of your touch. It moves my body. Maybe next time, I will let you touch my mind. While I think of you constantly, It is now late, My Sweet. Slumber calls me to slip into my sheets And dream an etheric hologram of love. Good night ...
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MELTING POINT I melt like hot chocolate ganache ‌ Who left the oven on? Aching and wet I play with abandon in my own mess.
Celestial Portal
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ELECTRIC LOVE Tantric lovers are not stingy in love, Living each moment as Eternal lovers into realms beyond, Their touch is shared paradise forever. These Lovers of Light live by sensing God, Catching telepathic waves of awareness From a mysterious source beyond. Their self-understanding is spoken in dance. While Tantric love is ancient as time is eternal, Few dare explore OM, this universe within. Meditating upon one's inner rays of color, Tantrics share their love-light so all the world may see.
Opposite Page: Light Energy
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MY LOVE By no means do I need you. My body does. I don't call to you. My body does. By all means, Devour me, take what you want. Your taking is my giving. My taking still makes me shy. I can't hear my body For the din in my head. Devour me and take off my head. Only then will I love you with abandon.
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Opposite Page: Inner Light Discovery
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What is Mountain? Where is Fuji? Who is God? Answer: All are three in One! Spirit Begets God
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MYSTERIOUS PATH To Know God is circular. Just when you THINK, You will find you are lost again. The pathway to Heaven Requires one to walk in Rounds of sensory intelligence.
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Empathic Highways
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SEEK AND YE SHALL FIND Seeker, you are such a solitary creature. How do you know where you are going? Is it hard to follow your own path? Which way is it toward wisdom? How can you leave your past behind? Why meditate on your breath? They call out to you, Wise One. Wait, don't go yet. You journey on without answering my questions! Wait! Wait for me!! I too want to find my soul.
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Infinite Vistas
TWO BIRDS Forgiveness and redemption Are like two seagulls Riding the ether waves. To be pardoned And acknowledged Makes Spirit take flight.
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COSMIC FLIGHT Like birds riding the ether waves, Our bodies want to take flight. Respond with care, seeker. Fly straight to the cosmic One.
A PEEK To glimpse at heaven, Space of hue Radiance and light, Is Love remembered. Eternal Love
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COSMIC TRUTH Christ came with a simple message. He spoke of Love—a cosmic Truth. Many heard him, few truly understood. Jesus spoke in parables, A poem in verse. Truth is so precious Christ dared not be plainspoken. Truth comes mostly in empathic whispers.
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Pools of Wisdom
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THEN GOD SPOKE Live with Truth Not deceptions of your personality. Your soul has yet to be touched By man or God.
Opposite Page: Beyond Delusions
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LIVE AS ONE Revelation and Truth are twins in Spirit. One cannot exist without the other. Truth cannot exist without Love. Love and evil cannot coexist. One Love is supreme. This is the law of Love.
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Opposite Page: Love Entwined
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TRUTH BE TOLD A self—unknown, Blinded from Truth Is Satan's playground. I pray to know myself. I write madly as a careless poet. I write as a mad woman, possessed! I madly scribble to tell you my Truth— Ignorance is my enemy! Truth is like a quiet water, gone deep. Dare I let go of the known To find my truth within? Truth be told, desire begets self-illumination.
Watery Castle
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REMEMBER WHAT? That which we cannot remember We are doomed to forget. If you forget your life You are condemned to relive it. That which we remember Becomes our consciousness. If you want to Become Christ-like Remember Truth.
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A PEBBLE OFFERING Streaming consciousness flows Like electric waters Through our universe. What state of mind is this— Where thoughts and images Collide in instantaneous understanding? How does this cosmic mind of clear beauty Offer me waters of bliss to swim in? Confused but captivated, I wade in from its shallow shore. Refreshed by internal dancing lights I feel God's empathic pulsing glow. It is here in this watery space I drink my Joy. My slow movements awaken my Soul. I listen deeply. How do I tell others that They too can know Ecstasy? I know! I will give away pebbles From the shores of this Divine body of water To all seekers daring to swim in Cosmic streams of self-awakening. I will offer pebbles of Love 35
To all streaming OM.
Streaming Consciousness
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Eye of a Needle
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HUMBLED BREATH To become closer to God, I humble myself. God's greatness takes Away my breath. I breathe deep and slow. Breathing One breath In unison, I transpire like vapor.
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Be not anxious for that Which you cannot see. The invisible is your true home.
Cosmic Eggplant
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Inner Angst & Battle
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LUCIFER'S WARNING I am Lucifer, living in darkness. I use loose words and wrong actions. I hurt others, just as evil does. I am an instrument of death!
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Climb from Darkness
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CARELESS LIVERS BEWARE Living as dead is hard, But living in Hell on earth is harder. Know Lucifer when he speaks. He is your neighbor and your neighbor's friend. He may even be you! He comes in the night to steal your life. He sends insidious soldiers to do his bidding. You cannot be too careful, Most die from carelessness, not death.
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Inner Eruption
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MY BROTHER'S BARBER I tell you, Barber, you nicked me When trimming my beard. I know it was an accident, But my cut hurts. Barber! You cut my face. I am bleeding, I am sure of it. You almost nicked my artery. Barber, make peace with me! Barber! I demand an apology! I did not deserve this cutting. Suddenly, I saw my reflection in the barber's mirror. I watched the barber bleed. I retired to bed proud of my poem. God was not. In the night, God's voice awakened me. "Do you not see yourself As both smug and blind? You are both barber and A bleeding man!" "You are one of the same, Regard not who bled or who cut. Lies lived without redemption Leave humans walking as dead." "While you may not have cut Your barber's throat, your fierce words Left him to bleed in spirit." Unwittingly, I pierced my own soul.
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Inner Prison Door Opens
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HER OWN MONSTER MAKING How could she not have seen this before now? Little fears in youth, Ignored for lack of self-curiosity and Left unchecked over the years, Grew up to become monster fears of her own making. She became a monster keeper, corralling her fears Spawned since childhood, she fed them As nourishment to her soul. Castigated to perfunctory socials and community service, Unending busyness and nervous anxiety, her Soul Revolted in debilitating body pain and ill health. A slow death ensued; over the years she surrendered To a hardening of heart and unchallenged ignorance. A stiffening of mind, body, and spirit Abducted her memory and inner peace. Like watching a movie, she saw Herself shadow box in utter terror With her own dilutions. Her work became both her cover And her refuge from her own psychosis. Yet, between the cracks Of her own inner veneer, She would hear God's offer to connect, Coaxing her with visual emanations and Intuitive insight. Ultimately, God chiseled away at her persona— Her posing and posturing on and on. Monster mindedness slowly gave way to peace. And instead of caging her monsters within, God freed her of them, gnashing teeth, all! At last, my monsters of darkness have dissipated Into a sea of meditative tranquility within.
The Way Through Darkness
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A BATTLE WITH MYSELF God calls to me, Oh! Shambhala Warrior, Save your armament. Your battle is within. You are your own enemy! Sure enough, I catch a glimpse of my foe In the reflection of my own armored breast plate. I am besieged in energetic combat for my soul. Intellect and intuition set siege, one against the other In daily rounds, while dark forces play tricks on my sensibilities. My truth is entwined in Satan's deceitful falsehoods. Daily, I retreat to my meditative soul therapy To seek solace in God's light, an Aurora Borealis within. Prepare me God for tomorrow-when the battle begins all over again.
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Lighted Pathway to the Cosmos
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Go Inside. One is waiting For you there. It is your Self.
Self-Reflection 49
Being At Peace 50
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Illusion
FIREFLY MAGIC Lively glow bugs dance each summer In Japanese gardens, transforming foliage Into sacred light. Gardeners love magic! Firefly, I feel your light. Pulsing energetic love when sunset colors fade. Light up the world, little bug! Summer's glow bugs shine hot From an eternal source beyond Hedge rows and crimson blooms. Sultry nights find these fireflies Flirting with lovers exchanging kisses Under cypress trees. All glow tonight!
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Veils of Delusion Fall Away
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MORNING BLISS Today's dawn was like no other. It glowed Love. As Awe became Light, Another day was born. God's light, Extraordinary!
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WAITING UPON THE INVISIBLE Awaiting in an invisible space, Between sacred self and OM, Rests an inner universe worthy of exploration. In daily silence, I visit this sacred space to discover The wonder of bliss. Inevitably, playful spontaneity Finds me soon afterwards!
Sacred Spaces
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FOUR SEASONS Pink cherry blossom petals flutter, Casting color, scent, and serenity for all. God's gracious hand is never idle. Summer's sand dunes staggered the beach After a vast ocean interrupted the day With a sudden storm, finally clearing. Contemplate upon a turning leaf. Go wild with a Japanese Maple's brilliance. Get lost in God's autumnal handiwork. Snow drifts sparkle in sunshine. Transcendent Peace
Deep ski tracks lead toward forests beyond. Where do you go for illumination?
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Spontaneous Combustion
PLAY AS IF IN HEAVEN In Heaven, our creations are expressions of Love. Our Love is expressed through our playfulness. In Heaven, Spirit dances in creative spontaneity. I say, let's make Earth as it is in Heaven just so we Can play, dance for joy, and be spontaneous about it!
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ANSWER TO WORLD POLLUTION Self-importance in the world, When projected, pollutes God's eternal plan. Want to stop world pollution? Practice love of God toward everyone.
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UNIVERSAL HEALING OINTMENT Forgiveness is a sweet salve. Apply liberally for healing within. Spiritual doctors know the cure— OM's salve is an eternal balm To rejuvenate our soul.
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Out of Darkness
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Where are you going little bird? Why do I ask questions you cannot answer? When you answer your own questions, You will know God.
Newborn Serenity
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Life Lessons 62
Angel's Pathway
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SIMPLY SACRED I take a body Both human and soul filled. When God calls, I light up. When you call, I clean up the kitchen.
BE ACCOUNTABLE You want independence. God wants accountability. For the love of God, Account for your independence.
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NOT TO BE REDUNDANT To simplify your life, remove redundancy. Yet, to explore one's essential self, Daily meditation is essential! For it is in this redundant routine, Spontaneous experience becomes One's poetic expression. Live each day as a poem in God's universe.
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Flood of Truth
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TWISTED TRUTH I have seen a peak of Heaven's beauty. I have experienced the darkness of Earth. This earthly orb, cosmic in design, is veiled. Lacking discernment, I swallowed Lucifer's lies whole! I sat in a pew assuming Truth would be told. I awoke to find it was twisted. I had to leave God's house to learn How to be Christ-like.
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LOVE'S SOURCE Love is like a firefly— It could glow unceasingly, If only it possessed the energy! If light is the nature of God, Love is her consciousness. Plug into that energy, my friend. Light up more than your hind side. Learn to glow love unceasingly.
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Instant Rapture
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INTUIT TRUTH Truth grows on you As Jasmine, sweet. In season, Truth intoxicates the senses. Out of season, It lays dormant. Hallelujah! It's spring!
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I HAVE A HUNCH Most people lack the ability to discern Righteousness from wrong doing. Always test your hunches. Over time, hunches are forged As if by fire, into intuition. Intuition forged by righteous behavior Casts lasting discernment. Discernment is reserved for the wise. Only the wise start by trusting a hunch.
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Swirling Delusions
THE WORD SHOULD Take out all words that Create a wall around you. Top of the list, put the word should. Next on the list, the word, again. Nothing is ever the same twice! Why do we try to make it so? We try to make everything the same. With our words We use words that diminish Our capacity, our fantasy, Our intimacy. Our barriers to God Can be heard In our words.
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TEACHERS Clouds are teachers. Seekers are their students. Life's lessons pass as clouds above. Extraordinary teachings await To those attuned to passing clouds.
Clouds determine the daily lesson. Where do you place your gaze? Your focus binds your heart. Look up! Hear the clouds speak! Regrettably, most want clear skies.
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Passing Wisdom
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TABLE MANNERS ASIDE If Truth were a dinner fork, Seekers would be called out for bad manners. Obsessed with knowing God, Seekers care not how to hold a fork, 'Tines up or down' or placement on the table. Seekers dine on a daily diet of discernment, Piercing the soul with morsels of Truth.
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Complete Surrender
SLEEPING IN GLITTER Seekers strive, while Most fall by the wayside, Distracted by the allure of life. Sleepwalking through life's glitter Is a common problem. Wake up, sleepwalker!
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Celebration of Life 2
HARD LESSON Today I saw myself as I am. I told an insidious lie. I did not keep my word. Self-deception spawns my suffering. Today's lesson came from my soul.
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GEIKO THEATRE Ancient glory remains possible for all to see Inside Geiko theatres, protected by decree. On stage, painted beauty is still an art With actors bound by tradition since its start. Daily performances play familiar music and story To tell tales in memorized movements of great glory. Between forces of light and dark, actors fight For a lover's heart and a soul's lonely plight. Traditional Japanese theatre resembles real life. We all are actors, and seldom rest from strife. We may wear an equivalent of kimonos fine But few shall embody true sacredness divine. For only when we leave our own 'Geisha' stage Will eternal peace finally come of age. One must vacate familiar speech and tradition For God's actions to spontaneously come to fruition!
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Heaven's Portal Opens
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TODAY'S LESSON My life is now a lesson, Each day is my teacher. Lessons well learned Bring me closer to God. I learn to humble myself When I have hurt someone. I now see I am right, You are wrong! Oh! I apologize. Insights follow a humbled heart.
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GOD'S CLASSROOM You Will know What you need to know When you need to know it. Let your lessons come to you. God lectures through our senses Making each day's experience Heaven's classroom, Forever a mystery, your teacher is everywhere!
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Lighted Whimsy
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One's self assertions Are pathways to nowhere. Empathic highways lead to God. I say, let One lead the Way!
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Soul Awareness
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BEYOND GOLD Seeker! See the gilded Buddha towering Over traditions of thought and customs? God's spirit beckons beyond applied gold leaf. Seeker! Apply your truth daily— Test your beliefs and learned behavior. God is not what you think. Seeker! See your truth, behold new life. Like a rose in bloom, nature unfurls eternal truth Without haste for those daring to look. Seeker! Put your truth before God, So that your eyes may discern false gold And fallow thought. Let Earth's veil fall!
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God Beckons Beyond
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Here, but No Further, so Sayest the Angel
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SOUL TALK
I touched my soul within. I felt my fear and recognized A shard of truth— I've been terrified, Left alone, searching. I am searching for my soul And seeking my lost sense of wonder. Somewhere, somehow I lost my childhood. Plunged into my own darkness, I lost my child-like nature. With each year's passing Little by little, I lost my inner voice. Oh God, why hath thou forsaken me? So slow was this process, This hardening of heart, I scarcely remember it happening. Only now do I see my insanity, I've been really crazy, nuts! Frightened of everything, Fear emanated as body pain. Then an aura of light appeared, Flanked by White Magic Divine. An eternal kiss across the cosmos came To resuscitate my faltering Spirit, Succor and soothe my silent soul. Now freed, my soul's tender truth is Regenerating in waves of eternal kisses.
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I AM REVEALED Solitary by nature, Social by parental indoctrination, And ordinary in so many ways, I found my best friend and playmate, To be my soul within! Intimate as she is beautiful, Divine in nature, my soul Is filled with light from One, A luminous source sparked by God, For all eternity in reflection. I finally know who I am! My childlike sweetness is my true nature. My soul expresses spontaneously through telepathy. In an instant I understand I am an eternal being of Light!
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Cycles of Time
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CHILDHOOD MEMORY My childhood fascination in God Transcended my mother's love. Happy to be put to bed, My eyes closed as quickly as Mother left my side. My bedtime ritual was not a book. By closing my eyes, I could open my mind. There, suspended in space, dozens of little Multi-colored orbs soon became a panorama Of cosmic light, glistening as they floated overhead. What a gift—this recollection of youth! What grace to rediscover mental clarity! I remember another childhood fascination ... Swinging my arms overhead to produce Luminous ribbons of light, streaming in color. What a gift—To be filled once again with Soul-awareness! What an awesome feeling to recapture God's light-energy within! Enthralled and enraptured, I dance with joy. I have found a way to love myself anew And love others too. Mother, especially.
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GOD CALLS God has called me often. Was I ever listening? How could I hear beyond today’s Distractions, glitter and haste?
There, in this state of knowinglessness God came to me. Gentle and brusque at once I was thrown off guard.
And such noise is made with Discord, war, and poverty! Calamity of humanity Has kept me from hearing.
I heard the Voice within Slowly yet with force, In an instant I awoke! Now I See. I Feel. I Hear. I Rejoice!
Life’s commitments, hollow Swallowed me whole. I would seek beauty to Cover up my blindness.
Each day, I yearn to experience God— Her voice comes with harmonic resonance, Again and again. Call me, Bliss! What ecstasy awaits!
Yet, hidden in my own darkness My inner ear remained attuned. I could hear you, Voice, With intermittent reception. Jumbled in jargon And bogged by speech, I found few words of Love Sufficient to soothe. I was afraid of my own Truth. I became what I feared, A life unknown. A life dead in Spirit, I lived.
UNWRAPPED I asked to see my soul. Little did I know My request to God Would be heard by My Soul within Who in turn, called to me. Today I wrestled my own terror, Stared down silent fear
Wrapped in astounding cosmic light, Quite suddenly, I saw my own soul. I cried, and cried, and cried. In a tender moment, I came unwrapped. Like a newborn, I feel again. I weep for joy
Operating between my Voice
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Within and my self unknown.
My new nakedness.
Opposite Page: Eye of a Needle/Partial
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MEDITATE FOR SOUL'S SAKE I am sometimes asked, Why do you close your eyes to meditate? To combat ignorance, I tell them. I have to close my eyes in order to see my own Ignorance—life's extinguisher. I say to you, Seekers of the Light, Let God splash sentient intelligence upon you. Meditate with eyes closed for a sudden celestial Shower of energetic acuity, bathing mind, body, and soul. Through quiet introspection and meditation Soul feeds from its sacred Source, Alleviating mental disorders chained by attachment. I meditate to release my soul's suffering! I meditate to arouse Soul and let her glisten. I meditate upon the quieting cosmic forces to Subdue my personal terrors and refresh me. I call to you, friend. Meditate in cosmic splendor. Do it for your own soul's sake!
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Spontaneous Light
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I AM AFRAID, NOT! I am no longer afraid in my own skin. I act out spontaneously! God's light reigns within As animated Love. How many years have I wrested Control over my inner urges to be free? My groomed self-control Has given way to a new soul therapy. My expression is no longer mine alone. Now fused with God's energy, I dance in tantric light Along the Way!
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SOUL IMPORTANCE When did I become so self-important? Why does my being feel so heavy? Dare I look within to find my answers?
A long meditation brought instant revelation. Ignorance was ripped away, Exposing my veiled existence.
My consciousness, pierced by Light, Stripped my cloak of self-righteousness. At last, I could see myself as I am.
A voice deep within myself blurted out, "Clean your soul 'till your soul Light comes through." Advice heeded, my burnished soul now shines without ego flare.
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WHO AM I? I ask myself, who am I? I am. I am a mystic of the ages. I can see the face of God Everywhere, and in everything. I see God in you. I am a poet, too. I catch a truth And write it down. Granted I am careless at times, My divine nature is carefree. I dance to God in verse. I am God's lover. I dance with joyous abandon. I dance when One flirts with me. I light up with pleasure. I dance to exhaustion From making Love in OM.
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TOURIST TRAP Umbrella toting tourists Jumbled and twirled en mass Toward the Great Buddha Temple Of The Todai-ji. The air filled with casual curiosity And noisy chatter as iPhone screens Captured memories in rapid clicks (Or not). Please pause for a selfie! Gone are the days when humility Was worn as a protective garment. The day's misty weather quieted few seeking insight As a human tide pulled all toward this golden statue. Step away from the crowd, my friend. Embrace the silence of your own center. Let your soul be examined to become Polished, regardless of the weather.
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AWAKENED What Joy! What Awe! What God! Awakened soul, speak to me! I remember you as a child, Dancing as lights within. I return to you now Feeling strangely familiar. Oh, darkness, be gone! I have seen a Light-Divine. Sacred space within, No longer hidden, I dance with delight. My soul unveiled, I am my own gift.
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SEEKER I have been a seeker Looking for God. With stubborn pride I set out alone upon my quest. Not sure of much, Who or what, I went. Off I went seeking God In houses, people, and places. I even got lost along the way, Looking to relationships for God. Then one day, I found God inside. Quietly waiting, my inner flame ignited. Love cast an electromagnetic net Of brilliant light to bring me home. No longer unknown, or lost, I experienced God. At last, I know Self-Love.
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A Pathway
114
DAILY MEDITATION I acknowledge myself, a light of Christ. I trust you, universal Grand Architect. I acknowledge you work in secret. I trust your design is perfect. I acknowledge my breath. Today, I am at peace Breathing as One. OM.
Opposite Page: Light Beckons
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SUPPOSEDLY I don't know how I am Supposed to be When I get To where I am supposed to go. People ask, well where are you going? I say, I am going to where God is supposed to be. Why? That's where I will be One—at last!
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Choices 1
118
TRANSFORMATION My psyche is a granite cliff, Jettisoning the bedrock of my mind. At times I seem immovable. Yet, with a stubborn desire I remain open to my intention To release self-ignorance. Outside my body, unfeeling for years I was paralyzed by fears Seemingly lost forever in a Wasteland I called life. I fought to morph bad habits An old way of resisting love. Regardless of my soul detachment, "There is still time for self-reflection", So said my inner voice. Falling like calving rock, my ego shed To allow peace within, aligning breath. OM, I've discovered a radiant being, me.
Opposite Page: Drum Beat of OM
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UNDERSTANDING MY TRUTH Simple truth is neither simple Nor readily accessible; My truth has been buried, Deep within my soul, and Squandered on an unloving mate.
My truth has waited quietly, And sometimes not, For its own unveiling. Patience has shown me I am worth true Love.
121
Unveiling One's Light
122
Beyond Jerusalem
123
MY SOUL'S SECRET My soul, like a newborn babe, Unable to survive without care, Lived as an orphan inside me, Detached from body and mind. Wrapped under a blanket of fear, I vaguely recognized my true reflection, My playful child within. Deadened from abuse, my soul became its own void. Obscured by selfish crazy making, My sentient self was twisted, Bound and gagged, sequestered, and sentenced To a lifetime of self-induced insanity. My self-love had been kidnapped By this world's darkness, Allowing energetic amnesia to Befall upon my soul's lightness of being. Trapped by earth's elemental and psychic forces My soul laid in wait for recognition. Then, in an instant, it happened! Rapturous, transcendent awareness came. In a sudden outburst of cosmic love Transforming my senses, I became as One, Joining mind-body-spirit. My ego's clever bonds loosened, Allowing soul sweet cosmic relief. New waves of Love now pulse vitality To awaken, my soul divine.
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GRAND CAYMAN AWAKENING What sweet sunrise could lessen My longing to caress you once again? A morning thundershower passes overhead. Standing under these parting clouds I feel my own wetness. What good is an umbrella? There is no protection from my inner cloud burst. This flimsy contraption covers not My own emotional downpour within. I am held as a prisoner inside myself. When will this inner ocean of doubt subside? Living without you in awkward anticipation Offers an elusive reflection of our love. I observe life's snorkelers, floating by offshore. I close my eyes. I dive within for my own sunken soul. How do I become peaceful in my own company? There are few swim lessons for determined seekers like me Who plunge headlong into one's own deep pool. I see myself, God, or both, so I think. My eyes sting in the reflection of my own painful, watery illusion. How had my life become doomed to be carried by currents Of common convention, thoughts, and patterns? My soul has yearned for years for honest self-acknowledgement— I realize now that I nearly drowned in my own mad inner disconnectedness. Yet this same "nervous breakdown" transformed my soul. I reconnected!
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I now see how I've lived in shadows of antiquated perceptions, Slow to detach from decades of pent up hubris. Left alone in Grand Cayman to repair my emotional and etheric body, I timidly began to swim into my own murky consciousness. I ventured carefully, treading ethereal waters into the universe. My Voice came to me, challenging self-understanding. Over and over and over and over and over again, She called. Daily release came with surreal surrender, taking me further inside myself, While dissipating any hope of return to familiar psychic shores. My past began to disappear like sea foam on sand. Introspective discovery created sweet treasures of self-awareness. Inner waters rocked my soul awake—eroding false attachments. Tenderized by a new mind-body-spirit connection, I tingled inside, rejuvenating each day, as I grew stronger. As my own darkness dissipated, my psyche calmed. Today, I am learning to live as morning rainwater Clinging to the garden's fresh sea grass. As I cleave to this new stillness within, Exquisite, soft splendor permeates my consciousness. My meditations now generate an inner moon glow. This newly burnished soul of mine now serves As my life vest on all adventures diving into OM. Discovery rare, I claim my soul and am comforted. Today, my longing for your touch is quieted. I turn over another lap to swim further and further within.
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Infinite Horizons 1
128
COSMIC LESSONS Flints of truth illuminate me. Gathered from meditative spaces, I magnify and enlarge my consciousness. By stilling my mind into And beyond the Earth plane, Eternal understanding expands my soul. As magnification unfolds truth, An embodiment of Love revels In energetic waves of light. In our ever-expanding Universe. I pull down the light to co-create With God, making each day a cosmic lesson.
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God Calls 130
A SEEKER UNDERSTANDS Seekers understand There will always be work Along one's path. One's life is as vital As one's own choices are robust. Want to understand How best to wait on God? I say to you, friend, Seek Love's pulse And Live life robustly!
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Opposite Page: Imprisoned Perspective
KNOW THYSELF Be what I may,
A prisoner no longer, I am my own Love. She is me!
Moon Glow
133
COMING INTO MY LIGHT I am made from tantric light energy Drawn from God's eternal well. Inside my light, I am never alone. I surrender my self-knowing to a transcendent Intuitive, intelligence supreme, Omnipresent and ever loving. I see who I am, a seeker of Light, Inspired by God's touch. I blush in my own sacredness.
134
Language is a barrier to God. God-speak is silence Interrupted by instant illumination.
House of God Made Sacred
135
G.O.D. Goodness. Order. Divinity. 136
TRUE FRIENDSHIP All is unknown Until it is understood. To understand yourself better Make God your constant companion.
137
New Hearts Unfolding 2
138
FLIRTATION WITH GOD I flirt with God in poems. To describe God I write What I see, How I feel, What I taste, What I smell, What I touch, How I sense intuitively— While God emits empathic waves Of divine intelligence, Flashing instant Understanding, In perfect cosmic cadence For transcendent awareness. I see God in nature's reflection. She too is a real flirt!
139 Nature's Reflection
DANCING ETHER WAVES Ether waves descend from clouds As God's loving air generators. These waves of eternal energy Make the very air we breathe. Breathe in life eternal! You don't believe this Truth? Look up into the sky. Find the birds circling beneath the clouds. They ride the ether waves! Seek the Truth and see even more.
Fresh Air
140
Chickens Awaken
INTIMATE CONFESSION God, I confess. My intimacy with you Is tenderly entangled Within— I feel staggeringly beautiful. True feelings are a rare gift. 141
Pools of Wisdom 2
UNDERSTANDING GOD When I have wronged another, I have wronged God. When I deny wrongdoings, I have denied God. When I ignore my path, God waits.
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LIVE ON GOD'S TIME When I choose to live on God's time, My senses transform into sentient intelligence. When I feel hunger, I eat. When I yearn for God, I feed my soul. When I choose to live on God's time, I wind my eternal clock within. Awakening my seven senses, I abide by the Lord of Time. When I choose to live on God's time, I sleep soundly, sensing my own serenity. When I sense not God's timing, I trust my alarm clock to sound my senses awake!
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Higher Mind Opens to the Light
144
TEMPLE WITHIN From afar, Grand Temple, I gaze at you with awe. Yet, as I draw near I cannot find you, God. My soul aches with a sense Of emptiness. Where are you? Glittering gold leaf, the scent of incense, And colorful rituals resemble little to Your cosmic home residing within. I walk slowly by 101 housed Bottisahvas, Standing as soldiers, stiff with a Zen-like meditative gaze. These warriors of God know where God is. "She left the building," they tell me telepathically, "For lack of dharma," they say. "Tourist! We call out to you! No photograph will capture what you seek. Heaven's solace has its own path." "To Seek God," they whisper, "Slow your pace, quiet your mind, close your eyes. Go within—where others dare not go." 101 statues of yesteryear speak Truth. "Seeker," they say, "surrender your soul in meditation. Only then will you find true peace 145
Inside this edifice of antiquity."
Opposite Page: Inner Pilgrimage
146
Shimmering Intelligence
147
INSIDE OUT Piercing a veil in my conscious mind, God inverted my reality and suddenly My soul awoke from slumber deep. How funny God is! One moment I see Her as elusive, ephemeral, and impractical. In the next moment, a mystery of life is revealed. Everything is inside out! Ignorance recedes with growing clarity as Darkness gives way to the Light. The throne of God is not just in Heaven! God's Truth is also within. I see now I've been lost in my own charade, Living as a soul disconnected, Breathing but dead. Today, finally, I understand. I am inside out! It makes no difference where I go, The reality I seek is God's illumination within. To understand beyond Earth's plane, I must quiet my mind, close my eyes, and shimmer within. God's intelligence glows from the inside out.
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GOD IS PATIENT I am that I am. Chained by archaic reasoning and limited perspective, I wait. Your temples, shrines, synagogues, churches, and mosques Ring hollow from hurried believers passing through while I wait. Curious minds poke and probe religious dogma. Each claim rights to one's own viewpoint while I wait. War wages and sovereign boundaries move again. International debtors create new monetary systems while I wait. My universe communicates a language of its own Calling seekers of God through empathic whispers of Truth. I wait for seekers. For they will translate for others what lies beyond the cosmos. I wait for seekers to unveil my Truth while I wait to be understood. I wait for all mankind to understand I am that I am— I am patient Love as I wait.
149
Sudden Illumination
150
151
Realms of Consciousness
GET SOME SHUT-EYE Does God become a Tori gate painted vermilion? Or a Shinto shrine lined with tatami mats? Is God inside a statue of Buddha? It is a question of mind and matter. To see into God's sacred realm, shut your eyes. An invisible union with the House of God awaits When Soul opens to empathic wonder. Beyond famous places and sacred forms, Radiant intelligence broadcasts love energy For all awakening souls To make white magic with our Maker. Hallelujah!
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WAY OF GRACE One love is a state of grace, Where self and soul merge. Non-existence is merging mind with universe. This is the way of Grace. Christ's light calls all humanity, 'Knocking upon our hearts' to open up to our universal home. This is the way of Christ. Love offerings merge the mind of Christ With our conscious heart To make space for universal co-creation. This is the way of God.
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A Cosmic World Awaits
154
New World Unfurls 155
COSMIC MOMENT Come meditate in One, Where there is no shame, No lies, no deception. At the cosmic gateway, Seekers encounter revelations As swirling delusions dissipate. I meditate inside OM To float in momentary bliss.
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COMING HOME Shambhala white My divine Light within What beauty this space— I'm home! Shambhala white My divine Light within What peace this place— I've returned home! Shambhala white My divine Light within What serenity in your face— I'm home for good!
Divine Light
157
Shambhala white My divine Light within Are you there? I am here, She whispers. I am here within.
GOD BREATH A life measured by one's breath Is a life worth measuring. The breath, moving in and out, Fills the lungs and feeds the soul. God breath is one's capacity To breathe as One, To awaken one's soul And one's eternal memory. In each divine inhalation, In each exhalation of One, Stillness resonates harmony. Breathe as One. Breathe in intuition, joy, and love, Breathe out suffering in darkness. Let eternal Light within Exhale as One with God.
From Chaos to Calm
This blessed air, if taken in habit, Cultivates a sacred intimacy within, Allowing transcendent divinity To touch one's soul nature. Without the breath of One, The Soul suffocates. Eternal memory fades, And another life is lost to darkness. Breathe!
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Once in spring, bamboo planted In ancient times, became a forest sublime. Forever more, towering joy sways.
Made as New Bamboo
159
Playful Whimsy 160
RECIPE FOR LIVING AS ONE Blend these ingredients together with Discernment: Acknowledgment of Goodness, Respect for Order, Awareness of one's Divinity within. These are essential bonding agents for Cohabitation with God.
PASSWORDS Passwords do test my memory clear. > With a capitalized letter here, > Followed by a space bar there. > Retry Again, Computer says. All veneer! > > I hardly know my name, > Let alone my secret code. > My E's now written as 3's > Are done to keep a hacker snowed. > > The code length may vary too, > It is never quite the same. > I create my own frustration, then
HEAVENLY HOST
> Find someone else to blame.
In God's heavenly house,
> My password poem confuses too,
We eat on God's time,
> For it's a secret not to be
And dine divinely!
> It's a code of Love to you
>
> From me!
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MY VICE A Pen quenches my thirst. Paper shelters my thoughts. Poems feed fritters to my soul. What's cooking tonight? For the love of God Cascade of Understanding
Let's dine on heavenly fritters!
CONFIDENTIALLY SPEAKING I would love to see you In the flesh, God. May every word I speak In the flesh Be Love.
MYSTERIOUS SUBSTANCE God, you need a PR campaign for our Light within. The problem is clear, folks are missing their lights! I propose a press release be distributed at once!
HEED ONE'S SOUL
It's a hard sell merchandising the Invisible.
Warning—approach your sacredness with care. Discovery of one's own brilliance within May bring on bouts of mental acuity.
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I AM MY OWN POEM In God's cosmic playground
The Word floats in telepathic streams of light. There is no need for prose, Poetry or rhyme. Neither pen nor paper have use. This poet will just have to become Her own poem! Out of the Chasm
NO SENSE LIKE NONSENSE My child within learned To tell herself When to pee and poop, Eat and sleep. Then I lost her. I grew up. And with this loss I lost my ability to Hear my body speak. I retreated from my own Intimacy. Now, I Know myself only Inside my head. Consequently, I speak nonsense.
ORIENTAL ORNAMENTATION Silken kimono
Stored for winter, folded fine Is faded beauty Lovely vibrant threads Lay cold on a darkened shelf Now lost to another time gone by. This treasured costume Remembered as worn, Is next season's trend.
FAMILY REUNION I asked for forgiveness from my family today. I ate crow feathers for breakfast. My meal proved satisfying Even if my pride swallowed hard.
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FEW WORDS WORK BEST No words describe God accurately.
While a preacher will expound with detail, A poet will be more accurate. Hallelujah, for blessed brevity.
Seeking Truth Beyond
PLAYTIME
The difference between being
POETIC MUSIC FOR GOD A poem is music for God.
A witty poem is a concerto to Her ears.
Goofy and playful is
While silence remains God's poetic lullaby,
The first is out of body
Most people live in disharmonious ballads.
The second is Divine.
Become your own heavenly musical instrument— Resonate OM with the universe.
WHEN IT IS ENOUGH When is enough enough?
When I can speak kindly enough To others and of myself, And to know when I have had
WHEN REASON IS TREASON Custom agents demand stamps—
Not minding their fluorescent lamps,
Enough of this or that,
Immigration officers demand specific reasons,
Enough will be enough.
Regardless of the political seasons.
Enough is enough when I can say "I am enough!"
Police take humans as a blessing Monitoring them no matter how their dressing.
Time granted me enough of itself For me to become my own best friend. Now I delight in knowing I am enough.
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Know Your Path
165
GET GOING For me to 'get' What you are up to, I need to 'get' What I am up to. To fully understand you I need time. To fully understand God I need to set my watch to the universe.
Cosmic time tells me what I need to 'get.' Given time, the expanding cosmos may 'Get' both of us together, If only we get going!
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NEW NEWS News is out! There is a new way of understanding. And there is a new language resonating In telepathic waves from the Universe! Listen up! News says one day we may inherit the Earth. Seekers, come forth! Word has it there is room for all In cosmic reality. News says the invisible becomes visible! Event horizons are just beyond. Electron microscopes magnify our world To allow us to see ourselves as One. And here is an inside news story! While nature's ingenious devises work Round the clock, cosmic news streams into eternity. My soul says to pay extra—go for the streaming news service!
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Voice of God 168
P O E T R Y & P R O V E R B I N D E X - I N A L P H A B E T I C A L O R D E R
169
A Battle with Myself 47
God Is Patient 149
No Sense like Nonsense 163
A Pebble Offering 35
God's Classroom 87
Not to Be Redundant 65
A Peek 26
Grand Cayman Awakening 125, 126 Once in Spring 159
A Seeker Understands 131
Hard Lesson 82
One's Self Assertions 89
Answer to World Pollution 58
Heart Strings Tugged 1
Oriental Ornamentation 163
Awakened 112
Heavenly Host 161
Passwords 161
Be Accountable 64
Heed One's Soul 162
Personal Ad 11
Be Not Anxious 39
Her Monster Making 46
Play as in Heaven 57
Beyond Gold 91
Humbled Breath 38
Playtime 164
Careless Livers Beware 42
I Am Afraid Not! 104
Poetic Music for God 164
Childhood Memory 98
I Am My Own Poem 163
Recipe for Living as One 161
Coming Home 157
I Am Revealed 95
Remember What? 34
Coming into My Light 134
I Have a Hunch 73
Seek and Ye Shall Find 24
Confidentially Speaking 162
Inside Out 148
Seeker 113
Cosmic Flight 26
Intimate Confession 141
Simply Sacred 64
Cosmic Lessons 129
Intuit Truth 72
Sleeping in Glitter 81
Cosmic Moment 156
Know Thyself 132
Soft Mystery 10
Cosmic Truth 27
Language Is a Barrier 135
Soul Importance 105
Daily Meditation 116
Live as One 31
Soul Talk 94
Dancing Ether Waves 140
Live on God's Time 143
Speaking of Essentials 12
Electric Love 16
Love's Source 69
Supposedly 117
Eternally Yours 6
Lucifer's Warning 41
Sweet Slumber 13
Family Reunion 163
Meditate for Soul's Sake 101
Table Manners Aside 80
Few Words Work Best 164
Melting Point 14
Tantric Love 4
Firefly Magic 52
Morning Bliss 54
Teachers 77
Flirtation with God 139
My Brother's Barber 44
Temple Within 145
Four Seasons 56
My Love 17
The Word Should 76
Geiko Theatre 83
My Soul's Secret 124
Then God Spoke 30
Get Going 166
My Vice 162
Tickle Me 9
Get Some Shut-Eye 152
Mysterious Path 21
Today's Lesson 86
Go Inside 49
Mysterious Substance 162
Tourist Trap 109
God Breath 158
New News 167
Transformation 120
God Calls 99
No Road Map 45
True Friendship 137
Truth Be Told 33 Twisted Truth 68 Two Birds 25 Understanding God 142 Understanding My Truth 121 Universal Healing Ointment 59 Unwrapped 100 Waiting Upon the Invisible 55 Way of Grace 153 What is Mountain? 19 When it is Enough 164 When Reason is Treason 164 Where Are You Going 61 Who Am I? 108 Yearning 7
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Title
Page Medium
A Cosmic World Awaits
154
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
A Path of a Buddhist
iv
Mixed Media
A Pathway
114
Original Watercolor with Sumi Ink
Angel's Pathway
63
Original Pastel
Beyond Delusions
29
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments
Beyond Jerusalem
123
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments and Sumi Ink
Buried Treasure Within 1
111
Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi Ink, and Mineral Pigments
Butterflies Go Cosmic
ii
Acrylic
Cascade of Understanding / Infinite Horizons 4
162
Original Pastel
Celebration of Life 1
58
Original Pastel
Dimensions
Location
Date
27"w x 19"h
Napa, California
January 2014
20"w x 16"h
Napa, California
April 2016
Photograph Only
Kyoto, Japan
May 2014
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
19"w x 25"h
Napa, California
December 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
July 2014
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
24"w x 12"h
Napa, California
April 2016
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER
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Title
Page
Medium
Celebration of Life 2
82
Original Pastel
Celebration of Life 3
10
Original Pastel
Celestial Portal
14
Original Pastel
Changing Perspectives
11
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments
Chickens Awaken
141
Original Pastel
Choices 1
118
Original Pastel
Clarity with Revelation
110
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments
Climb from Darkness
41
Original Pastel
Complete Surrender
81
Original Pastel
Cosmic Eggplant
39
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Dimensions
Location
Date
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
17 ¾"w x 22"h
Napa, California
July 2013
35 ½"w x 30 ½"h
Napa, California
Autumn 2012
32 ½"w x 25 ½"h
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
22"w x 18"h
Napa, California
June 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
October 2012
27" w x 19"h
Napa, California
July 2014
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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER
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Title
Page
Medium
Cosmic Highways to Infinity
3, 4
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Cycles of Time
96
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Dancing in The Flesh
1
Original Painting in Mixed Media
Divine Light
157
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Drum Beat of OM
119
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Empathic Highways
22
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Eternal Love / Celebration of Life 5
26
Original Pastel
Ethereal Tickle / Celebration of Life 4
9
Original Pastel
Eye of a Needle
37
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Eye of a Needle / Partial
99
Partial of Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Dimensions
Location
Date
27"w X 19"h
Napa, California
January 1, 2014
28"w x 22"h
Napa, California
July 2013
24"w x 18"h
Napa, California
August 2014
16"w x 12"h
Napa, California
July 2014
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
April 2014
27"w x 19"h
Napa, California
October 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
27"w x 19"h
Napa, California
February 2014
Photograph Only
Napa, California
February 2014
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Title
Page Medium
First Steps into the Cosmos
23
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments
Flood of Truth
67
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks
Fresh Air
140
Watercolor, Pastel and Sumi Ink
From Chaos to Calm
158
Original Pastel
God Beckons Beyond
92
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
God Calls
130
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Heaven's Portal Opens
85
Original Pastel
Here but No Further, so Sayest the Angel
93
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink
Higher Mind Opens to the Light
144
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments
House of God Made Sacred
135
Original Art in Mixed Media
Dimensions
Location
Date
Notes
19 ¾"w x 25 ½"h
Napa, California
December 2013
Photograph Only
Sea Cove, Grand Cayman Island
March 2013
10"w x 15"h
June Lake, California
July 2011
Painted with my friend Cheryl Hoeller
12"w x 9"h
We’ll Sea, Grand Cayman Island
April 2013
Original with Dale M. Whittaker
12"w x 9"h
Kyoto, Japan
May 2014
20"w x 25 ½"h
Napa, California
December 2013
16"w x 13"h
Napa, California
August 2013
22"w x 19"h
Napa, California
August 2013
20"w x 14"h
Napa, California
March 2014
18"w x 24"h
Napa, California
August 2014
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ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER Title
Page
Medium
Illusion
51
Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Imprisoned Perspective
132
Original Watercolor with Pastel
nfinite Horizons 1
127, 128
Original Pastel
Infinite Vistas
25
Original Pastel
Inner Eruption
43
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Inner Light Discovery
18
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Inner Pilgrimage
146
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Inner Prison Door Opens
45
Original Pastel
Instant Rapture
71
Original Watercolor with Pastels and Mineral Pigments
Know Your Path
165
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Inks
I
179
Dimensions
Location
Date
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
April 2014
16"w x 12"h (original)
Napa, California
January 2014
36 ½"w x 30"h
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2013
36"w x 28"h
Napa, California
August 2013
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
April 2014
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
April 2014
18"w x 22"h
Napa, California
July 2013
16"w x 12"h
Napa, California
November 2013
12"w x 9"h
Kyoto, Japan
May 2014
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A L P H A B E T I C A L
O R D E R
Title
Page
Medium
Light Beckons / Infinite Horizons 3
115
Original Pastel
Light Energy
15
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Lighted Pathway to the Cosmos
48
Original Pastel
Lighted Whimsy
88
Original Pastel
Lost / Buried Treasure Within 2
42
Original Pastel
Love Entwined / Choices 2
32
Original Pastel
Made as New Bamboo
159
Original Artwork in Mixed Media
Make Tantric Love
5
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Moon Glow
133
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Nature's Reflection
139
Watercolor, Pastel and Sumi Ink
Dimensions
Location
Date
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
19 ½"w x 25"h
Napa, California
November 2013
12"w x 9"h
We’ll Sea, Grand Cayman Island
April 2013
Photograph Only
We’ll Sea, Grand Cayman Island
April 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
18"w x 24"h
Napa, California
August 2014
27" w x 19"h
Napa, California
April 2014
30"w x 22"h
Napa, California
December 12, 2013
10"w x 15"h
June Lake, California
July 2011
Notes
Original with Dale M. Whittaker
Painted with my friend Cheryl Hoeller
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A L P H A B E T I C A L
O R D E R
Title
Page Medium
New Hearts Unfolding 1
70
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink
New Hearts Unfolding 2
138
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink
New World Unfurls / Buried Treasure Within 3
155
Original Pastel
New World View
89
Original Artwork in Mixed Media
Newborn Serenity
61
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Ink
Out of Darkness
60
Original Pastel
Out of the Chasm
163
Original Pastel with Watercolor and Ink
Passing Wisdom / Infinite Horizons 2
78
Original Pastel
Pools of Wisdom 1
28
Original Pastel with Sumi Inks and Mineral Pigments
Pools of Wisdom 2
142
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink
Dimensions
Location
Date
30"w x 22"h
Napa, California
October 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
October 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
18"w x 24"h
Napa, California
August 2014
12"w X 9"h
Napa, California
March 2014
Photograph Only
Napa, California
April 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
June 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
May 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
May 2013
184
ARTWORK APPENDIX -
185
I N
A L P H A B E T I C A L
O R D E R
Title
Page
Medium
Realms of Consciousness
151
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments
Revelation of Truth
79
Original Art with Mineral Pigments and Sumi Ink
Rising Horizons 1
74
Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi Ink, and Mineral Pigments
Rising Horizons 2
97
Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi Ink, and Mineral Pigments
Sacred Spaces
55
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments
Seashell Wisdom 1
66
Original Pastel
Seashell Wisdom 2
102
Original Pastel
Seashell Wisdom 3
107
Original Pastel
Seeking Truth Beyond
164
Original Pastel with Watercolor and Ink
Self-Reflection
49
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Ink
Dimensions
Location
Date
12"w x 16"h
Napa, California
January 2014
27"w x 19"h (original)
Napa, California
April 2014
16"w x 12"h
Napa, California
November 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2013
16"w x 13"h
Napa, California
June 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Conched Out, Grand Cayman Island
February 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
June 2013
9"w x 6"h
Kyoto, Japan
May, 2014
186
ARTWORK APPENDIX -
187
I N
A L P H A B E T I C A L
O R D E R
Title
Page Medium
Shimmering Intelligence
147
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Sumi Ink
Soul Light
106
Original Pastel
Spirit Begets God
19
Original Artwork in Mixed Media
Spontaneous Combustion / Celebration of Life 4
57
Original Pastel
Spontaneous Light
103
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments
Streaming Consciousness
36
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Sudden Illumination
150
Original Pastel
Swirling Delusions
75
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
The Way Through Darkness
46
Original Pastel with Sumi Ink and Mineral Pigments
Transcendent Peace
56
Original Pastel with Mineral Pigments
Dimensions
Location
Date
12"w x 9"h
Napa, California
February 2014
Photograph Only
Sea Cove, Grand Cayman Island
March 2013
18"w x 24"h
Napa, California
August 2014
Photograph Only
Napa, California
November 2012
27"w x 19"h
Napa, California
July 2014
27"w x 19"h
Napa, California
October 2013
13"w x 16"h
Napa, California
August 2013
Photograph Only
Napa, California
December, 2013
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
April 2014
Photograph Only
Napa, California
June 2013
188
ARTWORK APPENDIX - IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER
189
Title
Page
Medium
Transformation
84
Original Sumi Ink with Pastel and Mineral Pigments
Tropical Eternity
8
Original Watercolor with Pastel, Sumi ink, and Mineral Pigments
Unveiling One's Light
122
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments
Veils of Delusion Fall Away
53
Original Watercolor with Pastel and Mineral Pigments
Voice of God
168
Mineral Pigments, Pastel, and Sumi Ink
Watery Castle
33
Original Watercolor with Pastel
Dimensions
Location
Date
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
April 2014
20"w x 14"h
Napa, California
February 2014
12"w x 9"h
Napa, California
June 2014
22"w x 17 ž"h
Napa, California
July 2013
19"w x 27"h
Napa, California
August 17, 2014
18"w x 12"h
Napa, California
May 2014
190