Prometheus Literary Magazine | University High School 2023

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PROMETHEUS looking sideways

University High School Literary Magazine | Spring 2023

DEAR TITANS,

We are so excited to bring the first issue of University High School’s Literary Magazine, Prometheus. Prometheus in Greek Mythology is a Titan and a bringer of fire to the world. We wanted to further capitalize on our first edition by naming this issue, “Looking In Sideways.” It represents a new view of our student body by sharing your voice in a very different way. Our students are filled with talents that are not often recognized. We’re not just looking forward. We’re looking at all angles, even sideways. Thank you to all our students who have contributed their photography, artwork, and literature to our magazine. We could have not done it without you.

Sincerely,

2023 National English Honors Society

FAITH AXON

ALYSSA BICE

JULIANNA DAVILA

SAMANTHA DOERING

RACHEL EDMANDS

VALERIA FLORES

JULIANNA GARRIS

ALEXIS GONZALEZ

ALEXIA HERNANDEZ

MADELYN JABLONSKI

GABRIELLE LEBERT

DILEINI MARIANI

JENNY-ANN MARIANA

JOSIE O’QUINN

GRETA PEEPLES

VICTORIA SALIMBENE

ADIANEZ SANTANA

AUDREY SENEZ

ALLISON SPIROFF

TEAGAN SULLIVAN

MELANIE TIPPENS

ALLYSON WILSON

MORGAN WORLLEDGE

ELY’S GUZMAN RIVERA

Maggie at the Lake | Photo by Katie DeSousa Prometheus Literary Magazine is a production of the National English Honors Society of UHS

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Dandelions by Alexis Gonzalez & Mr. Bubbles by Valeria Flores Carrasquillo... ...4-5

Bouquet by Jomary Ramierez & Gatito Reloj by Yadira Guerrero... ...6-7

Asystole by Jacob Reedy & Thorns by Madison Sanchez... ...8-9

Three of The Thirteen by Linda Pierce & Strangers by Savannah Wilson... ...10-11

Night by Stephanie Sharp & The Ugly Therapists Couch by Melanie Tippens... ...12-13

Remember by Alyssa Bice & In My Adolescence by Kiana Blair... ...14-15

Bestie by Solimar Cruz & Garden of Reminiscence by Lauren Cucciaro & Prey by Ariana Jerelds... ...16-17

Dancers Lament by Ava Santilli & Baby Doll’s Tea Party by Josieamer Vega Caraballo... ...18-19

Shoe Swirl by Natalie Dechiara & For All Eyes by Shania Gill... ...20-21

Impossible, right? By Gianna Hall & Seaplane by Reiss Matzinger... ...22-23

Emotions Within by Allison Spiroff & Butterflies by Julietta Diaz... ...24-25

Inside Out by Vickie Pleus & A dumb thought on a Tuesday and in case I die. by Courtney Hanks... ...26-27

dandelions

i race between the weeds in your backyard. -the flighty thing you call love. the rooted thing i call fearchased between the flowers i cling to the petals of my innocence. sweet smelling. intoxicating.

a plethora of temptations.

an incandescent shimmering ideal placed seductively on your silver platter. picked apart by the knives and forksi bleed open for the foaming audience. heart to heart.

eye for an eye. thunder.

lightening.

you are you and i am i and all that comprises the former is something so irresponsibly mediocre

i crave to know how that tastes

i crave to know how it feels

i crave to have the knowledge of the things i do not know -to understand the flatness of your characterthe incessant monotone buzz that oozes from your person. resting in the meadow

i turn and think.

“why hasn’t anyone stopped me ?

why didn’t anyone warn me ?

why didn’t anyone take me and shake me back to reality ?”

instead i find it in the thorns of the rose bush. the rooted thing i called love the flighty thing you called fear.

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Mr. Bubbles Artwork by Artwork by Valeria Flores Carrasquillo Bouquet Artwork by Jomary Ramierez Gatito Reloj
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Artwork by Yadira Guerrero

Asystole

Prologue: The poem is three stanzas, featuring the rhythmic pattern of a heart beating going into cardiac arrest, which is indicated by the title.

Death and Fear has always stoked me

Peculiarity

Among me

To some scary, to others fascinating

To me Death and Fear are conflicting

Death, the only reason we live

Haunting

However,

It pushes us to become more, to live Without death why would we want life?

Fear, is what keeps us from life

Haunting

However,

It keeps us from doing what we yearn, You don’t realize this until the beating Stops.

Thorns
Artwork by Madison Sanchez Three of The Thirteen Artwork by Linda Pierce

Strangers.

I wish I knew you, Every day I see you do your day to day, But who are you?

Are you what everyone says you to be?

Who are you deep down?

Who are you when no one is around, When no one is around to see you drown, When no one is around to judge, Are you this perfect image I perceive you to be? Strangers.

That’s all we really are. Strangers.

A word to define of not knowing, We’re all strangers.

People close to us, People far,

How much do we really know The ways I perceive, The ways you perceive...

Who are you?

Who are you when no one else is around?

When are you just you?

Do you know who you are?

Or are you wrapped up in a facade?

Do you know who you are when you are with you?

Or are you a stranger to yourself too? Strangers.

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Night Artwork by Stephanie Sharp

That Ugly Therapists Couch

Hello. Welcome. Sit on the couch or the chairs, if you prefer. I’m finishing up here. Get comfortable, stretch your legs, relax. Take a breath if you need to. Oh, you’ll need to.

Now, why are you here? Let’s start at the beginning if you will...

When you were a child, how was your relationship with the mass of meat lodged in your head?

Did you get along well with your amygdala induced hallucinations, machinations?

Did your syndrome symptoms elevate when you began the fundamentals of theory of the mind?

I see you are confused, let me rephrase...

Tell me about your urge to urgently originate betwixt Plato and Diogenes. Do you frequently compare yourself to the lengths of Socrates and Dionysius?

If you were to draw me up your current schedule, would I find your future plans to Alleviate yourself to elevations more befitting someone of a sounder mind?

I don’t mean to pry, but it has been a while since our last session...

Are you still finding it difficult to differentiate between Escher Mandelbrot illustrations and fractals?

These discoveries are important, you know.

My objective is to assess through your rather non-subjective concise conjecture.

If you are still able to attend our more propitious and rigorous settings

Oh, you have a different idea. A more muddled, murky, medicinal, magical approach?

I appreciate the enthusiasm, but you are hardly in any position to propose pre-dispositional projections

How about this?

Monday, clinical assessment of your apotemnophilia

Tuesday, titration of that unseemly mess of mucus and murder

Wednesday, a re-introduction of capgras and the fundamentals of lysergide daydreams

Thursday, a perhaps well needed surgery to remove that which is spreading at an alarming rate

Friday, a well-deserved break, if you think you still deserve it after the transorbital lobotomy

How does that sound?

Well, it looks like our time is up.

I would appreciate it if next session you contributed a bit more. Please, less screaming would certainly be an improvement and make sure you work on that as your homework.

I’ll see you next week.

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Remember.

It is late December

My arm is out the window, my skin prickles in ice and my mind races as I remember

I know I am partly to blame, but it hurts to recall, When I feel so altered and you are remarkably the same cold blows through my hair and tears stream down my face. this feeling lingers, incapable of being fair

My hand burns against the frost, yet i keep it out there, thinking of how i gave all my heart, and all that i lost i wonder at your cause as i pass all the moving lights, one hand floating around, like me, breaking all the laws

but through the headlights, is the first fall of snow i remember all the firsts to still be had, and all the people that i haven’t gotten to know and it feels worse than winter for me to sit at this red light and let my life slow

I feel deep down a spark of an ember

Still too cold in this weather to truly spark But as my fingers dance in the wind

Slowly, I heal, and it becomes easier to remember

In My Adolescence

Thirteen

Affable days down by the lake, Sunbathing on the beach

Time spent in town with Mom’s money

What will tomorrow bring?

Fourteen

Venust days under the Willow tree

Endless nights beneath the stars with the ones that mattered most What secrets does the world hold?

Fifteen

First loves, first dates, first kisses I gave him my heart Will it last?

Sixteen

Wheels provide freedom

They also come with responsibility Can I handle it?

Seventeen

The shadow of life has crept over me

My final day of innocence is approaching Is this it?

Eighteen

I am now in control of my future, Yet there is no room for amusement moving forward I have lived, but will I survive?

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Bestie Artwork by Solimar Cruz

Garden of Reminiscence

Things come and go, Faster than anyone could hope. A blink turns into a year And everything you know, rusts Now placed into the garden of our past. Which holds memories and people, Some flourishing and others withering, But all were once our reality, Our present.

So whether good or bad, Thank it for what was given And as life goes on, The garden continues to grow. Every so often we visit, But this place is not made for living in So do not carry the stones outside. They will only be dead weight. For every flower and tree sits still, Just how you left it.

Prey

I wonder if anytime after you decided to pluck my petals, and grind them into incense that smelled of immorality and pain,

That you’d felt guilty for your harvest.

Or maybe your actions are a distant memory, long forgotten in the trials of time, like that of my childhood.

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Dancers Lament

I’ve spent my whole life dancing. I do spins and twists and twirls. I watch as others watch me. I can tell when they look. I know they know when I mess up, when my foot bends just slightly farther than meant to, when my brow contorting back in pain. I know nobody is looking at my face, and yet I cake on the makeup. All they are watching is my body and they want to see how far it can go. The way it’ll bend, snap, stretch. I see other people doing what takes me years to master so effortlessly. It makes me want to bend, snap, and stretch them. But it’ll always be me, the one, feeling all the pain, because I wasn’t born to be a dancer.

Dancing is a choice. The light steps, the pointed feet, the screams of delight when they see how my back bends impossibly far back like its breaking (it is). I’m told if I like to complain this much, I should quit, and I laugh. My head hurts, it always does. My body hurts, it always does. Sometimes it hurts most seeing those others, the new ones. They never make faces of pain, they never stretch and get the same results, they’re better than me. It is a waste, dedicating my life to something I’m only pretending to be. All of it, a waste. I’m a wasted dancer, I’m wasted potential. When I was smaller, I wasn’t even potential—I was a liar. I wasn’t cut out for the stage, why do people insist I was? Any nine-year-old should be able to do a butterfly sit or lift their leg above their elbow. I refused to dance until I grew up. Everyone is a dancer when you’re older, you must join.

I now feel as though I should’ve left while I had the chance. People warned me that it wouldn’t be easy. But they said it would be a

waste for me to not pursue, this is a once-in-alifetime opportunity everyone gets. The holy grail, the end goal, the highest achievement of mankind. I’m honored to be a dancer; to be presented as a dancer, to represent dancers.

I’ve only danced in one recital, when I was twelve. It was a winter recital, all of us in the smallest leotards and imaginable freezing. Dancing was supposed to warm us up anyways. We danced a small routine. It was the easiest routine of my life. I regret it. Someone was watching that night, a big someone. Now I sit, in a prestigious prison. Everyone wants to go until they get there, then we can’t leave. Everytime I want to quit, I’m offered another recital that never happens. I practice, I practice like hell. This is hell, this entire process. It’s pitiful, a crowd watching as I’m burned over and over. All they do is clap, as I bow. My feet bleeding, getting ready to pass out, being unable to see any of their looks of admiration. The view from the top, is worse than the one below. Everything is blurry, I can’t even see my awards, I can just feel my feet. My feet are bleeding, I should clean that later. And later, I’ll dance again.

And so, today, I ask for no pity, no more. I ask that I have the privilege I always have been offered but never given—my final dance, the one that’s the most painful. But afterwards, it’s all over, and you won’t have to dance anymore. My feet stopped bleeding. It’s time to rest. The stage lights are off. It’s time to rest. My hair is down. It’s time to rest. The audience isn’t watching. It’s time to rest. I take off my shoes and I rest.

Baby Doll’s Tea Party

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Artwork by Josieamer Vega Caraballo

For All Eyes

Shania Gill did the birds fly over me, or did they fly under the clouds? either way, i still saw the beauty in such life itself.

i’m sure, the clouds saw it too although i stand beneath the clouds, i still see what the clouds see. although they are above me, they are just as real, and as deep, as i am. either way, we both saw life and felt life itself.

Artwork by Natalie Dechiara

Shoe Swirl

Impossible, right?

Every night I swear I see her. My mom. She is on the other side of my window. One thing you should know though... My mom passed when I was fifteen.

I’m thirty-four now, nineteen years and I still miss her deeply. I never saw a body. I don’t know what happened. All I know is one day my father told me she was gone. He held me in his arms that night, we cried and since then, he has not uttered a word about her.

I accepted it and did my best to move on, but it felt like she was watching me, wherever I went.

I felt her presence in my room, at work, walking home, wherever I was, she was too.

On the night of my thirty-fifth birthday, I saw her again. My mom’s beautiful figure stood outside my window, her long wavy hair blowing in the wind, and her hand

perched up on her hip.

I dart up, ran to the window, opened it and she was gone.

I must be seeing things, I tell myself. As I lift the blanket to get into my bed again, it is dark, I barely see her, but my mom is laying there. I fell to the ground in fear and cried out, “Why does my head do this to me?” She took my hand, and I pull away asking “How are you here? What is going on?”

She replies, “I’m here to tell you the truth.”

Just as you are confused now, so was I, “What truth?” I asked.

She told me my grandmother died at thirty five and my father was to blame.

He killed my grandmother. He killed my mother, and You are next,” she spoke with fear in here voice.

He’s coming tonight.

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Seaplane

Artwork by Reiss Matzinger

Emotions Within Artwork by Allison Spiroff

Butterflies

Artwork by Julietta Diaz

TEACHER CONTRIBUTIONS

Inside Out

I lie, facing the sky. Clouds move swiftly, I feel like it’s me. But I Am

Motionless. My insides churn the decision; the clouds overstay their welcome. I sigh, closing my eye. Sleep envelopes me quickly, I feel like it’s death. But I Am

Timeless. My outside seeks peace; I smile and say, “welcome.” Life, inside out, As I lie, facing the sky.

A dumb thought on a Tuesday, and in case I die.

If I leave you too soon, know you should always sit in the front row in class – and you should take care of your skin and drink water, though you know I don’t. (Or didn’t.)

Know that you will spend half your childhood trying to fit in and the other half trying to figure yourself out but it’s okay to like what you like, and love what you loveand be happy, okay?

Be happy because there are such things as fireflies and rain and birds that will sing – be happy because life is so short – and so beautiful –and you are unbelievably precious. (Hold that.)

One day you will have someone you look at and think there are stars in some people – like sunshine that will warm you. (Burn you.) And that is beautiful, too. However long it lasts. Float in those oceans in you because they are so precious, too. And it’s all an adventure.

Your life requires your participation and I want magic for youglistening iridescent behind your irises; I want mysteries that cause you to smirk or frown and laugh with your whole body. And don’t get tired of life –

It’s so precious.

I squeeze your father’s hand - or behind his shoulder - as I say, these are the good days. You play in the sand or on the floor or in the bath or just stand there, making us fall in love.

I flinch as I see this play out like a Hallmark movie, or else all the books I’ve read.

I see how my present tense becomes a worn photo of us two and people will say – they will say how pretty I was and how much I loved you.

Looking in, it’s the kind of movie that moves toward tragedy.

I’ve seen this film, and I don’t want to light up rooms, standing still in the past tense. Someone you think of when you look at your hands and wonder if they look like mine.

I wish for a different conflict, and instead I will spend my life running my hands through your hair while I whisper; You have stars that glitter behind your eyes – I cannot look away.

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Cover Photos by Morgan Worlledge

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