Shocked

I always saw men in the function of talk to the other, men talked too much, and go out with his children or carry to the family to visit other families. My dearest grandfather was like that, he talked to many, many people and people love him, everybody in town he greeted they greeted him in different ways few warm, warm or very warm I listened to when we went out or when he was in group my grand mother always at home in the kitchen, except when there were to many people at home she was asked to play the guitar and sing folks, my mother worked and stay at home but the same. My mother in law was in the kitchen and talked to few she was too tired of growing up her children so she didn’t want to help to grow up my children my father in law he was the authority but he helped with the task and studies of his children and motivated them always and related them to the people so wherever I went men related children to the world.

When knew that stupid he said “women socialize the children that is their task” and I was chocked because he studied sociology and he was really convinced.

I have to do everything at home cooking, cleaning, washing, be nurse, teacher, etc. all what were related to the children, my husband not even wanted to get out the trash, this was a struggle, he just was out working or doing politics tasks when he was at home slept or went with me to buy month things, as a teacher never saw children tasks, I also had to be defender and defend myself if we had problems because he never realized or took care of anything, his sister didn’t want me at the celebration of her parents and I have to go with the children to my aunt home or when she wanted him to drive her car to the sea with all the family we (me and my sons) had to stay at home, well that was horrible for me. He just tried to get home ready buying what he considered has to be bought. We always quarrel if I say something that was better to be made for the children by him. He didn’t know because never was in touch with children and never was with his children, when they were elder he had a car so they went with him to the school because after this he left and went to work. When we visit some friend he never talked to his children because was considered children played alone with others children. He never talked about sexual issues I had to do it and when my elder son had to take the PAA he wasn’t well enough and his father didn’t teach anything that made me mad and one day I threw him a big orange by his head but it didn’t touch him, but he taught mathematics finally, well sometimes I went to visit to a friend for a little time he stayed with them doing other thing well time passed Obviously when that man said that I thought it is incredible, he is crazy I was really mad with all, but I did any way because I was present with them in different places school or visiting an aunt or visiting the doctor or going to some group, carrying to practice the football, to the town, to the squares what else I had to do? I gave them all what I could.

That man was marry with a teacher and he did very few, she worked at a school, came back to make lunch, he taught his son and punish heavily on his cheeks.

Well but this phrase got me feeling bad until now about them. I feel as I wasn’t enough anyway.