BE STOWED D AY S
A collection of poems by V R I D D H I S AW L A N I
B E S T O W E D D AY S A posy of poems by Vriddhi Sawlani
DEDICATED TO MY BELOVED PARENTS MUKESH KUMAR JANGIR & SHUBHANGANA SAWLANI
“Poetry can be dangerous, especially beautiful poetry, because it gives the illusion of having had the experience without actually going through it.� -Rumi. That is what caught my eye poems make us believe, they indulge us in to a beautiful aroma a vast painting, and a wild imagination.
‘Bestowed Days’ is a reflection of thoughts that we encounter at least once in our ordinary, mundane lives. We tend to fall after a hard effort. We learn never to give up. We laugh in the midst of tragedy. We feel our heartbeat shifting gears. I have been trying to understand how each night a very new feeling takes birth within me, one that is special, one that I have never met. I find it amusing that there is so much we feel of which so little we can speak. So much beyond what our eyes can persieve. My work is inspired from an experience at the age of 16. Though at a mere 16, they say that thoughts in a young mind seem to be at their wildest. All this while, on showing my poems to closed ones and as I waited for them to respond with eagerness, it almost always brought a few to tears. My effort is not to make you cry but it is certainly, to touch your soul.
Memories "Hey! Wait!! Don't leave!" some parts of conscious these word steal not much of the truth or the lies tonight! matter is of love and true love cries
"Stop stop! I'm worth it" nothing much happened but no word seems to fit pretending with the part of reality perhaps the mind’s functionality "Its the past, but its the old days and old ways that make u stay" it says I run at a high velocity, but it pulls me inside increasing my curiosity not much with that lusty stare but for the fact that I care "Stop think see, I will be" with the words I feel that yes this lock has a key the lock was open n things carving not much today, these are the memories which kept me starving memories are not the truth or the lies its a matter of love and true love cries.
Wake up !
Wake up girl! It’s morning already Wake up my child You’re late already Don’t stay up there! where the slumber of ignorance has been a bliss Somewhere where these wrong ways seem to be the passionate kiss Do not relate imagination to reality Do not relate visualization to verity It’s not the same anyway It’s not the truth by the way I don’t know why is she still asleep She needs to know, that she has been left by faith Better off the truth be hidden Better off she keeps it driven Reality is - expectation has been on the tip and you never know when it will flip Reality is - concern has been my habit But people do Stab it Reality is - it really matters But everything shatters Wake up child, wake up!
When in love
I stand on the top of the world and they ask me what is love? With tender touch I say whatever you don’t know is love They ask for a magnitude I slop in to tell its all about gratitude They tell me stories of those savoring passion which indulge us with tender When in love one is a bender When in life she makes him feel alive He decides to walk it worthwhile When in love he decides to die for her stories of the new era prosper When in love there are two souls turning one where a story emerges under the sun When in love she decides to sacrifice With new devotion time flies When in love someone betrays With a broken heart she stays When in love he has a tear in his eyes With her care and concern she ties When in love life takes the wrong turn With the bond of love they burn And life has taken turns With new spirit it burns With every love story tonight Lies a sense of pride With every story of passion There is a bit of truth behind There is a part of the story they hide Love cannot be judged nor be quantified Love can be felt and take you into the night
WORTH THE WAR
Every life here is a battle every road is a battlefield and like a warrior with a shield everyone tries to win everyone tries to exscind the sin You can’t runaway! You can’t forbid the truth you’ll be pushed down the hill you’ll be criticized beyond your will with time these moments get still but everyone wants to be noticed Everyone wants to be worth it and you walk down the road again you start the climb you began ‘cause life has to offer you a cocktail With the fixings of drama and pain laughter and vain summers and rain loses and gain from sane to insane And when you drain it all in a jar you’ll see your life has turned out worthy so far!
WISE
Not everything is as it seems Not everything is according to dreams Drama and dissemble is part of the theme Not everything will make perfect sense Not everything is so dense Durability and rigidity will be the fence But some hearts are meant to be broken and some lives are meant to sacrifice For one reason or more There is something wise which this world hides Part of truth and part of lies Part of pain and part of sighs Part of laugh and part of smile How a sphere holds it all From broken hearts till the first crawl From the business class till the exposed stalls It says Not everything is perpetual Not everything is virtual But some hearts are meant to be shaken And some lives are meant to fight ‘cause there is something wise that this world hides
Missing Days A teardrop strikes down my face It’s quarter to three and I sit in the balcony Silent and dark thoughts in my mind I don’t know if there is peace for me to find I’m in a bucket of thoughts that are trying to find way Not everything is possible, not everything has to stay and when you are not sure of the future day when its difficult to grasp what the planets say It’s time you look back to the times you had a smile It’s time you feel like picking up your phone and dial It’s time you look at the moments which are now memories It’s time you remember those people It’s time when we pray in a chapel Time is a good athlete It runs at a high speed A split of a second can change your need and when you look back someday You’ll see things turn to color from gray Missing those days, missing the chase Missing you being a child missing you going wild There is a lot to miss tonight there is a lot for me to strive
Life’s Faith The bad days will go and the good days may come Life is short and chances are some Life is to live and pain gets numb days may pass and so does the phase life will go on and hopes for the blaze everyone is born alone with those teachings of stones Sacred life and there and after who knows the reality before dawn who knows the struggle behind a new born In life’s quest I’ll tell you a mystic When in woods she walked to a fatal end she had no clue the road wouldn’t bend there wasn’t a way back and no one who could lend you never know when life gives up on you or you give up on life “It is God’s gift sent”
Somewhere A sister somewhere prays for a brother to arrive from the sweet belly of a mother bringing it to life a brother somewhere prays for the wellness of a sister then is when she gets away from the bitter Somewhere a father prays for a daughter’s happy life then is when she never lets her divide somewhere behind the hills a wife waits for her husband to arrive then is when he takes her for a drive Somewhere a husband takes care of his wife together they live together they strive An illustrated feeling a sweet sour dealing a beautiful rearing It’s when the bond gets tightened it’s when the loved ones support the ‘frightened’ it’s when the life is being lightened Someone listens to our prayer some beliefs help us to care somewhere there is a fate Somewhere someone prays and somewhere someone pays
Open Page What I’m feeling tonight is more like a story of insomnia it’s weird how life drapes itself into an extraordinary affair Affair of a girl being raped and the whole world watch and gauge Affairs of those thousand landless bunch trying to control their rage Affairs of those people who are broken inside but pretend to be in blaze In that bright morning with the coffee cup in my hand I trembled! I couldn’t stand what about those who walked those miles alone what about those who never became a garner of neat what about those who felt the heat what about lives of those which earth didn’t greet A battle takes place every night that may be the silence or a violent fight love has been lost and hatred does come in stories have been told while some went down the bin With every heart dwells that soul of divine with every heart there will be eternity entwined because the very next step is the story unfolding For what has been your’s will never be apart for what is lost will again reach the start
SHE HAD HOPE In that season of rain she sat beneath a tree listening to the sensation of the rain with her little heart bearing a stain she let the water pour on her she was guided by the bereft vain in that season of wintry hail he left a heart beside her to keep it safe she sat across the fire, keeping the heart warm she stood across the world fighting for that little heart which was to be kept safe she kept waiting for him at the door and when he came in in that season of shimmering blue she was delicate, delicate to understand his love she wanted attention, she seeked for nourishment she kept weeping, but he was in rage he wasn’t able to get her stage she wanted more of love but it ended up in a daze in that season of dazzling sun she regretted the time she made him wrathful she regretted the time she let him go she ended up saying sorry though but it was when he took his heart to an other the heat burned her down she kept waiting she kept weeping but he never turned around In that season of love She was dead
Choices I Made Each time I gaze into the light every time into something bright everything has its time but I think it is end before a start a rushing train - never ready for a crime a pining board - where people see me as a dart choices I made and decisions I denied road I took and mistakes I compiled never was a time when I was loved never was a time to see through my choice I heard, I overheard, I stepped inside the voice that brutal comment, that cruel fight that like which wasn’t meant for me, that stretchable height there are some choices I made yes I loved the date but I wasn’t able to hide the love which resides inside before I could have it all the sweet loving and a charismatic hug the caring and when my heart got struck it was end before I could even start to believe, to understand it was hard but the choices I made and decisions I denied Road I toke and mistakes I compiled.
Love story The decency in your smile the cute love for a while the things I owe to be piled I just know I loved you for a while judges and critics are everywhere to be found The love and glory has its innocent sound the adorable face and the admired grace the cute hug and the sweet kiss all my love and all your loving had a bliss we flew to the place we stand hand in hand we cried on the shoulders we lived on our own land the innocence of your loving and the naughty brews of my talks I’ll always miss... the midnight walk you were perfect and I made a hold but who knew that people make It hard and bold we had to be apart just because of my stupid part but even if today I had to hold your hand and fly to places I’ll always be there because now I’ll make it simple and fair your cute and innocent love will always stay in my heart we were decent and that is why we were hit by a dart
A
Dark
NIGHT
A place of illusion , a place of dreams a place were the lights are a thrill and the heart stands still! the light music on a hill.! I sit on a bench on a dark night, I can hear the fights and the cries was this all about a dark night? as I have a glass of wine wearing a dress divine I place my heart to the sky to let this heart explore this night , let it at least try! As my heart moves it’s first step I feel insecure in my mind it says not to lend this heart Black is evil black is harsh, black is crime , black is devil! But leaving all this aside.... it just flew away... and a sudden action took place in my eyes! This black night is just said to be black.... This black Wich my heart explores is a peace of the divine Black is kind Black shows us the importance of LIGHT Black is your mind not this heart Wich finds love in this evil black night... Black is nothin buh a illusion It’s a mind’s fusion
Untitled A high note of the day I lowered my pitch laboring my life away I can’t speak I can’t express I can’t share and I can’t bare the pain I’m hiding inside there is a force I’m driven into I’m eager to enhance the glory I hide I stay to the edge and stick to the side it’s the blend of love which has turned to hate it’s the fuse of care which has become hard fate at every step I take today I pray, I stay, I fear ! in the end of life I implore for mercy give me strenght to love myself because no one else will give me strenght to care for myself when there is no one to fill
Life is a day As the sun rises from the hands of a mother, Sobbing hard ? confused with the world and the new rise of a human As the sun shone bright he was happy with his family, playing and loving the world he was crying for As the sun sets to reveal the evening the life of the boy goes into a step towards adulthood he fights, he laughs, he feels nostalgic and he feels complete confused with his own feelings as he get the tease It gets darker as he sets as he learns to bare the darkness of life he is a young man, earning while facing the crisis As the darkness grows he recieves the experience of life from the bright day to the darkest night and then emits a brighter ray as its dawn with all his experience the time has passed and he has grown older everything seems to have a ray of hope that crisis will settle soon and it will again be noon
Let yourself go The soul can reach high up into the sky it make us fly and makes us understand you just create and see the creations will be seen it is the heart’s desire loving everthing around will keep you to the ground and you will see tue love found listen to your heart and then you’ll see the start ideas will burst respect will be at the crust it’s nothing like lust go to the highest and let the world change for you because at times love gets due so make it clear there is nothing to fear You are the best just look at rest dont get your life blurred everthing can be perfect just the view has to change there is no range it’s love to be noticed and you’re olways blessed
As I Fly Soo many people come in between to reach this person! I fly, I fly like a kite but there are many who fly like me I cut some off my way and some cut me on this stage and I start again the sky is full of people flying and I’m just one of them let’s just look at the sight it’s crowded, but somewhere my life wants to be proud so I cut and go and some cut me through! away I fly leaving this world aside I have to conquor the sky!
Trust How to trust the world when somewhere someone will break it when someone will break this thread when someone is going to make you believe the lies in all together. in this world stand many people to make you understand this “promises are meant to be broken, trust is meant to be shaken, “ but there is no one who can stand on this crust of trust! no one born to make your expectation in place somehow it will one day break unexpected has always happened and it will your eyes will be stunned, your jaw will drop till the World’s end!
Someday I’ll find you someday when the days will come undone when the sky will turn red and blue will be the shed a day when rain will be of love and rainbow will have only my colors when your eyes will be the way to the world a day when right is nothing and nothing is wrong a field of pure love , I’ll meet you there come to me or I’ll find you were the sum shines on dew!
Day Passes Day passes even when the world seems unpredictable day passes even when there is nothing to burn day passes even when you are not stable passing it does even in those storms of pain and breezes of love you have to walk and time won’t stop people left you with scars and you find yourself sitting and crying at what happened time is passing and walk is like a stranger to you! don’t let that scar ruin the path you’re on the path of you the path to you you have to walk away you have to walk ahead you have to walk today
Haven’t I Loved You Haven’t I told you that I was the one haven’t I made you believe that life is hard? haven’t I tried my best to give you my part! this is how I left on you today life has always been a blessing to me but you never know what is ahead I felt the emptiness of things I desire but I learned if life has given me a reason to cry then there are hundreds of reasons to smile for to love you there are few but my heart has always skipped a beat when I saw you there is another part of the World too which resides in you, haven’t I told you, haven’t I told you, that you are leaving a heart behind you haven’t I explained that my only desire is due? haven’t I stopped myself from entering into you? haven’t I loved you.?
I Knew It Had To End .!! Every step I took towards us I knew I’ll have to back out someday the care and love within us I knew you will crash it all someday All the truth and lie within us I knew you will stab it on everyday with every step I took I knew you are to leave me one day we are the two different phases of the day which cannot meet you are the autumn and I’m the heat you are the leaf and I’m the sheet it’s my love for you which made you alive and I knew you are to go as I strive she loves you, and she cares too here I go again, back to the life because she found someone better standing for myself and “sigh sigh” its again a goodbye
Within I Thought Within I thought to become something
within I thought I’ll break it all But as you stand here tonight you have nothing And let the sky fall Within I thought to become kind Within I thought I’ll make it sick But my mind makes me rewind And it changed me with a flick Within I thought I’ll become determined Within I thought I’ll make it high But it didn’t turn out fine and it ended up with a lie Within I thought to forget what’s gone Within I thought I’ll make it contrasting But it ended up within the dawn
Magic of life A magic wand spins and the miracle happens from the fetus inside the mother comes a little angel, trying to snaffle with those teary eyes and a smile on her face she welcomes the new born with an admirable gaze in her arms the little one stays cuddling in the lap and the love he embrace. there is nothing more beautiful than a mother’s care when those little lips try to make a way with a curved line and those shrimpy feet kicking the air it’s a mesmerizing stage. where nothing matters but these moments of love now the scenario changes he wakes up from his bed yawning and lazy to make a way through that giant hallway with one eye open he looks at the clock realizing that he needs to rush through the stairway. with each step he takes in hurry he gets old images being blurry. he, agonize those tiny legs learning to. walk on these stairs those little untamed hands brushing the surface of the table that undersized body trying to be stable that smile on his face and the glittering eyes he learns that time flies...
You know what Nothing is going to change in my heart nothing is gonna take away what we got life is to live and love is to cure nothing is permanent, everything’s unsure but there is a part of me which says lets count the moments and not the days lets count the memories and not the phase lets live forever and eternity stays everyone lives and everyone exists with a scale of sedative each one here sits beside and remembers they are part of a fairy tale each one should close their eyes and remember the places you had a smile those sweet little lips which pressed in mine that sweet little hug which helped me shine that sweet little dance in your arms that sweet little face which has a charm our love will never fail with a pride tonight I too have a fairytale.
PRETEND Lets pretend! because you aren’t coming back lets pretend because my heart has been stolen contagiously I have been loving you so but I know it’s impossible to get through thirstily I wanted you so but I know it’s impossible to get you highly I weeded to own you so but I know it’s impossible to attain it’s a game or maybe a pain I knew I loved you so so what should I do tonight ? sit and cry? or should I highlight? that yes I have to pretend every night that yes in my head there is daily a fight I can’t speak what I like yes I can’t own you tonight I have to pretend all day all time that yes I don’t care but I cry inside you love her and I watch sitting beside want to scream and shout, I don’t want to hide I want to be free to say that I love you I want to be free to scold you I want to be... I want to make you believe that I’ll love you for life but I guess I’ll have to pretend my whole life
When a door closes When you least expect it the expected happens when you start drifting away I cannot get tied and make you stay when you know you are left with nothing then comes the box of everything this is how we have been through our life when we loose all our scope we again find a ray of hope when we loose all our trust we find a cleaner place within the dust when we find a place to rest we rise to make a new nest when we are left with pain we find a soul, insane magical it makes you feel the sweetest feeling and charm it will steal in your worst days it will help you heal it’s a feeling you can’t deny it’s a feeling you want before you die feel lucky that you feel that way today because it’s in the darkest day when love quits our way
Even Today Even today they say they care even today they make promises to stay with you forever even today they try to make these dreams come to reality even today the World finds versatility I’m not a critic to judge nor a chief justice but! does that critic help you when you need support? does that critic help when there is no bend on the road does that critic carry your load? because even today life is still even today your close ones makes it with their will even today people make you feel bright even today you get over the stormy night cause even today ordinary exists even today it persists
Unfold Mists I’ve been wondering, all along life is a mystery and we are mere travelers. walking a mile or two wondering what the road holds next I’m just a wanderer looking around and today when I looked at myself it’s strange, it’s weird what I found I’ve lost it all. and I don’t know which road to unfold because life is a mystic and people live in the world of plastic they are not what you see they are not what they want to be you know they say, appearance is deceptive. and people live in the world of sedative. either I’m expecting too much or the roads are blocked because I yearn for reality I yearn for a kingdom of love where the sky is green and the water seems red impossible isn’t it? but I’m just a wanderer wondering and you never know
Breezes Of Love A chilly winter night I’m standin still on the roof the view is breathtaking every stare takes me to another dimension suddenly my eyes drops, I’m feeling the absence of you a breeze blows on my face making me feel the touch of it’s chill my hair in mood, and I’m standing still again this wind blows through me each time when ever I failed, this breeze blew how is it so true? as I see through this view, I find my hair is coming undone my head is feeling fresh... those chilly winds whispering through my ears and brushing through my lips I feel those empty spaces filled by you again as I close my eyes to see you I feel you holding me tonight grabbing me with your gentle hands it’s smooth, it felt like you spoke today saying that you love me till this ends I can’t see you, but i feel you tonight not just the face, these winds are going inside I remember you saying “girl! I just want to be within you ! your dream was coming true and my life was becoming new and as I stand there, every breeze brought a sign of you it felt divine with love so true
Lift My Hand Something has left my soul pure again something has filled this heart again I feel alive when I’m away from you I feel complete when I don’t want you! this is how I left my truth to be this is what I always wanted to see I always looked back when I tried to move ahead you never failed to screw my head this wasn’t the way it should have been you always left me thinking that I’m not clean but this wasnt the truth I lift my hand up in the air tonight I scream out all the hurt and fight as I close my eyes in this night I feel the need to be bad is good I feel the world is wicked showing them my wickedness I need to show the hard part of me to you tonight if I’m bad then I’m good too if I’m a devil then I’m a angel too
Night
I walked towards the door of depth the door was wide open but i hesitate i hestitate to walk ahead but as the world standing behind me poked me in I fell in , I fell down , I fell to the ground and before I was able to reach it I was captured by a young man beholding me in his arms eyes stunned.! I’m not hurt I’m not in pain he saved me tonight he got into my sight , my heart took up a flyt and I wasn’t able to hide what my heart felt like it was heaven on earth a beautiful rose in garth the sweetest flirt ... I can’t forget how you saved me that night
A story of a tainted heart She was a girl with a beautiful heart with some deep scars she never told me how hurt she was she never stood up when she was right I don’t know how she managed to sacrifice all her life people came n people went she was been used, she was been played with but she never bore a word from her heart steadily she kept moving ahead of her life making a affray in her psyche she never told what she felt she never told her self sad even if she was she was a girl with a beautiful heart running out with scars she kept playing with her mind making it afflict by the way she handled she kept fighting she kept struggling but no one knew what her life was all about how she fights daily to survive her caput has lost the control she loved everyone , she cared too she understand the love of the lover but somehow she failed with a finch of guilt she left again n walk ahead of her life she walked n walked but no one purely knew what she was dealing to survive
Her Path
Her smile gets me under spells she drives me crazy when she yells she is the one for me still but when that storm ended and we had a clear path, you walked on a way! away where everything was feather brained breaking your own heart, going on to become a dart, for someone you don’t have a clue of people are not what you think they are you are on the wrong path my love! I have done a lot but she went too far my hands have lost the strength to hold her my words weren’t enough to tell her but oh lord please help this girl who has lost her path, oh lord ! I pray to you to get her back to the start she has just lost her path her path...
We Are The Travelers We are the travelers! we are going far from the hometown to the weather of brown volumes are high and low speakers are hitting the base! which makes me remember a phrase people come and go’s but the music stays! With that wind chasing we are heading our way on the road with those boards time is goin by and sky changes color The sky! Fascinating me.. makes me believe the language of the love making me all the way free the soul seems connected my moods effected! Being a traveler is fun at times the breeze and at times the hot sun! I love the way we see the world because we all are travelers in our own curles