Those Demons

Those Demons

Rebecka Holt

Pushing, pulling, falling, drowning, suffocating. These demons inside my mind won't let me go.

They are pulling my brain into a billion different directions.

I don't know which way is up or down. There are days when I feel like I'm walking in the clouds and others I feel like I am walking through hell.

These demons have taken over my life. I'm no longer happy, no longer sad, no longer lonely, no longer isolated, no longer myself. I'm lost. My heart does not feel my brain; will not tell me when I'm in pain. I am like a rock that sits in one place, never moving until someone picks me up and tosses me. Like the rock, I cannot feel, nor cry. These demons have taken over. I am no longer me.