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She sounded like church bells
By Jade Ball
The kind I hadn’t heard
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since I was a child,
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wrapped in innocence. Hidden in her unholy
perfume and sin.
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Her eyes were so big
they swallowed mine
and each cell
on the surface
of my body,
like it was design.
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Bleach blonde, then pastel pink.
She let me brush her hair,
cut it.
Over cracked
porcelain and cheap wine,
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we wrote poetry together.
Bundled in my bed, or hers.
What it means to fall
in love, with each other,
with your best friend.
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She made words
into diamond rings
just to give them to me.
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When she etched forever
into the cracks of my spine
with the sharp scratch
of her fingernails,
I let her.
I don’t know how
to clean her blood
from my bones.
It dried there.
Between my left ventricle
and my right one.
I would have loved
every moment of her,
unconditionally.
Through tears
on the bathroom floor.
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Twice.
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Makeshift therapy
and pain.
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Until the fog
started to lift.
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She showed me
my worthlessness.
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When she cut contact,
out of nowhere,
as if we were nothing between
pillow
and comforter.
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Your tongue
cut me.
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Its sharpness
mangled mine,
and you tore me
apart.