War of Love or Hate

By Kammi Wofford

Everything fell apart And when it did, it became me screaming out the passengers’ seat of my “best friend’s” window Yelling at you as we drove past your house

She always welcomed the right side of the street, next to the stoplight, with her middle finger and for a second, i felt that way too

There was a small part of me that wanted to speak the words, “i hate you” But I never did I most definitely did scream the words “screw you” more times than I could count

Yet, I’m still in love with you And I hate every ounce of sitting here Waiting on you Like you’ll do something

Do you even love me?

She always found some way to make me laugh as we drove by And instead of driving to leave you notes It became me singing every single love song at the top of my lungs, hanging out the window Resulting in her dragging me back inside the car

And when my best friend faded from my side Because she lied to me, too I finally got the courage to scream “I love you” out of my window to you

For some reason, There was a small part of me that hoped you heard it But you weren’t close enough to that stoplight

If only you understood how freeing it felt to scream at you Like you were listening And for some reason, she left and you stayed Now I’m just left missing the both of you.