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Words by Kelly Lin Growing up, the defining moment of my life was

Back then, we used to swap candy for lunch buddies,

when my mom finally gave into the convenience of

nowadays we swap pictures of avocado toast for likes

mini pizzas in cardboard boxes. That box marked

on social media. How we associate ourselves when it

every kid’s hierarchy in the school cafeteria. It was

comes to food has not changed. We are now more

the moment when having a blinged-out lunch box

involved with the food we eat, meaning we are

meant nothing in comparison to nacho chips and

becoming more conscious of what makes good food

fruity juice pouches. I had seen it on TV, and like

good for us, yet we have also become more hyper

every other kid, I wanted to fit in. That was the first

aware of trending food. The only difference now is

instance in my life when food had connected with me

that instead of boasting about our food in the school

on a social level. Having that pre-made lunch box at

cafeteria we boast about it online.

school would define me.

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“You are what you eat,” is not only a familiar expression

speak a thousand words. Everyone would know what

but a mindset that allows us to only see our food the

I was trying to convey in a smoothie bowl. Boom. An

way we want to see it. It oversimplifies the ideology of

Instagram-worthy picture.

how food makes us feel when we eat. Remember when all the other kids used to tell you that if you swallowed too many watermelon seeds, you would turn into a giant green watermelon? After that, I was more concerned that my fingers and toes would turn into leaves and stems than anything else. I know now that I wasn’t going to magically morph into a watermelon. But now, I can only wish my sad green smoothie would magically turn into the frothy chocolate-banana smoothie bowl I saw on my feed.

When I used to go out to eat with friends there is always some type of ritual where every beverage or meal becomes the center of attention. In efforts in trying to keep up with trends, I am always trying to scope out the newest vegetarian or vegan spot that everyone else might be raving about. I would then order the most “pretty” dish on the menu. Heart eye emojis and bouts of food jealousy would flood my news feed and, in that moment, I felt like I was doing everyone a favor. I was giving people what they wanted; some “food-porn”

When I do document my food, it helps me remember

in comparison to the beet salad they had to pick up

what I eat and inspires my future meals. When I share

before work because they had no time the night before

an image, it can serve the same purpose of inspiration

to prep. Boom. Another successful Instagram-worthy

for other people. Have we ever asked ourselves why

picture.

anecdotes and recipes are always accompanied with images? It’s because it elevates the ideas and supports how the food is supposed to turn out. In that aspect, we all see our own posts having the ability to create ingenious possibilities in the culinary world. We all know that we eat with our eyes first, but can that perpetually harm our relationship with food?

Realistically speaking I would find myself in the same situation. At work I would scroll and salivate at the same time. This reaction is caused by a domino effect of factors. We end up spending more time trying to recreate the pictures we see than enjoying what we have in front of us. We not only affect ourselves but can affect others in a public setting. It might not be

When I’m at home, I know there is no filter so I

a major issue because it has now become the norm,

could be sitting at home all day in pajamas and the

but we start distancing ourselves when the purpose

smoothie bowl could do the talking for me. I would

of coming together is to enjoy the meal together. We

set up a backdrop and dress my smoothie bowl with

become so enamored by the fact that we can see how

coconut flakes, pistachios, granola, and fresh fruit. I

bright and colorful food can be and the textures we

would meticulously spin the bowl at the perfect angle

can see in a high definition photo that we disregard

so that the natural light can really make it shine.

that those same reactions can be replicated by eating

Every grain and flake has to be perfect. I don’t even

the food itself.

have to explain myself because pictures can essentially

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Our perception of individuality has become so closely tied to what we post on social media. Un-Instagram meals become the deficit. Knowing that your meal does not have to be shared with the world constantly can free yourself from the idea that not all food has to look good in order for it to taste good. There is no shame in not wanting to bother with a plate and just eating it right out of the pan. There is no shame in your so called “lackluster” chickpea masala. Your meal can simply taste better because it has the components to do so. Give yourself more credit. Simplifying my meals has let me become more carefree. I wouldn’t have to constantly worry about whether or not it looked good enough. The food I eat no longer would have to define me. I could have pumpkin soup in all its thick orange glory with a plain piece of bread. Some might say that it’s un-inspirational but it has encouraged me to step away from the pressure of a social presence. I knew what I was eating and I knew that I could still have my soup warm and not have to try to enjoy a cold bowl of soup after thirty minutes trying to find the best lighting. We have come a long way from people seeing food as only a core anchor to survival. We can consider ourselves lucky that we are able to have the luxury to share and experience the entirety of what we are offered in terms of food. We usually have more of a choice of what we put in our stomachs. We don’t have to trivialize the concept of food and actually enjoy it for just mere satisfaction. There is absolutely no wrong in sharing our creations whatsoever, but it is sometimes nice to know that you just simply don’t have to. We have grown up in the age of having to impress others on our food ventures. Rather it is more important to relay the message that eating and living more sustainably has more of a powerful impact than just simply sharing a picture. I have come to accept the idea that I don’t need to keep up an appearance to satisfy others. We shouldn’t have to feel that any of our meals are un-Instagram worthy. Rather we should have the attitude that anything can be worthy as long as you know it to be. r

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words & photos by Cara Livermore At every craft show, trade show, pop-up

these strong beliefs, though, and I

shop, or publication fair I table at,

started to reduce the amount of animal

I'm always surprised at how positive

products I used - first milk (easy),

everyone is about this magazine. When

then eggs (real easy, especially as

I

animal-based

a non-baker), then slowly but surely,

products, what I mostly got from friends

I phased all of it out completely and

and family was confusion, hostility, and

replaced them with other good food.

first

stopped

eating

passive-aggressive chiding. Something that was so personal to me, something I didn't push on others, was seen as a naive joke to the people I cared about the most. For complete strangers to now praise the quality of this work (and,

subsequently,

veganism)

feels

vindicating to me.

The entire time during that phase, I was both scared and too put-off by labels to label myself. I thought, "Vegans won't think I'm vegan enough if I mess up," or, "My family will think I'm a freak," or, "I don't want to pigeonhole myself as one 'thing.'" But the more I watched food industry documentaries,

Way back when, I was scared to call

the more podcasts I listened to, the

myself vegan. I didn't see the point.

easier veganism became - the more my

After being vegetarian for three years,

mind started to change. All of the

I came to hate the idea of labels,

reasons behind veganism became totally

and

labels

clear to me and made complete sense,

were trying too hard to be seen as

and it turned out that learning to cook

"something"

was actually fun and relatively easy.

thought

those by

that

others.

used I

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had

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I realized that if my friends

Magazine" - I want people to

in

or family didn't "get" what I

be invited into its pages, not

and showing other people that

was doing, that I'd make them

feel off-put by labels. But when

you're there as well.

understand

I

it comes down to it, I think

wasn't going to let other people

we should take a stand with our

dictate what my beliefs and my

language at some point. There

voice should be any longer.

is

in

my

own

way.

Those people who say nice things about

the

magazine

at

shows

ALWAYS say the same thing: "I'm not vegan, but..." or "I could go vegan, but I love [this one thing, usually cheese] SO much." I think labels scare people off from changing at all. If they love [that one thing] so much, and say they could go vegan, why not try some of the aspects of veganism, and keep what they like? I think that part of it is that it would break that label into grey areas, something even I was scared of at first. People don't want to take on titles

a

"plant

big

difference

based"

and

between

"vegan"

-

the biggest of them all being that

veganism

doesn't

itself

to

food

or

versus

vegetables.

limit

just It's

meat about

more than "all natural" goat's cheese - it's about the entire system of consumption, from the condition of farm workers, to the

brutality

industry,

to

of

the

the

leather

frustration

of mandatory animal testing of cosmetics.

By

rallying

people

around a label like this, we can more effectively bring up issues of

change

and

maybe

actually

make that change happen.

finding

like-minded

people,

Even though not every vegan has the exact same opinions, one of my favorite parts of labeling myself is that I set a certain standard for myself. My brand of veganism is rooted in compassion and learning, and so for me, when I say I'm vegan, it means I take those values to heart in everything I do. It forces me to always stay open-minded and continually look for the best way to live life to those values. I'm always learning new things about food,

about

the

environmental

impact of consumables, about the culture of food production, and much more. All of that knowledge builds

on

that

vegan

label,

adding to what I already act upon on a daily basis. Without

they feel they can't live up to,

Similarly, if you find that you

the label, way before I went

and in that case, labels can be

want, or in my case, if you NEED

vegan, I found myself consuming

harmful. (Which is why I don't

to talk to others about your

whatever I felt like - the label

talk in absolutes with people who

experience in veganism, you show

reminds me every day of what

read the magazine - people want

yourself as a beacon for others

I've learned and what I hope

food first, good stories first,

to come to with questions, with

to accomplish for myself in the

and

debate, with support, and much

future.

labels

once

they've

felt

they've learned and experienced

more.

it.) To the people scared to use

beliefs with a label makes it

labels - it's not a necessity,

easier for people to understand

so don't feel pressured. But I

what you're all about with one

do think there are valid reasons

word. (For the worse or for the

and

better, depending on where you

positives

to

identifying

your ideals and beliefs. There

are

lots

of

books

and

themselves "plant based", rather than "vegan," and I completely it.

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There's isn't

a

reason

called

up

for

your

are on the internet.) The immense

blogs out there now considering

get

Standing

my

"Vegan

support you get from others in the online vegan community is so uplifting, and what I would call essential for something thinking about going vegan. If you look on tumblr, instagram, or twitter, the "vegan" marker is so helpful

Yeah, labels can be a hindrance for a lot of things, and over time they can become cumbersome. But I think it can be a great asset as well, especially for movements

that

are

trying

to

push what most people would call "normal." I think we're still at a point where the vegan label, maligned and misunderstood, is still

useful,

and

that's

why

I'll continue to use it in my personal life and in my work.

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Words by Veronica Houk Since

I

first

plant-based

Feeling like this stereotype of veganism

lifestyle as a teenage girl, I have felt

has been difficult at times. Of course,

like an embodiment of the classic vegan

deviating

stereotype. It’s not just that I know

beliefs, values, and habits is always

how to turn leftover SCOBY disks into

challenging, but parts of this identity

chemical-free cleaning supplies or that

seem

my shoes are made out of recycled yoga

harder. Because I am young, my family and

mats. It’s also that I happen to fill many

friends have treated my beliefs about food

of the demographic tropes associated with

as transient, misinformed, or “part of a

veganism in the United States. In fact,

phase.” Because I am a woman, men have

if the characters we see in entertainment

taken the liberty of explaining to me the

reflect societal expectations of what type

unsentimental laws of nature that mandate

of individual can be plausibly vegan, I

death and the nutritional necessity of

appear to be the perfect embodiment. Like

animal-based

Lisa

passionate about the protection of people

Simpson,

embraced

who

a

became

television’s

to

from

make

my

mainstream

society’s

experiences

protein.

And

slightly

since

I

am

first “out” vegetarian in 1995, Phoebe

from

Buffay from Friends, Rachel Silva from

environment, some people write off my

Master of None, and Catherine Meyer from

concerns about animal rights as another

Veep, I am young, female, and politically

liberal crusade. None of these arguments

progressive. (My dating life is more of

are particularly pernicious, but they can

a crossover episode, between the face Dev

be annoying. Usually, I try to return to

makes in the Master of None episode when he

my breath and carry on with my day.

finds out Rachel is “kind of a vegetarian” and the moment Phoebe pretends to know what country Minsk is in when she finds out her boyfriend David is moving.)

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marginalized

communities

and

the

Oh, did I mention that I meditate? My apartment smells like a dank Palo Santo reserve.

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There is, however, one key way

yet as a person of color in a

expect them from a character who

that I differ from the tropes

predominantly

embodies so many of my values.

of veganism: my race. While the

have been particularly aware of

Each

vegan

United

the way my identities as a vegan

vegetarian and Chinese, caused

States seems to skew millennial,

and POC intersect and sometimes

me to recoil.

female,

even

conflict. Again, media served as

demographic

a lens to help me examine my

connection is with its whiteness.

lived situation, specifically an

There

episode of The Simpsons in which

community and

more

in

the

liberal,

prevalent are

readily

not

many

available

an

statistics

about

vegan

white

sphere,

I

the family dines at a Chinese

populations, although the few I

restaurant.

have seen have tended to poll for

order

political orientation, religious

the waiter informs her that her

affiliation, gender

income

rather

than

race

and

and she requests rice instead.

without

reliable

celebrities and leading activists visible in the media, and the predominance

of

articles

in

mainstream newspapers with titles such as “Here’s Why Black People Don’t Go Vegan” make me confident in saying that a lot of us are white folk. Which is great! is

nothing

inherently

the vegan community, given the United States is still a white country

for

now

provided we are not unwelcoming or hostile toward others. Although the overall acceptance, generosity,

race

and

compassion

of

movement

is

plant-based exceptional, and

identity

confronting politics

is

essential within any community, including ours. Aligning so well with the vegan stereotype in the United States has allowed me to feel peers

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like in

an

insider

most

fragrant bee bellies or the cat noses? Is there any way we can enhance your dining experience by

hurting

amongst

situations,

an

animal?”

the

waiter enthusiastically inquires of the now horrified Lisa. This scene

seemed

racial

and

into

two

to

cleave

dietary

my

identities

opposing

characters.

Lisa’s outspoken vegetarianism, in

addition

advocacy

wrong with a white majority in

truly

but

choice is “very disappointing,”

the vegans that I know personally,

the

dish,

“Would you like that with the

even

majority

vegetarian

to

and

statistics to arm my argument,

There

attempts

level,

ethnicity. But

a

Lisa

to

of

her

passionate

countless

social

and political issues, have made her a singular role model to me, and in every preceding episode that

she

based her to

has

options, on

see

with

demanded I

have

glee,

positive,

plantcheered

delighted

semi-nuanced

portrayals of vegetarianism on TV. But this time, Lisa’s tacit endorsement of stereotypes about the in-edibility of Chinese food made my stomach sink. Jabs at the foods that supposedly belong to my inherited culture but are in fact exoticized myths, and what these

stories

signal

about

an

essential ethnic character, carry a familiar sting, yet I did not

minority

representation,

The Simpsons may be a cartoon, but

this

scene

observations

draws

about

its

ethnicity

and food from common attitudes circulating throughout society. This particular scenario makes a

joke

that

of

Asian

the

expectation

people

eat

animals

that are either too disgusting or

morally

reprehensible

consumption

in

furthermore, animals

the

West,

hurting

constitutes

aspect

of

a

for

a

and these

crucial

satisfying

meal.

The denigration of a culture’s food traditions go hand-in-hand with doubts about the essential character

of

its

people,

and

these narratives are supported by potent extrapolations about other cultures’ levels of civilization, morality, and humanity. In mainstream society, anxieties about

polluting

consuming

in

ourselves

Others’

by

cuisines

has manifested not only through transparent

fictionalizations

and exaggerations, but also in resilient pseudo-science. Take, for instance, the prevalent “MSG myth,” born in the 1950s, that teaches that monosodium glutamate is

an

with

artificial

potentially

flavoring

toxic

side

effects, ranging from headaches to

muscle

numbness

death.

Dubbed

“the

‘white

powder’

of

and

even

mysterious the

Orient”

in a 1953 edition of The Joy of Cooking, MSG’s association with

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Chinese food led to racialized

expectations of their patrons,

trattoria,

monikers for the illnesses the

who look to the staff and other

I

powder purportedly caused, from

diners in a restaurant to confirm

the

“Chinese Restaurant Syndrome” to

the

their

script: find vegetables on the

“Wonton

Never

experience. Disproportionately,

menu, ask the waiter a series

mind that MSG was in fact one of

this affects purveyors of foods

of questions about ingredients

the country’s most widely used

we continue to think of as un-

(smiling

additives in all types of food

American,

I’m

products,

serving

Soup

Headache.”

including

Campbell’s

“authenticity”

such

of

as

sushi,

restaurants

burritos,

and

usually

or

teppanyaki-ya,

enact

following

so

any

version

“just

they

difficult!),

for

a

in

don’t

of

case”

think

over-apologize

inconveniences,

and

canned soup, Betty Crocker TV

curry,

dinners, McDonald’s hamburgers,

or

and pureed baby food, or that

establishments, diners seem to

particularly

the

a

be particularly quick to blame

people use less delicate terms),

naturally occurring amino acid

foods for later bouts of food

but

found in tomatoes and seaweed.

poisoning. The prevalence of these

especially care about their food

As

identifying

accusations seem to suggest an

have developed their own green

the accusations against MSG as

underlying insistence on bodily

light

reflections

difference

habits — which in most cases are

substance

people

and

is

in

began of

mistrust

a

fact

general

of

the

fear

“Exotic

rather

pizza

than

hamburger

joints.

At

between

these

groups:

in

secretly scan the plated food for any surprises. I might be

I

feel

cautious like

rituals.

(some

others

Because

who

these

non-white taste buds, non-white

laudatory

Orient,” scientists and doctors

gut

non-white

and self-care — are normalized

have

that

hands that prepare our foods.

to us, we might not realize that

substance’s

Because eating is essentially an

our standards vary according to

negative health effects are just

act of trust — after all, it

how

much

that, rumors. Still, many people

is an incredibly intimate act of

its

originating

believe that Chinese and other

personal

and

people from that culture. Maybe

“ethnic” and “exotic” foods are

assimilation — it reflects where

we are more judgmental of the

unhealthy, dangerous, and below

we

“purity”

their standards for consumption.

well.

rumors

It

is

definitively about

no

proven

the

surprise

that

those

of us who do eat these meals also undervalue the labor and materials that go into making them.

biota,

draw

and

the

boundary-crossing other

boundaries,

as

While this culturally-ingrained distrust

of

foods

from,

and

prepared by people from, nonwhite communities is widespread society,

This discourse of toxicity also

effects

be

particularly

enlists our imagination about the

exaggerated

for

plant-based

foods’ preparation and emphasizes

and

the types of bodies performing

Across

that

crucial

boundaries, most taboo foods tend

expectation of the experience of

to be made of meats and animal

consuming international cuisines

products, the very ingredients

is that ethnically Other people

we endeavor to avoid. Moreover,

will cook those foods. The legal

we commonly experience feelings

debate about whether restaurants

of skepticism about the foods

can choose to hire only servers

that we are served regardless

who appear to share the food’s

of

ethnic

Whether I am eating at a diner,

origins

A

reflects

the

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we

of

of

value

mindfulness

a

cuisine,

culture,

unfamiliar

and

foods

or more demanding of the staff

throughout

preparation.

acts

can

health-conscious religious

their

ethnic

and

its

eaters. cultural

associations.

in

certain

restaurants

and

settings. I travel frequently, and I have noticed that when I tell friends that I have lived in Ghana, China, and the United Arab

Emirates,

they

tend

to

ask, “What did you eat? Wasn’t it

hard

to

be

vegan

there?”

Meanwhile, traveling in France or Italy appears to inspire a different tone of comments about cuisine, and

typically

enthusiastic.

widespread

flattering Given

appreciation

the for

these countries’ food traditions, people tend to see a reliance on animal foods as a respectable cultural norm rather than a sign

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of stubborn traditionalism or

when I saw refrigerators full

which I choose to be a part. As

refusal to cater to the patron’s

of pretty glass bottles in well-

a woman and a person of color,

needs.

lit supermarkets. The list goes

feeling naturally empowered or

on: quinoa, açai, and turmeric

cared for by society is not a

have

within

given. Yet prioritizing a whole

communities

foods diet has helped me nurture

Whenever

I

maintaining

am a

asked

about

healthy

diet

abroad, no matter the question or its inflection, I hesitate to answer in a way that insinuates any

instance

of

difficulty

finding healthy, plant options was

unusually

upsetting,

blameworthy, or representative of

that

culture.

Meat

is

a

universal form of literal and symbolic

nourishment,

miscommunication

is

and

possible

everywhere. My latest faux pas occurred in Manhattan, when I ordered

a

vegetable

sandwich

only to find myself slack jawed with a mouthful of ground meat upon my first bite. (After a self-

long

their as

histories

indigenous

staples

rather

than

as

my physical and mental health

overpriced “superfoods” on Whole

on a regular basis, and this

Foods’ shelves. Similar to yoga,

confidence has extended to other

meditation, and other culturally

parts of my identity, both in

appropriated

the

practices,

when

ways

that

I

represent

a

we take interest in phenomena

stereotype and the ways that I

for

deviate.

selfish

enhancing

reasons,

such

exclusively

as our

physical health, we lose sight of the ways these practices and materials have been valued as rich

resources

with

multiple

uses and benefits within their source

communities.

As

a

result, we are unable to fully appreciate their values.

I am not immune to insecurities, about my diet or my race. I have

been

upset

with

myself

for eating something that does not fit my ideal diet of only wholesome, and

I

nourishing

have

been

foods,

upset

about

not feeling confident about the ways I have embodied a person

indulgent spiral into feelings

As I learn more about the foods

of color in various situations.

of regret, revulsion, and anger

I consume, I have also learned

I still have no idea what my

at the situation, I learned the

more about embracing my identity.

recurring

mysterious flesh was in fact the

Being

chugging a gallon of milk means.

plant-based Impossible Burger.)

eat means I engage more fully

But

with the histories and nuances

in which everything we consume

of those foods, for instance,

learning

ways

regimens, spiritual practices,

that Chinese culture has been

secret peanut butter stashes,

a cradle of whole-foods, plant-

and

based diets and the prevalence

identities

of lactose intolerance amongst

history, eating whole, plant-

Asian Americans. But even more

based foods represents an act

importantly, taking delight in

of

whole foods has been a metaphor

awareness,

and

vis-

Like going back to the breath,

a-vis race. Eating meals that

it is an act of trust that I can

nourish me and the communities

and do show up for myself.

I

myself

in

this

have

trend

participated

of

detraction,

trusting and glorifying foods only

when

they

enter

white

mainstream consciousness. When I

met

my

best

friend

Brenda

in college, I was surprised to learn that she grew up eating kale in Kenya. As far as I had known,

the

vegetable

had

not

been invented before the year 2000. The fermented tea kombucha dates to China’s Qin Dynasty in the third century B.C., but I only began paying $5 a bottle for the bacteria-infested beverage (and eventually brewing my own)

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mindful

about

method

of

about

the

what

rich

self-care

I

that produce them is a radical act of assertion, control, and power — of my body, my values,

in

from

an

nightmare

about

overwhelming

our

clothing,

gendered —

world

workout

and

racialized

has

a

simplicity, and

complex

compassion, reliability.

Sorry, have I mentioned that I meditate? r

and the types of communities of

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Beside me was a Chinese woman eager to document with her phone, the entirety of the twelve-hour flight from Tokyo to New York. On my other side was Andreas, my (now) ex-boyfriend, stroking the palm of my hand with his thumb, his head against my shoulder. I didn’t have the space to type, nor the comfort to sleep. Wedged in the seatback pocket was a copy of Eating Animals by Jonathan Safran Foer. Andreas had been taking his time over the book, pouring over each sentence, meaning I hadn’t had the opportunity to read it over the course of our trip. With him falling asleep next to me, I opened the book and began to read. I related to the narrator: a man who despite good intentions had never been disciplined enough to commit to a vegan lifestyle until he started asking questions and demanding answers. Andreas was still asleep, his top lip rippling slightly. I put the book down and leaned my head against his. My mind was a torrent of emotions: sadness in that this was our last flight together, a renewed hope in my veganism, a chance to start again, and also immense disappointment in myself. I imagined the insides of my stomach, pieces of shrimp from the tempura I devoured, strings of pork that garnished my ramen. It was all so avoidable had I been disciplined, had I been conscious. That was yesterday, before we got back home and into bed to sleep off jet lag, reluctant to let go of each other. Before we made love so intensely for the last time. Before I saw him into a taxi to his own home. I’m eating breakfast, a whole-wheat bagel with tofu cheese and an almond milk latte. I’m in my local coffee shop, and I’m tearful as I remember yesterday morning in Yokosuka. Looking into him hopelessly from across the breakfast table over a plate of kimchi and eggs.

I feel different. I feel different. I am different. I’ve been vegetarian for ten years, vegan for two. I made the decision because I believe that animals shouldn’t have to suffer for us. So much so, that it wasn’t really a decision that had to be made. My conscience needed it. There is no such thing as a perfect vegan. I certainly am far from it. I love the taste of meat. I’ve given in many times to temptation. But today I sat with these thoughts and asked myself:

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meat to making all my meals at home, all vegan and mostly gluten free. I was also exercising frequently because I was motivated. a widely held but fixed and oversimplified image or idea of a particular type of person or thing."the stereotype of the woman as the carer" standard/conventional image, received idea, cliché, hackneyed idea, formula "the stereotype of the rancher"

When people asked, I would tell them I made the switch to veganism for my health, because I found people were often more receptive to this than when I said it was for the animals. It became second nature to think that a vegan diet made me healthier than others. After a while, I started discovering the more processed foods, such as foods that are accidentally vegan (like the chocolate and vanilla

Stereotypes exist everywhere. In some ways, they can help us make

creme cookie that shall not be named.) Looking back on the last

sense of the world around us and help simplify information for

two years, I can recall many companies launching cheap vegan

our brain. They can be useful in comedy and in stories as a basic

alternatives of their products. This is great news for the animals

idea for a character. In real life though, they can cause problems.

because it means that supply and demand is working! In Canada,

I am here to address a stereotype that has been very prominent in my life since I stopped consuming and purchasing animal

we’re talking everything from delivery pizza, mac and cheeze, margarine, mayo, to ice cream, cookies, and even croissants.

products: that vegans are thin and healthy. There is this expectation

It’s all there, in front of me when shopping. The first time I notice

always lurking in the back of my mind reminding me of how I

it at the grocery store, I get so excited and have to try it. I’m

am supposed to look, simply because I am vegan. When I tell

voting for the switch to vegan options with every dollar that I

someone about my choices, I imagine what they are thinking:

spend. Then there are times when I am stressed, emotional or simply busy (being the boss-lady that I am.) So lately, I have been experiencing the less healthy side of being vegan, and that’s okay. Let’s talk about stress eating. I do it. I lead a busy life and I am addicted to achievement. If I don’t achieve something tangible every single day, I feel incomplete. Sometimes, all of these

I don’t want to be skeptical and assume that every person that

commitments that I signed up for somehow all the due days

finds out I am vegan exercises this type of judgment, but I can

always fall closely together.

at the very least recognize an element of surprise in their face. Sometimes, I even catch a discrete look up and down my body. It doesn’t match.

I know how to be a healthy vegan, and I often can be an unhealthy vegan. The last few months for me have been filled with growth and development. I have also noticed some changes with my

Having been vegan for two years now, I’ve often heard arguments

body: I have taken on some more weight, I don’t quite fit in all

promoting this diet with the promise of weight loss, clearer skin,

my pants, and my bras fit a bit differently now. With this, I have

more energy. Healthier. I am living proof that being vegan does

learned to embrace my body how it is and I want to keep feeling

not automatically mean all of these things will come true. There

proud about who I am and what I have accomplished, even if it

are just too many other factors at play: how much sleep one gets at

means I’ve put on some weight because of the added stress.

night, how many vegetables one eats, if one has access to sunlight, how much exercise one gets, and how well one manages stress.

There was a period of time where I would feel guilt for the way I look. I am a very committed vegan and would love to see more

I’ve been there though, in that type of mindset. During my first

people try it out. In the way that I used to see it: it was my

few months of exploring vegan foods, I felt invincible. Looking

responsibility to look good (but then again, what is “good”?)

back now, I can understand why: in the span of one day I jumped

so that more people would be tempted to pursue the lifestyle and

from eating huge portions of take-out pizza with extra cheese and

harm fewer animals. I thought: if I look healthy, people will see this as proof that eating vegan is sustainable and will benefit them.

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I’ve stopped looking at it this way. So many online campaigns about the vegan lifestyle revolve around healthy, fit humans already - and that’s great. I have started to notice a void, though. I don’t see much of representation from plus-sized vegans out there. Just like in most situations, showing diversity can be a great way to be inclusive and give people the courage to approach. If people see more variation in body shape, colour, height, age, etc, the vegan movement will look like it belongs to everybody.

Many people I speak to see vegans as sharing one specific lifestyle: one of compromise. By embracing my curves and telling people that I am vegan, I feel like I can start to break down this stigma that I experience. Veganism can work with any lifestyle or habit, so long as a few modifications are made to replace animal products. You can make it work for you! If you want to be a healthy vegan, you can. If you want to be a busy vegan who craves junk food and prefers watching movies to doing exercise, you can. If you have a perfect skin complexion, you can be vegan. If you have acne, you still can. Whoever you are, you can make your lifestyle vegan. In my opinion, the fact that being vegan can work with any lifestyle would help make this amazing movement more inclusive. This could diminish the power of some of these stereotypes associated with being vegan; such as vegans are skinny or veganism is another diet with “too good to be true” promises. The truth is, a longer, healthier life is not guaranteed, and being vegan should be about the animals. Anybody can show compassion toward others and try to avoid harming them. It’s a choice that should be accessible to everyone. r

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Chips Ahoy, Rice Krispie Squares, Pop Tarts, Nutter Butters, Skippy PB & J's your run of the mill 90’s after-school snack. Like many of my peers, busy working parents raised me. The self-employed creatives they were, and still are, were always on the go. Their relentless hustle left them often away from home. Our nuclear family of four, gathered around our kitchen island or dining room table was wishful thinking and certainly not a nightly occurrence. My mother would throw together something for my sister and I before she ran out of the door, a babysitter would order us up pizza, or the women of the house the would eat while my father was out working that evening’s event. Packing lunch or preparing dinner was almost always my mother’s responsibility. My father’s culinary abilities are limited to toast, grilled meats and his infamous cottage fried potatoes. As I watched my mother in the kitchen, I saw it was something that didn’t come easily to her. She came of age in the second wave feminist period and like many of her peers developed a certain attitude towards cooking. Reliance on the microwave and prepared foods = less time behind the stove = freedom to pursue a career or develop non-domestic skills. In addition, my father, sister and I all had wildly different food preferences. When she was in the kitchen, she became a short order cook. Dad hated salad dressing; my sister only ate buttered pasta or foods with a chocolate component. I had an insatiable craving for sauce and condiments often helping myself to seconds of marinara minus the spaghetti. My mother was tasked with raising a family in the 90’s, before peak processed food demonization. We subsisted on more store bought conveniences than I’m sure she’d like to retrospectively admit. There were fish stick nights, Kraft Dinner (Canada’s answer to boxed mac n cheese), and a slew of deli meats. I don’t blame her, it was what you did and I was far from the only kid eating

frozen reconstituted chicken fingers. Now, as an adult, I never crave or long for these foods. The pre-packaged sweets, however, are a different story. I came of age in Toronto, where our grocery store aisles aren’t lined with Entenmann’s or Little Debbie, but rather treats with names like Passion Flakie, Joe Louis and, Viva Puffs. My nostalgic hankerings are specifically for the treats found at the birthday parties or tucked inside lunch boxes, all individually cellophane wrapped. When I return to Canada and take a stroll down the cookie aisle there is something about the kismet of glucose-fructose, “artificial flavor” and various “gums” that elicit a certain hunger in me. The most amusing part is that these processed goodies are often vegan or at least vegan-ish. No trace of real butter, eggs or animal protein in sight. To re-visit this formative food era, I have selected two of my favorite treats, the s’more and oatmeal cookie. I felt they needed a transformation beyond their original iterations. My fondness for them was developed in two disparate camps of food memory, but powerful just the same. I spent my summers in the wilderness, swimming in the pristine freshwater lakes, staying up late to catch Aurora Borealis and capping the days off singing John Denver around a campfire. If I were lucky that would be accompanied by more than just acoustic guitar sing-a-longs. We’d be making classic camp treats - the always rustic banana boats, brownies baked in an orange, and the most infamous s’more. More often than not the tin-foiled bananas wouldn’t caramelize, the brownies would still be a little raw on the inside and the sandwiched marshmallow would be more charred black than golden brown. Although born a perfectionist, I didn’t hold my campfire confections to the same degree I now hold my cakes to. It didn’t matter. I loved

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the interactivity, the degree of customization each treat held and the amount of laughter that always ensued. My fondness for the oatmeal cookie is rooted in the quotidian school lunch box. My mother, being the loving and sweet woman she is, always included a treat. Each day there would be some sort of Disney “fruit” snack and two or three cookies. A rotation of Oreos or the Canadian selections of Peak Freens, President’s Choice Decadent Chocolate Chip or if I was so lucky Dad’s Original Oatmeal Cookies. They were perfection. In the box came twelve cello wrapped packs of two. Once your tiny ten-year-old hands ripped open the little gift, you were treated to a pure crunchy, crumbly cookie like no other. Unadulterated by raisins or chocolate chips. Just pure processed oatmeal flavor. Only something that can be achieved with the addition of a mysterious “artificial flavor." Every other oatmeal cookie I’ve ever had has been soft & chewy, but not this one. A unique breed the Dad’s Cookie is. Of course, now as an adult, I prefer a treat that is a little more homemade. Any housemade marshmallow is going to trump a Jet-Puffed one. I still can’t deny their transportive capabilities of ripping open one of those little packs of surreally crispy cookies or biting down on an oozing s’more made with Hershey’s chocolate. It takes me back to the time when I began to cultivate what my version of what delicious was. Not every child liked oatmeal cookies or preferred their marshmallow the exact perfect shade of golden. These were unique to my developing palate and me. A quality I’ve been honing ever since. Inspired by the summers and school lunches of my pre-teen years, I present you two modern, slightly more adult interpretations of the s’more and oatmeal cookie. These are more elaborate recipes, perfect for a weekend baking project or to mark a celebration.

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Looking for that satisfying combination of graham cracker crumb, rich chocolate and, gooey marshmallow? Unlike the campfire classic, this one is made to share. Adapted from the back of a Nabisco box of the days of yore.


two-tiered 8-inch round layer cake, approximately 12 servings

1 1/2 cups graham cracker crumbs (from about 20 squares) 1/2 cup all-purpose flour 3/4 cup sugar 2 1/2 tsp baking powder generous pinch of salt 3/4 cup non-dairy milk, I used almond 2 tbsp apple cider vinegar 3/4 cup neutral cooking oil such as canola or safflower, additional for greasing 1 tsp vanilla extract

top

active 1hr, total 2 hrs

oven broiler or blow torch

1. Ensure oven rack is in the middle of the oven

1. Make the ganache while the cake is cooling.

and preheat oven to 350°F. Grease two 8-inch

Place the chocolate in a heatproof medium-

round cake pans and line the bottoms with

sized bowl. Set aside. In a small saucepan over

parchment & grease with oil.

medium-high heat, heat the coconut milk until

2. Pulse broken graham crackers in a food processor until crumbs are achieved.

bubbles just begin to appear around the edges and steam rises from the surface. Careful not to overheat, milk may separate. Pour the hot

3. In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, graham

coconut milk over the chopped chocolate and

cracker crumbs, sugar, baking powder and, salt.

let stand without stirring for 5 minutes. After

Set aside. In a small bowl, whisk together milk

5 minutes, stir the chocolate-coconut milk

& apple cider vinegar. Let stand for 2 minutes

mixture until glossy, smooth and all chocolate

until milk curdles. In a medium bowl stir

has melted. Add the vanilla extract and mix

together the milk mixture, oil and vanilla.

until incorporated. Allow ganache to cool to

4. Slowly in batches, add the dry ingredients to

room temperature.

the wet, stirring to incorporate as you go. Mix

2. Once your cake has cooled, place one layer on

thoroughly, being careful not to over mix.

cake stand or serving plate. Top with half of the

16 oz. dark chocolate, the

Divide the batter evenly between prepared pans.

ganache. Smooth on top and sides. Repeat with

higher the quality the

5. Bake for 25-28 minutes or until tops are golden

better, coarsely chopped 1 15oz. can full-fat coconut milk 1/2 tsp vanilla

brown and sides begin to pull away from the

3. Line a baking sheet with parchment and place

pans. Place both pans on a cooling rack and

marshmallows, allowing for space between each.

allow the cakes to cool for at least 20 minutes.

Carefully place under broiler on low with oven

6. Very carefully remove cakes from pans and 6

vegan

marshmallows,

halved – ensure they are gelatin-free

the second layer.

place on a rack to cool before frosting and assembling. This cake is fragile; please exercise extra caution when removing from pan. Allow for cakes to come to room temperature before

door ajar. Broil for approximately 2 minutes or until marshmallows are golden brown. Wait for marshmallows to cool slightly 1-2 minutes. Place the marshmallows in a ring on the outside of the cake.

assembling.

1. Graham cracker cake is very fragile. Use caution when removing from the pan. 2. Vegan Ingredients – Make sure to use vegan marshmallows and graham crackers. I used Dandies, but Trader Joe's and a few other brands make excellent versions. Nabisco crackers are vegan, but many other varieties use honey as sweeteners. 3. I used store bought marshmallows & graham crackers, but feel free to make your own.


A riff on my favorite childhood cookie, but with a cream pie twist -- an allusion to its sandwich cookie sister. I just had to finish it with the preferred garnish of my youth, the iridescent maraschino cherry.


approximately 8-10 servings

electric hand mixer

active 1.5hrs, total 8 hours or overnight

formed at the surface into the chilled bowl. 3 tbsp cornstarch 1/4 cup brown sugar pinch sea salt

1. Refrigerate your cans of coconut milk (for the

Discard remaining coconut water or reserve

coconut whipped cream) the night before. (Or,

for smoothies/another use. Using a hand-held

always have some in the fridge!)

mixer, whip the cream until it thickens and

1 2/3 cups oat milk* carefully

2. To get started, make the filling. Add the

examine the sugar content – if

cornstarch, sugar, and salt to a small saucepan

can’t find almond or hazelnut

and whisk in the milk to avoid clumps. Place

will be a nice substitute

over medium-low heat and cook until slightly

1 tsp pure vanilla extract

bubbling, whisking frequently. Reduce heat to low and continue cooking for 4-6 more minutes,

1 cup rolled oats 2 tbsp all-purpose flour 1/4 cup brown sugar 3 tbsp finely chopped almonds, I used pre-sliced and chopped them further

paper. Combine coconut oil, sugar and salt in

forms when a spatula is dragged through it.

a medium saucepan over medium heat. Bring

Immediately remove from heat.

mixture to a boil for one minute, stirring

Whisk in vanilla and transfer to a glass/ceramic

to prevent a film from forming. Refrigerate until

pinch of salt

cooled and set – 3-4 hours. 3. Prepare the crust. Preheat oven to 350°F and grease an 8” pie pan. In a medium bowl, combine the oats, flour, sugar, almonds, coconut

1/4 cup rolled oats

caramel-like texture. Remove from heat and stir in the oats. Pour the mixture onto the prepared baking sheet and spread into an even layer. Bake for 18 minutes or until golden brown, tossing the oats at the halfway mark. Remove from oven and allow to cool on baking sheet. Once cooled, store in an airtight container. 6. Put it all together! Mix half the coconut whipped

combined. The mixture should hold together

cream to the oatmeal custard filling. Stir to

when pinched. Press the oat mixture into the pie

combine. Add the filling to the prepared crust.

pan, making sure to go up the sides and cover

Place in refrigerator to set for 3-4 hours.

until lightly browned. Cool completely.

generous pinch of salt

constantly. Sugar should melt and form a

oil, vanilla, cinnamon & salt. Mix until well

the bottom of the pan. Bake for 20-22 minutes

2 tbsp brown sugar

wrap and set in refrigerator to chill.

it has the texture of pudding and a ribbon

1/2 tsp cinnamon

1 tbsp melted coconut oil

down sides as needed. Wrap tightly with plastic

to 325°F. Line a baking sheet with parchment

plastic wrap is touches the surface of the filling

3-7 tbsp powdered sugar

light and airy - about 2-3 minutes - scraping

bottom constantly. The mixture is done when

1 tsp vanilla

1/2 tsp vanilla extract

Adjust sweetness to taste. Continue to mix until

5. When the crust is done, turn the oven down

bowl. Cover with plastic wrap, ensuring the

refrigerated overnight

in powdered sugar, tablespoon by tablespoon.

using a rubber spatula to scrape the sides and

1/4 + 1 tbsp melted coconut oil

2 14-oz. cans coconut cream,

peaks form, approximately 1 minute. Slowly add

When ready to serve, top with whipped cream, approximately 1 cup or to have a generous layer

4. While the crust is baking, make the whipped

covering the surface. Place the cherry in center

cream. Place a medium-large glass mixing bowl

and scatter the oat crumble over the surface.

in the freezer. Chill for 5 minutes. Carefully

Store leftovers gently covered in the refrigerator

open cans of refrigerated coconut cream and

up to 3 days. The pie is best consumed within

scoop out the hardened cream that should have

the first 48 hours.

*As much as I love homemade things, do not use homemade oat milk. It separates when heated. I loved the oat-y flavor that the milk imparted, but sugar content can drastically vary. Oatly and Elmhurst Farms, both available on Amazon, make a product that has 5-7 grams of sugar per serving, which works well with this recipe. r

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Words by Samantha Puc Three years into living a vegan lifestyle, I can easily attest to the claim that quitting animal products alters your whole world. In deciding to drop dairy (having already given up meat), everything has shifted, from my spending habits to my outlook on capitalism. Although not all of these things can be directly attributed to my veganism, I firmly believe that the decision to stop consuming or using animals has altered me as a person. Going vegan preceded a wealth of changes in my life. That spring, my partner and I made the decision to sell our car, and that helped me transition to walking, then cycling to work. We adopted two cats. We moved into the city for easier access to work without a car and I quit my thankless, dead-end retail job to start again somewhere else… where I now work with dairy on a daily basis, and politely tell customers I don’t eat meat or eggs whenever they ask me for recommendations on a breakfast sandwich. We aren’t perfect vegans by any means, but the more involved I get with the vegan community, the more I realize that “perfect vegans” don’t exist. Everyone arrives at the decision to cut out animal products from a different place; some do it for political reasons, others to save money, and still others for health and wellness. At some point, these things begin to intersect — at least, they have for me. The story behind why my partner and I went full vegan isn’t overly inspirational. It was a few days before New Year’s 2015 and we went to the grocery store for our usual weekly trip. The cheese we bought then, a two-pound block that would last us about a week (ugh), was less expensive at this one grocery store than any other in our area. That day, we discovered that they’d stopped stocking it, apparently for good. That day, we decided to give up cheese, definitely for good.

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Our vegan friends rejoiced. For months, they had shamed us for being vegetarian but not vegan; had listed the numerous benefits of not eating dairy; had told us, time and time again, that our consumption of cheese was responsible for the deaths of millions of cows. And while they weren’t wrong, they also weren’t right. In the last three years, as veganism has slowly become one of the most steadfast tenants of my belief system, I’ve learned a lot. I’ve read about the junk science that goes into ads from PETA and documentaries like What the Health? I’ve encountered fellow white vegans who believe that veganism is a cure-all for every ailment, a weight loss guarantee, and a perfect diet so long as participants follow some inane number of rules to do it “right.” I’ve joined vegan groups on Facebook and gone to pop-ups at local businesses. I’ve trawled through business opening announcements to find out whether they’ll offer vegan goods, then either a) tried them immediately, reviewed them online, and told everyone I know to either indulge or pass, or b)

I’ve learned that there really is no “right” way to live a plantbased lifestyle, and that arguing this point with fellow vegans is often futile. The frustration born of these conversations can be absolutely overwhelming in its intensity.

complained loudly to anyone who would listen about the lack of vegan options at That Cool New Local Spot. I’ve conversed with business owners and servers about the definition of “animal products” and fought with more than one person about whether or not fish are animals. (Spoiler alert: they are.) Here’s what I’ve learned through the course of those experiences: as a fat woman, I will always be on the outskirts of the vegan movement. As a chronically ill woman, I will always be on the outskirts of the vegan movement. And as someone who does not believe in shaming others for their food choices —

400 million fewer animals were killed for food in 2014 than in 2007 because so many people have turned toward a plant-based lifestyle or, at the very least, have begun to consume less meat. *

especially when those choices are dictated by location, income,

Companies like Impossible Foods and Memphis Meats have

health concerns, and any number of other factors — I will

created meat-free meat that can satisfy the most carnivorous

always be on the outskirts of the vegan movement.

human without harming an animal… well, sort of. Because

This fact has become apparent to me over and over, though the first time it hit home was when my partner and I first went vegan and I called out a friend for using problematic, fatshaming language in her post about reasons to eat plant-based. She said fatphobia is a societal problem that’s non-exclusive to veganism. That’s true, but detracts from the point that in many circles, fat vegans are shamed no matter what they eat or how

of FDA regulations, these products still have to be tested on animals before they’re deemed “safe” for consumption by humans, a sticking point with every vegan. But until vegans large-scale organize to repeal these laws and make changes to this archaic system of food and drink regulation, boycotting start-ups will only harm the movement rather than help it.

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The community in-fighting over processed foods and parent companies gets us nowhere; it also posits financial privilege and selective eating over the real lives of marginalized people who could benefit from a vegan lifestyle, but feel that they can’t have one because of how it’s been presented to them. As I watch debates unfold on my social media timelines between vegans and non-vegans, I learn about the plight of poor communities of color who live in food deserts and disordered eating that doesn’t lend itself to restrictive diets. I see middle class, white vegans put down these people, shame them, and further distance them from the possibility of ever trying veganism.

When I went vegan in 2015, I wasn’t making a political statement. My partner said, over and over, that they chose to stop eating animal products because they didn’t want to give their money to factory farming. I agreed with that sentiment — my slow crawl toward anti-capitalist anger didn’t begin with veganism, but it has taken root there, and every time I discuss the price of food with others, those roots gain strength. Now, as the administration rolls back protections for national monuments and America’s parks, okays oil pipelines that destroy Native lands, and proves time and again that the lives of its constituents do not matter...

As a cisgender, fat, working class, white lesbian, I am both privileged and marginalized in my existence. My ability to lead a plant-based life allows me to put my money where my mouth is. I encourage those who are able to do the same. But if you aren’t — for whatever reason — then I encourage you to find your own way to #resist. r * http://www.mercyforanimals.org/americans-ate-400-million-fewer-animals-in

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