Тheory оf Cogitality
al c i g o l o Psych cal i g o l o he t – tum n a u q phy o s o l i ph Theory of cogitality book of life
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In the Beginning was Cogitality...
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Those who know all, but are lacking in themselves, are utterly lacking.
Whoever discovers the interpretation of these sayings will not taste death.
Those who seek should not stop seeking until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed. When they are disturbed, they will marvel, and will reign over all. Words of Jesus, Gospel of Thomas
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In Full Void It’s full in vain, or is it not? In full the void does separate. Don’t ever do it just in vain – it won’t be hurting then. Void filled up to no avail, comes falling down with rain. With music in an empty soul we hurt in vain. Eyes weep, and yet in vain the fire of the feeling’s burning, if in the emptiness in vain the void is still hurting.
ivomir
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The Beginning Who are we? Where do we come from? Where are we going? The first man of wisdom who asked these questions established the foundations of philosophy (MLOHR +VRMLD - from Greek Love + Wisdom) as an eternal crave for knowledge. Since then mankind has not stopped to build hypotheses and seek answers. What is truly valuable here is not whether answers will be found, rather than the fact that inquiry does not stop. After all, the desire to find answers is at the bottom of all progress, isn’t it? Every hypothesis creates a theory, driven by the zest for knowledge. Is it important for the theory to be correct? Of course, not. Even if it is wrong, it is yet another step towards knowledge. According to physics there is a lot more information in a negative result compared to the positive one. And, as John Kehoe says in his book Money, Success and You, the ‘NO’ paves the way that eventually leads to the ‘YES.’
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… And you see the sinister, dark cloud, boiling with anger in the sky… and you see electric impulses going through it… like veins of electric light sticking into the ground. The brain is similar to a thunderstorm when it presents a coherent thought. In a way that the thought is not seen; but what is seen, from the point of view of neurophysics, is the storm erupting in separate areas of the brain. These are mirrored in the body and what we react to is … a holographic image – anger, fury, hatred, compassion, love. The brain does not distinguish between what is around us and what it remembers because one and the same neuron systems are being activated. The brain consists of miniscule nerve cells called neurons. The neurons branch out and connect with other neurons forming a network. Every connection they form corresponds to a thought or a memory. The brain forms concepts based on associative memory. For example, all ideas, thoughts, feelings are built in and interconnected in this neuron network and all of them are related. The concept and feeling of love, for instance, has been remembered in this vast neuron network; however, we can get the impression of love in many other ways. Some people associate love with disappointment. Whenever they think of love, they are being overtaken by a memory of pain, sadness, embarrassment, even fury. Fury could be a consequence of a mental wound, which on its turn is connected to a
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particular person, who is in turn connected to love. We create our own models about the world outside us. The more information we collect, the more correct our model becomes. So, in the long run we compose a fairytale about the world around us. Every piece of information we process, every bit of information we receive from outside has inevitably been affected by our past experience and by our emotional reaction to what we have retained. Who guides us when we succumb to emotions or when we control them? From a physiological point of view we know that the nerves that send impulses to our brain are linked. If you do something again and again these links become established. If you get angry every day, or you get upset every day, if you suffer every day and find excuses for being a victim, you create and confirm your neuro-links; you build up your neuro-system every day … and your neuro-system is closely connected with all other nerves of your so-called ‘personality’… From the movie What The Bleep... We Know
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I Believe...
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CONTENTS To Those Who Would Never Read This Book 10 Preface, Sort Of 15 Chapter I. Delusions about the Truth and the Truth about Delusions 19 Chapter II. The Paradox of Logic and the Logic of Paradox 43 Chapter III. Knowledge, Wisdom, Happiness 51 Chapter IV. The Universe: A Holographic Image 81 Chapter V. Everything Cyclic. Paradox of the Cycle 107 Chapter VI. Life 133 Chapter VII. Spiritual Revival 149 In Confirmation 205 Terminology 210 References 214
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To Those Who Would Never Read This Book A Tale for the Void Everything that happens in life does not give us a lot of spiritual strength. Nobody teaches us how to concentrate on ourselves, to recognize the inner strength we possess. Life puts us in the victim’s shoes. Whatever happens we are not control in of our life. Well, I do not like this expression, as it suggests something outside of us is in control; I’d rather keep in touch with something deep within me. When talking of the outer world, I am just an ‘I’; when considering the inner world, I become a part of the whole. I become part of infinity… If a man has a wonderful dream and brings back a rose, and then wakes up with the rose in his hand, it means that the dream was true. Samuel Coleridge When I came back home and looked at the scars of thorns on my hands and the small bruises around them, I thought it had really happened, I have really been through it and felt it. I liked it, as if I were looking at a wonderful picture and I felt completely happy. At that moment everything changed and I found myself in a completely different place. I think it was the moment I entered the Universe: I was dancing with a constellation. I asked myself: Why am I doing this? And the answer emerged: Because you have always looked for it. All of you have always looked for it. There was movement of colours – and they were words. I could understand what they were saying, when I tried to peek outside: Come in. I was looking for the cogitality*. Answer
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again: The thought is inside you, in every cell of your body. And I felt it, I was completely open, I just absorbed it. The colours were still talking to me and not only could I hear what I was seeing, but I could also feel it in my cells. That sensation was not an ordinary one, it was mostly knowledge of what was happening inside my cells. Cogitality is everywhere and we are all connected. Cogitality was dancing in every cell of life, and vice versa. I changed. I will never be the same as before. By attempting to describe it I am likely underrating the experience. I do not believe that when somebody reads my words he will comprehend it and will understand me fully. Emotion stretches into eternity. I am a part of eternity. Even before I say a word I feel such awesome power rising inside me that no words can describe. The swirl of colours reminds me of images from other worlds. I manage only to keep my balance, to remember that I mustn’t sink in the dancing lights but keep my focus. And then darkness came and on the other side of space everything was still. The words because it is possible came out of nowhere and filled me up. The awesome power was seeking to make all possibilities come true. It was not necessarily ethical, yet, it was love, too. There was nothing, only the primal force. My notions and beliefs looked ridiculous and absurd. I did not want to forget this. I was aware that I can open my eyes and connect to the people around me. However, I wanted to wait until everything thickened and the fullness of my experience became clear, so I could pass it on to others. I kept asking myself: Why should I go back? I did not want to open my eyes. When I did, though, the room looked brighter. I wanted to travel again... because it was breath-taking. It started quickly and vigorously, I felt incredible pressure inside my head. It pushed me away to where the pure energy was alive and took form. I saw the process of consciousness
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splitting. Time delay created form and consciousness. It did not exist before. Energy is not deprived of consciousness, yet it is not aware. It is real, a substance in itself, undivided. Energy stretches, gets delayed in the periphery, and takes shape. There is an infinite flow of creation. And my particle of energy goes in and out all the time, like any other particle. The concept of I am circles about. I saw a bright, yellow-and-white light in front of me. I chose to open up. It enveloped me and I became part of it. There were no figures or lines, shadows or delineation. There was nothing both inside and outside. I broke free from my Ego, from thought, time and space, from any separation, except the light. Our language cannot express what symbols can, it cannot even vaguely describe pure existence, unity and exaltation; ultimate peace and bliss. I don’t know how long I remained focused on the pure energy, neither could I describe it. Finally, I felt I was sinking and floating back, away from the light. I could see myself – a bare, small, shiny creature, like a child, radiating a mild light. Light waves were touching me, while my body was moving away. I was overwhelmed with happiness. Death is not emptiness. I don’t need to die to understand what death is. I do not fear it anymore. I cannot die! I cannot disappear. I can neither increase, nor decrease. It’s a cyclic resurrection in the endless flow of immortality. I understand now that the light is all, and the world is only a shadow, a reflection. *** How will you feel to see that everything around you vibrates but when you look at it, it turns into solid matter and when you stop looking it, it goes back to being a wave again? This metamorphosis is on the basis of the hypothesis described here. Matter is an illusion. Everything is an
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electromagnetic wave and a consequence of the physical interactions between waves. Light comes from the motion of cogitative particles, which were previously still, timeless and space-less. As such they know everything. A lot of evidence exists for this. One of them is a scroll found in a cave in Qumran, containing the words of Jesus Christ to his apostles, written by Didymus Judas Thomas. It begins like this: And he said, ‘Whoever discovers the meaning of these sayings will not taste death.’ But the real jewel is: 50. If they ask you about your origin, say to them, ‘We have come from the light, where light came from itself.’ It is at rest and appears in their image. If they ask you about your identity, say, ‘We are His children, and were Chosen by the Living Father.’ If they ask you about the sign of your Father, say to them, ‘motion and stillness’. The thesis that matter doesn’t exist, but is a hologram, a product of the interaction between waves may appear strange. However, the progress of quantum physics in this direction confirms that colours, sound, smell, sensitivity and even the perception of distance are waves which after being perceived and transformed as impulses in the brain are actually only the illusive idea for ‘reality’ of matter. And if everything is an illusion, then what is our role in it? The common idea is that matter exists and that is the reason we can see it. However, it turns out just the opposite – things do exist only and when
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we observe them. This and many other paradoxes of the logical thought are part of the topics referred to in the book. The aim is while reading to try ‘to get out’ of the standard scheme and ‘see’ things from a different quanto-theological and philosophic point of view. Those who won’t read the book will not have to bother themselves with such arguments. What you will not read is hypothesis laid out on historical and theological facts, scientific facts, philosophic arguments and psychological conclusions. The theory proves that death does not exist. It is pointless to fear it. We are part of the whole and the whole is inside us. And all this being in a constant circle of knowledge and emotion. The circle explains ‘the unexplainable’ examples of reincarnation. In the process of reasoning, the hypothesis answers the question of the meaning of our existence. Why are we what we are? Why do we exist and what is the purpose of the fact that we are emotional cogital creatures between millions of other such. It is absolutely natural to come to the idea of The Big Bang, to the beginning, to the creation. The theory answers the question why and how life was started and what is the connection between all living creatures. It is proved, that everything is... living thought – a result of the moving cogitality, striving for perfection. And we being hologram children of Light play one of the main parts to acquire the perfection, creating emotions. In the third part, directions are theoretically given how to practically separate from the addiction to egocentricity. How to make up our own life tale, to turn it in reality and transform it into a happy endless end of the circle of cogitality.
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Preface, Sort Of You are as is your inner desire. As is your inner desire, such is your will. As is your will, such are your actions. As are your actions, such is your destiny. Brihadaranyaka Upanishad, IV, 4-5 I keep thinking that we don’t pay much attention to what goes on around us. We take it for granted. We live in a world of our own, which is consistent with our experience, knowledge, upbringing and the models we inherited from our parents. We rarely analyse ourselves and even more rarely look for our mistakes; we are much more inclined to blame others and easily see their mistakes. We gradually get used to this behaviour and it becomes part of us. We then take it for granted. So we don’t look to self-analyse or look for the reasons which brought us there. The next chapter talks about all this, about taking things for granted and never asking: why are things this way? Or if we have wondered, it was a long time ago. Why is the sky blue? What are clouds for? What is the rainbow? What is the wind? Simple questions, but we find them difficult to answer. My goal is to probe deeper into these questions and provide some answers. The reason is because I’d like whoever reads these lines to think about the questions that they haven’t answered for themselves: Why do I do this? Who am I? How do I see the world? Is there another perspective? Could I or should I change my own? Can I put myself in other people’s shoes and honestly sympathise and understand?
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Many would say they ask themselves questions of this sort every day so they don’t need to go deeper. Perhaps they have enough on their plate and don’t have to deal with any of this. The daily routines have become so much part of use that we even take ourselves for granted. Or we might find out things about ourselves that we may not necessarily like. Any self-analysis ultimately leads to one thing: re-evaluation of our own values, goals and ideas and, consequently, transformation of our world. We transform so that we come in harmony with ourselves. Then we feel happy. Does anyone here not want to be happy? Yes, we live in a world of illusion. We don’t even need further evidence for it. We have become used to take our reality for granted, without thinking about it, probably because it’s easier. The routines and trivialities we call ‘life’ and when we do decide to think about it, we pretend it’s too late to change anything. At least, that’s what normally happens. But how does our life go really? Initially, we become aware of the world, become conscious of it, take in trust anything we are told by people around us; gradually, we start observing various ‘inexplicable’ phenomena, but we don’t think about them too much as they are inexplicable. From time to time, we do manage to grasp the occasional paradox emerging from logical conflict. AT this point, those of us who are curious enough begin to seek knowledge and reach Solomon’s conclusion: worldly wisdom will bring you sorrow. The most persistent of us who manage to leap so high that they defeat gravity, glance towards the Universe and start looking for the Truth. Those who succeed are the ones who never gave up along the way. They do find the Truth and recognize that the Truth is within us. It’s in our worldview, thoughts and emo-
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tions. In the end, we find about ourselves, as well as the Truth. And the truth is that we make our world and the events within it. That death is not an end, but a transition to the cycle of timelessness. That we exist for good reason: to contribute for the emotional perfection of knowledge. That we are part of a whole, of infinity.
By Jesus The last red I saw was the colour of blood, Streaming from my wounds. The awakening pain of victory. Victory coming from despair, despair of life, life bearing faith, faith lighting up the spirit, spirit not dying with the past. The same past with a coffin on a stake, stake setting fire on a cross, cross nailed to a man, man with bleeding wounds, blood in the colour red, The last red I saw. ivomir
The truth should always move us. Dogen, a Buddhist monk
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It is much better to suffer for 90 days to be happy 90 years, than to suffer for 90 years to probably be happy 90 days. r
ivomi