Beyoncé

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Beyoncé by Carter On the train ride to Hoofddoorp I began to feel it. That nagging feeling like I was going to stand out all day. The day before I had half a mind to call my boss and say forget it. Liz should go. We all know they want pretty, clean white people at this place, and while I do prefer to be discrete, let’s be real. Even if I pulled out all the stops for these folks, I couldn’t blend in. But I told myself to keep an open mind. I needed the money. The 36 euros I was going to earn for an hour and a half of being a tad uncomfortable. I wouldn’t have to work if I had a euro for every time I was the only Black human in a room and felt uncomfortable. I slipped my broken black shoes on and threw my favorite bag over my shoulder, strap about to pop at any moment. Always carrying a book too many in the thing. I told myself to suck it up, but already on the train ride over it was getting lonely. L’Oréal’s headquarters is located in a small place outside of Amsterdam that looks like it’s being renovated for capitalism. It appears to be in the middle of nowhere, but you look around and you got the headquarters of all kinds of other big places, headed in the Netherlands to avoid taxes far as I heard. No Black people in sight. I’m thinking, here we go again. Got my game face on. Get ready to act right for white people. This time won’t be no sympathetic eyes for you, only dodged gazes, faces asking how in the world you got in here. And with a visitor’s pass at that. Just be polite and stay positive. I walked in. The women at the front desk tended to me as soon as my body slid from the revolving door into the building. May we help you? Sure. I’m Jean’s substitute English teacher. My English made their bodies relax. She grabbed the phone at her side and cradled the receiver between her cheek and shoulder. Sit there and I’ll ring Jean’s secretary for you. Her finger directed me towards the couches. Jean’s secretary came down the elevator to escort me up to his office. I didn’t get her name. Jean’s secretary knew I was the English teacher but spoke to me only in Dutch. She told me all about Jean’s busy schedule, and I understood enough to give her the ‘natuurlijks’ she needed to know I was following. Jean was running late, coming in from Belgium. Jean lives in France but travels a lot. Jean can’t be expected to be on time, but I’m expected to be on time and wait if necessary. As we moved down the hallway colleagues tried not to stumble over their conversations as they glimpsed me passing. I told myself not to worry. A lot of White people are actually color-­‐blind. They get their reds and blues mixed up all the time. Jean was some important dude at L’Oréal but turns out his French accent smothered his English, and he needed someone to come hold the French back a bit. Turns out I speak quite well and I teach quite well, too, so they had to give me a visitor’s pass to the headquarters. I was just subbing. Normally my pretty, clean co-­‐worker taught


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