Ms. May

Interviewer: Rene

“If I could go back to any point in my life, I would choose to go back 5 years ago right before my first cat died. My cat’s name was ‘Noey’ which translates to butter in Thai. She was a white cat with black spots, just like a cow, and she also had beautiful green eyes. Noey was adopted from the streets, and she quickly turned from a normal soi cat to a friend. We eventually got close since she’s an indoor cat and she would stay near me. I chose this point in life because she’s my first cat, and back then, I didn’t know how to properly care for a cat. Whenever she tried to play with me and I happened to be busy, I would ignore her and simply tell her to go away. Sometimes when she put her head on my hand, I would ignore her as well. This made me realize that I could’ve at least petted her when she wanted attention, I could’ve at least hugged her and given her my love. I would do whatever it takes to go back to the moment when she would want to play or cuddle and I would do so. Another moment that I’d like to relive is before she passed away. I noticed that her abdomen was a little bit swollen, but I didn’t do anything about it. If I’d taken action and taken her to the veterinarian, maybe she would have felt better and all her pain might have been reduced. Her condition was terminal, therefore, there are no treatments that could possibly cure her disease. At that current state, she wasn’t able to fight her disease any longer. I came to a realization later on that maybe I could’ve given her a better ‘last moment’. I would’ve kept her at my house rather than leaving her at the vet overnight. I would have also tried my best in clearing my schedule to spend quality time with her. I would have stayed beside her on my bed beside the window where she loved to watch the birds. If you have a cat, you’ll know that they will always be there by your side no matter what. Cats will try their very best to comfort you and you’ll definitely feel a connection of unconditional love, they will love you no matter what or who you are. If Noey was still with me, I’m sure that she would provide me with endless love, joy, comfort, and support. If I have a chance to talk to her again, I would apologize to her for my actions. I would also remind her that I will always love her no matter what, that I wish I treated her better, and I’d do anything to see her again.”