+ + by Deadly Chaps Press

Helen Levin

Copyright ÂŠ 2012 by Helen Levin All Rights Reserved ISBN: 978-1-937739-06-5 Published by Deadly Chaps New York, NY 2012 DCs3HL|2| Cover & Book Design by Joseph A. W. Quintela http://www.deadlychaps.com

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ne [1]

I don't want to be so needy but I am glad I am human.

#love #selfish #affirmations #stayPostitive #sorry #mightBeTired #mightBeAlone #iFeelOkay #im25

wo [2]

Keep y ur ph ne n “n silen ” during y ur re i al s I an ex you. Just wanna be part of u, I mean, part of the show.

#ilu #love #selfie #selfish #FAVs #myFAVs #ideas #jokes #spacePhobic #im25 2

hree [3]

e Drawing, gnawing at a hangnail, doodling ur face on the back of a paper ha â&#x20AC;&#x2122;s a ually a paper I g a gi e s me ne la er.

#ilu #luv #love #FAVs #iFeelGud #jokes #im25 3

our [4]

7 Jan 11 We’ll be he nes inside f he jus -set-down snow globe, but ins ead f feeling shaken agi a ed dizzy, we’ll feel s serene.

#143 #ilu #luv #love #ideas #iFeelGud #spacePhobic #mightfallOffThisSpaceEdge #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeel #im25 4

ive [5]

pr Ripping off a band aid while wishing there was more of a metaphor to ripping off this band aid, but it's just a ur average band aid.

#selfConscious #FAVs #POW #playOnWords #WORDplay #wh0A #calmDown #losingPotential #itsOkay #iFeelOkay #im25 5

ix [6]

pr Sometimes life gives you lemons, but those lemons are lemons, so when you try to make lemonade out of those lemons you get another lemon.

#selfConscious #FAVs #POW #playOnWords #WORDplay #wh0A #calmDown losingPotential #itsOkay #iFeelOkay #im25 6

even [7]

ul Looking for that feeling that feels "like heely's racing up my spine."+ ll Iâ&#x20AC;&#x2122; e g is a swea dripping d wn mine.

#toDo #losingPotential #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/cemhw97 7

ight [8]

ul Phone is frozen  but it is cooling me off on this hot day 

#playOnWords #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeelGud #im25 8

ine [9]

ul Corona with sugar?+ Good idea? Bad idea? Not so good? Not so bad? Replace Corona with apple juice?

#calmDown #ideas #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeelGud #midTwentiesRage #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/bsvu3nj

en [10]

ul He took all the kitchen utensils except for the ice-cream scoop, "you'll need this more than I will."

#love #itsOkay #wh0A #calmDown #losingPotential #urbanFairyTales #iFeelOkay #im25 10

leven [11]

ul Wearing that all white outfit that house painters wear+ to prove to the world that I never spill food, coffee or beer on myself, ever. Jk.

#ideas #jokes #iFeelGud #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/d8aptl 11

welve [12]

ul Dust bunny following me around my apt, should I get attached to it? Pet it? Name it? Love it? Buy a leash and collar and go on a walk?

#143 #ilu #luv #toDo #calmDown #ideas #stayPositive#jokes #spacePhobic #mightBeAlone #iFeelOkay #im25 12

hirteen [13]

ul If life is too bitter for bitters, have Stoli O instead of Campari! Have an orange instead of Stoli O! Smile instead?

#affirmations #ideas #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #iFeelOkay #im25 13

ourteen [14]

ul Tried doodling was drawing a cat the ears looked like devil ears so I freakd & burned the paper & inhaled the smoke is the devil in me now??

#selfConscious #urFAVs#wh0A #mightfallOffThisEdge #detectMyFeelings #im25 14

ifteen [15]

ul I remember every low point; see me shifting around in my seat, pulling out a hair,+ wiping nothing off of my face.

#FAVs #detectMyFeelings #midTwentiesRage #im25 + http://tinyurl.com/yobvwe 15

ixteen [16]

ul Something about opening this ream of paper turning me into an unapologetic Neanderthal, real chance to use "the claws."

#FAVs #myFAVs #iFeelGud #midTwentiesRage #im25 16

eventeen [17]

ug B ugh a " up f i e” pu shades drink i was s spilld on me

ranges da in i was s ne n I pu n ld i f ggd he shades I uldn’ see i

#FAVs #myFAVs #iFeelGud #im25 17

ighteen [18]

ug Brought my houseplant on a field trip to school, now I'm on a trip lying on the floor at home

#itsOkay #urbanFairyTales #detectMyFeelings #mightfallOffThisEdge #mightBeAlone #mightBeTired #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage #im25 18

ineteen [19]

ug Kinda always feel like Jul. Binoche in Chocolat+ when I'm unpacking but with less mysticism magic wonder witchcraft n so much more chocolate.

#iFeelGud #im25 http://tinyurl.com/2dnmvxd

wenty [20]

ug Sleepin beauties wa8in 4 the train I wan wake them, sumtimes that persons me but im not wa8in 4 the train im home jus wan sum1 2 wake me

#toDo #FAVs #ideas #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage #im26 20

wenty-one [21]

ug Finally k being “s me ne wh lis ens worried that it's not the "right" song.

a s ng n repea ” bu

#itsOkay #mightfallOffThisEdge #detectMyFeelings #im26 21

wenty-two [22]

ug Re: K-Y ads on hulu,+ don't talk about sex in code words don't make the world think that's ok i'll just getmore confusd h8 sex related tears

#iFeelOkay #im26 http://tinyurl.com/3jd8pe7

wenty-three [23]

ug Biggest fear: being trapped underground in the train in a bla k u well maybe n m s ly I really d nâ&#x20AC;&#x2122; ha e n n appearance based fears.

#urbanFairyTales #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelOkay#im26 23

wenty-four [24]

ep Reading the back of the Pine Sol bottle and thinking backwards about my pining soul.

#POW #playOnWords #WORDplay #detectMyFeelings #im26 24

wenty-five [25]

ep I ’s k le s me ne pen a d r f r u remind u ha u exist IRL (physical door, not metaphorical door representing “ pp r uni y”).

#affirmations #ideas #detectMyFeelings #im26 25

wenty-six [26]

ep Lying in bed googling doodling drooling severely losing.

#mightfallOffThisEdge #detectMyFeelings #im26 26

wenty-seven [27]

ep Used 2 straighten my hair with a flat iron it kept frizzin back out kinda tellin me off kinda tellin me don try so hard just give up already

#detectMyFeelings #im26 27

wenty-Eight [28]

ep Can't believe I was so optimistic about it being Sat. night like 1hr ago I'm on the flr wishing I cld leave even tho im already 2hrs late.

#mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeel #im26 28

wenty-nine [29]

ep Most of JB's songs are about buying his gf's things all day,+ I don't know if I know what love means anymore I think he gets it more than me.

#143 #ilu #luv #ideas #iFeelOkay #im26 http://tinyurl.com/yhdyq8o; http://tinyurl.com/bujbuyb 29

hirty [30]

ep Shazam for the chick u jus met n forgot her name immediately b u were mplimen ing her gli er shad w, u kn he shad wâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s name+ tho.

#selfie #selfish #selfConscious #sorry #iFeel #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/bqhdsqo 30

hirty-one [31]

ep Just crossed my legs and wound up on the other side of the street, un r ssed my eyes and Iâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;m ba k.

#ideas #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelGud #im26 31

hirty-two [32]

ep When the dentist puts the chair back I mumble thru the sucking straw "this is my favorite part."

#urFAVs #jokes #iFeelGud #im26 32

hirty-three [33]

Keep breaking out in a cold sweat, cool, chill, freezer burn, burrr, print, 3, D.+

#toDo #calmDown #iFeelGud #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/2c6th33 33

hirty-four [34]

1 Oct 11 Spilled water all over my bed, thinking of sleeping in a chair or the floor or maybe trying out that thing called bootycall lol w/e sad nope

#ideas #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeelOkay #midTwentiesRage #im26 34

hirty-five [35]

Head buried in a pint glass of budlite, drinking through a straw, n e in awhile I'm bl wing bumbles, didnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122; ge arded un il n w.

#midTwentiesRage #iFeelOkay #im26 35

hirty-six [36]

A List called FUN STUFF: -When Todd Barry is eating on Louie [all times]. -Pon de Flr vid [still]. -opening energy drink tabs.+

#affirmations #toDo #FAVs #recipesToFeelGud #calmDown #losingPotential #stayPositive #mightfallOffThisEdge #mightBeAlone #mightBeTired #mightBeReallyGudYouKno #detectMyFeelings #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/cy68x7f 36

hirty-seven [37]

Trying this thing where I don't correct autocorrects in text messages anymore, hoping it makes some good stories for my friends later â&#x2122;Ľ+

#recipesToFeelGud #ideas #jokes #iFeelGud #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/bsxjtwq 37

hirty-Eight [38]

Coffee hi going on about 4hrs now, mite need that intervention ppl wh ake mu h Viagra d "defla e.â&#x20AC;?+

#calmDown #ideas #jokes #iFeelGud #im26 + http://tinyurl.com/c4rc87b 38

hirty-nine [39]

Ask yourself "was that therapeutic?" each time you return from zoning out, my answer is usually yes.

#recipes #recipesToFeelGud #affirmations #myFAVs #calmDown #stayPositive #spacePhobic #mightfallOffThisEdge #iFeel #iFeelGud #im26 39

orty [40]

Smacked into a dog. I feel really bad but the dog can't hear me so I'll send this apology to this world. Iâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;m s s rry.+

#sorry #iFeel #im26 http://tinyurl.com/ct9n2sa

ndex of Tags

#143 4,12.29 #affirmations 1,13,25,36,39 #calmDown 5,6,9,10,12,33,36,38,39 #clausterphobic #detectMyFeelings 14,15,18,21,24,25,26,27,36 #FAVs 2,3,5,6,15,16,17,20,36 #ideas 2,4,9,11,12,13,20,25,29,31,34,37,38 #iFeel 4,30,39,40 #iFeelGud 3,4,8,9,11,16,17,19,31,32,33,37,38,39 #iFeelOkay 1,5,6,7,10,12,13,18,20,22,23,28,29,34,35 #ilu 2,3,4,12,29 #im25 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19 #im26 20,21,22,23,24,25,26,27,28,29,30,31,32,33,34,35,36,37, 38,39,40 #itsOkay 5,6,10,18,21 #jokes 2,3,11,12,32,37,38 #losingPotential 5,6,7,10,36 #love 1,2,3,4,10 #luv 3,4,12,29 #midTwentiesRage 7,9,15,16,18,20,34,35 #mightBeAlone 1,12,18,36 #mightBeReallyGudYouKno 4,8,9,13,36 #mightBeTired 1,18,36 #mightfallOffThisEdge 4,14,18,20,21,23,26,28,31,34,36,39 #myFAVs 2,16,17,39 #playOnWords 5,6,8,24 #POW 5,6,24 41

42 #recipes 39 #recipesToFeelGud 36,37,39 #selfConscious 5,6,14,30 #selfie 2,30 #selfish 1,2,30 #sorry 1,30,40 #spacePhobic 2,4,12,39 #stayPositive 1,12,36,39 #toDo 7,12,20,33,36 #urbanFairyTales 10,18,23 #urFAVs 14,32 #wh0A 5,6 #WORDplay 5,6,24

bout the Author

Helen Levin makes space, creating possible new realities in the digital world. She writes to stay positive about the world known as “ear h,” “ he physi al,” r “IRL.”