#982 by WARIDI I know This world ain’t meant for me But I still see heaven even as I walk through hell Feel like I fell from grace ‘cept I never had it Wipe away the tears Laugh o that old adage Go out in the garden to pick flowers at night Trying not to cry with all my might But I just might Feeling my skin dapple in moonlight I was raised to fight With all my might But I’ll work hard all day long just to prove you wrong Couldn’t find myself so I wrote my own songs Sometimes the cancer meds make my momma mean Some days I wake up and hope that it’s all a dream Cry and scream Try to remember she’s just as scared as me Sometimes my grip on reality is tenuous Sometimes keeping your head above water feels hella strenuous When you’re drowning in tears wondering if they’ll even be here tomorrow Easy to be su ocated by grief and sorrow Some days it seems my allergies are acting up Sorry y’all but I’m allergic to bullsh*t Hope you’ll see I ain’t nobody to mess with Yes, if you see me just call me Waridi You don’t need to know my real name Trust is a privilege not something I just give away And if you see me knee deep in a reverie just know I’m not mean Just an introvert with resting bitch face if you know what I mean Just so you know you don’t really know me Had to escape when people tried to control me Archandroid, archangel, shabby but elegant My two best friends be loneliness and eloquence They say if you’re lost in this world you’re meant to build a new one The weight is weighing down on us Can measure the pressure in Newtons
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