Angela By Salim Abdu
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“Angela. A dive into the mind of a love addict and a compulsive cheat. Have a good read.” - Salim Abdu
Contributors Salim Abdu Writer of white walls, feel and addicted. Head authur of book
Ebose Ehi-Bello Book Designer and Illustrator
Uche Nwachukwu Writer of angels in human skin interlude
“I saw this project as a way to tell a new story and grow my skill in illustrations. Also, the stories for each part are insightful. I hope you enjoy.” - Ebose Ehi-Bello
“Angels in human skin interlude is a piece I worked on as a means to express myself and views. It comes off in the story as the feelings of the female antagonist. It also shows my opinion towards the excuses made by men when they make ‘mistakes’. Hope you enjoy it!” - Sharon Nwachukwu
ANGELA
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White Walls(Intro) 4
Feel 6
Addicted 10
Angels in Human Skin Interlude 16
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Angela
White Walls(Intro) “Do you love me?” Do you really want to be with me? “Yes babe!” Niggas turn to yes men to get a piece of that forbidden fruit We tell her because that’s what she wants to hear She wants to feel special before letting u anywhere near Wants to be the only one! She thinks you don’t share but I am in here in my room texting her friend to meet me here Endless cycle, countless woes Love addict on withdrawal So the only thing you think of is the hoes The trees get you thru the night, put on some Aiko take a flight Thoughts hardly swirling, here comes her friend, oh she tight Grab her by the waist, no gentleman act, no time to play 10 minutes later her friend walks in, I’m lost for words Ready for the crazy Pull out quick, I’m begging don’t A nigga was so wrong, She shuts the door, falls to the floor Down in tears, “thought u loved me,” so she said Trying to find an answer, oh my God! I’m lost for words
Angela
One of many stories, pay attention, let it speak! The walls always there, built up strong to withhold the fear As we rise and stumble, it takes down notes, regardless where You just have to look, it’s always speaking, I hope you hear Listen really closely, it’ll tell you how we live our lives As I struggle with the pain of surviving the loss of love Walked out of my life, chapter closes, hit a wall The holes, the paint The spots landmark the moments we hold dear Staring at this broad, my next target, she looks easy Rejected on the first try, no Ls the motive, I try again Finally got a chance ohh she smart Intrigues my mind She the boogie kinda girl, three date rule I’m all up for the chase Forgotten how to count, three dates turn to five Standing at her doorstep, she opens up, nice lingerie Get her on the bed, pull down the pants, no delays Staring at her walls Is this love? I cannot say Finally came to my senses and then I realize I wanna stay
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ANGELA
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Feel
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What do you see when you look at me? Is it happiness or are you blinded by the sea The reflection of emotion confusing me Trying to understand what it means to feel As I stare at her light skin dreaming of what could be I crave for her scent Her smell makes me euphoric As I pull her closer to me the time we spend feels like never ending trying to make sure what I feel is real the idea of love clouding my ability to see Hardly ever text I’m always thinking she don’t like me but when we come together The chemistry is always lightning Lust the misconception as she walks by past me Love is truly blind if that is all I really see God must have spent his time creating the perfect one for me, but why do I still feel I am not the one she really need Love the way she smile Her perfection is her mind Body also tight but when she speak, I fall in line!
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Like Travis all I do is need, that freaky body keep leading me Taking multiple trips to Gucci just to make sure that pussy stay happy I try to read her mind, impossible! Still I try She talks about the break ups, the clowns and all the lies She opens up to me Sex I do not mean As she shares all her stories of the guys reminds me of me
Love the way she smile, her perfection in her mind. Body also tight but when she speak I fall in line.
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ANGELA
Turns back and looks at me, says: “nigga I’ll always worry Open my eyes and let me see Show me the world through a perspective of rainbow and sweets Gimme your hand, let’s explore the sea The sea of emotions, bitter sweet” As we lay she whispers this you can tell the words run deep I grab her hand and squeeze it tight I love you the words slip right out A tear falls as she stares at me “I love you too” as we kiss and fall asleep
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Addicted 8
LIFE DOWN
ANGELA
Like a fiend for love, you have me corrupted I need more of you to make my life absolute The smile on your face is my cure for pain Without you I bet the world won’t feel the same My perspectives have changed Since the day I met you, you set a flame A lovely burning gaze lit a fire all over my brain From across the room I said, this beautiful queen will become mine someday Many dates later and here we lay You on top of me as we decide our babies names Smith, Leroy or jane The shade of our skin affects our brain Whatever you want I tell her to keep that face rejoicing Like a wolf chasing nightmares I’m dragged back to the woods Howling at the moon as I stare right at the stars Countless sparkles in the sky, countless distractions, countless lies All trying to drive me from being the man she truly deserves Phone blowing up, random numbers keep on calling Why does it feel like my life is always falling Do I really love her? my brain asks the rest of my body Do you see a future when you look right at her or are you just excited by the possibility of not being alone with your thoughts
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ANGELA
12 My heart, my mind, my body should be all yours but I’m with another room giving her what’s rightfully yours When I’m not with you it feels like I’m lost Trying to decide whether it’s truly love or lust The only attention I crave is yours yet I go out to seek what else the world offers Being without you slowly leads me to the truth but love is blind so I’m not sure where I’m really headed Like a nascar racer making pit stops before I cross the finish line Love clearly ain’t science but this must be one hell of a litmus test Trying to justify my thirst for cravings only to realize that’s a dumb man’s saying The guilt I carry stains the flowers of the sun As your mind begins to wonder, what now has he done Searching for the words my tongue seems to not be in a hurry But my face, my eyes, my stare and flare gives her a sense of worry She puts the pieces together finally starting to figure out that my horrid show of affection is nothing but a cover for my loss to temptation Her heart splits into two her eyes can’t deny it as the tears roll down her cheek she slowly pulls away Shocked!
The betrayal of love puts a hole in the heart of the one I consider aurora
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The betrayal of love puts a hole in the heart of the one I consider Aurora
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Angels in Human Skin Interlude 8
ANGELA
If I had a penny for everytime someone apologised for being human I would be rich as hell I used to just let it go and put on a smile but this burden of humanity started to weigh on me And it got me thinking Am I not human? What does it mean to be human? To be human is the fact that we are the highest beings that we have been blessed to feel and experience emotions like no other To be human is the fact that we make mistakes but don’t just make them we learn from them That’s makes us more human To be human is the fact that we can be loved by one another limitlessly So why don’t I feel fully human? Cause I swear every time he touches me and I feel his lips next to mine I feel human And every time he looks at me with his small beautiful eyes I feel every ounce of humanity rushing through my veins But I’m not fully human
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I’m not fully human cause I have never betrayed the one I love by seeking the attention of another I’m not fully human cause I choose to be honest to the one I love though the truth may hurt sometimes I’m not fully human because I never want to be the reason tears rush down his eyes countless times I’m not fully human cause I’m satisfied with one person and couldn’t care less for any other You said it was a mistake but when it happens countless times Baby it’s no longer a mistake! It’s a decision But sorry wait, I guess you’re just human and if that’s what being human takes then I’m sorry, I don’t want to be human
ANGELA
I’m not fully human because I never want to be the reason tears rush down his eyes countless times.
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