NAUSEA
AUDIT CHAOS
NAUSEA VOLUME III A series of poems on the theme of existence written by Audit Chaos
CHAOS BOOKS
CHAOS BOOKS PUBLISHED BY AUDIT CHAOS
PUBLISHED BY CHAOS BOOKS, IPSWICH, ENGLAND
1ST PUBLISHED SEPTEMBER 2014
© AUDIT CHAOS
ISBN — 978-1-326-00661-7
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I could make no use of their conception Our dreams always follow the present. Memory impressed on fragmentary Reproductions of the sensory stimuli Awoken by the ringing alarm clock Doing its duty embodied by dream. Visual phenomena appear authenticated By instances of success of an absent mind. Falling requires a certain passivity, fear Never offered us anything to compare, The fatigue grows sparser before our Clouded consciousness is overloaded. Hysterical paralysis maintains a state Of uncritical self-observation – How baseless the miseries of waking? The politeness I practice everyday Is to a large extent a pretence of anxiety The solution I had reached failed to satisfy. Close to this memory holds another story, I believe I can trace this enthusiasm back I could pursue accidental motivations Without weaving the pain into the Human body or the strangers obsession. The demand of censorship breaks off. Important for the late neurotics remains A person –anonymous, reproduced from Memory perceived in a relationship. I submit to claustrophobia in dreams Composed of visual absurdity, fragmented
I shall take the incidental opportunity, Make a closer nonsensical conclusion Distressing our daytime to make meaning Clear, for the sake of prolonged sleep. The therapy intervenes, let them out Put them together in our normal life.
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Into virtual contradictions of reality.
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The necessity of the moment made it impossible Do not be annoyed if I begin treating you the same. Nothing takes place but an interchange of words Kept in existence by emotional forces and deception I will answer in advance with a ‘yes’. Using a similar sound that would be most convincing Imagine that someone had taken a certain substance Disturbing intention and thought - I allowed myself. These chance actions include manipulation with our body With the sole aim of applying sublime blue sky. We experience the impression of strangeness I once succeeded in identifying the stimulus. These phantasies dominated by a transparent motive Make possible the hypnotic sleep we withdraw, I am under the impression we advanced too quickly. When the need is less intense the censorship Manifests traces in our memory without a Simultaneous alteration or undistorted anxiety.
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We usually interrupt our sleep before censorship.
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For reasons both external and internal The justification goes far beyond prevention. There is something in the psychological Situation that encourages hostility. A certain amount of these impulses Returns to original choices and conditions. The equivalent phenomenon and obsessive Illness maintained unconquerable anxiety A capacity to exploit forbidden fears. The reason given for this last restriction Seems an obvious contradiction – We do not have sufficient space. Our interest does not require us, The situation is rendered more difficult That is fine to the excess of anxious concern Of a vocabulary constantly being changed. How are we to explain the beginning? Connected to a motor impulse opinions change. In various obscure premonitions. The bond of unity is conceived, regarded A stranger even, everyone was interrogated Freed from the need to trace ourselves I speak of a disillusion everyone will know Mourning a profoundly painful performance. The disorder of self-esteem is absent, I was
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Initially startled and collapsed – overwhelmed.
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Something alienates the sympathy Obliged to go back some distance, Our nervous disease left to influence The destruction of this illusion Annihilates the bond of community. They are inexorably prohibited guests Like those of a stranger, paralysed In recognition of unconscious processes It is the last moment of self-control. We may assume that it resumes. I have procured no such attitude Subject to fits of passion unexpected From mental activity behind weakness. It designates unrivalled wounds pretentious From bleeding certain to security. Sufferings of other people substitute Disclosures of antithetical meaning Since every conception is its twin opposite To satisfy those wishes, an event or Painful experience ensues on success. Psychological reckoning supplements Silence awakened by mental relief, The pleasure of smashing broken things Followed without leaving a trace behind. The idea ‘double’ does not disappear. Exhausted privileges characterize fixation, There is a frustration in reality regarding
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Blood as beautifying existence.
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We have long observed real life – reality,
It exercises censorship in dreams suffering
Occasioned by an odd outbreak of insanity
An object, the believer appeals to a
These processes strive towards internal
Melancholia of obsessional neurosis
Satisfaction, by means of hallucination.
Like a superficial rationalization.
Struck – made to subsume external doubt
These self-injurers rage against the self,
They exist together abandoning observation
The upper layer is transparent – permanent
For pure hysteria, in total absence of instincts.
Traces receive impressions of a new idea.
The condition of sleep resembles illness I think in anxiety, neurosis becomes congested. Since we are already familiar with the idea The mechanism of falling helps towards an Internal draining away of imaginary objects. The process of recovery describes truth Calls out a higher level of performance. Avoid applying certain abstract ideas The substance persists between inside Automatically regulated fluctuation. The external world and hatred are identical, The instinctual vicissitude of repression Passes between flight and condemnation Yielding the influence of mental distraction. Intermediate links pass neurotic symptoms Ordering an undesirable guest In a modification, annihilating the idea Obtaining a true knowledge of censorship. Withdrawing from the surrounding world We will repeat the hallucinatory wish. There is a margin of aesthetic indifference No complete explanation has been reached. A wound or injury remains inflicted Simultaneously synonymous expression Construct a memory, the ratio between what Is remembered and what is reproduced, What appears is an instinct perfection.
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We learn by reproducing visual images
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Why does paranoia have a privileged position? I’m not going to fall into the myth of experience The image is always integrated into order Within this perspective traced from lived Temporal reference points in real phenomena. No notion is in the end more paradoxical The source of auditory hallucination was external. Perhaps by virtue of errors brought into focus After a short illness consisting of delusion The suggestion is designated the same ambiguity. You must respect and touch upon the inadequacy The very institution is the experiment of paranoid Knowledge- it’s reality containing psychotic fantasy I would go even further to climb the scale of delusions. To run on beneath the surface determines a neurotic Invasion called verbal hallucinations with projected Symptoms based on totality subsisted in repression. This is a relationship invented to explain the Phenomena of memory, inexhaustible in combination Disclosure prevents me from dwelling, it’s a false
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Perception based on nothing besides this name.
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I do not think this a surprising subject, Our experience which has led us to explore This theory was to destine it to failure. Perhaps the question will be in sharp relief, Yet these desires are nothing but notions Situated at the forefront of our experience. We must maintain the autonomy and Desire only aspirations in their chaos. Our action suggests we are not far removed Its beginning is opaque – characterized by Demand – we must be patient a little longer. The fictional process offers the paradox The whole hallucinatory phenomenon occurs Structure interposes itself between consciousness The first experience of reality for the human Is to cry by some internal illness. We should perhaps conceive pain as a field Open to nothing else but this discourse. It appears as the quiet rhythmic droning A mediator between pleasure and real rule There is no example of ideal exhaustion Nothing offers a satisfying explanation. Organised around emptiness fixing form To the illusion of space, you see vanity. Now at the threshold – door broken Fundamental disorder of reciprocal relations The task will be elimination of a waste Expressed by common experience of promiseThere’s no reason why we should dream in Our confrontation with the human condition.
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The imaginary register demonstrates chaos
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The mirror stage assumed the image Between this virtual support structure. This fragmented body and neurosis Encounter existential personal error as The imaginary transference resisted Various kinds of therapeutic suggestion. Delusional construction suspends shadows Blind suppression made possible. The reduction of symptoms based on truth, Nothing is created without a sense of urgency To make itself heard is the void – failure Seems to satisfy the condition of continuity. To say nothing of the theory – the agreement Divorced from the serious freedom of choice, The abstract objectification of simulated Experience – a connotation of absence. Language assumes interpretation – exhaustion Consummated in repetition of a certain code. I am speaking by whatever name I choose None of this is my own invention, an error Fixing a spatializing projection of anxiety. Such failure is symptomatic after the immense Human laceration of meaning – this act Of forgetting, is the origin of contradiction.
It would not see itself seeing itself – This reflection returns our image to us Such are the structural conditions. But it remains confused distinguished From the system – apprehending reality. Psychosis is really just a symptom articulated, Necessitating a more advanced system. It never fails to concretize the nausea Connoting absence in its presence; There can be little doubt, This is why I am so anxious.
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It simulates delusion placed between mirrors
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In that space passing through awareness The mirage of truth was under obligation; To spare you manipulation- a sort of gap. Neurosis creates harmony in zones of shade, A strange temporality occurs – Dimensions of loss veiled in analysis Act a homage to the missed reality. The real may be represented by absence I see myself, it reflects nothingness in mimicry There is an extraordinary verisimilitude – A gaze behind – the terminal moment, The eye carries the fatal power to separate Analytic repetition; to reveal what it repeats, To believe the opacity of the trauma Designated at the closing unconsciousTemporal pulsations and conceptual crisis, Identification is merely a pause – termination. Interpretation concerns the pleasure of seeing Closing upon its own satisfaction and tension, We apprehend the reason to believeThe choice is a matter of knowing, Eclipsed by the disappearance of being. The presence is implied in masked experience Justifying simulation as actual desire.
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-Pleasure is still too much for actual equilibrium.
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Perhaps you find yourself being summed up, Place is a term I often use- it leaves you hope. You always end up in a certain place no further, We were in what might be called a moment – These are not things that happen as unconscious Dreamed up thinking; thought transparent The outcome that everyone thinks they know, Begins to become incoherent – negative. Its standard practice, a tenable positionA therapy, a drug: but never a cure. Not only is it not new, it is the main entrance. Articulated with the everyday discourse It’s revealing one way of dealing, we are Entering the great performance, a higher Mythology - a theoretical facilitation and Mental automatism they could not see. Hallucination inaugurates the dimension of truth Manufactured articulations correlate the symptom Where you can say anything, even the truth. Everything is a continuation of everything else, You know the nonsense they’ve come up with; It’s the beginning of the biological dream-
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It means reason encourages us to go on sleeping.