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A HARINGEY YOUTH PUBLICATION

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Cheer up, you’re dying!

Living with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

The Truman Show: it’s really happening

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Contributors Cardine Martin

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Catrise Noel, Joey Leskin, Katie Allen, & Nick May.

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Editorial Team

Features 14 - Gallery

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18 - Zodiac Imran Luqman

22 - Agony

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Katerina Dowson

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26 - Poetry 27 - Directory

Sam Benjamin Shelby Frederick

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Nick May

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Issue #82 July 2006 News We’ve sweated, sneezed, and occasionally sunbathed, our way through another issue of Exposure. But the devilish heat has left its mark on a magazine filled with madness, death, satanism, and televised torture.

Need advice about your career, volunteering or finding something to do this summer? Run by Exposure, Hornsey YMCA and North London Connexions, the Get on Bus is out and about across Haringey.

Starting in September, we’ll be publishing a series of booklets about Haringey’s heritage. If you want to know what Haringey was like 50, 100 or even 500 years ago, or why Tottenham’s so different from Crouch End, or what went wrong when the magician Chung Ling Soo tried to catch a bullet on stage at Wood Green Empire, you can get involved right now.

Finally, if you’re fed up with not being able to make your MySpace page look the way you want it to, Exposure’s web design course runs every Wednesday and Thursday afternoon. Take a look at other young people’s sites at www.exposure.org.uk/members To get involved or find out more, call Gary on 020 8883 0260, or email gary@exposure.org.uk

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Articles 08 - Dying For It:

10 - Between Black and White:

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Diana Mendoza on why death worries us.

12 - You Scrub Up Well:

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Sinem Engin-Mehmet on Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

Artwork by Akin Davies.

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Chris Wright says he’s no devil-worshipper.

16 - All To Real:

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Joel Freeman asks whether Reality TV has gone too far.

20 - Indecent Exposure:

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James Kelly talks to graffiti artist Poer.

24 - Know What I Mean: Slanguage, written and illustrated by Lackish Jackson.

Regrettably our office is inaccessible to wheelchair users but we will nevertheless make every effort to include your contributions.

Youth Service Voluntary Sector Team

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things ’n’ stuff Haringey Week of Peace 10-17 September 2006 Haringey’s ever-growing peace programme returns. If your tongue is tingling with excitement at the thought of concerts, prayer walks and sports events, or you are against the idea of getting shot more times than 50 Cent, then get involved.

Walk Tall www.walktall.co.uk Are your feet larger than life? Do you feel uncomfortable exposing your gigantic feet in public and live in fear of being made fun of? Do you want to do something to hide your embarrassing abnormality? If your answer to any of these questions is ‘yes’, Walk Tall is for you. Walk Tall sells men’s shoes from size 12-19 and everything from Reebok running shoes and Vans casuals to Gilbert rugby boots and formal footwear.

See the website or call 0870 840 8447 for a catalogue. And remember what they say about men with big feet: they need big shoes.

SHELBY FREDERICK

For more information call the Peace Alliance on 020 8808 9439 or email r.wood@peacealliance.org.uk IMRAN LUQMAN

Don’t Lose the Music Week 4 - 10 September www.dontlosethemusic.com

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If you can't talk to people about two metres away without shouting, it means the noise level is dangerous. RNID, the national charity representing 9 million deaf and hard of hearing people, is launching the first ever Don’t Lose the Music Week, to raise awareness of the dangers of loud music. 34% of 16-30 year olds report ringing or buzzing in the ears after a night out, which can cause hearing damage, like tinnitus, that can't be repaired.

Betty Curse Single - God This Hurts Released 7 August 2006 She looks like a real life incarnation of Japanese cult cartoon character Emily Strange but she sounds more like Avril Lavigne. Betty Curse is the poster girl for the goth-pop generation, blending energetic pop-punk anthems with her love of all things dark. But it all seems a bit too manufactured, deliberately targetting teens distanced from Top 40 pop. There may be a goth revival on the way but I doubt many people will be black-clad this summer - its gonna be hot.

JAMES KELLY

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X-Men: The Last Stand Cert. 12a DVD Release: Summer 2006 It’s the final X-Men film (well, it must be if it’s called ‘The Last Stand’). A war is breaking out between mutants and humans, some of the characters have gone completely mental, and, to make everything worse, scientists have discovered a cure to treat mutants. Is this the end for the X-Men? New characters, a new director, and great special effects but it’s just not the same without director Brian Singer.

Let’s hope his new film, Superman Returns, kicks some mutant ass.

JOSH BÜYÜKYILMAZ

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The Cypriot Andreas Koumi £9.95 The Cypriot is a novel by Exposure’s manager, Andy (although that’s got nothing to do with why it’s being reviewed here). It’s a brilliant read and gives a fantastic insight into the lives of Cypriots in Cyprus and in Haringey. As a Cypriot, it’s great to learn about my island’s history and understand more about the struggle, and the love story between Adonis, a Christian Cypriot, and Funda, a Muslim Cypriot, is lovely. Andy says: “Working with young people from so many different backgrounds at Exposure was a huge inspiration for the novel. It gave me a vision for a future united Cyprus.” Isn’t Andy wonderful? Isn’t Exposure brilliant?

Isn’t Cyprus something worth reading about?

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Inexcusable Chris Lynch £6.99 Inexcusable is narrated by schoolboy Keir, who says he’s a popular guy. But, as Chris Lynch slowly unravels his character, you find out things about Keir that he’d rather not expose. When Keir sexually assaults his girlfriend, Gigi, he still tries to convince you he’s a good guy, and each chapter leaves you in suspense: is he a monster or just misunderstood?

Inexcusable might be too taboo for your mum. but it’s written for young people, so if you can handle the darker side of sexual relations, it’s a great read.

CARDINE MARTIN

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dying

BY DIANA MENDOZA

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eople spend so much time worrying about dying that they forget to live.

You do what you do to stay alive. You get an education so you can work to make money to buy food to eat, or clothes to stay warm. You wash and clean so you don’t get ill. We put all this effort into staying alive because none of was want to die. The funny thing is that at the end of it all you die anyway. So technically you’ve failed your life goal: to live.

So is ‘Death’ something that follows you round waiting to kill you – like the grim reaper, this tall figure in a long black cloak holding a scythe?

Or is it something else that controls your life – like random circumstance.

You could get shot, stabbed or even run over just by chance.

You don’t know when death is going to hit you and you can’t choose when or how you die - unless you take control of your life and end it by

control of your “Take life: commit suicide ”

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committing suicide. But none of us actually want to die. Although we complain about not knowing when we’re going to die, we prefer that to the uncertainty of what happens to us after we die. That’s why people put so much time and effort into trying to stay alive. They avoid certain areas at certain times or have plastic surgery to keep looking young - they convince themselves that if they look young they will live longer.

for it Perhaps you could cheat death, like in the film Final Destination? Say you were meant to get shot and die, but someone pushes you aside, saves you from death and ruins your death plan. Would Death get angry and come back for you when you least expect it? So you’re walking down the street, you take a really big trip

“Bang! You’re dead ” and nearly bang your head but manage to stay in control, get up, and think ‘Phew… that was close’.

Next thing you know someone barges you into the middle of the road and a lamppost falls on your head. Bang! You’re dead. That’s it. Is it your fault for cheating death in the first place? Or maybe stuff just happens.

We’ll never actually know what happens so we shouldn’t spend our life stressing over it. If you stay in your house all day trying not to die, you’re not living. So take a risk, do something wild. You’re going to die anyway so you might as well make the most of your life and try to enjoy it to the fullest.

Life is the longest journey we’ll ever take and instead of worrying where to get off we should just enjoy the ride.

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BY CHRIS WRIGHT ILLUSTRATION BY MICHAEL DA SILVA

am original. I am unique. Just like everyone else. An army of tracksuits marches towards me. I know what’s coming: my t-shirt shows the devil as a puppet controlling another puppet. That must mean I’m a Satanist. I stick my other earphone in and shift the volume on my MP3 player up just a bit more so I can’t hear them. It won’t stop them shouting about me biting the heads off chickens or sacrificing goats. And just because I’m not wearing a cap tilted to one side, or the latest white Reeboks, or listening to the latest bangin’ tune.

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who wear “ People black must be devil-worshippers

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Schools hinder our individuality and close another door on any bid to escape from stereotypes. How can we show off our true selves while being restricted to a black and white uniform? There's a grey place between black and white and everyone has the right to choose the path they take. If you look in between the lines, what do you see?

No matter how hard we try or how much we claim to be unique, we are forever locking other people into stereotypes. Many stereotypes are misconceptions formed by people who actually know little about the people they are grouping together: people who wear black must be devil-worshippers; Chinese people work in a Chinese-food take-away;

Japanese people must be good at Karate; teenagers are thieves and vandals; people from the Middle East are almost always terrorists.

the British all cold“ Are hearted, child-killing rapists? ” The level of stereotyping that we have reached in modern society is sickening. Why should a huge diverse group of people be condemned as people who commit suicidal acts?

Whether it’s children in a playground calling a kid from the Middle East ‘a dirty terrorist’ or TV portraying these men and women as a threat to society, it’s despicable. Even more so for TV, who denounce these people in front of the millions of people watching. The scary thing is that people begin to believe what they are told.

Terrorist attacks - in New York, London or anywhere else - are a tragedy. But it’s also a tragedy that a whole group of human beings should be lumped in together with those that committed such terrible acts. Britain has produced many notorious serial killers. Should we begin to stereotype the British as cold-hearted, childkilling rapists? Or perhaps we should be compared to insects. Not because of our personal ‘qualities’ (although it might be true for some) but because of our tendency to scurry towards the brightest light whatever stereotype is imposed on us.

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BY SINEM ENGIN-MEHMET ARTWORK BY AKIN DAVIES was 14 when I first realised I had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD).

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People with OCD are swamped with irrational, obsessive thoughts and can become caught up in repetitive actions or rituals: washing their hands, counting, checking things, listing, repeating words or phrases to themselves. It makes them feel ‘safe’.

It seems dumb and weird but they just can’t stop.

magazines “ Allandmybooks have to be turned face down and covered

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The simplest things are so long.

Before I go to sleep I’ve got to do a complex routine. I go round my room putting pillows on the chair, then turn the chair round to face me to protect me from a fire, I tuck my curtains into my radiator, making

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sure there are no gaps, then check my drawers. Yes, my drawers. I have to touch each drawer to make sure it’s firmly shut. I have four chests of drawers, each with 18 drawers and I touch each of them four times. I also have a wardrobe that I check in that way. I brush my teeth, wash my hands, cleanse my face, and wash my hands – not like a quick rinse with soap up to the wrist, in between my fingers, back and front. I have no idea how many times a day I wash them but it’s a lot. Then, everything in my room has to be in the right place.

The rug has to be straightened and all my magazines and books have to be turned face down and covered.

Then I go to wash my hands again.

This is all before I go to bed. I told you it was long.

There are more habits and rituals that I can’t stop. When I’m going up the stairs I have to count them. If there are 13 stairs, then I have to carry on counting in my head until I get to 100. I hate all odd numbers, but especially 13. I also don’t like it

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up well when people tap me on the arm or something. I have to ‘wipe’ it off.

When I’m doing these things, it seems normal. It makes sense. It’s only when other people say that it’s not that I start to question it. But if I don’t follow through these obsessive habits, I get very anxious. So if a thought is telling me to ‘keep washing my hands’ I’ll keep doing it to ease the anxiety and feel safe, clean and protected.

me, it seems “ Tonormal.

It makes sense ”

OCD is a very secretive illness.

People who have it, often try and hide their rituals from those closest to them. I can be sat on the edge of my seat grinding my teeth wanting to clean things but I can’t because I don’t want people to realise what I’m doing.

OCD can break people apart. When I go out I convince myself that the person I’m with will leave me and run away (even if it’s my best friend). It’s really hard for friends to understand why you can’t always go out with them. Sometimes the fear is so much you can’t bring yourself to leave the house and it’s too difficult to hold your emotions in. The thoughts really do take over.

Some people overcome OCD and stop their habits, but I think that must mean they didn’t really have it in the first place. Anyway, I’ve got to go and wash my hands.

OCD-UK is the leading charity for people effected by obsessivecompulsive disorder.

For details go to: www.ocduk.org

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Gallery Dog

by Shelby Frederick

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Send your artwork to: The Bigger Shoe Box, Muswell Hill Centre, Hillfield Park N10 3 QJ Tel: 0208883 0260, Fax: 020 883 2906, Mob: 07947 884 282, Email: jon@exposure.org.uk

Gallery Ma Own Character

by David Burrell

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BY JOEL FREEMAN

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hough some of us wouldn’t like to admit it, reality TV shows are a guilty pleasure.

It’s funny to watch ‘ordinary’ members of the public humiliate themselves, or C-list celebrities desperate for fame being made to perform degrading tasks. Is it just harmless fun? You could argue that all of these people willingly volunteered to be laughed at by millions of people. If no one gets hurt, what’s wrong with exploiting them for our own enjoyment? Yes, shows like Big Brother might be twisted, but it’s human nature to enjoy other people’s discomfort; it’s entertainment. All anyone who thinks these shows are exploitative and tacky has to do is turn off the TV. Reality TV shows never take their twisted sense of humour too far. While Big Brother can lead to a housemate’s temporary fame in the

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Love Island “ Celebrity tried to get Z-list slebs to have sex

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outside world, no contestant has ever tried to commit suicide to escape the attention. Not that the companies who make these shows would care anyway. They’re too busy planning the next series or how to push contestants’ tolerance and patience to the limits. It would make a great news story if a BB housemate had a nervous breakdown, wouldn’t it?

There is never a time when there isn’t at least two or three popular reality shows on TV. Out are the sitcoms, the documentaries and the dramas, in are a bunch of reality TV shows that are becoming more ridiculous with time - Celebrity Love Island placed 10 Z-list ‘slebs’ on an island and tried

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to get them to have sex.

Nowhere is this domination more evident than in America, where reality TV is practically all they watch.

There, a disturbing new reality TV show - scarily similar to the Jim Carrey film The Truman Show debuted in June. In OurPrisoner, one man is placed in a house by himself, and, via the internet, the American public decide his whole life for six

as sadistic as “ Be you like, it makes great TV ” months: what he eats, what he wears - right down to what underwear - and who visits him - if anyone. You can be as sadistic as you like. You could wake him up 6:00 in the morning by splashing cold water over his head.

After all, it makes great TV. Shows like this are the reason why reality TV has gone too far. Watching a person suffer isn’t entertainment.

2005’s gruesome Going Cold Turkey featured heroin addicts going through detox. Irresponsible of the makers? Yes. Irresponsible of us, the viewers? Maybe. But we enjoy this sort of thing, and choose to watch it.

I’m sure the audience figures were great.

OurPrisoner won’t be the last disturbing TV show, and reality TV will continue to push the boundaries of what can and can’t be done with people. It won’t go away unless we stop watching it.

How far can reality TV go?

You decide.

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Horoscope

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Taurus

Gemini

Mar. 21 - Apr. 20

Apr. 21 - May 21

May 22 - June 21

When you come to a crossroads in life, be sure to look both ways or something unexpected may hit you when you least expect it. Like a large women wearing blue.

Be wary of those who may try to steal your thunder - they may want a lot more (like your lightning too). So give nothing away and pay no attention to their advice.

Things have been going a little too smoothly and you are due for some big changes. In fact, your life may never be the same again. The number six could decide your future.

Cancer

Leo

Virgo

June 22 - July 23

July 24 - Aug. 23

Aug. 24 - Sept. 23

Keep an eye on the skies: the clouds can tell you an awful lot if you look at them the right way, and there are some signs that you cannot afford to miss, like cumulonimbus b.

You haven’t been yourself lately and you’re in for a big shock when the reason is revealed: this whole time, you’ve been somebody else completely!

Do not listen to anybody who tries to distract you from your true calling. Be sure to follow your heart in the summer heat and things will work out just fine.

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Scorpio

Sagittarius

Sept. 24 - Oct. 23

Oct. 24 - Nov. 22

Nov. 23 - Dec. 22

Keep a healthy distance between you and strangers. The spirits work in mysterious ways and it might be better being alone than to get too close to the unknown.

Don’t squash insects scuttling down your street; fate has a way of making what goes around come around, so you risk a big boot from above if you’re careless with your feet.

Domestic animals - especially of the mechanical type - are not on your side. Be careful not to rub one up the wrong way, it could backfire in more ways than one.

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Aquarius

Pisces

Dec. 23 - Jan. 20

Jan. 21 - Feb.20

Feb. 21 - Mar. 20

Take too long about it, and the thing you’ve been waiting for will disappear, but rush in too quick and you will do something you’ll regret.

Get out of that.

You may as well give up now. Things have been going from bad to worse and... oh, alright, when you look at it like that, it’s not so bad. You’re still here, after all.

Before you take an easy option remember that they’re not always the best. Whatever you’re faced with, stay calm and focused and things should slip into place.

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BY JAMES KELLY rom drippy tags staining the walls of your local high street, to 15-foot-long colour pieces alongside train tracks, graffiti is a common sight.

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Poer is a graffiti artist from Haringey who specialises in these monster trackside artworks. Five years ago he began scratching his name into bus stops and painting shop shutters with the type of tag that gives graffiti a bad name.

“I got into graffiti because of who I was hanging around with at the time,” he says. “It seemed like the natural thing to do. I knew there was something I wanted out of life where I could be creative and test my own abilities, but I just didn’t know what it was.”

Poer became more known in London with his tag appearing in hard to reach places overnight. “The

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vandalism just came with the territory.

Although I’d never tag someone’s car or house (it wasn’t like I wanted to go and destroy London and make it look like a dump), I just found myself taking it further than most people.”

hand out £90 “ Police on-the-spot fines ” For young people who don’t know how to express themselves, and feel like they aren’t being listened to, putting their name up everywhere is a release. But recently, police have been handing out £90 on-the-spot fines and even prison sentences to the worst offenders. Poer has had runins with the law himself, racking up large fines and community service, but, when he moved to Bristol to study at university, he found his graffiti

improving. He stopped tagging the streets, and instead chose to paint colourful, complex murals.

wouldn’t “ Ijeopardise my future for a few tags at a bus stop

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“In a new city, art gave me something to relate to people with. I wouldn’t want to jeopardise my future for a few tags at a bus stop. I want to be recognised for my skills as an artist, not as a vandal. People admiring your work and showing respect is a great feeling. I want to keep painting

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exposure for as long as I can and progress even further. I wouldn’t want to paint for a living, or for my passion to become a chore, but I would like to travel, meet new writers and adapt new styles. I’m a little obsessed but graffiti loves me and I love graffiti. I will never stop. It’s about escaping from reality and pushing the boundaries.”

There’s more to graffiti than thugs running around destroying property.

Some graffiti artists are motivated by artistic desire, and they know that if they don’t have permission to tag a wall they must accept the consequences: no one is free of the law just because they have an aerosol can in their hand, whether its art or not.

To see more of Poers art visit www.myspace.com/itsthebteam

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BY CATRISE NOEL, SAM BENJAMIN, & SINEM ENGIN-MEHMET

I have one leg shorter than the other. It really gets me down. Even my friends call me a freak. I saw something on television about getting my legs lengthened from the knees. Can you tell me where and how this is possible? I don’t know what else to do about it - I’m stumped!

It must be very hard to go around with your short leg (unless you’re walking on just the right slope). Although surgery may help in the long run, even short runs must be difficult for you. As for your friends, a few witty comebacks will make them feel small, but be a bit more patient with strangers; you don’t want to get off on the wrong foot.

Ever since I had an accident where I got in the way of a lawnmower, everyone has been ignoring me. I can’t get anyone’s attention, my mum talks about me as if I’m not even there, and I’m finding it hard to pick up things - I have to concentrate a lot just to pick up a pen to write this - and my brother has moved into my room. What’s happening?

It seems you didn’t survive your encounter with that lawnmower and now you’re stuck somewhere between life and death, trapped in the astral plane.

Get some support from other people in a similar situation - find them in graveyards, haunted houses, or making spooky noises in the middle of the night - or just do your best to, er, live with it.

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My mum likes my older sister more than she likes me. I always feel like I’m in the shadow of my big sis’.

She’s more successful than me, prettier than me and always at the top of mum’s priorities. But I’m always ignored. My mum never helps me with homework and she never takes me anywhere nice. How can I get her to notice me?

Your mum likes you both the same so stop trying to compete with your sister and embrace her in filial love. You never know, she might feel the same. Remember that your mum isn’t purposefully neglecting you but, if you keep thinking that way, she probably will - after all, why would she spend time with a sulky brat?

I’m 13 years old and I haven’t ever kissed a boy. It’s really upsetting for me to see all my friends with boyfriends, and I feel like a gooseberry when I go out with them. It’s not that boys don’t like me, I just think they’re idiots. But one girl in my year’s got a baby already. Am I being left behind?

Just because some people seem to be going faster than you, don’t think you’re being left behind. Like most other people, you’re just waiting until you’re ready. Instead of thinking about being a gooseberry, think about how much your friends must like you to have asked you out with them. They must really like having you around.

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Bell to call someone.

Boi boy.

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Airtime someone ignoring you.

Allow dat don’t do that.

Arms house to fight.

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B girlfriend.

Back off bum.

Bad Mind just plain rude.

Blank see AIRTIME. Blaze to smoke a reefer.

Baffald confused.

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Boi dem police.

Boot from this camp let’s get out of this place.

Blood friend.

Brapp giving rating.

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Cat copy.

Chaka Chaka someone who looks extra ugly.

Chattin breeze chatting rubbish.

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Boid get taken for a fool.

Bless stay safe.

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N O KS C JA

1 to hang out in one place. 2 take up space.

Crease to laugh.

Creps trainers.

Cuz 1 cousin. 2 friend.

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D.Low or down low keeping it secret.

Dutty dirty.

Dutty bungle dirty person.

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Extra over the top.

Famo family.

Fresh to get rude.

Gash girl.

Galdem girls.

Gemme you understand.

Gritty disgusting.

Gunn cussing.

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Hatin jealousy.

Hold tite. bye.

Hype. over excited.

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I’m a G. I’m a gangster.

J’s by yourself.

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Lata bye.

Strap gun.

Marga skinny.

Street rat person that is on road 24/7.

Memba remember.

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Nuts mad.

One bye.

Peeps very close friends.

Peng really good looking.

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Raw 1 good.2 bad.

Ruff means ugly.

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Shank knife.

Jack to rob someone.

Sick good.

Jam your hype Calm down.

So gully looks good.

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Kick to go.

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Swag really rubbish.

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Tick sexy (for a boy).

Tings things.

Twisted mixed up.

U V W

U kool? you all right?

Vex angry.

Wats gwaning? what’s going on?

Waste man boys that are always on the street.

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Yout youngster.

Slipping slacking.

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save our souls They say boys will be boys and girls like boys, So boys take girls and play with their bodily toys.

Terrorism, bombs, and one on ones, People getting sued for stealing things from dot com.

Parents on the rebound, people getting lost and never found, People crying, people dying, weak children sinking, And everyone is thinking: Save Our Souls.

Girls acting up, trying to attract attention.

They will bunk, they don’t care about detention.

It’s just a game right now and somehow they’ll do the work later, But when they’re grown and in a flat With ten kids sitting on their lap, They’ll lie in bed every night, listening to the water from the broken tap swishing, Wondering, hoping, thinking and wishing: Save Our Souls.

So there’s helpless people, drugged up people Addicts searching everywhere and anywhere just to find that relieving needle Maybe someone’s on their way.

Maybe they’ll arrive a couple of weeks or years from today.

Maybe there is a one person that has the ability to save Every single needy person in the population.

Until then everyone will be waiting For someone, anyone, to Save Our Souls.

BY CATRISE NOEL

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Directory YOUTH CLUBS Muswell Hill Youth Centre Hillfield Park, Muswell Hill 020 8883 5855 Bruce Grove Youth Project 10 Bruce Grove, Tottenham 020 8808 1604 Wood Green Area Youth Project New River Sports Complex, White Hart Lane 020 8489 8940 / 020 8489 8942 SEXUAL HEALTH 4YP Haringey Tuesday 2.30-4.30pm St Ann’s Sexual Health Centre, St Ann’s Hospital, St Ann’s Road Tottenham N15 3TH 020 8442 6605/6536 4YP Drop-in Sessions: Northumberland Park Monday 3.30-6.30pm Aspire Youth Project, Kenneth Robins House, 240 Northumberland Park Rd, N17 0BX. Wood Green Wednesday 3.30-6.30pm Sky City Community Centre, (Wood Green Shopping City), 65 Penwortham Court, 50 Mayes Road, Wood Green, N22 6SR. 4YP Bus 0800 1613 715 www.4yp.co.uk Young Mums To Be Alexandra Court 122-124 High Road Wood Green 020 8889 0022

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