Isabelle Jia

Being a second-generation Asian-American, my life is a collection of works in progress. Modeling and creative writing have become outlets for the fiery Chinese girl I buried within me long ago. She motivates me to create art because it allows me to express myself in ways I cannot outrightly say in a white-dominated society. She’s enabled me to grow into someone I’m proud to be.

Although I am still finding love in the person I am today, I didn’t always feel so prideful of my heritage. I used to dream of being reborn into a white family because life would be so much easier with privilege and worth. It’s been difficult finding a sense of belonging in the repressive environment that is America. I have realized the importance of staying grounded in my Asian heritage because it will always be an aspect of my identity, whether I like it or not. It’s taken me a while to get to the mindset I currently have, but now I want to develop fluency in Mandarin, learn more about Chinese rituals and values, and the experiences my parents had as immigrants.

I’ve learned the pretty ways to write about immigrants. It starts with unclenching the raven-haired girl, laying her on the pavement, and watching as she folds into herself. Let the air turn red. Consider what it would take to feel released—there it is, freedom like an ever-entwined knot in the sky. Consider what it would take to feel free—there it is, release like an unraveling knot.”

- ISABELLE JIA