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‫ﺍﻟﺤﻠﻘﺔ ﺍﻻﻭﻟﻲ‬ ‫ﻗﺎﻟﺖ ﺳﺎﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺍﺣﺘﻀﻨﺖ ﻳﺤﻴﻰ ﺑﻘﻮﺓ ﻭﻧﺤﻦ ﻋﺎﺋﺪﻭﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻨﺰﻟﻨﺎ ﻭﻛﺄﻧّـﻨﻲ ﺃﺧﺎﻑ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻐﻴﺐ ﻋﻦ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ﻭﺍﺣﺪﺓ ‪..‬‬ ‫ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻤﺤﺎﻭﻻﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﻤﻠﻪ ﺃﺣﺪ ﺑﺪﻻ ً ﻣﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻴﺎﺭﺓ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺧﺎﻑ ﻟﻮ ﺗﺮﻛﺘﻪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺘﺴﻠﻞ ﻭﻳﺪﺧﻞ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﺩﺍﺧﻞ ﺭﺣﻤﻲ ﻣﺮﺓ ﺃﺧﺮﻯ‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻌﺪﻩ ﻋﻦ ﺃﺣﻀﺎﻧﻲ ﻟﺤﻈﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻋﻨﺪﻣﺎ ﻁﻠﺒﺖ ﺍﻟﻤﻤﺮﺿﺔ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﺩﻋﻪ ﺣﺠﺮﺓ ﺍﻷﻁﻔﺎﻝ ﻛﻲ‬ ‫ﺃﺳﺘﺮﻳﺢ ﻣﻦ ﺇﺭﻫﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﻮﻻﺩﺓ ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﺑﺈﺻﺮﺍﺭ ﻭﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻗﺘﻠﻬﺎ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﺣﺘﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﺎﻡ ﻓﻰ ﺳﺮﻳﺮﻩ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﻴﺮ‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻﺮﻳﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻨﺎﻡ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻓﺴﺤﺖ ﻟﻪ ﻣﻜﺎﻧًﺎ ﻟﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻠﺘﺼﻘﺎ ﺑﻲ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻦ‬ ‫!!ﻳﻨﺎﻡ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭ ﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﻷﻳﺎﻡ ﻭﺷﻬﻮﺭ؟! ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﺳﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﻓﺮﺍﻗﻪ ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﺃﺣﺒﻪ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﺍﻩ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ؟‬ ‫ﻣﻪ ﺑﺄﻗﻮﻝ ﻛﺪﻩ؟‬ ‫ﺃﺟﻤﻞ ﻁﻔﻞ ﺭﺃﺗﻪ ﻋﻴﻨﻲ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻻ ّ ﻷﻧﻲ ﺃ ّ‬ ‫ﻣﻪ؟! ﺳﺒﺤﺎﻥ ﷲ ‪ ..‬ﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﺤﻮﻟﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺷﻬﻮﺭ ﻗﻠﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺘﺎﺓ ﺑﺮﻳﺌﺔ ﺗﺴﺘﻄﻴﻊ ﺣﺸﻮ ﺍﻟﻌﺎﻟﻢ ﻓﻰ‬ ‫ﺃ ّ‬ ‫ﺟﻴﻮﺑﻬﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻠﻤﻊ ﻋﻴﻮﻧﻬﺎ ﺑﺎﻟﺤﻴﻮﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻹﻧﺪﻓﺎﻉ ﻭﺍﻟﺠﻨﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻡ ﻫﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﻋﺎﻗﻠﺔ ﺗﺨﺸﻰ ﻣﻦ ﻧﺴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍء‬ ‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﺼﻴﺐ ﻭﻟﺪﻫﺎ؟ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺗﻮﺍﻓﻖ ﺑﻼ ﺗﺮﺩﺩ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻤﻮﺕ ﻫﻲ ﻭﻻ ﻳﺨﺪﺵ ﺇﺻﺒﻊ ﻭﻟﻴﺪﻫﺎ؟ ‪ ..‬ﺳﺒﺤﺎﻥ ﷲ ‪ ..‬ﻻ‬ ‫ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺍﻷﻧﺜﻰ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺟﺔ ﺑﻤﻞء ﺇﺭﺍﺩﺗﻬﺎ ‪ ..‬ﺑﻞ ﻻﺑﺪ ﻣﻦ ﻏﺮﻳﺰﺓ ﺭﺑﺎﻧﻴﺔ ﺗﻐﺰﻭ ﻗﻠﺒﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺑﻌﺸﻖ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻄﻔﻞ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮﺍﻩ‪ ،‬ﻛﻲ ﺗﻘﺒﻞ ﻛﻞ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻷﻟﻢ ﻭﺍﻹﺭﻫﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻳﺸﺐ ﻭﻟﻴﺪﻫﺎ ﺭﺟﻼ ً ‪ ..‬ﻳﺎ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﷲ ‪ ..‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻓﻰ ﻋﺸﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﺮﺃﺓ ﻷﻁﻔﺎﻟﻬﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﷲ ﺛﺎﻟﺜﻬﻤﺎ‬ ‫‪:‬ﻗـﺎﻝ ﻋﻤـﺮ‬ ‫ﻭﷲ ﻭﺑﻘﻴﺖ ﺃﺏ ﻳﺎ ﻋﻢ ﻋﻤﺮ ‪ ..‬ﺇﻳﻪ ﺩﻩ ﺇﺯﺍﻱ ﻳﻌﻨﻲ؟ ‪ ..‬ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﻔﺮﻭﺽ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ ﺇﻳﻪ؟‬ ‫ﻻ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺑﺠﺪ ﻟﺴﻪ ﻣﺘﻠﺨﺒﻂ ﻭﺣﺎﺳﺲ ﺇﻧﻲ ﺇﺗﺎﺧﺪﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﻮﺍﻧﺔ ﻳﺎ ﺭﺟﺎﻟﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻳﻌﻨﻰ ﻧﺨﺮﺝ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺖ‬ ‫ﺇﺗﻨﻴﻦ ﻭﻧﺮﺟﻊ ﺗﻼﺗﺔ؟ ‪ ..‬ﺑﺲ ﺑﺮﺿﻪ ﺡ ﺃﻁﻴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺣﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻛﻞ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺑﺺ ﻟﻴﺤﻴﻰ ﺃﺷﻮﻓﻪ ﻣﻼﻙ ﺟﻤﻴﻞ‬ ‫ﻧﺎﺋﻢ ﻓﻰ ﺃﺣﻀﺎﻥ ﺃﻣﻪ ﺍﻟﺘﻲ ﺗﺮﻓﺾ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﻤﻠﻪ ﻏﻴﺮﻫﺎ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻧﺎﻗﺺ ﺗﺪﻳﻬﻮﻟﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺮﺽ ﺣﺎﻝ ﺩﻣﻐﺔ ‪..‬‬ ‫ﺑﺲ ﺑﺠﺪ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻣﻨﻬﺎ ﻭﺷﻔﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﺩﻩ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻻ ﻳﻤﻜﻦ ﺃﺧﻠﻰ ﺣﺪ ﻳﻠﻤﺴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺍﻟﺤﻤﺪ ہﻠﻟ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻷﻡ ﻫﻰ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺑﺘﻮﻟﺪ ﻣﺶ ﺍﻷﺏ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻛﻔﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺾ ﻭﺍﻟﺨﺮﺑﺸﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺷﻔﺘﻬﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺳﺎﺭﺓ ﻓﻰ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻮﻻﺩﺓ ‪..‬ﻭﺍﻟﻤﺸﻜﻠﺔ ﺍﻧﻰ ﻣﺶ ﻋﺎﺭﻑ ﺃﺷﻴﻠﻪ ﺧﺎﻟﺺ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺣﺎﺳﺲ ﺇﻧﻲ ﺑﺄﺷﻴﻞ ﻗﻄﻌﺔ ﻛﺮﻳﺴﺘﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻲ؛ ﺳﺎﺭﺓ ﻭﺃﻣﻲ ﻭﺣﻤﺎﺗﻲ ﺑﺄﻟﻒ ﺗﺤﺬﻳﺮ‪ :‬ﺣﺎﺳﺐ‬ ‫ﺳﺘﻨﻜﺴﺮ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ ﺧﺎﻁﺌﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻞ ﻳﺼﺮﺥ ﻓ ّ‬ ‫ﺣﺘﻠﻮﺡ ﺭﻗﺒﺘﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺣﻂ ﺍﻳﺪﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻅﻬﺮﻩ ‪ ..‬ﻣﺎ ﺗﺒﻮﺳﻮﺵ ﺟﺎﻣﺪ ‪ ..‬ﺩﻗﻨﻚ ﺡ ﺗﺸﻮﻛﻪ ‪ ..‬ﺣﺘﻰ ﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺃﺗﻔﺮﺝ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺫﺭﺍﻉ ﺃﻣﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻳﻌﻨﻲ ﻟﻮ ﺳﻤﺤﺘﻠﻲ ‪ ..‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺇﻥ ﺃﻧﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺩﻓﻌﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺘﻜﺎﻟﻴﻒ ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻰ ﻭﺧﻼﻓﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻛﻤﺎﻥ ﺇﻛﺘﺸﻔﺖ ﺇﻥ ﻋﺒﺎﺭﺓ‪ :‬ﺃﻟﻒ ﻣﺒﺮﻭﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺟﺎﺑﻠﻚ ﻳﺨﻠﻴﻠﻚ ‪ ..‬ﻣﻌﻨﺎﻫﺎ‪:‬‬ ‫ﺇﺩﻓﻊ ﻳﺎﺳﻴﺪﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺳﻜﺎﺕ ‪ ..‬ﺳﻤﻌﺘﻬﺎ ﺃﻟﻒ ﻣﺮﺓ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﻤﻤﺮﺿﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﺘﺸﻔﻰ ﺣﺘﻰ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﺗﻮﺳﻠﺖ ﻟﻬﻢ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺮﺟﻊ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺖ ﻓﻮﺭﺭﺭﺭﺭﺭًﺍ‬ ‫‪:‬ﻗــﺎﻟﺖ ﺳــﺎﺭﺓ‬ ‫ﺁﻩ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺍﺿﺢ ﺇﻥ ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻤﺴﻜﻦ ﺣﻴﺒﺪﺃ ﻳﺮﻭﺡ ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑﺄﻥ ‪ 10‬ﻓﺘّﻮﺍﺕ ﺇﺩﻭﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻘﺔ ﺟﺎﻣﺪﺓ ﺟﺪًﺍ ‪ ..‬ﺃﻭ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﺇﻧﻲ ﻣﺸﻴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﻁﻨﻄﺎ ﻷﺳﻮﺍﻥ ‪ ..‬ﺁﻻﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺟﺴﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺇﻻ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺖ ﺗﺤﻀﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﻄﻌﺎﻡ ﻭﺃﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺒﻴﺖ ﻷﻣﻲ ﻭﺣﻤﺎﺗﻲ ﻭﺃﺧﺬﺕ ﻳﺤﻴﻰ ﺑﺠﻮﺍﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻛﺎﺩ ﺃﺗﻔﺘﺖ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺐ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺍﺳﺘﻐﺮﻗﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻨﻮﻡ ﻓﻲ ﻟﺤﻈﺎﺕ ﻣﻌﺪﻭﺩﺓ‪ ......‬ﺇﻳﻪ ﺩﻩ ﻫﻮ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻟﺤﻘﺖ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ؟ ﺩﻩ ﺃﻧﺎ ﻣﺎ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﻛﻤﻠﺘﺶ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺳﺎﻋﺔ؟ ﺩﻩ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻗﻄﺔ ﺩﻩ ﻭﻻ ﺇﻳﻪ؟‪ ..‬ﻣﻴﻦ ﺩﻩ؟‪ ..‬ﺁﺁﺁﺁﺁﻩ ﺩﻩ ﻳﺤﻴﻰ‬ ‫ﺇﻳﻪ ﻳﺎ ﺣﺒﻴﺒﻲ ﺑﺲ ﷲ ﻳﻬﺪﻳﻚ ﺑﺘﻌﻴﻂ ﻟﻴﻪ؟ ‪ ..‬ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﻭﻟﻮ ﺳﺎﻋﺘﻴﻦ ‪ ..‬ﺑﺠﺪ ﺡ ﺃﻣﻮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺘﻌﺐ ‪..‬‬ ‫ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﺍﺍﺍﺍﺍﺍﺍﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﻟﺤﻘﻴﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﻤﻞ ﺇﻳﻪ؟‬ ‫ﻭﺟﺎءﺕ ﺃﻣﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺮﺍﺧﻲ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻀﺤﻚ ﻭﺗﻘﻮﻝ‪ :‬ﻋﻠﺸﺎﻥ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻲ ﺍﻟُﻐﻠﺐ ﺍﻟﻠﻲ ﺍﻧﺘﻲ ﻭﺭﻳﺘﻬﻮﻟﻲ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﻭﺍﻧﺘﻲ ﺻﻐﻴﺮﺓ‬ ‫ﻓﺮﺩﺩﺕ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻛﺎﺩ ﺃﺑﻜﻲ‪ :‬ﻁﻴﺐ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﺧﺪﻳﻪ ﺩﻟﻮﻗﺘﻰ ﻋﻠﺸﺎﻥ ﺃﻧﺎﻡ ﻭﺍﺩﻳﻠﻪ ﺭﺿﻌﺔ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﺎ ﺃﺻﺤﻰ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﺡ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻞ ﺣﺎﺟﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻁﻮﻝ‬ ‫ﻲ‪ :‬ﺑﻼﺵ ﺩﻟﻊ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﻣﻲ ﺭﺿﻌﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻟﺪ‪ ،‬ﺩﻩ ﻣﻴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻮﻉ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﺭﻓﻀﺖ ﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﺑﺈﺻﺮﺍﺭ ﻭﺭﺩﺕ ﻋﻠ ّ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﻓﺮﺩﺩﺕ ﺑﺘﻌﺠﺐ‪ :‬ﺃﺭﺿﻌﻪ؟! ‪ ..‬ﺇﺯﺍﻱ؟ ﻣﻔﻴﺶ ﻟﺒﻦ ﻟﺴﻪ ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﻻ ﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﺶ ‪ ..‬ﺃﺗﻜﺴﻒ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻣﺎ‬ ‫ﻓﺮﺩﺕ ﻭﻫﻰ ﺗﻜﺎﺩ ﺗﻀﺮﺑﻨﻲ‪ :‬ﺗﺘﻜﺴﻔﻲ ﻣﻦ ﺇﻳﻪ ﻳﺎﻣﺠﻨﻮﻧﺔ ﺍﻧﺘﻲ؟ ‪ ..‬ﻳﺎﻻ ّ ﺍﻟﻮﻟﺪ ﺡ ﻳﻤﻮﺕ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻟﺠﻮﻉ ‪..‬‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪﻳﻦ ﻫﻮ ﻟﻤﺎ ﻳﺮﺿﻊ ﻳﺎ ﺣﺒﻴﺒﺘﻲ ﺭﺑﻨﺎ ﺣﻴﺒﻌﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺭﺯﻗﻪ ﻭﺣﻴﻴﺠﻲ ﺍﻟﻠﺒﻦ ‪ ..‬ﻳﺎﻻ ﺑﻼﺵ ﺩﻟﻊ‬ ‫‪ ..‬ﻗﻠﺖ ﺑﺎﺳﺘﺴﻼﻡ‪ :‬ﻁﻴﺐ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻣﺎ ‪ ..‬ﻣﻦ ﻓﻀﻠﻚ ﺃﺧﺮﺟﻲ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺣﺎﺭﺿﻌﻪ‬ ‫ﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﻤﺘﻪ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﺑﺄﻳﺪﻱ ﻣﺮﺗﺠﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﺃﺗﻮﻗﻊ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺧﺮﺟﺖ ﻣﺎﻣﺎ ﻭﺗﺮﻛﺘﻨﻲ ﻣﻊ ﻳﺤﻴﻰ ‪ ..‬ﺿﻤﻤﺘﻪ ﺇﻟ ّ‬ ‫ﻳﺮﻓﻀﻪ ﺃﻭ ﺍﻻ ّ ﻳﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻴﻒ ﻳﺮﺿﻊ ‪ ..‬ﻭﻳﺎ ﻟﻠﻌﺠﺐ ﻛﺄﻧﻪ ﻏﺮﻳﻖ ﻭﺟﺪ ﻗﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻟﻨﺠﺎﺓ ‪ ..‬ﻭﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻳﺤﺮﻙ ﺷﻔﺘﻴﻪ‬


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