A young girls diary 1921 1000629050

DIARY

GIRL'S YOUNG A

A

Girl's

Young

Prefaced

with

Letter

a

Translated

THOMAS

by

Freud

Sigmund

Eden

Diary

by

and

Cedar

New

York SELTZER 1921

Paul

1921,

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THOMAS

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in

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PAGE

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73 .

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In

EDITOR.

FIRST

AGE

ELEVEN

YEAR

TO

TWELVE

FIRST

July

Hella

12, 19 .

We

both

we

would

diary too, but

are

little

lot of

diary.

until

after

away,

we

what

been

have

we

The

it

examination, 1 mistake

said

that

is

didn't

it.

in

h

sisters have for

or a

we

July of

her

going lessons

the

for

We

and

But

tell

14th. Hella to

a

and

class-room.

we

are

be

would

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has

with

rose-

we

were

nice

very

have

to

That

ihn

believed

was

very

really

school. could

that

white

in

mistress

slip.

a

enough

made

a

to

friend,

everything.

mistress I

I

The

made

everyone

another

middle

began

h.

it's still nicer

one

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only

It

know

entrance

an

dictation

without

dressed

cousins.

going

shall

we

in

well

both

were

cousin. can

know

I

least

at

I had

matter,

ribbons,

coloured

ihn

both

had

we

easy,

writing

"

quite true,

an

very

writing

holidays.

yesterday

was

a

Lizzi's.

are

Then the

in

such

begin

to we

ought

write and

hers

since

now.

doing

before

day

only

but

says

Hella)

will

not

were

we

holidays,

in

herself

She

and

they

and

Helene

"Dora."

a

I call

it.

calling

to

me

than

beginning

are

her

says

more

Really

the

taken

means

She

No

13th.

has

school

keeps

at

"Rita;"

me

calling

(she

Dora

I look

if

calls

Dora on

go

nonsense.

July

she

children a

diary.

a

high

the

to

day.

every

furious

gets and

I

keep

to

not

she

but

writing

are

went

we

diary

vulgar.

so

"Thea,"

when

a

"Hella,"

Grete

that

that

write

I

and

.

.

agreed

Helene

YEAR

sorry

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have we're li

had

that every

a

awfully

Because

kind.

talk

we

day with

pleased

are

not

before her because

in

A

12 other

of the

school.

sister says

of

two

students"

She

told

said

15th.

each

of

Hella

often

beast

nice

to her

class and

To-morrow

we

I'm

Her

Lizzi.

July in the no

It's

Dora

her

to

such

are

things.

I'm

of the

Father

not

front

too ! ! )

because

verandas

of flies.

going veranda.

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are

are

swarms

common

her, what the

child

a

than

we

are.

is in

She

now.

first.

to-day

away

with

Tyrol.

in

her

to

and

mother

hard is

to

in

front

horrid

of

little

I do

hate

I won't

have

quite right. fourteen

in

She

house

the

flies;everything

it.

such driven

being

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(Children puts

October.

property,"

in

straight

flies and

with

put up

house

veranda

back

the

has

one

big

a

day

every

and

new

so

living the

write

to

quarrel,children!" be

in

way

been

Kaltenbach

aunt

very

manoeuvres.

bagged

with

said:

her

We

is

gave

little ones"

one

went

writing. At

own

is black

airs

and at

she

generally

never

she

horrid

so

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"the

in the

awfully

write.

to

off for

out

had

holidays. Everything

forest.

there

is

not

funny as

Hella

uncle

father

19th.

time

the

her

to

us

as

are

frightfullyexcited.

Hungary

I shall.

don't know

littler

going

are

away.

To-day

it is very

same

we

came

country.

sister is

much

just the

fourth

the

"You

a

we

chocolate-creams.

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we're

when

nice!

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indeed

not

sister,is

so

rage.

a

"Our

from

me:

be.

such

true).

always speaks of children," as if she

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in

middle

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to

my

mistress

always

can

herself,and

to

the

to

only

one

pride" (that's what

she

"the

the

of

girls are

with

least ten

me."

which or

is

says

she

to

instead

the

when

important

more

Lizzi, Hella's at

us

DIARY

Hella, but it is

write

to

us

is

why

and

me

Dora, she

as

a

is

bursting

are

July

One

school

high

That

"They

GIRL'S

girls.

the

to

goes

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said

on

such "The

Father.

FIRST Father's

it

always

over

Dora. to

such

Hella

21st.

her!

perhaps

would

I

rather

Father

he'll let

me

it

she

shall

to

go

said:

I

anything

off

come

word.

like,but

for

go

22nd.

Hella

to write

when and

she'll let

written

blew

pages

tear

the

arbour.

that

they

me

go.

I must

We

But

nothing

away One

should

we?

pretty friend

wanted

to

go

if into

savagely, saying

belonged

the front

veranda

Yesterday

one

the

in

the

and

tell

can

couldn't. arbour

do

a

wTe

were

all

not one

Hella have

anything up. friend everything. tear

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as

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to

another

Yesterday when Dora glared at

you

her, just

does

to

not

veranda

promised

not

cleaned

I had

that

loose pages.

one

have

we

to be

front

on

then

day Yester-

time.

no

had

room

all for herself.

afternoon

a

.

has

write

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positivelymust promise and we

Before

and

out.

.

One

it's better because

throw

arbour

.

to write

away.

anything

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"yes"

say

I.

day.

the

I

keep

must

one

single word

a

thinks

in

was

that

It's awful.

I wanted

D.

my

wTon't

do really lets me Still,if I practise

Mother.

wrote

every

23 rd.

July

for

day,

every

swore

We'll

walk.

a

July write

I

means

say

can't say

Father

not

that

Mother

one

August

paying long

and

they

do

think

I

I like

and

but

in

her.

see,"

Father

not

here

come

and

I should

what

her.

piano regularly perhaps

my

written

not

4 pages,

me,

stay with

Yes;

their

kept

will

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go.

to

know

stay with

to

if it does

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I don't

really means

that

written

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go

visits.

to

has

jolly letter.

a

without

so

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to-day.

of

favourite

a

yet.

July

see

makes

lord

Dora

"ets

never

often Hella

writing to

I'm

me

or

Mother

13

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just.

so

but

me,

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the

As

wanted too

if to

I me

the

bag

sickening.

Kolber-Kogel.

YOUNG

A

14 It

Father

lovely.

was

pelted

another

one

I threw

such

out

feel it there.

As

and

she

I

I

said

true.

was

writes

about

in her

diary.

it hit her

she

by

said

should

Mother

to

bust.

couldn't

You

It doesn't

and

to

know

Erika

and

what

out

of sorts

was

like

we

jolly.

was

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me

and

padded

loud

understood

day

every

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her

on

I said out

she went

matter, for I know

awfully jolly

pine-cones.

yelland

a

DIARY

was

with

at Dora

one

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GIRL'S

that

what

what

writes

she

and

she

stayed

at

home.

July 24th.

To-day is Sunday.

Father

says:

That's

quite

times.

You

The

those

white

our

gay,

have

I

when

knew

know

with me;

July She

is

Every But

not

We

on

Dora.

made

cherries.

So

does

not

like

to

it

great

because

this afternoon

wear

pink

my

dressed

be

why

see

Let

sisters.

are

a

but

purpose,

I don't

wearing

are

I have

fallen

we

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is

pleased. on

other

children

and

out

as

that

at

everyone

people think

we

wish

either; I

I

why.

Oswald

to

same

cousins.

are

I

go

not

wives

theatre.

to-day, and some

the

exactly the

their

walking I must better,for I don't care

we

All

holidays,but

the

mine,

upon

Sundays. Sundays every day.

have

and

in

dresses

I sat down

should

the

love

wearing Tyrolese dresses,just like

seen

cherrystainupon

dress.

in

true

peasants

all very

are

children

I do

He

coming

in

is older

than

Hella

writes

him. so

do

staying

I at

afternoon it has

forgot to bring read

all

week, and Dora, that

but

she

I

I

can

finds

awfully

am

always get it dull

out with-

I.

25th.

to-day

a

day.

to

wrote

Achensee. we

bathe

Fraulein I should and

then

been

raining

my

paint-box

Mother

says,

all

Priickl

like to go

day.

and

if you

I'm

for Such not

gobble

to-day. see

her. walk.

a a

bore.

allowed all your

books

you'llhave

now

up

I can't

but

quite true, Afternoon.

with

frightfulrow her

with

if her

As

left her

letter to

all I read

She

could

who

I've been

says

because

lying

she's

on

handsome

as

''he"

as

for

was

she

probably Krail Rudi, everlastingly playing tennis and

is

handsome

for

As

anything.

in at that she

whom

with

carries

well,

"

fiddling untidy.

so

came

It's

moment.

a

Yesterday she the table, and Greek god. a

me.

about

had

I've

more.

interest

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swing.

some

It's all

He's

know

I don't

write

Erika

was:

and

go

Dora.

things. things

left to read.

nothing

even

I must

15

YEAR

FIRST

like

on

there's

counting ac-

no

for tastes.

July

26th.

It's

it

Of

rainy days. dolls,but even

on

with

them

cut

out

me

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I

When

she

that

I made

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I'm

she'll go

a

so

know

and

she to call and

me on

to

with

but I

Mother.

child. her

it.

really did Let

She's

got

right hand

her. a

her

dolls.

with

dolls.

longer.

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vigorously

so

that

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why

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always

says

no

I

close.

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is

so

hope she'll

course

right

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has

scratch

how, any-

can

see.

everyone

appetite for

Fruit

said:

and

There's such lot of fruit a July 27th. eat raspberriesand gooseberries all day and says

and

for

fine red

where

so.

room

hand,

too

came

you

it

the

dolls

her

on

doing

tacking

was

I sewed

me

enjoy

played

never

great scratch

why

sneak

had

beside

sorry,

I

sewing things

is

one

I do

into

came

really play

down

sat

while

play dolls'

make

can

and

things

is

if she

don't

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Dora

child

said

I'm

old to

too

something

some

Then

together.

much

something

I've finished

when

Mother

learns

I

I'm

course

though

clothes still. One

it,and

said:

Mother

portmanteau.

brought my dolls' You'll be glad to have

good thing

a

Mother

dinner.

wholesome.

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here.

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16

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why

always

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make

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has

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written

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to

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schulerin."

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said

else,and

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in the

that

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who

gooseberries is

address

had

Dora

course

reward what

mine

not

Fraulein

Hella.

Grete

We

know

to

sacrifice to

temper

a

they

to eat

all this

me.

and

like

gets

one

says:

it's the

splendid,"Fraulein

was

anyone

should

written

I've

mother

children

I think

make.

it until

gets in such

her

our

I

allowed

not

am

Mother's.

to

for

the sacrifices.

and

then

ingratitude. they

about

often

Hella

anything awfully

likes

scolded

and

once?

all at

one

Hella

sacrifices

sacrifices make

of it.

mother,

with

us

when

always

perfectlysick with

unwholesome

that

says

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GIRL'S

her

on

letter

Lainer, Lyzealknow

better

higher

than

classes

from

upwards (because she is in the fourth) "Anyhow, in the they write "Lyzeistin." She said: holidays, before a girl has attended the first class Father she's not a Lyzealschulerin at all." Then chipped in, saying that we (I didn't begin it) really

the

fourth

eternal

stop this

must

it.

stand

not

quite right,but

He's

do any good, for Dora Priickl wrote that Fraulein

will go

won't

had

written. write

to

The

I shall

write

as

Warths

whole

day

have

day.

We

of

round

games

47, and more

I gave

than

a

her

on

said

he

just the

same.

I

delightedthat

time

she

wants

me

Scott, I've always time again this evening after

arrived, and

Erna

had

all

I have

Great to

was

what

to

I

with

she

really could

keep her waiting. simply could not write

not

29th.

July

as

again.

so

supper,

soon

her

to

for her.

As

he

wrangling;

a

and

and

had

Liesel,although

to Dora.

taller than

we

Robert are,

I

the

spend

to

it rained

They know ripping time. we played for sweets.

five of them

head

I

yesterday.

is mean

a

I

lot won

already than

had

write

I must

Now

the Warths

the

for

but

to

pick

some

and

some

had

in

of Robert.

don't

that

Father

And

true.

fit

you're as Last

wax.

was

take

and

August

is

tea

sit beside

one

quite did

I

Father

to

which

we

instead

Erna

is

frightfullyinteresting,but

I

it

Mother

says

is

always

that

is not

Dora

means.

of

course

talk such

"Don't

stuff,

always

says

fiddle."

puts her in such a really anemic, so the doctor

Lizzi

was

That

always having palpitationand had to I think that's where drink Burgundy. Hella

told her

I should

have

not

country

doesn't

put

doesn't

like

there.

seeing the way

a

But them

but

cousin one once.

I do.

I

have Of

of the not

and

course

she

Sernigs and

Yesterday

to

she

Anyhow I

too, but

that

was

why

anything

written

get

year

understand know

does

she about

certainly that does

know

she met

know

or

Every

her.

friend

doesn't

she

good. does

told

I can't

out.

day

friend

only

really my

and

because

me

spent the whole

I had is

with

cross

another

has

Robert;

except what

for he is

that

written

she

me

nothing

is rather

Still,she

W's.

the

the

1st.

and

I wrote

was

for

got the idea.

Dora

him

a

year

said, she iron

as

afternoon

anemic, but

is

she

for

she

what

know

quite

saying

sounds

that

anemic;

them

dull.

is rather

Erna

pick

pick them

of

to

me,

to

Besides,

one.

most

At

I had

Flischberg

for

had

who rather

for

gave

Mother.

to

of them

picks them said) then one

picked

myself and

best

berries. straw-

else

Robert

them

lot of wild

Dora

one

some

a

I would

Really

when

have

glad

in

of

(that'swhat

love

with

all the

great annoyance

myself,

in

such

are

to-day. We've Tiefengraben with

about

were

picked

for herself.

them

We

there

where Robert

to

word

a

splendid time.

a

DIARY

GIRL'S

YOUNG

A

18

a

not

with

him

person know the

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tickling.

to talk we

give

passed 2 gentlemen

it.

won

happen again.

tea, he

father

am

why

you

hotel, and

a

there

to

I say,

goodness it's all

let that

castigationbusiness. I

in

I

pressed Mother's

great hurry:

but

spilland

a

Have

to

he's offended.

castigationmeant

but

not

I think

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I said

have

I

of

heel

anything.

delight?

anything

a

writing

the

said:

rude of castigation." How know what castigationmeant.

he

word. one

R.

said:

in

the

into

read

her

like

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31st.

rolled

Father

remind

I won't

and

hours

and

conspiracy against

now

thing. every-

it with

on

with

house

own

and

August and

a

know

footpath quite torn.

lottery?and

I said

our

laughed

the to

the rain

had

one

supper

laughed

And

in

not

in

there's

me

no

at

nothing

of the shelter

In front

been

had

shining

are

!

trodden

2 pages

partly burned. so happy. And

say

Still 3

in the

was

have

and

needn't

dear.

goodness pulped by

page

must

to

me

kissed

still there.

are

Thank

Evening.

for she a

and

laughing

out

promised

diary

the pages

perhaps

burst

and

the

Mother

to

She

cheeks

about

Inspee

to

DIARY

GIRL'S

YOUNG

A

28

to

gone that

fibbing to Father, that R.

wanted

to

give

me

tells

Dora

meant.

lot

a

didn't

I

castigation when

a

29

YEAR

FIRST

I do

lies than

more

it

what

know

and

I

catching her in a lie for her lies are so I'm never obvious. caught. It only happened once Father there. Oberst when Frau von Stary was always

love

noticed

that

little rogue,

You

time, for he said:

you

tarradiddler! 3rd.

September shall

I

Such

speak

never

right in calling him of the swing I might have

we

it all

happened.

tickle

me

think

it

was

actually dared for

what

with

him

from

his

being

boys

in the

one

of

but

Satisfactory in

fifth

yet, but

settled

last secret

my

last

R.

once

few or

asked

Warths

and

R.,

off. Of

impossible to fault

aloud.

with

course

and

seems

he

my

in

not

the

we've

shall

I

be

anything

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devil.

be

to

never

he's

fourth.

was

first and

never

hope

I

Hella.

going home been awfully

to-morrow.

are

have

but

so

Fine

babies.

15

the

We

what

company

yet. It

Cheeky

days

twice

Father

broken

from

paid out,

himself

in

will

he

14

reports, and

it,it

6th.

September The

only

about

tell anyone

keeps

his

accounts.

our

one

school,

I

Then

well

such

to

kick.

a

all I'm

with

he's not

when

idlest

the

After

him

of

mouth.

his

or

monkeys,

about

humbug

all

nose

how

out

such

him

expect when

young

make

I can't

I gave

say:

one

can

such

talk

to

really fallen out leg 4 days before

my

is

frightful cheek

was

his

on

If I had

home.

It

quite

Oswald

broken

have

did, and

he

as

cad.

a

happened.

has

thing

again.

R.

to

from

start

to

horrid

a

I

always

that

our

I had

I

saw

way.

and

me

great friendship had to

fib,for

truth.

tell the

other

the

between

wrong

was

everything

looked

I

dull.

did,

(That's quite true,

I my

he

said

R.

that

that

been

absolutely

it was

writing, my did

the

found

reading

once)

and

Father

said:

I'll

speak a word birthday, although

is to have

a

the colour

suits

to

wear

yesterday. I'm

so

R.

have

14th.

we

at

him.

dustcloak

Hella

day

splendid

and

she

says

was

very

him

2

"baby"

happen 17th.

but

to meet

him,

Inspee

has

think

I

didn't

the

only

tried

it

know

to

doesn't

could

she such

Hella

about

But

September we

have

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on

they

Hella

School

21st.

agreed

School] and not School. September 22nd, 19 to

peached

fetch on

us

and

me

to

we

.

went

whether

yet?

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had

we

had I

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care

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to-morrow.

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=

the

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frightfullycurious.

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came

begins I'm

really

only making lady. grown-up

they only one

call it Liz

to

or

five

bragged frightfully

said

is the

least

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cloak

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at

on

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he's a

14

not

of them

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girls were

invited

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girls.

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the country 9

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talk.

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making

afternoon

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her

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times

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for the

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and

before

all I told her

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angry

has

course

thin

too

the

beautifully. She

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think

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fitted

fun.

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that she's back.

silly. Still,I

is

you

take. great mis-

a

she's much

anyhow

glad

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he

when

again.

it's not

looks

should

wants

him

to

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given

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makes

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for the

one

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dustcloak.

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about

blue

navy

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Father

to-morrow.

never

her

For

DIARY

Well, well,you'll make

goodbye

say

GIRL'S

YOUNG

A

30

began to-day.

Hella

along together. Inspee

Mother, saying

we

ran

on

in front

FIRST of

her.

are

34

We of

don't

Doktor,

2

drawing

mistress

German

and

3rd

what

till

books

go

and

The

and

I usen't

only

asked

even

to

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to leave

the

teaches

said

to

with

such

sister.

learning

the

told them

and ones

that

says

girls went

out,

lesson

during

time.

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know

2

school

elementary

lessons.

to

are

Then

what.

Dr.

French

dressed,

if

of

nice

and

and

a

I don't

pencil case; it shan't

if

have

Madame

lace.

it's

she

Arnau,

Hella

has

quite soft, we

make

a

row

to

are

we

when

head

a

must

elder

as

mistress we're

say,

much

don't

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not

Mallburg

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shall

gold stopping.

know

fill her

I

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and

every

and

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angry

I can't

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myself.

could

worth

from

history.

short.

for

black

for

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was

are

Vischer

and

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for her

we

likes.

degree.

no

but

don't

you

something

Fr'aulein

geography

M.

what

one

has

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sillygoose,

who

the mistress

last year,

ugly.

so

learn

master

dimples

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short

always

room

her

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can

awfully

school. In

stuff.

fond

for

two

of

don't

had

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Inspee:

every

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she

her, she's

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really

is

that

says

stand

care

the

proper we

teaches

long

the

games, at

a

us

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geography

Inspee

and

but

23rd.

September

not

any

Doktor

Mother

to.

think

I

intervals,one

out

go

Frau

a

home.

came

we

we

habit.

To-day we hadn't begin to-morrow,

are

together on speech, then she not to buy are

a

is for

need

bad

a

Frau

put

3

one

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now

it's

have

long

out.

She

get, but

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teachers

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made

she

to

Monday.

short. to

Then

There

governess.

professor, and

well.

as

as

Our

one

writing.

bench.

us

class.

mistresses,

31

her

want

in the

us

YEAR

write

always

laughs

she

has

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is

have

singing too. is beautifully

she

at the

new

lovely have

it falls down

pen

and

it soft

so

during

32

lesson time. I don't

Catholics, and

be

then

themselves

wiser

Hella

to

came

I by the Fs. play the piano

then

all

myself. She have

had

has

time

to

she

least

"Fraulein

Dora"

musical

as

Fraulein

as

was

reading

and

she

heard

not, but

I

She

she

model.

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had

her a

To-day

time-table,but it won't the

from

Frau

Gymnasium,

but

teaches

in

have

viva

may but

a

write we

class.

8

must

Doktor since

school.

our

or

10 not

I've written

me

up

all

not

so

o'clock

12

or

had

she

said

hardly speak.

gave

work

until

there

is

at

sentences

look mine

at

what

we

Our

home we

sors' profes-

professors they

one are

going

have

already. But

we

to

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written

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a

she

here

Holidays. before

can

in

teaching

only

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the

when

be

might

the

us

exactly

composition:

voce

10

they

know

Gymnasium

Our

come.

more.

evening Inspee

could

she

she

cold, liar.

25th.

September

and

charges

She

it.

over

write

But

are

until

1st,

I would

holding

the

In

my

school

to

me

that.

she

at

October

mistress.

be

howled

invited

dull, they

so

on

do

always Dora.

afternoon

been

told

I think

great fat book

a

simply

says

a

the

it's

she

music

wouldn't

think

chicks

In

pupils to

and

spare

the

Perhaps B.,

Hella's

mother

enough piano begin when the

will

Frau

to

shops would

Inspee had

fixed up.

tells all her

rather

At

lessons

waited

Hella's

hens.

I have

day.

write

I must

religion for

the book

there, for

go

until

on

come.

when

and

crowns,

Hella

wrong.

the

house

been

has

were

than

don't

not

thought

we

music

My

no

We

happens

our

went

away.

did

Pastor

said, that's what

time-table

lessons

came

we

September 24th. to-day but open

1.70

or

crowns

arithmetic,then

then

for the Herr

lessons.

7

exactly. To-day

12, first German, for me,

it cost

I think

know

DIARY

GIRL'S

YOUNG

A

in

said

YOUNG

A

34

Resi

birthday. Yesterday can't

Oswald

He

noticed

that

it may

have

when

I

been

You

said:

said:

Ah,

brother

"You

wouldn't

young

ears."

but

mine

not

but

she

Such

airs, and

gives

that

so

her

speak. Whenever of speaking to

babies

how

Not

meant.

For

if

and

yet

it in

one

time. she

she

short

a

wears

ears,

older

years

lady.

grown-up

a

:

for such her

great spoonful of she

it and

this, I

make

has

answer.

all about

I know

thank

doesn't

do

said

she

for

tell

to

a

can't

point She

wax.

for me,

But

a

that

so

And

has

sneaks

her

see

come.

marries

one

a

of

is stuffed with

I her

longer

no

airs

the

she

mouth

9th.

October

says

herself

get in such

does

she

because

Dora

Please

quite three

not

ried mar-

And

suitable

that, it's suitable

then

the

But

yours.

as

It's not

though she's

skirt

jam

well

as

Fancy

I am,

girlsand I said:

and

understand.

than

the

attend

said, you

pitifulscoundrel.

you

I understand

now

is my

he

leave

and

he

what

something

was

he

then

shouting

was

there

with

If I could

I heard

and

(then and

all red

Father

Dora

do.

I

than

word.

a

it isn't

course

are

eyes

done.

both

Or

more

says

scamp

alone

women

me,

he's

books

of

any

nobody

understand)

school

to your

thing, some-

perhaps society. Inspee

his

Mother's

and

young

couldn't

we

know

doesn't

yesterdayand

him

to

up

country.

it is but

what

crying. At dinner only find out what at

been

has

in

something

is furious

Father

He

in the

was

knows

she

for

S.

to

horrid.

something

me

what, perhaps something in the always stays there such a long time, I

pretends she true,

told

I knew

I wish closet.

back

go

DIARY

GIRL'S

one

to.

What

I wish know

you, to do a

I

really

Robert

simply won't

it ; it hurts

good thing

I knew

That's

!!!

now

is what

that

has

it

marry.

frightfully I know

that

exactly how,

exactly herself.

But

Hella

perhaps

FIRST her

cousin

It lasts

her. then

it for

her

wanted

off to

her

And

last

about

but

corrupt generation, don't

girl, to

other

any she

gave

her

it!

That

is

time.

long tell

box

a

Poor

And

deceitful

that

it for ages

and

has

time

that

why

fool, you

little

lesson

it.

10th.

in

I'm

to

without And

go.

that we

had

had

has

not

for I

say

said that

do.

to

that

this

business says

that

when

I

of

wrote

course

that

that.

the

to

gymnastic ask

first and I

am

her

to know.

I did

late better was

said is

her

difficult that

really

we

nothing

about

it at

going

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to

Herr

only

now

it

Inspee wouldn't

to

it but

really can't has

dare

not

Luckily

all about

Inspee

my

stay with so

everything.

me

I ...

from

was

had

Oswald

really told

Hella

stand under-

I don't

simply

in time.

I knew

about

upstairsat Hella's

sum

I

all

You

her

so

our

But

to-morrow

thought

I

was

I

got it finished

sum

a

home, S's.

Hella

would

we

it I

meaning

another.

one

great funk, I missed

gymnastic lesson yesterday. and

can

said:

curious

a

a

Robert

I go

how

help

she

now

But

to

to

such

for

known

baby

a

awful,

could

me

betray

swing

When

goodness

to

me.

I shall talk

My

October

get

knows.

to-morrow

about

the

at

wont

Hella

Perhaps

told

never

said.

repeat it

if she

has

ran

instance," and

thing, but

Inspee

cat

had are

to

for

write

won't

we

Lizzi

Hella

As

thing, poor it and

and

dare

ear.

didn't

she

why

all about

me

the

on

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children

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Grete

country.

sister,really she

what

you

has

Hella

me.

all true

was

and

comes

like to tell

the

her

"These

said;

mother

in

tell her

to

baby

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if it

mother

she

tell

it will

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it to Lizzi

ask

to

her

die. time

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till the

months

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to talk

only

everything

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told

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nine

lot of

a

known A

knows

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35

YEAR

It's

a

write

horrible it.

already, bathe,

had

did

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36

A

must

one

blood

Hella.

says

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I couldn't

that In

the

know of

remember

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everything

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she

who

October

16th.

her

birthday on

me

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it,for,

as

Father

Besides, wants

not

have

to

share

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nasty

to

it's not

to

going

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go

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it's

birthday

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chance.

mere

a

it.

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day, always

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says,

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to

saying

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that

day

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up

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came

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me

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he

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stay away

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be stuck

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together.

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needn't

it annoys

year

.

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in class

she's

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home

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note

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birthday. Every have

to know

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Hella

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un

I've known

her

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being

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course

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what

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she

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country

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on

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then

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see.

and

14

at

But

why in the light before

off the

DIARY

GIRL'S

bathe; really she had always be anxious

to

want

YOUNG

2

days

and

had

because

he

Oswald

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going there. jollierto-day than came,

so

of

course

I

FIRST there has

much

not

was

that's Colonel him

that

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what

Hella's

from

a

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Oswald

himself

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have

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had

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you

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the

October

really married

a

complained committee

for

if

myself

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me.

it would

summer

I

course

have

you

one

master

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come

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care

or

came

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really read. it,but only

love

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Vienna. of hers

affair

shot

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and

she

himself it

newspapers

that

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because

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my

that

that

us

because was

of her.

out.

I

told

of her. of

summer

They an

is 14

Mother to

wants

trouble Franke

Berta

he

the

hardly

love

has

have

in

with he

feel

Robert

Oswald

this

She

school

But

why

because

to the

now.

brother is

woman

about

out

not

meant

I should

how

awful.

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something

married

a

it all

what

out

Father

a

can't

gone

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awful

an

find

what

for I think

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away

have

think

how

him,

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said:

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must

the head

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from

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went

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to

expelled

there.

can't

we

of him

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woman.

and

awfully and

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door, for

and

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happened

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boy

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for

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is

he

that

only

quite well now probably going

thing

military academy

Gymnasium.

wax

best

father

Oswald

know

he

Oswald

evening

37

about

military academy,

a

the

and

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to

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true)

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said

ankle, (I

his

sprained

YEAR

had

an

is back a

said

happy un-

in

cousin in the

actress, but

already.

38

A

October with

YOUNG We

20th.

Franke.

Berta

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are

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wants

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is afraid

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years.

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which

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the

says the

doesn't

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she

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know

exactly.

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husband

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won't

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myself."

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herself

know

her

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believe

admirers

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at

when

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wife.

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tell you

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one

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us

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She

up

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have

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and

school

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cross

in

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class.

third

says

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away.

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eyes

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baby

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cram.

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a

she

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certainlya

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left the

have

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choose.

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gets

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admirers, but

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course

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a

us

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marry

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of

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says

lot of we

DIARY

GIRL'S

more.

any

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what

it must

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happen every night, for if not they don't have a baby; if they miss a single night they don't have a gether. baby. That's why they have their beds so close toAnd People call them marriage beds!!! it hurts so hardly bear it. frightfullythat one can has

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But

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she

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invite her here October

Mother

23rd.

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know

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making

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away was

to-day.

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you.

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he

looking

was

27 th.-

39 what's

the

understand

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I know

did

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only with

on

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of

scowl. have

to

seems

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because

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lesson.

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way

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awfully well.

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her

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head

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in

right

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me.

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out

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missing

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about

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all

to-morrow,

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try to

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fine

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YOUNG

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girlslooked

at

said

to me:

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and

will have

must

the

didn't

my

darling

does

say

more.

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name

her

awful

an

all the

anything

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keep

not

that's

And

She's

because

shame

into you of.

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for in the

man Ger-

girlslooked

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perfect angel,

a

but

Elisabeth;

because

name-day

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composition was

voce

is

all the

Berta knife

M.,

viva

for

complain

to

Doktor

subject for

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something Frau

to

interval

11

she's got her

worry, find

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spoken

lesson

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down!"

me.

always

DIARY

GIRL'S

she's

Protestant;

a

November

she

is

19th

ing com-

soon.

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out

the

there

herself.

got

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a

in

the

arithmetic? Oh

I

Franke

a

her;

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she's

rather

said

she

think

know

had

you're

what

she's

quite

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to

Berta

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horrid

was

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be

lesson

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because

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it

at

said:

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so

day.

laughing,

you

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so

do

to

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and

too

with

matter

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out

sneak.

a

for

day,

headache

burst

nearly

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was

other

didn't

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nice

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was

to-day

arithmetic

is

come

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though

mental

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your

lesson

in

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lucky. Nothing's

so

gymnastic

Fraulein

said:

she

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31st.

she

over

was

"headache"

means

something quite different. November tablecloth

1st.

for Father's

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at

and

the

I'm

making

an

the

right

best

on

and

painting part

of all.

I'm

leather

at

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easier then

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book

course

to one

Mother

cover,

broidered em-

painted design;

a

school

going

and

hand.

one's

nice too. not

that's

the

at

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present.

because

with

work

to

the left side

embroidered

lesson,she's awfully M.

side

to take

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began

we

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caboodle

with do

the

I had

whole

has

can

To-day

in

Fr'aulein

I like Frau invite

Berta

I

H.'s

Doktor Franke

YOUNG

A

42

Mother

in and

came

of

sort

things

straight off could

of you.

mean

of

complain and must

do

In

You

say.

November

6th.

should

not

said

needs

must

best

like anything

children, I

what friend

calls

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the

All

whenever is

Mother

and

I

are

right,now that's what

very

stand-offish.

but

has

she

8th.

November

at not

the

table

got

as

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is

which

time,

working

much

to

such

was

was

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be

married

from

went

soon

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her

and is

so

forehead

to

whether

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everyday We

went

shall

very

hard

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as

go

often.

have.

we

lovely young

a

lady

beautifully,inside I skated

8.

the

I wonder

lovely scent.

a

everything. hair

she

When

not

cloth.

skating to-day, and she skates so outside and edge and figures of her.

Jews.

!

one

Hella

have

we

was

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sillyfool.

a

all about

about

us

she

laughed

do.

wre

sillyfool.

a

she

knows

than

told

am

I am,

7th.

Mali,

silly

a

that

so

only talk of together, but we things, school and lessons, nothing else. skating to-day for the first time and we

behind

now,

I'm

walk

work

and

of Hella

much

before

more

Mali

that

please,I

November We

who

go

me

thing this, that Hella a nudge

great deal

a

if you

one's

How

frightfully

lot, you

so

ran

you

was

it matter, Mali

does

that

that I know

fine

talking

on

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:

after

Now,

see

I gave

go

it,probably only

A

When

now.

and

to

not

are

was

he scolded fine

a

I

understand?

you

fool

You're

said:

she

and

Father

to

me

evening

the

It

the

me

Mali:

to

It

talking.

were

told

about.

said

us?

of

satisfaction

has

talk

and

tales

we

Mali

Hella

kitchen

tell such

in wrhen

fine lot of

A

and

the

DIARY

children.

you

to

you

chipped

said:

of one's

out

gets

one

GIRL'S

she

cloak

room

if she

is

knows

she

prettily.I

there

going

to

all about back

pushes wish

along

I

were

the as

FIRST

pretty wish

she

as

I could

I must

YEAR

is.

But

I

find

out

her

dark

am

and and

name

where

skating again to-morrow; evening.

November skate.

I'm

9th.

I'm

afraid

she

November waited

10th.

She

hours, but

two

November

was

came

She

has

didn't

to

come

I

either.

to-day

come

good.

no

She

lessons

my

ill.

didn't

it

11th.

be

may

I

lives.

she

do

upset; she

so

is fair.

she

go

in the

to-day,

Oh

last!

at

pretty she is.

how

November

12th.

standing That

is she!

Shall

we

So

skate

She

was.

but

couldn't back

came

and

think

took

and

time.

November

13th.

and

said

she

When?

it were

Inspee

declares

.

already. her

is

name

that

be true

it can't

sure

Only

.

to-morrow

that

to

morrow? To-

back.

I wish

I'm

I,

to

.

Klastoschek.

Anastasia

say

quickly:

called

she

Perhaps, perhaps,perhaps, oh

said

My heart something,

arms.

bowed,

I said

said:

and

When say. gentleman stood there

a

she

I heard

if I may,

to

was

directly:

up

sensible

the entrance

to

next

came

I wanted

anything

off his hat

Till

me:

of

I

me.

I knew

together crossing

beating furiously,and

was

and

me

to

suddenly

together? Please,

off

went

we

it

spoken

gate and

behind

laughing

one

and

the entrance

near

some

we

43

might be called Eugenie or Seraphine or Laura, but Anastasia, impossible. Why names? there such horrid are Fancy if she is really has

she

called is

such

that.

supposed

a

name,

she

Klastoschek, too, to

from

come

26, absurd, she's not

and course

so

much

as

Dora

18.

that she doesn't that's rank

except herself.

think

a

Czech and

Moravia 18

says

her

at

most.

to

I'm

she lives in

she

and

name,

be sure

26

she's

Phorusgasse,

particularly pretty.

jealousy; Dora

thinks

ready; al-

no

one

Of

pretty

YOUNG

A

44

November her

old

why

is.

her

I told

She

Then

of the cloak

it

hear

don't

anyone

say

November

had

who

sent

book

the

about

number

to

when

really impossible

with

her.

not

and

uncomfortable

so

I don't

he

comes

does

when

things she

went

a

cries.

man

Oswald box

up

Father

on

he the

to

cries.

When

there think

He

said

ear.

certainly he

After

all,why

is rather

Dora

is she

shouldn't

cry

21st.

It must

has

for

In the

had

sides, Be-

to.

hadn't

I get box

funny

he

but

on

with

sick

row

given

when about him

I think

said

for he's not

he

a

look

Father he

was

all that

was

cried, though

yet. I cry myself when November

home

comes

Mother

and

107

cried, I

Still I shouldn't

being ill,

like

even

But

diptheria two years ago I did for her, she nearly died, her temperature

never

had;

up

Whatever

Father

that

is

nuisance.

a

I rather

for me;

knows home

at

says:

it's such

matter

had

could

everything I crying.

always

everyone's so nice, when and sits by my bed and

and

nice

everything

being ill;indeed

mind

for then