thank you // goodbye sarah coker

thank you goodbye

You added fire to my life. With your grandiose ideas and infectious laugh. You burnt me and gave me no medicine for the wound. I loved every second with you.

Speeding down the dirt roads, Screaming into the night sky We wanted to forget who we were. Leave behind the town that hurt us. We were 18.

I was fucked up when I met you, I guess I still might be -- But in a different way.

Shit happened. We fell apart. But at night, I toss and turn, Haunted by the thought of us reuniting.

Now that you’re gone, There’s an itch I can’t scratch= Will it always be like this?

Now that you’re gone, There’s an itch I can’t scratch Will it always be like this? I wanted to text you, It’s easier to say things when I can’t see your face. Would you hurt me, again? Sometimes, the answer doesn’t matter.

I’m not perfect. You know it. We’ve grown into adults. Teen drama doesn’t belong. I’m sorry.

If you knew how we would end, Would you have started it? Here is everything I should’ve said. Letting go of it. I don’t regret anything.

I’m older now. My is vision no longer hazy. Are you better than before? Does your mom still dance around the kitchen? I hope you find silence in your mind filled with chaos.

My nights are finally peaceful. Maybe closure is all I needed. Knowing that I did not leave you, Knowing only my 18 year old self. x