Do You Push Yourself? digitalbloggers.com /self-improvement/PushYourself Oct 26, 2016 17 views Written by JIE ZHENG
Author JIE ZHENG
Articles written: 8 Joined: 01 October 2016 Niche: Communications Internet and Businesses Online Self Improvement
I pushed myself so much since I joined the Six Figure Mentors, special this year, 2016. I pushed myself again today (2nd day of week 21, since I started worked out this year). I got sick and tired of me only swimming half lap lane. I was like a coward, when I swam to the middle part, when I started feeling that my feet could not touch the ground, I became scared. This is what I posted in the community 30 days mindfulness challenge several days ago: ********************************************************************* Oct. 21th, day 21/31, Workout: after weight room, I went to the pool. I swam half lap lane. At the 1st time, I
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wanted to push my limit to whole lap lane, I failed. I was so scared, I stopped for a while, I turned around. So I did about 20 min. half lap lane. 18:30, I decided to push me more. I was fearful, scared, whatever you wanted to call it. Then I said in my mind, “I can do it”. I said it many times. I failed in moving forward. I said again a few times, I also pissed myself “what the hell is wrong with you? Coward.. If you die there, fine, drown and die today then. Just try it. You can…” So I finally moved forward and did the whole lap lane. I rested at the other end before I swam back. That was only a few minutes. No one cared about me or what I was doing. They were my longest minutes of today, yet with proud of myself after I made it. It was only an okay day for me, because my ads performance is …..I do not even want to say it. So that was something I had to achieve for myself. ********************************************************************* Today I thought of one idea to help me. I borrowed a waist belt, the one you could see by the pool here in the USA. It is not a life jacket, while it could help people float. I put it around my waist. I wanted to build a bridge before I eventually can be more comfortable in swimming the whole lap lane.
At the first time, I stopped at the middle point again for a few minutes. The belt made me a bit floating. I did not get used to it. I really had no idea who was around me, what happened in other lanes, how I would be looked. I only focused on pushing myself forward. I know I was with myself. I tried to encourage myself. Before, I stopped at the middle point also because I was a bit tired. While, I could not be tired at the first try today. I work out and I know I am stronger. I had no excuse. A few minutes later (I do not think they were a few minutes while it felt like that way), I pushed myself and I swam to the other side. I was really happy. I smiled. Happiness came from pushing me again today. I only swam 8 lap lanes today. Each one was a challenge for me. I pushed myself to go through the whole lap lane, without stopping at the middle part. I did stop at the other side before I swam back. When I swam close by the middle part, I wanted to stop while I did not. I pushed myself to go further. I was really scared when I got close by the middle part. The moment I passed by the middle part, my heart beat fast. I passed by the middle point. The next thing was I tried to focus on each stroke. I did not even want myself to look at the ground, because I know, when I looked at the ground, my mind fears, my mind told me that my feet could not touch the ground. When I changed my focus, I only wanted to make each stroke. So it became not so scared. I was quite happy at myself. My gym friend K saw me and applauded for me when I swam back. The lady who swam next to me, P, I asked her, “Would you save me if I drown.” She smiled and said yes. I also talked with her for a few minutes. After I left the pool, I went to sauna for a few minutes. I met N there and shared with her about my fear and why I always fear about drowning. She said she understood me. She said if next time I am in the pool and she is at the gym, she will be more than welcome to help me at the pool, just take it easy, and breathe. She said, “Trust the float”. Oh I love it, “Trust the float”, one of my takeaway today. She also shared about her story and how she learned to swim. I was content. K even sent me a text tonight.
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Thank you for reading my story today. I encourage you to push yourself today. Whatever that means to you, trust me, if I can do it, you can! Jie Zheng Oct. 25, 2016 At Columbia, SC
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