Acting Guardian Council/Ubermensch NWO Shibumi Matrix NSSM44: Att: General David Petraeus, CENTCOM, c/o Multi-National Force Iraq: Disclosure: Prior Correspondence & BBB Annapolis Middle East; CC: NO Supreme Court (Breivik); UK Westminster Court (Assange) (Ref: 22 August 2011 TandemArmies Al’Quds BlackStone-Tampa Vote) General Petraeus CENTCOM David, Ref: 1968 Prophecy by a 90 Year Old Norwegian Woman1and Chechen teens: we tried to stone rampaging Breivik2: “On the weekend, Norwegian police brought Anders Breivik back to Utoya Island to conduct a crime re-enactment that lasted nearly eight hours. It turns out Breivik has a prodigious memory, remembering every scene of the murder rampage, which could later be verified according to the allegedly 72-minute video he reportedly recorded himself while shooting people left and right, finishing off the wounded and those who attempted to flee the island by swimming in the ice-cold water. Breivik‟s camera and the video have not been found yet.” The photo of the young man with the dog collar reminds me of a story Gunny told me. You probably know. Sure every General from here to Timbuktoo with access to the scientific data knows every little detail; but anyway; I guess the point is that I tell it. Not a problem. Nothing I am ashamed of. So here it is: It was shortly after 9/11; I was living in my campervan (Rosie) in the Berkeley Marina; but stayed with my friend Gunny Dye (Jon Michael Dye, 17 year Marine veteran; formerly guarded the Shah in Iran and was also involved in helping Steve Biko leave South Africa, via the US Embassy, before Biko decided to return), on his yacht Shibumi. Anyway, Gunny worked as a carpenter in San Francisco, and one day he came back with some frankincense and muhrr. He had a bad back so we did not make love that often, about once a week or two, but then it was a real special occasion. Anyway he came home angry because some woman in San Francisco had chatted him up. She was into heavy bondage stuff and asked him if he was interested. He said „Thanks, but no thanks.‟ Anyway, we were in a fast food joint where he was ordering food and he was telling me about it and he was so pissed off. And you know what a Sgt. Major sounds like when he‟s pissed off, he was cussing furiously. The angrier he got the more I laughed. He never could understand why I got so horny for him when he got so mad. Anyway, does everyone really have to know this? I guess you, Tim and Vladimir are the Master Military Strategists about the Male Psyche; so I shall trust you on the matter; and simply provide my Village Idiot SQ advice where helpful. 1 2
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God knows why I am doing that – again – but, I imagine there were lessons I needed to learn from the previous betrayals. You are forgiven. I am not angry with you at this moment. I may be if I see you ever; or not. I don‟t know. Probably not; probably be petrified. Who knows? I don‟t know if that had anything to do with Gunny‟s lovemaking that night; but in the middle thereof he brought out his hunting knife. Well he wanted to know if I trusted him; could he make love to me with his hunting knife? What would I think about it if he told me he wanted to kill me with it? I laughed nervously and said Gunny, whatever if that turns you on honey. If you want to kill me, that‟s okay too. Just make it quick please. Well of course he didn‟t kill me physically; but if he was going to; I am sure he would have. You have all the „scientific data‟ about all my bodily reactions and the event; so you can probably read them back to me with far more accuracy than I can to you, based on memory. Confirmation in Writing: I have not fantasised about any man since my relationship with „Lohengrin‟ (which Tim approved) ended; and Tim and the NSA Brigade resumed your psychotronic presence. I am still not willing to fantasise about anyone, including Tim; and certainly not without Tim‟s permission; or any man who is married without his wife‟s permission. So I am sorry if that is a problem forsomeone. I don‟t think it is; except in jest. I just think its best this way; certainly for me. Hope you are well. If you wanted my previous letters to you made public to for (A) Norwegian Court Officials; or (B) to see if there is interest to draw up an amended updated Iraq plan; that‟s okay with me on either issue; if its okay with Tim. What to do about Dissenting Media in a Military Coup? Don‟t know: I‟d suggest offhand (shoot the lot); but seriously: If they object to the reasons given as the root cause problem the coup is trying to solve; allow them to continue to dissent as long as they report on both sides of the root cause problems issue. If not, give em a warning, and on second warning; send in the „Honour Voting Contract Hit Squad‟ Media Assassin. Hope you are well and the politicians aren‟t driving you batshit crazy! ;-) Luv.Lara
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From: Lara Johnstone [mailto:brave-lara-heart@telkomsa.net] On Behalf Of wild.3d1.wolf@telkomsa.net Sent: Sunday, February 10, 2008 11:14 PM To: 'Gen-David-Petraeus (mnfi.webmaster@iraq.centcom.mil)' Subject: Pls Forward to General David Petraeus Importance: High Sensitivity: Private
Excuse Me. General, Do you think it could work? I am referring to withdrawing from Iraq. You know getting your ass on an aeroplane out of there – back to your family (and if your family allow you, to have some 5 star R&R for a job well done, prior thereto, or as stated in the rest of the doc.). Of course, that’s (withdrawal from iraq) is a very difficult question, because so many things could happen between now and then, that could make it irrelevant. Bluntly, speaking in ‘accounting/balancesheet’ terms – is the oil you are sitting on protecting for national security interest – worth more in ‘national security’ terms, than the costs incurred of you sitting there, in national security terms. Of course, it’s virtually impossible to be remotely accurate in computing such an equation – not too different from working out the net energy of a nuclear energy plant, I imagine. I mean, do you think it is feasible that given a fair price for their oil, those darling ‘Arabs’ chums of mine, would be quite happy to wish you farewell at the airport, with sincere hallmark cards, inviting you back for a holiday? Of course, not all or nearly most of them….. Of course, there are the hardliners, but I think there are also the good guys. Also, yesterday I had this startling idea – that what Ahmadinejad (naughty bugger) may really want (in Iranian national security terms – totally understandable from his point of view) – is for you to stay exactly where you are, in other words for the us to stay in iraq. Its draining America dry in terms of dollars, and helping to rile up the area, and so on? Could be wrong, and of course, it’s nearly a similar equation to the one above – on his part. What I am sometimes a little unclear about is as follows: I’m clear as to the oil motive for being in Iraq, removing saddam (yeah somewhat – but not as a direct motive, more like an ‘excuse’), ‘democracy’ (somewhat) and to some extent, I also wonder – sorry to say – ‘spending ordinance’ (at least at the beginning of the war, little bit of adventure Laurence of Arabia style, or something like that???? I’m not saying that was the case, not at all, and frankly, I wouldn’t be surprised, or judge it too harshly, would just kind of acknowledge the reality of it – I am aware of the games that are played in the pentagon to see ‘who can we provoke a war with?’ kind of thing, and in brutal business terms – if you were selling toilet paper, the last thing you would want is for someone to invent a gadget that prevented people from shitting, if you know what I mean). One of the reasons the pentagon ain’t started a ‘peacenik foundation’ – right? ;-) and let’s be clear – ain’t just the pentagon, plausibly playing such games, maybe just on a bigger scale, who knows. So, I am wondering – is my effort to attempt to get the u.s. army out of iraq, actually pointless, and useless, because some people want the army to stay there? For plausibly valid reasons? Is there something that I am missing? Cause if so, it would be better that I kind of just ‘see the
writing on the wall’ and say ‘okay, been there, tried that one, move on, try something else, kind of thing’. And, that would be okay. So, I notice you have not replied – directly to me (although it was real nice to see you on wolf, but still I can’t touch you, or ask you questions, which you answer where I can hear them, and see you answer them (anyway)) -- to my previous letters – what shall I conclude from that? A petrified generalissimo? ;-) I mean, you gonna have to talk to me sometime – unless of course, this whole thing is the biggest joke of the century – and there was or is no such intention? So may as well be sooner than later, if ever; or if never, best we have our laughs and move on! Hmmmmm? Anyway, so attached is your copy – ain’t sent a copy to others yet. Although, no doubt you are aware – but just in case you pretending you ain’t, Please do not say you did not receive this! Sorry, I hope you don’t mind me making a little bit of fun at you – I don’t imagine you do – just, consider it a bit of ‘tonsil tickling’ if you like!!! I’m just in the mood to say hello, give you a bit of a laugh, and find out some info, all in one go. And, YES, while some of it has some of my bizarre macabre, sick, or whatever you want to call it – humour. I would not disagree, sometimes this just is beyond weird. Feels like I am living on planet: Five Star Madhouse! But back to it – No, I will not be offended, if you were only joking, and playing a prank. Yes, my feelings will be hurt, and I imagine I will get over it, if that is the case. Although, I would expect you to make up your mind about that sooner than later. And if not, forgive me for raising the issue. Sorry, just covering all bases. And if that did not need saying – I shall move on. Yes, I mean’t and still mean, all I said, and Yes, I have every intention of following through with it – IF THAT IS WHAT OTHERS WANT. I don’t think it can work if anyone feels obliged. And no, I did not feel obliged. I made an original commitment, and I keep my commitments, and if I wanted out, or to change it, then I’d say so. My focus is, acknowledging in a meaningful way for those who want to, an existential, sensate reality of our human condition, and to find ways to use those energies, in positive life-affirming ways, with hopefully humanizing process and end results. I think it’s worth a try, and while some may judge it negatively based upon their totally valid points of view. That’s okay. I think it’s a very big honour, actually; just so you know. I try not to go there, cause I imagine it would just go to my head, and so on. So stay with the – more down to earth idiot, if you know what I mean. But seriously, I am touched by what I interpret that you and others feel, and attempt to communicate (sometimes I just kind of have to stop and say: you know you could be thinking this, cause deep down, well you just want to think this, and it’s easy to draw conclusions that are favourable to what you want them to be, kind of thing. Sure you know what I mean. So if I have been difficult, obstinate or similar – I’m sorry. It’s just that the messages are so Hegelian, and considering the reality – of it’s easy to say things far away, another to say them here, and so on – well, you know what I mean.) But as far as I am concerned, sometimes I am kinda Hegelian – its more when I am kind of like: either/or – you know, kind of like saying: this is my preference, these are our options – what do you want? In this case, this is my preference: I care about you, a great deal. Don’t know why. I worry your wife may be hurt. I don’t want that. And although I do care about you a great deal, can’t say I could handle any more possible future real husbands (whenever that becomes a reality), if you
know what I mean! So, I ain’t got any designs on such stuff, just kind of appreciate you, allot, and caring for you, even if it is currently weird, hopefully one day soon, won’t be this weird, and so on. Our options: Well, attached are some of them, from the surreal, to the bizarre – from your favourite lunatic! Fruitcake ;-) So, rambling along, as usual. While I want it to be fun, that does not mean I – from my side – consider it to be just some kind of useless ‘exercise in ****’, if anything – the opposite. Strange as it may sound, I do care about you – and I cannot explain that in anything remotely resembling what many would consider ‘anything remotely resembling a rational explanation’. But just cause I can’t explain it rationally to anyone who hasn’t experienced it, doesn’t mean I don’t care for you. I do. Allot. So, gonna end this for now. Will send the others, a copy via Erik, tomorrow. And I would appreciate it if you could reply now and then, to my inbox. But I guess with you guys – games, always games. And I imagine well, yeah, some things are just harder for a man to say. Or maybe you being a gentleman saying it so subtly – so subtly it plausibly flies right over my head!!! What good does that do? Anyway, have a nice weekend. And I would seriously appreciate a response – so please consider. So, how shall I end this – huh???? Waiting for the kicker??? Hmmmmmm Kind regards… nah – don’t think so. Sincerely…. Uhuh… nah… So, miss you, and not sure if generals like soppy stuff….. I’d imagine makes you uncomfortable, considering your surroundings, job and so on. Anyway could be wrong. I’d just say I think about you often, wonder how you are, get pissed when I see that silly grin of yours, and imagine you know I do! And that’s why you put it up there, so I just let it be. And yet other times, I see it, and its almost like you are here – but you aren’t. But anyway, it’ll do until I can get your ass into gear – can’t say I ain’t giving it my best shot! ;-) Okay, so: here goes: I miss you, I wish you were here, and when I say those words, and imagine you here, then I get the giggles, cause if you walked through that door, at some time, or when I walk through a door and see you (guess it will depend on my mood at the time), but if my mood is reasonably happy, or even mad, you can bet your bottom dollar (if there ain’t too many people around – wouldn’t want to make a scene, if I can help myself!), I would give you a bit of a mouthful of verbiage. On the other hand, I don’t feel like that all the time. Actually if you were here right now, hmmmm I certainly wouldn’t be sitting behind this computer typing, would i? So I shall leave it at that – mr screaming eagle imagination! Love Lara
-----Original Message----From: Lara Johnstone [mailto:brave-lara-heart@telkomsa.net] On Behalf Of wild.3d1.wolf@telkomsa.net Sent: Friday, February 29, 2008 12:07 AM To: Gen-David-Petraeus (mnfi.webmaster@iraq.centcom.mil) Subject: ATT: PLS FORWARD TO GEN. DAVID PETRAEUS Importance: High DAVID, READ SOMEWHERE YOU ONCE SAID ABOUT BEING IN IRAQ -- HOW DO WE EVER GET OUT OF HERE, OR SOMETHING TO THAT EFFECT. NOT SURE IF YOU STILL FEEL THE SAME WAY... ANYWAY, IT APPEARS TO ME THAT QUITE FRANKLY, THE FUCKING JOKE IS TO FIND OUT EXACTLY WHAT I WANT AND THEN TO DO EVERYTHING UNDER THE FUCKING SUN TO MAKE SURE THAT I DON'T GET EVEN CLOSE TO ACCOMPLISHING IT! SO, I AM GETTING CLOSE TO THE POINT WHERE I COME TO THE BEYOND REASONABLE DOUBT CONCLUSION, THAT THIS ENTIRE 'LILY TRUTH' EXERCISE IS NOTHING MORE -FOR SOME OF THE 'WALKING PENISSES' INVOLVED, THAN A FUCKED UP LITTLE BOYS JOKE IN MENTAL MASTURBATION LAND -- AND THAT THEY HAVE NOT ONE LITTLE FUCKING BONE IN THEIR BIG TOE THAT HAS ANY SERIOUS INTENTIONS TOWARDS IT, BECAUSE QUITE FRANKLY THEY JUST ARE A FUCKING BUNCH OF GUTLESS JELLYFISH COWARDS (THEY WOULD RATHER FUCKING KILL PEOPLE, BLOW THEM UP, BLOW THEIR BRAINS OUT, CHOP OFF THEIR HEADS, AND WHO THE FUCK KNOWS WHAT OTHER FUCKED UP SHIT), THAN FIND THE FUCKING COURAGE TO BE VULNERABLE, TO BE HONEST ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS (AND I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT HTIER FUCKING FEELINS IN THEIR GODDAMN FUCKING PENISES). AND SO IF THAT IS THE REALITY -- THEN THAT IS FINE! I WON'T BE TOO HAPPY ABOUT IT, HAVING WASTED MY FUCKING TIME, BUT I'D RATHER FACE REALITY, AND GET ON WITH IT, THAN CARRY ON A FUCKING MENTAL MASTURBATION CHARADE FOR A BUNCH OF FUCKWITS WHO PRETEND TO BE COURAGEOUS, MEN WITH FUCKING PLANS TO FUCK UP THE WORLD (IT APPEARS). (SORRY, NOT MEANT ALL AT YOU -- SOME YES, BUT NOT ALL. AM JUST FUCKING SICK TO FUCKING DEATH OF PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY ALLEGEDLY ARE IN FUCKING CHARGE OF RUNNING GOVERMENTS AND GETTING THINGS DONE, WHO DON'T HAVE THE FUCKING WHEREWITHALL TO RETURN A FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING TELEPHONE CALL! NO WONDER THE FUCKING WORLD IS IN THE SHAPE IT'S IN!!!! ITS NO FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING SURPRISE! ANYWAY, IF I CARRY ON, I WILL FUCKING TAKING OUT ALL MY SHIT ON YOU, AND UNDOUBTEDLY YOU HAVE MORE THAN ENOUGH SHIT ON YOUR OWN PLATE, WITH THESE FUCKING TOWELHEAD FUCK UPS WHO CAN'T FUCKING GIVE YOU THE GODDAMN FUCKING DECENCY OF PICKING UP THE GODDAMN FUCKING PHONE, WHEN YOU ARE ATTEMPTING TO SHOW THEM THE HIGHEST FUCKING RESPECT ANY ONE HUMAN BEING CAN SHOW ANOTHER!! MAKES ME WONDER EXACTLY HOW MANY FUCKING 'HUMAN BEINGS' THERE ARE ON THIS PLANET, BEST I DON'T FIND OUT TOO SOON, CAUSE IN THAT CASE, WE MAY BE JUSTIFIED TO FUCKING NUKE THE FUCKING LOT -- SINCE THEY AIN'T HUMAN AFTER ALL???? ANYWAY, TAKE A LOOK AT THE ATTACHED, AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU FUCKING THINK, AND THEN HOPEFULLY SOME OF THOSE FUCKING MORON TOWELHEAD BURKA FREAKS THAT WORK AT THE CIA, WILL FUCKING WORK OUT THAT SOMETIMES PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY IS LIKE SHOOTING YOURSELF IN THE FUCKING FOOT WITH A DOUBLE BARREL SHOTGUN!!! SOMETIMES IN TERMS OF FOREIGN AFFAIRS, AND NATIONAL SECURITY AND PARTICULARLY IN TERMS OF PUBLIC PERCEPTION -- YOU GET MORE RESPECT FOR TAKING RESPONSIBILITY THAN AVOIDING IT!! TELL THAT TO THE COMMANDER IN CHIEF, HE
DOESN'T SEEM TO GIVE A FUCKING FLYING FUCK WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE TO SAY TO HIM. FRANKLY I'D SUGGEST A FUCKING GOOD STRAIGHT-TALKING MARINE PSYCHOLOGIST (NOT THESE PR FUCKWITS PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE PSYCHO-FREAKS WHO THINK THAT REALITY IS ABOUT AVOIDING REALITY AND ANYTHING THAT EVEN SMELLS OF RESPONSIBILITY, JUST FUCKING PASS THE BUCK!! THEY CLEARLY DID NOT PAY MUCH FUCKING ATTENTION IN PSYCH 101, TO KNOW THAT PSYCHOLOGICAL HEALTH IS ABOUT TAKING RESPONSIBIOLITY --- IT'S ABOUT SAYING 'THE GODDAMN FUCKING BUCK STOPS HERE!!!!' IF YOU KNOW, THEN YOU KNOW, AND IF YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE THEN YOU ARE GODDAMN FUCKING RESPONSIBLE, AND THE SOONER YOU ADMIT THAT TO YOURSELF, AND ACKNOWLEDGE THE GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM THE BETTER. PROBLEMS CANNOT BE FIXED BY PEOPLE WHO DENY THEIR EVEN IS A GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM AND IN FACT ONLY MAKE THINGS WORSE, BECAUSE THEN THEY ARE THE GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM STANDING IN THE WAY OF ADMITTING THE OTHER GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEMS!!! I HOPE THIS IS MAKING SENSE, AND UNDOUBTEDLY IT MUST BE -- AND I AM SINGING TO THE CHOIR! IF SO, AT LEAST FEEL HAPPY YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN FUCKING LA-LA LAND.... ANYWAY -- AS YOU CAN SEE I AM IN ONE FINE FUCKING MOOD!!! AREN’T YOU FUCKING GLAD YOU ARE WHO THE FUCK KNOWS HOW MANY TIME ZONES AWAY, AND NOT IN CLOSE RANGE???????? ANYWAY, MISS YOU TOO, HOPE YOU ARE WELL, AND TOWELHEADS AREN'T DRIVING YOU FUCKING BANANAS.... LOVE LARA PS. SO IF YOU DON'T GET THE CIA AND JAG TO FUCKING ACTIVATE THAT EMAIL ADDRESS, THEN YOU BETTER FUCKING PICK UP A PEN, AND SIGN THE ATTACHED AND GET IT TO ME, AND SEE IF WE CAN FIND YOUR OTHER FUCKING BUDDIES WHO AIN'T IN MENTAL MASTURBATION FUCKING FANTASY LAND, TO DO THE SAME... OTHERWISE.... I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GO THERE -- AND WOULDN'T SUGGEST YOU DO -- IF THERE IS ANY TRUTH TO THAT ONE OF THE WORLD'S 25 BEST LEADERS... > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >
-----Original Message----From: Lara Johnstone [mailto:brave-lara-heart@telkomsa.net] On Behalf Of brave-lara-heart@telkomsa.net Sent: 28 February 2008 23:13 To: USGov_CPelosi_CA (AmericanVoices@mail.house.gov) Subject: BBB-ANNAPOLIS-MD ET AL Importance: High TO: House Speaker Ms. Pelosi, General Hayden, c/o & via US House Committee on Intelligence Judge Advocate General, Sean McKormick, c/o & via Senator Lugar ALL CARE OF: AmericanVoices@mail.house.gov Please pardon documents sent as jpg’s instead of pdf; due to dial-up financial restraints. Hope to get cheap dsl, dependant on this and other matters. Kind Regards, Lara Braveheart
From: Lara Johnstone [mailto:brave-lara-heart@telkomsa.net] On Behalf Of wild.3d1.wolf@telkomsa.net Sent: Friday, February 29, 2008 4:19 AM To: Gen-David-Petraeus (mnfi.webmaster@iraq.centcom.mil) Subject: PLS FORWARD TO GEN. PETRAUES [PERSONAL] Importance: High
David, [PLEASE COPY TO THE REST OF LILY – TRUTH. THANKS] Me again!!! Well may as well, make it a chocolate box letter! I don’t know if I need to say this, and perhaps not to you, perhaps for you to show others – who think the g.peace.c plan is dumb, if not some may say --- moronically dumb, or the dumbest thing they have ever read! Or perhaps that is being polite, perhaps there are words for it by some that would make dumb sound like a fucking compliment from the Pope, or a fucking nobel peace prize award! That is all a possibility. I would not disagree with them, that it is plausibly dumb! It is plausibly – depending on your point of view of the world, your perspective, your experiences, THE DUMBEST FUCKING PLAN YOU HAVE EVER READ IN YOUR LIFE! And for those who say so, all I have to say to them is: YOU POOR FUCKING SAD FUCKING MORON IMBECILE! Indeed, it may be a dumb fucking plan – it may be the dumbest plan of all plans that have ever been envisioned; and it may also be the most goddamn fucking brilliant! Did it ever dawn on any one of those fuckwits, who have enough balls to blow up buildings, saw off people’s heads, fuck anything that moves without any contraception and spread their your fucking sperm around the planet, without any fucking regard for the consequences and children born? That there could be more to fucking life, than being an emotional GUTLESS COWARD? Who have enough ‘courage’ in terms of the amount of physical violence they inflict on people… but don’t have the emotional courage and marshmallow – let alone brass balls – to confront the people they are fucking pissed off with to their face and tell them in no uncertain ‘FUCK YOU ASSHOLE’ or YOU GODDAMN FUCKING IMBECILE AND THESE ARE MY FUCKING REASONS, terms, what they think of them? So, back to the plan? There are dozens of ways in which it could just simply be a MAJOR FUCK UP!! And there are dozens of ways in which, finding a few Jessop Marines, that it could cause a change in perspective for a number of people, that would be a goddamn fucking revolution in consciousness, the likes of which have not been seen for a fucking long time! Now, the chances of any of the fuck ups occurring – not least of which is the possibility that all goes ahead (with figdye protocol commitments of course), and we eventually get to Baghdad, and have our summit, some good frank conversations, solve some problems, and in the middle of all this – what with two of the queen of englands sons and the son of the heir to the
throne, that the al’qaeda towelheads, just fucking blow us all to smithereens, and it’s hasta la vista to the next dimension for us………….. MAJOR FUCK UP!!! (FOR THOSE WHO AREN’T ON THEIR WAY TO THE NEXT DIMENSION, THAT IS!!!??) It will undoubtedly be TOM CLANCY’S DREAM REALITY FOR HIS NEXT NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER type of material!! And be a Pearl Harbour or 9/11 reason to fucking nuke those towelheads back to the stone ages….. and……….. Now let’s just iimagine….. that there are some Jessop Marines, who do have the balls to pick up a pen, for a few minutes instead of a gun, or a knife, or a fucking rocket launcher, and who know how to sign their name, and to mean it, and to take responsibility for what they are signing for, and to say ………. I HAVE A GODDAMN FUCKING OPPORTUNITY TO FUCKING CHANGE MY PERSPECTIVE ABOUT FIRSTLY --- MY GODDAMN FUCKING PATHETIC SELF, MY GODDAMN FUCKING PARANOID BULLSHIT….. TO SAY ‘THIS IS WHO I GODDAMN MAY NOT BE, BUT DEFINITELY WANT TO BE, AND I WON’T BE THAT PERSON, UNLESS I FUCKING MAKE A FUCKING START AT IT! And so then we have a few MEN (as opposed to eunich’s on steroids, and I am not referring to pharmaceutical steroids, I am referring to mental masturbation land, I am suck a fucking goddamn fucking machine, kind of bullshit theories shit) who can pick up a pen, make a statement about who they are, and want to be, and what they want to accomplish, in terms of honour and courage and courage towards other MEN who, right now they see as their enemies, but who in fact ARE NOT THEIR ENEMIES!! YOU HAVE FOR SO LONG BEEN DECEIVING NOT ONLY YOURSELVES, BUT BY DECEIVING YORUSELVES, YOU HAVE, AND CONTINUE TO DECIEVE EACH OTHER --- AND THE DISTRUST AND ‘WAR’ YOU HAVE WITH EACH OTHER…….. IS A PATHETIC avoidance of the real causes of the fundamental problems within your psyches which you are toooooooooo petrified to confront!!! Sorry, but that’s my honest opinion. And if I am incorrect, feel free to say so, and I’d be more than happy to listen, and change my mind. But from my observations, this appears to be a fundamental psycho-illusion that many seem to be convinced is reality. And in some way it is their reality – because they BELIEVE it to be their reality. All this prancing around…. And spreading of sperm…. In fact the fundamental source for most religions, and much of the activity that most of us do day in and day out ---- IS OR IS DRIVEN BY OUR DEEPEST DESIRE TO BE LOVED, I’M NOT TALKING ABOUT BEING ‘FUCKED’ (that is simply one of the symptoms, of not finding real love, and substituting it with a Hollywood – she wants to fuck the shit out of me, i.e. she must love me cause I am so goddamn fucking desirable, kind of psycho-dysfunction (and yes we are all at times victims thereof – I don’t exclude myself from any of these psycho-dysfunctions, I am only more willing to observe them in myself, and recognize them and admit them and attempt to work on them……..those who deny they exist, can never begin to start the conversation as to why the fuck it is they don’t feel loved!!!! And why they are doing all the shit they are doing to feel loved --------- REALLY LOVED, to the bottom of their core, for who THEY REALLY ARE, not who they have to fucking RUN AROUND ON THE FUCKED UP WORLD STAGE AND PRETEND THEY ARE, AND THEN BE LOVED FOR SOMEONE WHOM THEY ARE PRETENDING TO BE………..
Now of course not many MACHO MALES are going to want to go where I am going with this……….Ain’t a very nice emotional comfort zone, to be at to be saying to yourself ………. One of the biggest driving forces in my life, for most of what I do, every day, if I analyse it not superficially, but get right down deep to the source……… the source of why I WANT THOSE NICE LITTLE PURPLE HEART RIBBONS, why I want that fucking HUMMER, why I want that bird with the fucking tight ass……….. and so on and on and on and on we go, comes down to: I WANT SOME FORM OF RECOGNITION, which from my experience from not finding LOVE as I wanted it, I then chose --- subconsciously --- to find and get it, in a different way, which at least gave me the ‘recognition’ which I would and could convert to a feeling of being loved…. 1. you cannot love another until you are willing to love yourself, NOT FOR WHO YOU PRETEND TO OTHERS YOU ARE, BUT FOR WHO YOU REALLY ARE……… 2. While we are pretending to others about who we are, we believe to some extent the story we are telling others, and to the extent that we don’t believe it, and know we are PATHETIC FOOL LIARS, we HATE OURSELVES FOR THAT…. And very often, we don’t even have the balls to take a look at ourselves and tell ourselves how much we hate ourselves for the pathetic fools LIES we are telling ourselves. We all do it, just a matter of relativity.. Some of us are so deep in our lies we don’t have more than a few minutes a day of BEING TRUE TO WHO WE REALLY ARE…….. we are so deep in emotional, psychological, financial, physical, sexual and other lies, that we are just goddamn fucking pathetic excuses for the word ‘human being’.. 3. How can anyone be true, honourable, and honest (as in speaking frankly) to another, if they aren’t honest, true, honourable and honest with themselves? Anyway…. I am getting off track…. I think I made my point.. I hope so. WE --- AS ‘HUMAN BEINGS’ – ARE DRIVEN BY AN INCREDIBLY DEEP PSYCHOLOGICAL DESIRE TO BE LOVED! IT IS WHAT GIVES US MEANING, IT’S WHAT MAKES THIS FUCKED UP EXPERIENCE CALLED ‘LIFE’ WORTHWHILE, WHAT GIVES IT SUSTENANCE, BEAUTY, AND SO MUCH MORE…. Now, in this sense, when you are working in the work that you do, and what intelligence agents do… and so on……. Well, you are spending most of every fucking day, lying to each other, playing fucking pathetic (sometimes not, sometimes very fucking serious, life threatening) mind games with each other! You don’t trust your own buddies --- let alone the assholes on the other sides! You don’t trust your business partners, you don’t trust your political leaders……. You don’t trust a goddamn fucking sole, sometimes not even your wives or husbands, because you run around lying to each other, pretending this and that shit, and playing this and that mind game and trying to fuck this and that one over, behind their back, so they don’t know it’s YOU, AND YOU ARE A BUNCH OF FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING PARANOID SCHIZOPHRENICS pathetic sad stories, of people who have been fucked over so many times by so many people, whom you thought you could trust, whom you thought were telling you the truth, but who were just predator liars (most of whom, if you dig deep enough, become such predator liars, because they have found one way to get some ‘respect’ (their definition for ‘love’, and a very fucking pathetic one at that, because fear – which they consider to be ‘respect’ is NOT LOVE, it is ANYTHING BUT LOVE).
So, here we are: bunch of psychological paranoid misfits, we are!!??? ;-) Including myself! So, -- well that ain’t a necessarily bad thing. I’d rather be a psychological paranoid misfit, with a bunch of other misfits, all of us whom admit to the reality of our psycho fuck ups and can begin to find the steps one by one, to be honourable to ourselves, which most of the time occurs when we are honourable to another, and mostly when it is difficult to do. It is VERY, VERY EASY TO PUT YOUR LIFE, IN A LIFE AND DEATH SITUATION, into someone’s hands whom you trust, a friend, or family member, or so on!!! That’s not being honourable – except slightly for the person who has taken responsibility for your life!! It is a completely different thing --- to CONSCIOUSLY, AND WITH FULL COGNISANCE OF THE GRAVITY OF WHAT YOU ARE DOING, OFFER TO PUT YOUR LIFE, AT THE MERCY OF SOMEONE WHOM YOU CONSIDER YOUR ENEMY!!! And to do so WILLINGLY, WITH GRACE, AND WITH FULL KNOWLEDGE THAT HE MAY NOT RETURN YOUR HONOURABLE OFFER TO FIND THE COURAGE TO SEE YOUR RELATIONSHIP IN A NEW PERSPECTIVE. NOW, OF COURSE, IT IS HIGHLY PLAUSIBLE THAT THOSE TOWEL HEAD FREAKS IN AL’QAEDA, ETC…. MAY NEVER COME CLOSE TO AGREEING TO SUCH A PLAN, LET ALONE BE WILLING TO PUT THEIR NAMES ON A PIECE OF PAPER, AS A CONSCIOUS COMMITMENT TO THEMSELVES AND POSTERITY, THAT THIS IS WHO THEY WERE, ON THIS AND THIS DAY, AND IN THIS AND THIS CIRCUMSTANCE, AND WHAT CHOICE THEY CHOSE TO MAKE!! IT IS QUITE POSSIBLE THAT THEY DON’T HAVE THE FUCKING BALLS… VERY POSSIBLE…. BUT MAKING THAT ASSUMPTION, WITHOUT YOURSELF BEING WILLING TO PUT YOUR MONEY WHERE YOUR MOUTH IS AND PUT YOUR NAME DOWN, AND MAKE YOUR CONSCIOUS --- FUCK PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY BULLSHIT, THE BUCK STOPS HERE ATTITUDE --- YOU AIN’T GOT A FUCKING GODDAMN MARSHMALLOW LEG TO STAND ON, TO ACCUSE THEM OF BEING TOWELHEAD COWARDS OR TRAITORS OR WHATEVER OTHER NAMES (NOT SAYING ‘YOU – DAVID’, BUT WHOMEVER MAY BE SAYING SO). FURTHERMORE, IT MAY TURN OUT THAT A GODDAMN FUCKING MIRACLE OCCURS AND LILY TRUTH PARTICIPANTS ACTUALLY MAKE A DECISION AS TO PUTTING THEIR MONEY WHERE THEIR MOUTHS ARE IN TERMS OF – FUCK PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY SHIT, THE BUCK STOPS HERE – ------- AND THE TOWELHEADS DON’T RECIPROCATE, AND PROVE THEMSELVES TO BE TOWELHEAD COWARDS!!! WELL, IF SO, THEN THAT WILL BE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ASSUMPTION (WHICH IS NOT WHAT ANYONE WHO WANTS TO CALL THEMSELVES A ‘LEADER’ OR ‘WISE’ OR ANYTHING REMOTELY TO DO WITH WISDOM) AND KNOWLEDGE OR KNOWING, AS IN KNOWING WITH ‘PROBABLE CAUSE’ OR ‘BEYOND REASONABLE DOUBT’. IF THEY DON’T SIGN AND THEY DON’T GET THEIR ACT TOGETHER, OR THEY THINK THIS IS THE MOST FUCKED CRAZY IDEA THEY HAVE EVER HEARD
OF……….. AFTER YOU HAVE MADE YOUR PATRIOT – FUCK PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY – POSITIONS CLEAR…… LET ME ASK YOU A QUESTION:
WHO HAS THE MORAL HIGH GROUND????? YOU?? WHO SIGNED, WHO MADE YOUR MORAL POSITION KNOWN?? OR THEM WHO WERE TOO MUCH OF GUTLESS COWARDS?? WHO IN THIS SCENARIO DISPLAYS THE EMOTIONAL, PSYCHOLOGICAL ETC. CHARACTERISTICS THAT ANY BOOK FOR THE PAST 2000 YEARS ON LEADERSHIP WILL TELL YOU – OR SHOULD, IF IT’S WORTH THE PAPER IT’S WRITTEN ON – HAS DISPLAYED HONEST, HONOURABLE LEADERSHIP???? IF YOU CAN’T ANSWER THAT QUESTION, AND IF WE CAN’T FIND SOME ‘BUCK STOPS HERE’ LEADERSHIP FROM THE REST OF, OR FROM ONLY SOME OF THE OTHER LILY TRUTH, WHAT UP TO NOW HAS BEEN MUCH COWARDICE, THEN PERHAPS YOU CAN FIND 20 STAFF SERGEANTS OR I DON’T CARE, IF THEY ARE GODDAMN FUCKING FIRST CLASS PRIVATES? TO FUCKING SHOW SOME LEADERSHIP!!!! AND WONDER OF WONDERS, LETS IMAGINE… LILY TRUTH PARTICIPANTS ARE STRUCK BY A FEW FUCKING SERIOUS BOLTS OF LIGHTENING WHICH WAKE THEM OUT OF THEIR GODDAMN FUCKING SLUMBER OF GUTLESS FUCKING WYOMING BULLSHIT MENTAL MASTURBATION SLUMBERLAND, AND DISPLAY SOME ‘BUCK STOPS HERE’ LEADERSHIP…… AND THEN IMAGINE THOSE FUCKING GOAT FUCKING TOWELHEADS, FIND THE SAME!!!!???? AND HEAVEN OF MERCIES, LETS IMAGINE WE ACTUALLY MANAGE TO GET THIS FUCKING – WHAT UPTO NOW HAS MADE BOSWELL’S CIRCUS MONKEYS LOOK LIKE A GODDAMN FUCKING ENLIGHTENED HUMAN BEINGS WHO CAN PUT A FUCKING SHOW ON THE ROAD ACT --- SHOW ON THE ROAD, AND END UP HAVING THIS SUMMIT, AND HAVING SOME GOOD HONEST CONVERSATIONS, WITH PEOPLE WE ONCE CONSIDERED ENEMIES, AND THEY DON’T BLOW US UP TO SMITHEREENS, AND WE DO SHARE SOME HONEST EMOTIONAL SINCERE EXPRESSIONS OF LOVE………. AND SO LET’S IMAGINE SOME OF THE GODDAMN FUCKING PROLES FIND OUT……..
SO FUCKING WHAT??????????? I HAVE NO FUCKING PROBLEM EXPLAINING IT TO THEM………. AND THEY DON’T WANT TO FUCKING LISTEN…….. I DON’T HAVE A GODDAMN FUCKING PROBLEM SITTING ON FOX FUCKING HANNITY NEWS NEXT TO OSSAMA BIN LADEN AND EXPLAINING THE SHIT TO THEM………… AND LET’S FACE IT ………………. NONE OF THESE ‘NEWS’ HAVE THE BALLS TO FUCKING RELEASE THE INFORMATION AND IF THEY DO………….. WELL, THEN THE INFORMATION HAS BEEN PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE NOW FOR MONTHS……… SO MY FIRST QUESTION TO MR. HANNITY WOULD BE: NO DISRESPECT MR. HANNITY, BUT MAY I ASK WHY IT HAS TAKEN YOU FUCKING TWO YEARS TO TELL A STORY, AND NOW TO TELL IT IN A FUCKING BIASED WAY, AND WITHOUT THE REMOTEST BIT OF CONTEXT, WHEN THE INFORMATION AND CONTEXT HAS BEEN SHARED WITH YOU ----- LEGALLY ---- FOR HOWEVER MANY MONTHS???????????? AND QUESTION NUMBER TWO MR. HANNITY: WHAT DOES THE FIRST AMENDMENT MEAN TO YOU? 4. WOULD YOU PREFER WE NUKE THE FUCKING TOWEL HEAD ARABS AND A GALLON OF GAS COSTS $8, AND ADDED TO THAT WE MAKE A BIGGER HOLE IN THE OZONE, OR MAYBE EVEN FUCKING BLOW IT TO PIECES AND MOTHER EARTH’S WOMB IS HASTA LA VISTA (IN WHICH CASE WE WILL BE HAVING THAT FOX NEWS SHOW IN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!) OR DO YOU JUST HATE THOSE TOWEL HEAD FUCKING ARABS SO FUCKING MUCH, YOU CAN’T IMAGINE THAT THERE COULD BE A DECENT ONE AMONG THE FUCKING LOT???? AND THAT THEY DESERVE TO BE FUCKED OVER, WITHOUT SO MUCH AS ANYONE SAYING --- JUST A MINUTE, BEFORE WE CONTINUE FUCKING THEM OVER, LIKE THEY HAVE BEEN FUCKED OVER FOR THE PAST 200 YEARS ---- LETS JUST MAKE A QUICK REASSESSMENT: WHAT WAS TRUE 20 YEARS AGO ABOUT TOWELHEADS BEING GOAT FUCKING MORON IMBECILE MUSLIM ARABS WITH FUCK ALL HONOUR (IF IT WAS TRUE THEN, WHICH IS DEBATABLE), MAY NOT BE TRUE TODAY…….. SO LET’S DISPLAY SOME OF THOSE FUCKING QUALITIES, WE SO MUCH DESIRE BE EXPRESSED IN OUR ALLEGED ENEMIES, WHICH JUSTIFY THE MORON IMBECILE BEHAVIOUR WE RAIN DOWN ON THEM, FOR FUCKING DECADES, AND DISPLAY IT OURSELVES, TOWARDS THEM, AND ATTEMPT TO MAKE SURE THAT THEY ‘GET IT’ THAT WE ARE SINCERE, AND IT’S NOT SOME FUCKING MENTAL MASTURBATION LAND FUCKING SMOKESCREEN TO JUST FUCK THEM OVER AGAIN LIKE WE HAVE SO MANY TIMES BEFORE…….. CAUSE IF IT IS ISN’T REAL……….. AND WE DON’T MAKE IT GODDAMN FUCKING CLEAR TO THEM THAT THE OFFER IS GODDAMN FUCKING REAL AND SINCERE……… THEN IT DOESN’T GODDAMN FUCKING MATTER HOW MUCH WE PRETEND TO OURSELVES, THAT OUR OFFER OF HONOUR, COURAGE, RESPECT, AND SO ON WAS REAL……. BECAUSE WE ARE LYING TO OURSELVES, AND WE
WILL HAVE TO GO THROUGH ANOTHER OF THE FUCKING FUCK UP PUBLIC RELATIONS BLOW BACK DISASTERS THAT SEEMS TO HAVE BEEN THE PUBLIC RELATIONS DEPARTMENTS DESTINY: LET’S SEE IF WE CAN MAKE A BIGGER FUCKING FUCK UP THAN WE DID LAST TIME, ALL WHILE PATTING OURSELVES ON THE BACK, AND LYING TO OURSELVES ABOUT HOW IT IS NOT A FUCK UP, BUT A GODDAMN FUCKING SUCCESS STORY, BECAUSE WE MANAGED TO CONVINCE A FUCKING BUNCH OF PEOPLE WITHOUT A GODDAMN FUCKING CRITICAL THINKING BRAINCELL (WE FAIL TO INCLUDE OURSELVES IN THIS CATEGORY), THAT THE REALITY WE ARE PEDDLING IS ACTUALLY ‘REALITY’!!! HA, FUCKING HA,………….. THE FUCKING JOKE IS ON THE FUCKING ASSHOLES WHO BELIEVE THE SHIT THEY PEDDLE… AND SPEND AN INORDINATE AMOUNT OF TIME RUNNING AROUND TRYING TO COVER UP THEIR GODDAMN FUCKING LIES WITH MORE LIES, UNTIL THEY ARE SO FUCKING BURIED IN LIES, THEY DON’T KNOW WHO THE FUCK THEY ARE, WHAT THE FUCK THEY ARE DOING, OR WHY………. SHOULD THEY BOTHER TO HAVE MORE THAN A FUCKING HALF AN HOUR OF SERIOUS PERSONAL SELF ANALYSIS REFLECTION, WHICH THEY DON’T!!!!!!!!!!!! SO, IF I HAVEN’T MADE MY POINT…………. WELL, AT LEAST I FUCKING TRIED, IN THE MOST CLEAR FUCKING MANNER I COULD. NOW I COULD EDIT IT, AND ATTEMPT TO MAKE IT MORE CLEAR, AND MAYBE I WILL. BUT I’LL SEND THIS OFF THE CUFF STUFF ANYWAY. UGLY AS IT MAY SOUND…… BUT YOU MORE THAN MANY OTHERS, CAN I IMAGINE HANDLE IT, AND MORE THAN OTHERS APPRECIATE THE --- FUCK THIS GODDAMN FUCKING DIPLOMATIC BULLSHIT WHERE PEOPLE FUCKING TELL YOU TO GO FUCK YOURSELF WITH BODY LANGUAGE, AND SHIT, ALL WHILE SMILING IN YOUR FACE AND SAYING ‘HOW ARE YOU HONEY’? SHIT ---I DON’T KNOW ABOUT YOU …………… BUT THAT FUCKING BULLSHIT HORSESHIT GODDAMN FUCKING MENTAL MINDFUCK I CAN DO WITHOUT!!!!!!!!!!!! IF I AM PISSED OFF WITH YOU, OR YOU WITH ME……… I DON’T MIND IF YOU SAY IT IN THE MOST BRUTAL TERMS THAT COME TO MIND, THAT ALLOW YOU TO EXPRESS WHAT YOU ARE THINKING NO MATTER HOW ‘UGLY’ OR UNPOLITICALLY CORRECT, THAT YOU ARE THINKING RIGHT THEN AND THERE…………. AND TO APPRECIATE YOU FOR THAT HONESTY, EVEN IF THE WORDS MAY HURT… BUT I CANNNOT BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THE FUCK SOMEONE IS PISSED OFF ABOUT THAT I DID, IF I DON’T FUCKING KNOW WHY THEY ARE PISSED OFF…….. AND I DON’T KNOW WHY SOMEONE IS PISSED OFF…. WHEN THEY ARE PRETENDING THEY ARE NOT …….. WITH ‘HOW ARE YOU HONEY’ SHIT……… WHEN WHAT THEY REALLY ARE SAYING IS……. I FUCKING HATE YOU, OR WHATEVER……. I’D BE HAPPIER THEY TOLD ME ‘I HATE YOU’, AND I CAN SAY ‘FINE, IS IT CURABLE WITH SOME CONVERSATION TO GET TO WHY, AND MAYBE I CAN BE MORE SENSITIVE TO WHAT IT IS I DO THAT MAKES YOU HATE ME, OR WOULD YOU JUST PREFER THAT WE STAY OUT OF EACH OTHERS WAYS, AND RESPECT EACH OTHERS SPACE? NO BIG DEAL.
ANYWAY……… GOT ENOUGH SAID. IF I HAVEN’T MADE MY POINT --- WELL, GOOD THING, I AIN’T GOT A REAL VETO WITH THE IAEA, IS IT????? VERY GOOD THING! BUT IF I HAVEN’T MADE MY POINT……….. WELL, AT LEAST I WILL KNOW, I CAN FOCUS MY TIME ON SELLING MORE WORMS, SAVING MY FUNDS, INSTEAD OF ATTEMPTING TO MAKE A POINT TO PEOPLE WHO WON’T LISTEN, AND TALK DIRECTLY TO ME, FACE TO FACE…… OR APPRECIATE A GESTURE OF HONOUR AND SINCERITY TO DISPLAY THE QUALITIES THAT THEY HAVE IN THEMSELVES, IF ONLY THEY COULD FIND THE COURAGE WITHIN THEMSELVES…….. ANYWAY, IF SO, MAYBE ONE DAY……. I WILL SAVE MONEY AND I CAN ALWAYS GO SAILING, AND GIVE UP ATTEMPTING TO PROVIDE A SPACE FOR A CONVERSATION THAT NOBODY WANTS TO HAVE………. RATHER THAT EVERYONE WANTS TO HANG ON TO THEIR LITTLE MENTAL MASTURBATION LAND FANTASIES AS ACTUALLY BEING LOVE OR SUCH SHIT……. AND NOT EVEN BEING ABLE TO HAVE THE COURAGE TO DO THEIR OWN MENTAL MASTURBATION FANTASIES, BUT HAVING TO USE MILITARY TECHNOLOGY AND SUCH SHIT……… TO WATCH OTHERS, AND SO ON……. I MEAN REALLY!! FOR FUCKS SAKES…… I AM NOT INTERESTED IN FUCKING BEING A GODDAMN FUCKING PARTICIPANT IN SOMEONE’S FUCKING IMAGINATION FANTASY. BEING WATCHED BY A BUNCH OF MEN WHO DON’T HAVE THE FUCKING BALLS TO DO THEIR OWN MENTAL MASTURBATION SHIT. I MEAN HOW FUCKING PATHETICALLY DESTITUTELY IMAGINATIVELY WITHOUT ANY FUCKING SENSE OF YOUR OWN SENSE OF WORTH AND CREATIVITY DO YOU HAVE TO BE, TO HAVE TO SPEND YOUR FUCKING TIME IN ANOTHER PERSONS FUCKING FANTASIES, AND ATTEMPTING TO --- LIKE SOME DO --- FUCK WITH THAT PERSONS THOUGHTS, TO FORCE THEM PSYCHOLOGICALLY TO INCLUDE YOU --- WHOM THEY DON’T WANT TO – IN THEIR IMAGINATIONS??????? JESUS CHRIST ---- DO YOU WANT SOME ASSHOLE FANTASISING ABOUT YOU, WHOM YOU DON’T LIKE, AND THEN USING THE MILITARY’S FUCKING TECHNOLOGY TO FUCK WITH YOUR MIND, TO BEAM FUCKING SHIT INTO YOUR BRAIN TO ATTEMPT TO FORCE YOU TO WANT TO FANTASISE ABOUT THEM???????? I DON’T THINK SO……….. AND I WOULD FUCKING NOT DO THAT TO ANYONE ---I WOULDN’T FUCKING WANT TO! GODDAMN SOMEONE DOESN’T FUCKING LIKE YOU, WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU WANT TO FORCE YOURSELF UPON THEM, IF THEY DON’T WANT TO??????????? I MEAN A SIMPLE: THANKS BUT NO THANKS WOULD BE FINE………. AND IF THAT DIDN’T FUCKING GET THROUGH, CAUSE FOR SOME REASON I WAS BEING DUMB AS A FUCKING DOORPOST, OR DIDN’T MISS THE POLITE QUE……….. FUCK OFF……… WOULD BE FINE. I’D RATHER FUCK OFF, AND SPEND TIME WITH PEOPLE WHO WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH ME --- OF WHICH THERE ARE VERY FEW…. BUT THAT’S OKAY --- AT LEAST I AM NOT WASTING MY TIME SPENDING TIME WITH FUCKING ASSHOLES
WHO ARE PRETENDING TO SPEND TIME WITH ME, CAUSE THEY ACTUALLY LIKE ME. I’D RATHER BE ON MY OWN, THAN SPENDING TIME WITH PEOPLE WHO DON’T WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH ME. SO, NO DISRESPECT INTENDED…………. DO YOU, OR DO YOU NOT, WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH ME, AND IF NOT THAT IS JUST FINE, AND IT DOESN’T HAVE TO HAPPEN. NOR DOES IT HAVE TO HAPPEN AS IN TERMS OF ‘LILY TRUTH’. THAT WAS JUST A PLAN OR IDEA, THAT ATTEMPTED TO BRIDGE FOR ME THE DIVIDE BETWEEN SOLVING A FEW PROBLEMS, ALL AT THE SAME TIME, OR AS MANY AS POSSIBLE AT THE SAME TIME…. SO, IF THE ANSWER IS NOT UNEQUIVOCAL, I SHALL TAKE IT AS A: THANKS BUT NO THANKS --- OR ‘FUCK OFF’ AND IF SO… NO PROBLEM…. LET ME KNOW IF YOU EVER CHANGE YOUR MIND. AND IF I HAVE BOTHERED YOU: I’M SORRY, I GUESS I MISREAD SHIT, AND CLEARLY MADE ASSUMPTIONS THAT WERE INCORRECT, AND AT LEAST NOW I WILL BE CLEARER, DEPENDING ON WHAT THE RESPONSE IS. AND IF IT IS FUCK OFF…… WHEN YOU CALM DOWN. I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST, AND I DON’T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE HOW YOU ARE GOING TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF IRAQ (EXCEPT BY PASSING THE BUCK TO SOME OTHER POOR FUCK), AND MAYBE THAT MAY JUST BE AN OPTION FOR YOU. IF PRESIDENT BUSH WANT’S TO FUCKING PUT HIS HEAD IN THE FUCKING SAND, AND THERE AIN’T A GODDAMN FUCKING GENERAL WHO WILL PICK HIM UP FROM THE FUCKING GROUND BY HIS GODDAMN FUCKING TIE AND READ HIM HIS GODDAMN FUCKING RIGHTS, THEN THERE AIN’T ANYONE TO BLAME BUT THE GENERALS WHO PUT UP WITH THIS BULLSHIT FROM HIM. BUT, I SHALL HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO…….. AND SHALL FIND OTHER HITCHHIKING THINGS TO GO AND DO. AND MAYBE ONE DAY TIM WILL JOIN ME, AND MAYBE HE WON’T. AND I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING HIM; BUT I CAN’T MAKE HIM WANT TO FIND THE BALLS TO WANT TO BE WITH ME, IF HE WON’T TELL ME WHAT OR WHY IT IS, THAT HE WON’T BE WITH ME, OR CAUSE PRESIDENT BUSH CAN’T FUCKING MAKE UP HIS MIND, OR WHAT THE GODDAMN FUCKING REASONS ARE. I DO KNOW I AM FUCKING TIRED OF TRYING TO FIGURE THEM OUT? I AM TIRED OF RUNNING AROUND ON A GODDAMN FUCKING LEASH HOPING AND HOPING TO FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL SUPPORT THE TRUTH ABOUT OKLAHOMA AND THE FAKED EXECUTION, EXCEPT MICHAEL MARTIN --- BLESS HIS GODDAMN FUCKING SOUL. I REGRET THE FUCKING DAY I DROPPED HIM OFF AT LODI. DON’T I FUCKING REGRET THAT DAY! OH WELL……….. ANYWAY…….. SAD STORY WHEN PEOPLE CAN’T THINK FOR THEMSELVES AND HAVE TO SPEND THEIR TIME INVADING OTHER PEOPLE’S PRIVATE THOUGHTS, ISN’T IT?
IF YOU CAN’T EVEN HAVE THE SANCTITY OF YOUR OWN THOUGHTS, WHAT THE FUCK DOES THE 1ST AMENDMENT MEAN TO THE FUCKING MILITARY AND INTELLIGENCE AGENTS ON THIS PLANET????? SWEET FUCK ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU WANT TO FUCKING INVADE THE MOST PRIVATE OF A HUMAN BEINGS FUCKING IDENTITY………. AND YOU DON’T HAVE THE FUCKING GODDAMN FUCKING BALLS TO EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE TO REVEAL YOUR FUCKING VOICE AND HAVE A FUCKING CONVERSSATION……….. NO FUCK THAT……….. YOU HAVE TO HIDE BEHIND YOUR FUCKING TECHNOLOGY…. BEAM FUCKING MESSAGES AND QUESTIONS AND BULLSHIT…….. AND NOT FUCKING TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR WHO, OR WHERE YOU ARE, OR WHY THE FUCK YOU HAVE THE COURAGE OF A FUCKING DEAD ROTTING GOAT!!! ANYWAY…….. I’LL GET OVER IT…. OR I’LL FIND A FUCKING TRAIN AND THIS TIME IT WILL BE CONSCIOUS, NOT A FUCKING MISTAKE…………. AND I’LL FUCKING FIND SOME FUCKING PRIVACY IN DEATH SO ENJOY YOUR FUCKED UP LITTLE GAMES………. AND PAT YOURSELVES ON THE BACK FOR FUCKING OVER THE ONE PERSON WHO GAVE A HORSES FUCK ABOUT YOUR ‘SOULS’ AND WHO ATTEMPTED TO DO ALL POSSIBLE TO UNDERSTAND AND WHOM YOU CONTINUE TO FUCK OVER!!!! WELL, WE SHALL SEE………. BUT TIME IS RUNNING VERY FUCKING LOW…….. AND MY PATIENCE WITH GUTLESS COWARDS IS VERY THIN……….. SO APOLOGIES IF THIS IS OVER THE TOP, AND CLEARLY THERE ARE SOME WHO CERTAINLY DON’T DESERVE THIS TONGUE LASHING…. AND THEY KNOW WHO THEY ARE….. BUT ON ONE POINT ---- YOU ALL FUCKING DO!!! AND YOU KNOW VERY FUCKING WELL, WHAT THAT POINT IS……………… VERY FUCKING WELL……. AND IT’S A FUCKING JOKE FOR YOU………….. SO WHAT THE FUCK DOES HTAT SAY ABOUT WHAT YOU FEEL ABOUT ME??????????????? IF IT IS A FUCKING JOKE, TO KICK SOMEONE IN THE FACE REPEATEDLY WHILE THEY ARE ATTEMPTING TO SHOW LOVE, KINDNESS, COMPASSION AND DECENCY???
WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT SAY ABOUT YOU? DON’T ASK ME????
ASK YOURSELVES…………. SO MAYBE THE PHONE RINGS ONE DAY, OR NOT…….. OR MAYBE YOU SIGN THOSE FORMS OR NOT….. OR MAYBE WHO KNOWS?????????? GUESS WE SHALL SEE, I WON’T HOLD MY BREATH FOR A DISPLAY OF ANYTHING REMOTELY RESEMBLING HONOUR OR SUCH SHIT…. CAUSE IT APPEARS VERY CLOSE TO BEYOND REASONABLE DOUBT .. THAT SUCH FUCKING HORSESHIT AIN’T HIGH ON PRIORITY LISTS…… SO ENJOY YOUR PARANOID EXISTENCES, STAY ATTACHED TO YOUR MENTAL MASTURBATION LAND FANTASIES, WITHOUT THE GODDAMN FUCKING BALLS TO EXAMINE WHY IT IS THAT YOU ARE AS FUCKED UP AS YOU ARE…………AND WHY YOUR FUCKING LIVES ARE AS MEANINGLESS, AND EMPTY AS THEY ARE, THAT YOU HAVE TO SPEND THE TIME YOU DO, TO ATTEMPT TO FIND MEANING IN THIS WAY………. AND DON’T HAVE THE BALLS TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY TO THE PERSON YOU ALLEGEDLY IN MENTAL MASTURBATION LAND…….. WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH…… WHAT A FUCKING PATHETIC SAD STORY……….. DON’T KNOW HOW MANY MORE TEARS I SHALL CRY FOR YOUR LOST SOULS, BUT THERE AIN’T A GODDAMN FUCKING MORE THING I CAN DO ABOUT YOUR GUTLESS COWARDICE, IF YOU ARE TOO AFRAID TO DO ANYTYING ABOUT IT YOURSELVES……… SO WHEN YOU CHANGE YOUR MINDS… NO DOUBT YOU WILL FIND ME…… AND IM TALKING ABOUT PHYSICAL REALITY, NOT YOUR PATHETIC MENTAL MASTURBATION DENIAL OF REALITY LAND……. TAKE CARE I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU, BUT I CAN’T DO IT FOR BOTH OF US. I CAN’T BE WITH YOU IF YOU DON’T WANT TO BE WITH ME… WHEN YOU DO, LET ME KNOW. TILL THEN… NO DOUBT THERE ARE THOUSANDS OF WOMEN WHO WOULD LOVE TO BE ENTERTAINED IN THEIR IMAGINATIONS BY THE ATTENTIONS OF MENTAL MASTURBATION LAND GUTLESS COWARD SPYCHO FREAKS……… SO, ENJOY AND DO ME A FAVOUR --- LEAVE ME ALONE! OR STAND UP AND BE COUNTED. YOU HAVE A CHOICE ---- MAKE IT!!! TIME IS RUNNING SHORT………. AND IF THERE AIN’T A MAJOR FUCKING SHIFT IN ATTITUDE --- BECAUSE YOU FUCKING WANT TO CHANGE THIS CHARADE TO REALITY………. AND IF NOT FINE…. BUT BE CLEAR ABOUT THIS: I AM NOT GOING TO CONTINUE THIS FUCKING CHARADE FOR MUCH LONGER, UNLESS I SEE SOME GODDAMN FUCKING MEN WHO KNOW THEY HAVE A GODDAMN FUCKING LOLLIPOP THAT IS WORTH STANDING UP FOR……… CAUSE IF NOT………. THEN THE REALITY IS: I SHALL BE MY OWN GODDAMN FUCKING LOLIPOP. SO --- I WILL BE EXPENDABLE --- AND THAT’S HOW YOU ALWAYS WANTED IT, CAUSE YOU DIDN’T HAVE THE FUCKING BALLS TO SAY ‘THE BUCK STOPS HERE’………
WELL I DO………… I MAY BE MUCH EASIER INI TERMS OF EXPENDABILITY TO YOU……….. NOBODY WILL EVER KNOW…. EXCEPT THAT THEY DO……….. JUST NOT TALKED ABOUT…. IN THIS WONDERFUL ‘FREE PRESS’ WE HAVE………. WHAT A FUCKING PATHETIC JOKE! BUT YOU WILL HAVE LOST MORE THAN YOU WILL AT FIRST COMPREHEND……… YOU WILL HAVE LOST SOMEONE’S TRUST, FAITH, AND NOT JUST MINE………… IT MAY TAKE YEARS FOR YOU TO LOOK BACK AND SEE THE OPPORTUNITY FOR GROWTH YOU HAD, THE OPPORTUNITY FOR A LIFE OF MEANING, THE OPPORTUNITY TO SHOW A PART OF YOURSELVES, THAT YOU --IN YOUR HEART OF HEARTS WISH YOU HAD THE BALLS TO DISPLAY ----- AND YET, NOW THAT THAT MOMENT IS HERE:
WHAT WILL YOU DO????
LET ME KNOW
TAKE CARE ALL MY LOVE LARA