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Maunakea administrative rules up for adoption at November’s BOR meeting in Hilo

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Changes to the latest draft still spark controversy

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Signs held in opposition to the administrative rules for Maunakea at the second round of public hearings at Mānoa Elementary School on June 3. Over 100 people attended, and 40 people testified.

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The latest draft of the Maunakea administrative rules will be presented to the Board of Regents for consideration at the University of Hawai‘ i at Hilo on Nov. 6, after the meeting was rescheduled three times within four months.

“I think the regents are a lot more comfortable taking this matter up considering its significance,” UH spokesman Dan Meisenzahl said.

Following the 2009 ACT 132, the state legislature gave authority for the BOR to adopt the rules if they protect cultural and natural resources and ensure public safety.

If accepted, the draft will be sent to the governor for final approval. If rejected, the process of revising and public hearings will start over.

The design came from the 1998 audit to help UH manage the 11,000-acre land, excluding the small portion of the summit where the telescopes are located.

A 600-page report will showcase some of the modified rules to provide clarification on safety precautions for the public.

Jesse Souki, UH associate general counsel, said a few rules that were changed included camping and the appeal time.

Under Chapter 20-26-2, “‘Camping’

means the use of UH management areas (other than designated facilities at Halepōhaku) for living accommodation purposes such as sleeping activities, or making preparation to sleep (including but not limited to the laying down of bedding for the purpose of sleeping).”

the revised version makes it 15 days.

“We modified the rules based on the public comments,” Souki said.

“Strong reactions, but you don’t know sometimes what people think about until you get to those hearings.”

Hundreds have testified in the past rounds of public hearings

Tiele-Lauren Doudt, one of the participants of the Bachman Hall sit-in, said that students are preparing to gather funds to fly out and testify in opposition to the rules.

“It was clearly articulated that it’s not meant to help Hawaiians in any way,” Doudt said of the rules.

“I know there’s some clauses that says cultural practitioners can go up with permit, but I don’t think We modified the rules based on the public indigenous people should be comments. Strong reactions, but you don’t restricted to have to fill out paperwork and get approval from a forknow sometimes what people think about eigner or from someone that hasn’t until you get to those hearings. spent generations here.”

– JESSE SOUKI, “But I’m interested in seeing the UH ASSOCIATE GENERAL COUNSEL community engagement because this situation has been prolonged Souki said blankets were an indi- across the islands. Last year, there for so long.” cation of camping in the previous were 406 written testimonies and 92 draft, so the rules were changed who testified in person. The number for people to have blankets without of people orally testifying increased MORE INFO being fined. to 133 while 332 submitted written UNIVERSITY OF HAWAI‘I “The concern is people staying testimonies over the summer.

BOARD OF REGENTS overnight,” he said. “We don’t have “A lot of the testimonies overSPECIAL MEETING the facilities, and it’s dangerous all was not about the rules,” Souki because of the high altitudes.” said. “A lot of it was about ‘you don’t Camping falls under public activ- have jurisdiction over it (Maunakea) DATE ities violations. Fines for the first because the kingdom still exists.’ WEDNESDAY, NOV. 6 violation can range from $50 to That’s an important issue, but we $400, and a third time is between can’t pass rules about that. That’s TIME 9:45 A.M. $1,001 and $2,500. Other violations not what these rules are for.” can increase to $10,000.

Critics, including UH students, In the previous draft, the appeal have voiced their concerns on how LOCATION time was six days from when the vio- strict the rules are and fears of them University of Hawai‘i at Hilo lation is received, but Souki said that inhibiting Native Hawaiian practices.

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UH Manoa students provide perspective of Bachman Hall sit-in Four lives meet in one space C A SSIE O R DO NIO // MA NAGING EDITO R Their day starts at 8 a.m. with an ‘aha, an everyday ceremony to support the kia‘i on Maunakea in opposition of the Thirty Meter Telescope.

Four kia‘i reflect on their experience of the sit-in. Some have occupied the building since day one, while others have joined later.

Tiele-Lauren Doudt, Jonathan Fisk and Beau Shishido have been part of the sit-in from the first day, and Kamalani Oshiro followed over a month ago.

The longest sit-in in the history of the University of Hawai‘i hasn’t been

a walk in the park for the kia‘i. It’s not just about sitting in the building; there’s an emotional toll as well.

The students occupying Bachman must balance school work, family matters, jobs and other expectations. Through rain and shine, the kia‘i have spent the nights within the corridors of Bachman.

“I can’t wait until this whole thing’s over so I can retire,” Shishido joked.

The kia‘ i and the administration have yet to come to an agreement, and it seems that this will

not change anytime soon.

Just a few steps away from UH President David Lassner’s office, it was a morning routine to see him walking in and out. Some kia‘i said that it is interesting while others say it is awkward.

“Kapu aloha always,” Fisk said.

“We greet him, we’re nice to him, and not even like tongue-in-cheek kind nice to him. We are nice to him because part of kapu aloha is that it has to be genuine. You can’t be fake nice because that’s not actual aloha. That said, it really is uncom-

fortable, up until two weeks ago, they’ve been trying to get a meeting with him for ages since the occupation.”

Through the draped clothing across the stairwell and the scattered placements of the bedding, and killing a couple centipedes here and there, the kia‘ i prepare themselves for another lock-in.

“We knew from the start that this was going to be a long battle on how we can change the administration’s mind, but we’re still hopeful,” Shishido said.

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Beau Shishido described his childhood as a unique one. He grew up on the Hawaiian Home Lands of Papakolea. He said that his hometown felt more country, where kids played in the streets, the parks and with sticks.

He dreams of owning his own farm either on the Big Island or on O‘ahu. This dream came from learning about his culture in high school.

“I’m hoping after all of this is all done, I can make enough money to have my own farm,” Shishido said. “It doesn’t have to be big, it’s just for sustainability purposes and have outreach programs for kids.”

He did not grow up learning the Hawaiian culture or language. His great grandfather was the last to learn the language, but never passed it down.

“It was a big thing,” he said. “A lot of Hawaiians grew up without learning the language.”

Shishido later attended UH learning more about the history and finally the lan-

Tiele-Lauren Doudt was taught to “never make waves,” a saying that was passed down in her family in Kauai, where she spent approximately 11 years of her life.

Mostly quiet and shy, Doudt found her voice once she got to UH. It was when Doubt and her classmates went to a Board of Regents meeting in Maui to speak up about their concerns over TMT. She said that she felt overwhelmed and cried most of the time in silence.

It wasn’t until one of her professors pulled her to the side and said, “Your education, leaving your family at such a young age, and your scholarship. None of that means anything if you don’t use your voice to speak up for the community that you serve.”

“That stuck with me,” she said.

Doudt spends most of her time at the sit-in. She shows fierceness and assertion as she organizes meetings.

Though Doudt disagrees with the UH administration, she said that she still loves

guage, but he holds his community close to him, making up for lost time away from it.

“I had to spend more time away from my community just because of how much time my school took and all the sports I played in high school,” he said. ”I think that was a change. Not a bad change, but I’ve learned a lot to where I can bring back to my community.”

Shishido kept that mentality during the sit-in, but as calm and collected as he appears, there was anger following the arrests of kupuna on Maunakea over the summer.

He said that bringing anger into a space is toxic, but admitted that he was more nervous and scared going into the sit-in.

Though Shishido balances the sit-in and school work, he still has to go home to cut the grass for his mother. His mother supports him by visiting him and bringing over his dog.

“She’s pretty tough,” he said. “She’s not too much of crier. I think she only cries more for movies than she does for her kids, but I think she knows we can handle it.”

the institution she attends.

Though her family taught her the opposite, Doudt said that they were supportive of her decision to occupy Bachman Hall.

“I think that they’ve realized that Hawaiians have been quiet for too long, and that the only way we can change is if we do it ourselves. I think my family realized that they did nothing and played it safe their whole lives. Now their children have to carry the kuleana for them.”

As she was in the lock-in, Doudt said that she dreamed of what Hawai‘ i would look like if TMT were to never be built.

“Even if this was a failure, I will always have my community and my ‘āina to return to,” she said.

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Jonathan Fisk is of Puerto Rican descent from Long Beach, California. Fisk transferred from Stanford University to UH two years ago, two years after the 2015 arrests of 30 protesters on Maunakea.

Fisk joined the sit-in from day one. He said his gut feeling told him where he needed to be. His outspoken and spunky personality will not go unnoticed. He can talk with sass, but it’s “kapu aloha always,” as he said.

“As an indigenous person, I understand the importance of land and the relationships we built with land,” he said. “Therefore being on someone else’s land, it’s my responsibility to fight for that land. For me, it’s a no brainer to be invested in this fight as I would be for my own lands.”

During the weekdays, Fisk sleeps outside by the ahu outside the Bachman

Kamalani Oshiro grew up only knowing one Hawaiian family outside of his home in Southern California.

“My parents tried to raise me and my sister with Hawaiian culture and values, but there’s so much you can’t learn being so far and disconnected geographically from the ‘āina,” he said.

His grandmother was the main caretaker, but the language was lost during her generation. This is because his great grandparents were trying to save the family from being shamed for speaking and practicing their culture during the time in which it was forbidden.

When he attended UH last year, he followed a lesson from his professor, Jamaica Osorio, to write his own mo‘olelo (story).

“It’s that reassurance what I’m doing

Hall entrance. He listens to the rain and admires the plants around him, but during the lock-in he does not have this luxury.

Though they support him, he said that he tries not to share a lot with his family so as not to stress them out.

“It gets really hot because this building does not have ventilation,” he said. “We can’t walk around and get fresh air. It is really uncomfortable, and by the end of it we feel fatigued.”

“But my parents also know, even if I come out every weekend more and more tired, I’m not gonna fall apart and I’m not going to have a breakdown because we’re all resolute in being steadfast. My parents know that so it stresses them out.”

If you ask him what he’s going to do after he graduates, he will reply with a chuckle.

“Who knows,” he shrugged.

here isn’t just affecting me, it’s going to affect future generations to come,” he said.

Oshiro went to Maunakea over the summer to experience what has been happening. Because attending classes at UH Mānoa kept Oshiro from going to Maunakea, he wanted to show support by participating in the sit-in.

“Ever since then that experience opened my eyes to what it’s like to be kanaka and sort of kindle that fire in me,” he said.

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Putting on a “Happy Face” at the Hawaii Theatre

Hamilton got a job at an advertising agency doing public relations work.

“After a year of that, I just wasn’t very happy,” he said. “I was thinking about jokes, and I started doing more comedy, and then I got laid off from my job. That was probably one of the greatest things that happened to me because I was looking for another job.”

Eventually, Hamilton decided to pursue comedy as a career.

FROM A POTATO TOWN TO THE BIG APPLE

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Comedians nowadays have to find ways to stand out from the rest. Ryan Hamilton comes from a small, rural town in Idaho – something he believes that contributes to his uniqueness as a comedian.

“Where do you want to begin?

Should we start with my face?”

Hamilton says as he begins his new one-hour standup comedy special “Happy Face.”

Hamilton is embarking on his first solo tour and will perform at the Hawaii Theatre on Nov. 9.

His standup special is currently streaming on Netflix.

“I have an hour of standup comedy that I’m very excited to share,” Hamilton said in a phone interview. “It’s something that I think a large group of people can enjoy even if they have never heard of me. It’s not necessarily an all-ages show, but it’s something that you can bring your grandmother to, and I think she would have a good time.”

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BECOMING A JOKER

Growing up, Hamilton did not think that he would pursue a career in comedy. He was interested in becoming a journalist, but he admitted that he was interested in comedy because he wanted to be funny.

“When I was about 12, I really wanted to be a newspaper columnist,” he said. “I thought that would be really fun to have a funny column in the newspaper, because I would read these columns and I thought it was the best job in the world. So I called the local newspaper, and they let me have a column. So I had a column in the newspaper, and that was one of the first times when

I was trying to be publicly funny, I was just writing it be funny.”

Hamilton eventually attended Brigham Young University-Idaho and earned associate degrees in journalism and public relations. He then transferred to Brigham Young University and earned a bachelor’s degree in public relations.

He said that one of his very first experiences with comedy was in college, where he and other classmates had a standup comedy show for their school’s radio station as part of a class.

He was 18 then, and did not do standup comedy again until he was 24. After he graduated from college,

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Hamilton moved to New York to pursue his comedy career. It was something that he did not expect, especially being from Idaho.

“It just never crossed my mind,” he said. “My dad was from California, I thought maybe I would end up there someday, but I love New York for comedy. It was like a comedy playground, it was a place where you could get on stage multiple times a night, and that just really appealed to me.”

Hamilton said that being a comedian was not difficult because he was passionate about it.

“I guess for someone who wasn’t in love with it, it would be torture, maybe,” he said. “But I found it enjoyable. It was just something that I wanted to do, constantly. I almost would do it in lieu of everything else. I wouldn’t make plans because I wanted to be at the comedy club.”

The inspiration for his shows and jokes comes from a mix of his personal experiences. Hamilton said that he writes his ideas down and revists them later.

“It’s like a little jolt, and you go,

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It started with a news brief about KTUH’s switch from FM to FM-stereo radio in the Oct. 15, 1969 issue of Ka Leo that got Richard Lenox joining KTUH his freshman year.

One of the first members of the station, Lenox worked as a DJ at KTUH from October 1969 to November 1974. During his time at KTUH, he held the positions of production director and program director. Audio production was what drew Lenox to join.

“With these innovations there is a need for more people to work as recorders and interviewers” was the exact line from the 1969 Ka Leo issue that brought Lenox to KTUH. “I think that for most of the staff, the music was the thing,” Lenox said. “For me it was the technology. I was one of the techno-nerds that helped engineer and produce the live and recorded broadcasts which made up a small but significant portion of KTUH’s programming.”

KTUH was not only the place where Lenox met his first wife, Kay Ah You, it was also a stepping stone for him. Lenox’s experience paved a path for him in broadcasting and to his dream job of supporting video servers used by broadcasts, cable

‘Oh, that’s really interesting. Maybe there’s something there,’” he said.

“It’s usually not funny yet, but it just seems like something that I think is interesting, maybe more people have had that similar experience, it’s relatable enough, it’s odd enough, that I write it down, and I start to think about how I can talk about it.”

His work eventually paid off, as he was named one of Rolling Stone’s Five Comics to Watch in 2012 and had appearances on The Late Show with Stephen Colbert, Conan and The Late Late Show with James Corden. Hamilton was also a finalist on NBC’s Last Comic Standing and was featured on Comedy Central’s Inside Amy Schumer.

BECAUSE HE’S HAPPY

When asked about the inspiration behind the title of his Netflix special “Happy Face,” Hamilton said it was because he looks really happy all the time.

“I have a big smile that I’ve always kind of been self conscious about,” Hamilton said. “I don’t know why. I show a lot of teeth when I smile, it’s just something that people kind of associate with me.”

He jokes about how he can’t show up to a funeral smiling, and says that he could probably sell ice cream in the ‘50s with his look.

Ultimately, Hamilton says that he is excited to come to Hawai‘i to perform comedy.

“It’s a fun, exciting night, for me to be able to come there, especially Hawai‘ i,” he said. “It’s like a marriage of two of my favorite things, so it’s a dream come true for me to come.”

networks and stations worldwide.

“It provided me with a focus at school and in my life,” Lenox said. “I spent most of my time outside of class hanging around the studios. There was always something to do – a lecture to be recorded, or a remote broadcast to set up.”

Celebrating its 50th year, Fred Barbaria recalled the time he had to lobby the administration at the University of Hawai‘i at Mānoa for a license because they could not get one on their own. Barbaria was a cofounder of the station whom Lenox worked with during his time at KTUH. “It took a couple years to convince the university that we weren’t going to try to incite a riot or anything,” Barbaria said. “These were exciting times.

There were a lot of protests going on and sit-ins.”

KTUH gave Barbaria a sense of family. “It was my detriment because I spent more time at KTUH than on my studies,” he said.

“There’s a lot to be said about curated music that’s by the taste and whim of the person who’s putting the show together,” Babaria said. “You don’t get that on Spotify, you don’t get that on Pandora. I mean they’re just done with algorithms, there’s no brain involved.”

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LESSONS FROM A SURVIVOR Moving on from an abusive relationship

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The University of Hawai‘i at Mānoa’s Department of Public Safety provides a number of services to ensure the safety of students, staff and faculty on campus.

In addition to its 24/7 escort service, DPS provides a free app called the Mānoa Guardian. The Mānoa Guardian app, housed under a parent company called Rave Guardian, ensures that you have direct access to DPS services at all times.

First released in 2015, the app went through a major update in October.

Here is an overview of all of Mānoa Guardian’s current features: Safety Timer: One of the app’s most unique features is the “Safety Timer.” The Safety Timer can be set to your approximate travel time to reach your destination and will track your location until you turn off the timer. Upon your arrival, you must deactivate the timer with a PIN; otherwise, DPS dispatchers are automatically notified and will send officers to your location.

Your phone’s location setting must be turned on for the app to track your location. Alternatively, users may also update their status on the Safety Timer page with their location and situation.

The safety timer acts as a 24/7 self-reliant safety measure, especially when the user is on campus alone.

“We have students who use it when they’re going to walk across campus at night,” DPS Community Programs Manager Sarah Rice said.

“We have students that use it when they’re just waiting at the bus stop.”

In situations where the user is forced to deactivate their Safety Timer session, they can enter a “Duress PIN,” which is simply their normal PIN plus one. For example, if your PIN is 2222, your Duress Pin would be 2223.

Users who do not want the Mānoa Guardian to call DPS have the option of automatically notifying family or friends instead. By entering a phone number in the “Friends & Family” section of the Safety Timer page, you can add that contact as a “Guardian” for the app to contact in the event that you do not deactivate your timer. Be sure to wait for their confirmation that they have accepted your request to be your Guardian. If your Guardian fails to respond to your Safety Timer invitation within 5 minutes, the session will be cancelled. However, if you

select DPS as a guardian, your session will start and you will not need confirmation from DPS. Tip reporting: The app also features a tip submission to report suspicious activity on campus, regardless of urgency. Users may choose to report tips through text or photos under categories such as abuse/assault, bullying, drugs/ alcohol and mental health.

“We get a variety of different things in the chat feature. It’s usually something that – not always – but usually something that’s not an immediate emergency, so it might be something like, ‘Hey, there’s an intoxicated person at the bus stop and I’m worried about them,’ or there’s been people who’ve reported skateboarding in places where they’re not supposed to be skateboarding,” Rice said.

Text/Call DPS: Users can connect to DPS dispatchers via the app’s call function and, optionally, share their location. Do note that, just as with the safety timer, you must have your phone’s location setting turned on.

However, if you are in a place or situation in which you do not feel comfortable speaking, the app also provides a way to text message DPS dispatchers through the tip submission’s “Just Connect Me” category.

Call directory: The app houses a call directory of essential numbers on campus. Not only are emergency service numbers listed, the contacts of useful UH Mānoa organizations such as the Mānoa Bookstore, Cashier’s Office, Office of Student Housing and the DPS Safety Escort Service are shown as well.

“Now if someone needs it, they have an instant call directory whether its Title IX, University Health Services, or even Financial Aid (Services), so it’s useful for more than just safety too,” Rice said. “You can use it just like having a little phonebook in your hand.”

Content directory: The Mānoa Guardian’s content directory, located under the call directory, features campus resources such as DPS’s official emergency response guidebook, UH Alert sign-ups, the academic calendar, campus map and UH Mānoa’s policies and procedures.

For more information about the Mānoa Guardian app, visit manoa. hawaii.edu/dps/manoaguardian.html.

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“You left scars on my skin that will never let me forget what love isn’t,” quoted from Reyna Biddy’s poem, “10 reasons I could never stay.” I played her poem repeatedly to where it’s embedded in me – and those words saved my life.

I saw all of the red flags, and I ignored them. When you feel like you love someone, it’s the last thing on your mind to think that person could do anything to hurt you, belittle you, to make you feel helpless and even lifeless.

The things he would say and the things he would do made me think that I wasn’t worth anything. He would hide our relationship from people, manipulate me to make me feel like I was crazy, and forced me to tell my darkest secret, then judged me and held it against me.

I don’t consider myself one of the lucky ones because I survived, but I do take this as a lesson: Love should not hurt, but it takes being hurt millions of times to realize that to move forward.

I was with my ex for a year and a half. I know it doesn’t seem that long, but it felt like an eternity.

I questioned why he would go out late at night, and sometimes he wouldn’t be back for days. I remember being left home alone most of the time. At the time I didn’t want to admit it, but I knew what he was doing.

That day, I don’t remember exactly how the argument started, but I remember he was angry enough to throw me to the ground, wrap his arms around my rib cage, and squeeze as tight as he could until I could no longer breathe.

While he was still on top of me, he flipped me over, spat in my face and called me a b----. I saw his right hand ball into a fist. I cried and screamed as loud as I could until he faked it to where I flinched.

He smirked and told me to “get the f---- out of my house.” It was our house, or so I had thought.

When he ran upstairs and began to throw my belongings down the stairs, I chased after him to stop him. I realized I shouldn’t have done that. He slapped me, faked a punch toward me, then pushed me down and dragged me down the stairs by my legs.

Knowing that forcing myself to stay in the house wouldn’t work, I hurriedly grabbed my car keys and ran out. I was embarrassed to be seen and more embarrassed to contact anyone for help.

I also left without my wallet and had a quarter tank of gas in my car.

I drove down to what I still consider my safe space. It was my college newspaper in San Francisco.

Though I tried to pretend that everything was OK, I couldn’t hold it in anymore.

I cried hysterically because I felt humiliated. When I thought my friends were going to judge me, all three of them came up with a plan.

Whatever you do, don’t look back.

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They put gas in my car, contacted my ex and helped me move all of my things so that I could stay with my grandparents for a few days.

When you’re in a situation of domestic violence, I can admit that I was lucky to have supportive friends. To this day, we’ll joke about how much stuff I had and how they had to climb two flights of stairs back and forth.

It’s easier to look back and think about how naive I was to stay.

There are others who may be with their abusive partners for years and their experiences may differ from mine.

If you’re forced to compromise your dreams for someone, that person isn’t the right one for you. I say this with care because my partner tried everything to get me to stay with him regardless of how he treated me.

When you’re in a violent relationship, it’s OK to seek help, whether it’s from a therapist, friends or family. It took a lot for me to put my pride aside and ask them for help.

When I was expecting my grandparents to say “I told you so,” I was surprised they didn’t. They hugged me and told me I could stay as long as I needed to, but I didn’t. To me, going back home would mean I failed, so I went on another apartment search and found a cozy little apartment living with six roommates.

At that time it had been two days since the fight with my ex. I was covered in bruises and cuts from his nails, and it was painful to breathe. I began to cry because I felt ugly on the inside and out.

When I was looking in the mirror examining my body, I got a call from an unknown caller. I answered knowing damn well who it was. He apologized and I began to cry.

Looking back at it now, I wish I had never answered the phone.

We ended up working it out and I could tell my friends and family were disappointed, but they loved me enough to support my decision.

For friends and family who are going through a similar issue, please be patient. Do not make them feel bad about their decision to stay with that person because you will push them more toward them.

When attempting to move on from a toxic relationship, there’s going to be a relapse. But I’ve learned that going back to the person who abused you will not change them for the better. In fact, it gets worse.

But this doesn’t include the trust issues that come with being abused.

It took me a month to move on after leaving for good. I had to take my experience and make sure I didn’t bring my baggage with me into my new relationship.

If you’re a student at the University of Hawai‘ i at Mānoa, Pau Violence, Title IX and the counseling center on campus helped me take the baby steps I needed to move forward. See a counselor as much as you need.

To move on from your abusive ex, honestly, moving to another state really helped me. You don’t see anything that reminds you of the memories you had, you don’t know anyone who has relations with your past, and you get a sense of freedom.

Take as much time as you need to move on. Delete that person’s contact, change your number and listen to as many break up songs as you need to. Cry as loud and ugly as you want.

Whatever you do, don’t look back.

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SPORTS

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On an island The Rainbow Warrior Basketball team will celebrate their 100th season

 CHRISTINE WAKUZAWA / KA LEO O HAWAI‘I

The Warriors will tip off their 100th season against Florida A&M on Friday, Nov. 8. Game time is set for 7 p.m. at the Stan Sheriff Center.

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When basketball defenders find themselves on an island, stuck in a one-on-one situation, they normally need to defend their basket for no longer than 30 seconds.

The University of Hawai‘i Rainbow Warrior basketball team has been doing it for over a century.

With the 2019–20 campaign being the 100th season for the Warriors, we talked to current coaches and players to get an idea of what 99 seasons of basketball meant to the program, what it meant to Hawai‘i and what we can hope to see in the next few years.

25 YEARS OF CALLING STAN SHERIFF HOME

Without a pro team, the basketball culture in Hawai‘i starts at the Stan Sheriff Center. The arena was built 25 years ago, and the Warriors basketball team has had their hand in building the arena and presence here in Hawai‘i.

“We’ve had such great teams, thinking about the facility improvements, the development of the program on and off the court. I’ve been fortunate to have worked for guys like Riley Wallace and Bob Nash (both former UH Basketball head coaches),” head coach Eran Ganot said. “Those guys have sacrificed a lot to give us the luxuries we have now.”

The games played at the Stan Sheriff Center still live in the mem-

ories of many current players.

Samuta Avea, a member of the 2017 Kahuku championship basketball team, remembers coming to games, being inspired by players and dreaming of doing the same.

“Growing up and coming to the games, I remember always coming to watch Isaac Fotu play, Negus (Webster-Chan), Garrett Nevels, watching all those guys play. They had this place packed, and I’m trying to do that while I’m here,” he said. “It’s definitely inspired me to do some big things.”  JONATHAN CHEN / KA LEO O HAWAI‘I

IN HAWAI‘I, BASKETBALL IS ‘OHANA

Hawai‘ i has a diverse basketball team, featuring players from the mainland, Hawai‘ i and overseas.

The spirit of aloha is what attracted some players.

“We have great fans, just great people on this island. It’s pretty special. I really like it here, the environment. Everybody is passionate about the University of Hawai‘i. It’s a great school,” Drew Buggs, who is originally from Long Beach and was named Big West honorable mention his sophomore season, said. “It just makes you want to go out and play hard in front of these fans.”

Zigmars Raimo, who hails from Latvia, has felt at home in Hawai‘i.

“Being so far away from home, one of the biggest things that’s stuck with me is that I have the support and that family feeling,” he said. “Coming out here to play in front of the fans is one of the most exciting things. I love playing for this program. Everyone comes here from around the island, it’s just like a family environment.”

TIPPING OFF THE NEXT 100 SEASONS

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Zigmars Raimo takes flight on a fast break.

One of the biggest missions for the Rainbow Warriors going forward, is building a basketball cul-

Jessiya Villa backing down Drew Buggs in an iso situation.

ture here in Hawai‘ i that extends beyond the Stan Sheriff Center.

“The legacy for any group is to make things better than they found it,” Ganot said. “Our job is to push it forward for the next group.”

This 100th edition Warriors team is set to boast the most players from Hawai‘i since the 1992-93 season.

The team will feature Samuta Avea (Kahuku HS), Zoar Nedd (Kapolei HS), Kameron Ng (St. Francis School) and Jessiya Villa (Kahuku HS).

“We have a lot of talent and a lot of potential out here in Hawai‘ i,” Villa, another member of the 2017 Kahuku championship basketball team, said. “A lot of people overlook that. Just continue to work hard, and don’t worry about what people say: about Hawai‘ i, about size, about limits.”

Some of those limits for young basketball players in Hawai‘i might include a lack of exposure, resources and about 2,500 miles of open ocean to the nearest AAU tournaments. But the Rainbow Warriors roster is proving that there is hope and that the culture is shifting. As Villa would say, “Just shoot through those limits and continue to work on your craft.”

MORE INFO

GAMES COMMEMORATING UH’S 100TH SEASON FABULOUS 5 NIGHT FRIDAY, NOV. 29 VS. USF The Rainbow Warriors will pay tribute to one of the most memorable eras of UH sports (1971 & ’72 “Fab Five” basketball teams) and give fans a chance to meet the “Fabulous Five” (Al Davis, Jerome Freeman, Dwight Holiday, Bob Nash and John Penebacker.)

100TH SEASON GAME SATURDAY, JAN. 25 VS. UC DAVIS There will be a special halftime recognition of UH’s postseason teams. All UH alumni will receive 50% off tickets.

JERSEY RETIREMENT SATURDAY, FEB. 15 VS. UC IRVINE Bob Nash, who spent 31 years with the Rainbow Warrior basketball program, will be UH’s first-ever men’s basketball player to have his jersey retired.

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Healing through

circus arts SHAFKAT ANOWAR // ASSOCIATE PHOTOS EDITOR

 Colleen McCown believes that circus

arts are addicting in a way, and that they can be a coping skill for recovering from any toxic addiction.

Colleen McCown, a social work master’s student at the University of Hawai‘ i at Mānoa, shows her expertise as a circus artist by performing as a fire and aerial dancer. She is also a counselor at the Juvenile Justice Center providing help to youth and families, working in special education at Waikiki Elementary School, and a yoga and fitness instructor. Fourteen years after finishing her undergraduate studies at the University of Missouri, she moved to Hawai‘ i.

She was first acquainted with fire dancing through her college roommate. Slowly, from fire dancing, she branched out to aerial dance and other different types of dance movements. She said that fire and aerial performance are nothing more than her passion or hobby, as it is not her primary source of income.

“It is a hobby that I really enjoy but when I’m feeling stressed out about a performance I have reminded myself that it’s not putting food on my table or roof over my head,” she said. “I am doing it for fun and if you are not enjoying it what’s the point? It’s more like a creative outlet.”

McCown’s combination of social work and circus dance carved her path for helping out struggling drug addicts and alcoholics who want to recover. She believes that there is a great potential for healing and transformation in dancing.

 In 2003, McCown became interested in cir-

cus arts and started practicing on her own.

While living in Missouri, she got into it by participating in different group events. She found her real enthusiasm after moving to Hawai‘ i in 2005 where she started practicing with the Hawaii Fire Artists.  McCown performs her aerial piece in a

 When asked how she was introduced to

Halloween event at the Artzone located on the Pali Highway on Oct. 25.

fire dancing, she said, “I became interested first in fire dancing and I had a roommate in college back in 2000-01 who picked up fire dancing from New Zealand. So, he was doing it and I got acquainted with it.”  She always wanted to help people strug-

gling with addiction, stating that, “I was working with social services, so I had the intention to go to the MSW program. I always wanted to help people, profession and society, it just took me a little while to come to my intended path.”

 Photo Credit: Deb Sullivan

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