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This is a personal typographic m not always what they seem. The ph typography are reinterpreted as or t h e a u t h o r. T h e r e i s b e a u t y i
This is a personal typographic not always what they seem. The typography are reinterpreted as t h e a u t h o r. T h e r e i s b e a u t
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p o g r a p h i c m e m o i r. T h i n g s a r e eem. The photographs of found preted as originally viewed by e is beauty in all things.
t y p o g r a p h i c m e m o i r. T h i n g s a r e seem. The photographs of found erpreted as originally viewed by ere is beauty in all things.
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Things in small doses Things in small doses
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are much easier to bear are much easier to bear
l li ik ke e
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y yo ou u
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I
am h au n te d by
t he
g ho s t s
o f
mys e lf
i n an d
d if fe ren t
p has e s
sit uat ion s
and
I
of ten
w o n d e r
A m I was
m e
I
now or m o re mys e lf
t h e n?
o r
I’ ve
p e r h a p s
go t
a
who le
s e t cha meleon
o f cl one s
fo r
ea c h
li fe
a da p ti n g
to
b o mb
const a ntl y
slow l y
d i ffe re n t
forge t t ing
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my
d e g re e s
o f
c h ao s
orig in a l ski n
a nd
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a n d
I
c a n
s e e
how
I
lo ok
w hen
I
a m
lo s t ma ke
o n m e
ot her face s oh s o un-
tha t
co m fo r t ab l e
i n
t h i s
co l o r f u l Th e
s h r i l l
l i gh t
s urv ival
of
what
has
b e co m e norma lcy
i n
t h e
day
gi ves
m e
a
hes it ant
s t a t u r e M y
eye s
are
b u r n in g yo u rs a re
re al l y e
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m
p
t
y
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i
s
e
a
r
c
h
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f
o
r
p
l
a
c
e
s
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c o u n t
t h e
d a y s .
t o
h i d e
to hide
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f i x e d
f o c u s
w a t c h
m y
i n
o n
f e e t
t h e
g r o u n d
c o r r e s p o n d
s e c r e t
p u m
p u m
p u m
p u m
p u m
p u m
p u m
p u m
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n d n d
c e r e b r a l s l o s h i n g w i t h m y s h i f t i n g
i t m y m y
i
i s
n e c e s s a r y
h a i r w i l l t a n g l e a s c e n d i n g l e g s w i l l p u s h m e u p h i l l
a m a s s u r e d o n l y t h i s
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o f
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My legs ran through thickets of to keep me from you and you st
hands just a
inches sho on purpose you gave me an arm'
a stomach fu apprehens Stuttered a Hallelujah at your
My toes caught the c
and I fell to yo
forgetting my ow and digest defeat
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kets of thistle fingers sticking you stretched your omnipotent
s just a few hes short n arm's length of attention and
mach full of rehension t your delayed comprehension
ht the cracked earth ll to your feet
g my own worth digesting defeat
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cross my feet
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and
hope
to
sleep
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k r i s t e n a s h t o n
k r i s t e n
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a s h t o n
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