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This is a personal typographic m not always what they seem. The ph typography are reinterpreted as or t h e a u t h o r. T h e r e i s b e a u t y i

This is a personal typographic not always what they seem. The typography are reinterpreted as t h e a u t h o r. T h e r e i s b e a u t

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p o g r a p h i c m e m o i r. T h i n g s a r e eem. The photographs of found preted as originally viewed by e is beauty in all things.

t y p o g r a p h i c m e m o i r. T h i n g s a r e seem. The photographs of found erpreted as originally viewed by ere is beauty in all things.

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Things in small doses Things in small doses

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are much easier to bear are much easier to bear

l li ik ke e

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y yo ou u

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n d n d

c e r e b r a l s l o s h i n g w i t h m y s h i f t i n g

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h a i r w i l l t a n g l e a s c e n d i n g l e g s w i l l p u s h m e u p h i l l

a m a s s u r e d o n l y t h i s

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o f

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My legs ran through thickets of to keep me from you and you st

hands just a

inches sho on purpose you gave me an arm'

a stomach fu apprehens Stuttered a Hallelujah at your

My toes caught the c

and I fell to yo

forgetting my ow and digest defeat

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kets of thistle fingers sticking you stretched your omnipotent

s just a few hes short n arm's length of attention and

mach full of rehension t your delayed comprehension

ht the cracked earth ll to your feet

g my own worth digesting defeat

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cross my feet

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and

hope

to

sleep

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k r i s t e n a s h t o n

k r i s t e n

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a s h t o n

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