CREATIVELY LIVING FROM LOVE

BY LISA WAGNER

Guiding Ourselves Back to Our Light

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, “Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.”

Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love.

Most of us lose our creative, divergent thinking by the age of 9. We are told that the bar that we hold ourselves to has already been set by society. That we must have a realistic sense of the world in order to do well and survive . We lose touch with our higher selves. Our ego begins to develop and those around us, and in society help carve that ego into something so rigid, that love struggles to enter, if at all. So,how do we find our way back to that amazing childlike innocence and wonderment? It’s easier than we think.

The moment we are born, we are the purest essence of love. We are a perfect being with no limits, and no expectations. We bring joy and light into the world, like whispers from heaven. As we begin our life‘s journey,that innocence becomes eroded. We hear things like, “Why can’t you do better in school?” or “That’s not how things are done.” The fear of the world begins to permeate our sense of self. At first, it creates tiny fissures that make us feel unsafe, scared and confused. Through those cracks, our confidence, our joy, and the knowing of who we actually are begin to slip through them, being replaced by the world’s limitations that were created by a collective fear.

In her book, “A Return To Love”, Marianne Williamson speaks about lessons from a “A Course in Miracles,” and its purpose to help us find our way back to love. Recently, I felt compelled to read Marianne’s book again. (I’ve owned it for over 30 years.) I had been listening to Gabby Bernstein’s podcast titled, “How To Use Your Intuition To Manifest”, where she speaks about Marianne‘s book and how, upon reading it, she was moved to work through “A Course in Miracles” herself. Her life had been a disaster and “The Course” began to give her direction and knowledge that her addictions to fear-based situations and activities were because she had turned away from love. She had been trying to self soothe, only to fall deeper into depression and anxiety; further and further away from herself. Emotionally, I can totally relate, (as I’m sure most of us can). My normal MO is to seek out love-based activities and people, use positive self-talk, and delight in my work as an artist.

Trying to find your essential essence ends up being an incredibly simple answer but it’s so easily forgotten. As Marianne reminds us, the answer is always making the choice to come back to love. She states “In the absence of love, we began slowly but surely to fall apart.” Love is our highest expression of who we truly are. It is our motivation, joy, and our internal peace. When we move away from our spirit, we lose focus on what really matters and turn to our ego. Our ego wants to control the narrative and lead us around by the nose. It seeks out ways to diminish us, quiet our inner voice and make us small. It manipulates situations in the stories we tell ourselves about them. We can question our own gut instincts, a.k.a. our internal guidance system, as we run, frantic, trying to escape the pain, and all that comes along with it. This is a dark place to be and one that can be so difficult to find our way out of if we’ve lost our ability to trust in something greater than ourselves. What we put our attention on will expand. that it is within the quiet stillness where I can open up and truly listen. There are days the messages are quiet, just asking me to rest. There are other days where it’s as if all the angels are standing around me, guiding my hands, mind and heart in a way that is magnetic and liberating. I can’t help but want to follow along because all I can feel is the delighted dance they do when I’ve decided to allow them to stand in their divine purpose. They want to help us and guide us, as it is their motivation and their greatest achievement when they find their divinity as they assist us. It is the dance of loving cooperation towards all things rooted in pure love. I would ask that you grant that for yourself today and note how it makes you feel? Then asking yourself, “Would I love more of that?“ I would venture a safe bet that your answer will be a resounding “YES!!”

Redirecting our minds and our full being to begin to let go of control and set the intention to return back to love is essential to create a loving change. When we allow God‘s messages to enter and be heard, it creates a feeling of peace as our walls begin to crumble. We can stop running if we can trust. For those of us who try to seek a divine reset, beginning the process can be the scariest part. We know who we are supposed to be because we’ve experienced it as young, ego-less children. We have previously felt the warming of our souls when we let go and rejoice purely in the moment. When we experience that light, it begins to radiate out to all those around us. God, in their infinite wisdom and adoration of us, has no bounds. There are no conditions that must be met. It just exists, waiting for us to let go of our egos and realign with our hearts.

I began my journey into leaning back and remembering who I am several years ago. My real mission in life is what my hopes and dreams have always been since childhood; to be a full-embodiment of love. Having faith that God and my angels are with me throughout helps me when I am fully invested in the story lines I have created.

How can we each creatively remind ourselves in our darkest of times to do what Marianne asks of us; returning ourselves back to love? Recently, I made a list in my journal of what makes me truly happy. Especially things that move me and can bring joy to others. I journaled my feelings first. Then read it back to see how I could do this in a way that felt centered and grounded, bringing about feelings of self-nurturing? My greatest joy is my art & teaching others how to work intuitively. To read this written on the page, I instantly felt at peace. Doing something not only for my soul but for the healing of others is such a beautiful gift of grace that I’m being allowed to partake in. It all stems from my love.

I also have made an intention to up my heart space during yoga sessions. My yoga instructor, Liz, makes us all smile as we begin to release our fear and feel our hearts space is expanding to allow in peace and healing. It opens us up to infinite possibilities for something first you must ask yourself, “do I believe I deserve this?” I want you to know the answer is always “yes!” You deserve freedom to feel good in your own skin, and the knowing of who you truly are. You deserve joy, light and love. Being in the sovereignty of God‘s grace can bring about all the healing for your life. I just ask that you trust. Let today be the day you begin that journey. greater. Being amongst people who wish the same magnifies that energy of love. It makes it palpable, as if you’re drinking it in and allowing it to lap over you like a warm ocean wave.

The final thing that I would ask, and this is because I know God would ask, is that you fully live in your light so that it may shine for others to see. Use whatever loving means resonates with you. This allows others the permission to do the same for themselves. They experience you standing there with your hands outstretched, beckoning them forward towards their own light. You give them the strength and courage to take their first steps back to love.

Now imagine yourself, living life feeling this way, even during the most stressful times. To trust that you’re being supported and guided in ways that will free you. That is always available to us. Can you make time for this practice for yourself every day? But

Compounding the light by growing ours as part of a conscious collective, pushes fear out of this world so that our children, and our children’s children and we may begin to experience a world whose priorities no longer revolve around competition stemming from patriarchal, fear-based ideals. The world can then be balanced and fully expressed through the light of love. That is God‘s intention for all of us and hopefully your deepest wish. Please let me know about your journey so that we may begin that sisterhood of healing and leading the way for others to follow, as we expand. Namaste.