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Ty p o g r a p h y DENNIS ETZEL JR.
For fluidity in reading, just add water. The text will smudge into a new typeface to smile through rough times with. When I was young, I went swimming through words, cutting myself on dangling modifiers. An artist saved my life, telling me one can drown in language as she painted an Arial protective coating over my mouth. Now I practice breathing under surface, try to bring up sunken treasures. I sometimes seek a smooth surface to read from, with letters that round themselves. When the form catches up to the context, I get excited, as if moving my fingers across your skin. Typography is of the moment, of the text and the typeface, of the abstract pulled by gravity to the concrete. You and I intersect on the page, where you read my body with your fingers. I am thinking what you are reading, within the rhythm and stanza of each other. I become a Garamond to your q’s, your s’s. Personality profiles for text and texture emerge like pressure from an inkwell. Conflict and tension pushes letters into fuller shapes, as if each word will come out to punch you. The government tries to prove words are not so dangerous, dropping bombs on any writer as proof. However, your unwritten words will knock you into shape if you ignore them. Face the page by yourself, trained with a surprise hook from your writing hand.
Typography is of the moment, of the text and the typeface, of the abstract pulled by gravity to the concrete. N IN E :: 0 9
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ewer and fewer people use the term “typography” to signify specific techniques for the cutting of punches, the striking of matrices, the casting, the composing and printing of type. It is now commonly used in graphic art magazines to cover the whole field of visual communications: traffic signals, pictographs, symbols and posters as well as newspaper layout, advertising, or, eventually, book typography. If “typography” is no longer to imply punches and so forth, what then could and should it stand for? —Fernand Baudin, 1967
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T W E NT Y- FI V E :: 25
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Perfect typography is certainly the most elusive of all arts. Sculpture in stone alone
comes near it in obstinacy. —Jan Tschichold, Homage to the Book, 1968
Patches and Badges
Mike Dent
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mark hennessy
I wept a long time in the airport
but for the mannequins
as one by one all the lights went out
composed in a pantomime;
and the food shops closed down.
a man, a woman, a child,
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to a showroom empty
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FO R T Y- N IN E :: 49
tomorrow you will be old.” She led me by the hand
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FIF T Y- O N E :: 51
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Amber was a town. It was a town with
never been. The boy stole dandelions from
a boy and a thief. Amber had a boy; the
the ground, leaves from his favorite hill-top
thief, just passing through. The boy read
tree, and glimpses at his father’s dusty
books and poems and caught bullfrogs.
military uniform. The thief stole silverware
The thief dressed like a priest and picked
from the drawer, pies from the windowsill,
flowers before they blossomed. The boy
and the mayor’s child when he burned an
cut his hands on tree bark and bicycle
empty barn. Both believed everything their
chains. The thief drank gin. The boy tried
mothers ever told them. Both believed what
to concentrate at church. The thief had
Amber said when the papers read guilty.
Only the thief smiled when the dust and the shouting ascended and threw a rope over the tree’s lowest limb. The bent branch cried and heaved when the rope swung taut. The dust became wide-eyed and silent and drifted away leaving a sagging bough a sagging body. That night the boy stared out his window at the summer moon and a swinging thief. The father told the boy about swift justice, law, and what goes around comes around. The
breeze. The boy went out the next day and stole dandelions from the ground, glimpses of his father’s dusty military uniform, and a
the boy about swift justice, law, and what goes around comes around.”
FIF T Y- FI V E :: 55
boy lied awake all night and winced at the
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Breeze, to gale, to bedlam. The thunder
spoke of swift justice, law, and what goes
shook the bed from rest. The lightning
around comes around. Every once and again
silhouetted flaying limbs and fingers that
dust stirred about the tree— Observance
bore a single saturated fruit. No one dared
of the idle is necessary. The tree, anointed
the boy to stare. Clouds hung, the sky kept
as a reliquary—That night he read verses
melting, and morning was nowhere to be
that rang of shepherds and sheep, but they
found. The boy hid in the attic until dinner
couldn’t help the boy to sleep. The sky now
and left the voice of praise in a mildewed
fell in torrents and tapped at his window.
blanket. He ate the meat and nibbled on
“The lightning silhouetted flaying limbs and fingers that bore a single saturated fruit.”
the bread. He was gorged with water so he left the glass untouched. The boy’s stomach might have been empty, it might have been full. The boy sat on the rug in the middle
father’s knife. The screen door clacked
of his room. He stared at his bed, for once
in the wind. The boy grabbed and closed
indifferent to what lay under it. Behind,
it—careful but firm. On the back step, the
flashes captured the sick shadows. The
thin white pajamas wet. The handle of the
boy laid himself on the fading pattern. Eyes
knife, the peeling leather watered. Tensing
arrested to the stuttered projection. The
of the hand on the grip. The boy stepped
tree, the bending bough, giving gallows.
off into yielding grass. Cold water washed
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over his feet, the storm painted black hair
—waiting, holding out, persisting. Wind,
on his brow. Step, climb, slow clamber. The gusts in the leaves, the mocking applause—
rain, thunder, the thief—echoed in his ears.
sounding closer. A sagging bough, a sagging body, a boy, a screaming heaven, a sagging
the rusted latch and opened the musty
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chest. Photos, postcards, promises, grand-
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He crashed silently into the attic. Crushed
“The pleading speech of the strained rope, ‘Does Amber forgive? Awake Amber, await.’”
rushing amid the bark of the tree and the
for: the ground again. The boy’s joints ache
lightning. Clasping crawling—the sailboats
in embrace of the knife. The rain pushes the
tear and capsize on his skin. Inching along
thief ever closer to the earth—the wind ready
the bough, the screeching whine of wind
to walk him all over. The pleading speech
and water. The boy looked up at the Father’s
of the strained rope, “Does Amber forgive?
dusty military uniform. He stopped, just at
Awake Amber, await.” The boy interrupts,
arms length to the rope. His weight, with
positioned and facing. An argument between
the prairie reaching to tickle life into rot
the boy’s eyes and the departed pendulum.
limbs. The blade, a reflection of a face and
It moans lower, heavier. Circling the hilltop,
storm wrought with ardor. Then flung back,
his breath lingers where the thief no longer
two thuds splashed into the earth. And
wants. His fingers feel among the streams
arose a sagging body, sagging from within.
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BETHANY TAYLOR
READING SHAKESPEARE
in high school
What if the page is a mercury glass you could ripple; a viscous ocean with the wallowing crippled words haunted by some ghostly sighing commas, serifs sharp like jagged rocks, apostrophes like fish. What if I could dive in and swim among the twisted wrecks? Could I the letters touch, the phrases rearrange? They might be fixed like coral to rock or maybe stuck in sand. If I dug in and loosed their roots, I could their places shift. Would “My Mistress’s eyes” become “mess messy rye it’s” ? A house I would erect, made of decrepit old Tottering words and live in it forever.
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decades of his attic on account of the reunion. Current rivals and ex-lovers would be there. His
Downstairs, Gloria pretended not to hear. She
wife had been shedding dress sizes. He searched
gazed at her reflection while zipping up. She
for, and eventually found, his mask, the one
practiced receiving compliments while adjusting
Gloria had fallen in love with. He asked himself,
the strap hidden beneath the hairstyle she had
why did I ever take this off? Inspection revealed
chosen for just such a purpose.
no chips or cracks; its strap pulled taut. The mask was bulky, cut into his forehead, and its smile revealed a lot of tooth; muffled his speech.
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At the reunion, the music of their youth
blared from mounted speakers. The same
accosted them from mounted speakers. The
songs he used to hear on his way to work.
alumni had failed to raise enough money for
Before carpooling; the changing of the
a live band, and this was everyone’s reward.
pre-sets. Before soft voices introducing
The same songs she heard for years; the
nocturnes, sonatas, and concertos. Long
soundtrack to their poor decisions. Before she
before Gloria riding shotgun; doing her
had instituted some changes. Before she had
face; no kissing, that would smudge the
decided to bring culture to her home. She had
lipstick. Before those things he would
had to listen to these songs. She began with
drum the steering column, air guitar
small things. The mail brought new magazine
along the freeway, sing into the toll-booth
subscriptions. Their diet was to be educated;
change basket. At the reunion, he grabbed
their life: informed. Also, the compact disc
Mindy Messner during Born to be Wild
selection and radio pre-sets changed. She
and they both climbed so high they never
found classical; wanted to live with class. At
wanted to die. While flailing and sweating,
the reunion she found Ronald Stubbins, a man
he noticed, through his mask’s eye-holes,
who exuded class, and attached herself to
Gloria turn in shame, and approach the
his side. Through her mask’s eye-holes she
punch bowl with Ron Stubbins. With
watched Harold embarrass himself. Watched
increased vigor, he renewed his grip
him sweat and flail in his ridiculous tight-
around Mindy’s waist.
fitting mask. The one she had fallen in love
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with. With a shake of the head, and a renewed “You haven’t changed a bit Harold,” she
lack of spousal commitment she turned back
giggled into the loose flesh of his neck,
to Ronald and his offer of punch. Handing her
“still the wild man.”
the glass, he leaned and spoke into her
slender neck, “Gloria, you haven’t changed one bit, still gorgeous.”
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The reunion ended when Harold, and two
The reunion ended for Gloria when she
guys who had twenty-seven years before
bent to retrieve a hairpin from between
flushed his keys down the toilet, tore down
two restroom tiles and her mask slipped
the banner proclaiming “25 and STILL ALIVE�
off and cracked between the eyes. Ronald
that hung above the banquet hall entrance
was just then exiting the stall, readjusting
and pulled Mindy around on it while Magic
his shirttail and tie, when he noticed her
Carpet Ride sent the rest of the room into
crying. He patted, then squeezed her on
a sing-along frenzy. The alumni organizers
the shoulder, and left her to it. He then
found and pulled the sound system’s extension
proceeded to approach the dance floor to
cord. Representatives of the Golden Saber
excuse himself while he kissed the sky.
banquet hall stood accusingly in the door
Gloria retrieved her coat and purse, and
frame like disappointed mothers; motioning:
while exiting tore the name tag from her
out. The magic carpet riders stared dumbly
breast and let it flutter to the ground. She
at each other, like survivors of a tragedy,
turned the key in the ignition, and sped
or a bacchanalia. Harold peeled a piece of
home with Stravinsky. Harold could find
paper from the sole of his shoe. It said: Gloria
his own damn ride.
(Rogers) Majors. He found Mindy and one of the key flushers fondling behind a fichus. Tapping them on a shoulder, he offered gas money for a ride.
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Maybe it’s the sound escaping from his open mouth that disgust Gloria. Or it’s the beer bottles lying empty at the head of the couch? Just the fact that he’s using the fold-out? It’s all of those things. She doesn’t deserve a husband relegated to the couch. She looks at him as she does the children covered in flies in National Geographic, then takes her coat from the entrance closet. She feels for her objects and knows they are there before her fingertips do. Left pocket: one half of her mask. Right pocket: the inlay booklet from her Stravinsky “The Rite of Spring” (conducted by Pierre Monteux) compact disc. She gets in the car and navigates the winding streets of her subdivision; named for men she’s never heard of.
it’s the phone, excited at the head of the couch that wake Harold? It’s all of those things. Into his ear is the news that Gloria’s mother has died. This will be his fault. As the messenger he will be lined against the wall in the garage and shot, no blindfold, and definitely no cigarette. He jots down particulars, hangs up. Massaging his back, he bends and folds the bed into its cushion hideout. Gloria is working on a Saturday. Harold takes this time to stay in pajamas well into the afternoon, he reads on the toilet with the door wide. When the water will no longer stay warm he leaves the shower. Gloria’s mother haunts him. He pictures her with, and without the tubing; always smiling, engulfed in the extra-large Houston Oilers sweatshirt draped over her withering frame. It’s loyalty to a team that had abandoned her that impressed him most. He thinks while toweling and dressing, she was always cheering something on. Harold walks into the kitchen and eyes his cupboard. The wood is still splintered from snack reclamation. He knows what he will see, but opens it anyway. A pamphlet titled, “Eating for a Better You,” is taped inside. One box of light butter popcorn decorated with a smiley face note saying “try this instead.” Instead, he decides to indulge his craving for a King Beef burger.
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to subside. She waits for the door to swing
rubbing his belly full of two King Beef
open and the steam to waft out. Ronald
burgers and a large Sugar Shake. He
takes long showers. Ronald signs them
carries a greasy bag with Milksy the Cow
in under pseudonyms like they are spies.
smiling and giving the thumbs up in one
She lays almost dutifully on the bed, while
hand, and some lottery tickets in the
absently fondling the motel key and her
other. Attempting to scratch their silver
mask half, one in each hand. Ronald’s
scratchable surfaces with the thumb of
showers give Gloria too much time to think.
the same hand in which they are held ,
She feels frustrated, alone, normal. She has
he narrowly avoids running directly into
read the pamphlets, magazines; listened to
Gloria, who is parked in his path, watching
talk show hosts, and made attempts at their
him. She laughs when, startled, he drops
instruction. She knows what she deserves,
the Dairy Hut bag sending calories flying.
thought she knew about reconnecting.
Because she opens the passenger side
Gloria drops both objects on the bedside
door for him to get in, he gets in. They
table. As she hears the shower curtain
stare at each other for a moment before
yanked aside, she leaves.
Harold notices guitars from the stereo. “You know, you can hardly tell you’re wearing it anymore,” she says reaching to touch his face. “I’m sorry, but your mother is dead,” he
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A crow flies into a spiral staircase, Spinning itself into an airborne chapel. The chapel paints it scarlet and cerulean But neglects to feed it. Chandeliers look at tabletops, dangling. It will remain a mystery Whether the ants in the courtyard Fathom their titanic world, Or the petite irony of their sand castles. Far away, the many–hued crow starves.
As he twists and pushes, Inside from inside, a certain trepidation sets in. Swallowing the key was easy. But for now, escape will have to wait.
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The first time your mom was sober around your father was after the second doctor confirmed she was pregnant. Coincidentally the first time she realized that your father had a drinking problem was as they were painting the nursery and he spilled his vodka tonic all over the new crib. When she gives him an ultimatum he’ll leave. There will be custody battles and divorce papers signed while you still breathe through gills.
they created together. When you’re a child you’ll watch your parents find solace in the beds of other people, and you’ll see them wrap themselves up inside cardboard shields with words like “Milwaukee” and “Light” written on the outside. You’ve never seen your parents fight – but you’ve never seen them kiss either; you
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Later you’ll wonder how a married couple couldn’t stay together during the pregnancy of a child
wonder which would be worse for you. When you are in elementary school you’ll have a school program and as you sing you look out over the audience and see both your parents smiling back at you from opposite sides of the gym. You’ll be in second grade and plagued with the decision of which parent to run to after the last song is over. Your mom starts to date other men and it doesn’t seem normal, not because it’s not your father, but because it’s always just been the two of you. You love your dad for trying to be your friend the same way you hate your mom’s boyfriends for trying to be your dad. When you’re sixteen you’ll be a virgin but depending on who asks, you had this girlfriend from this other town. Girls will like you, but in a friendly way; you’ll be too nice and too shy to make them think anything else about you. You’ll find it difficult to play hard to get because you are in fact easy to get. When you’re a senior in high school and you’ve lost your baby fat you’ll have a girlfriend. She’s your first but you’re not hers so you’ll know that it can never work out, you’re just learning. Several expectations will go unmet, you stumble through the first kiss, the TV steals most of your conversations, and you’ll find yourself so in love with the idea of it that you don’t even know who she is. Once she stops talking to you for a week. When you find out what’s wrong she’ll say, “I thought I was pregnant,” “You can’t be serious.” “Well, my period was late.” “You understand how that works, right.” you say. “Of course I do, I’m not an idiot,” “Mary, we’ve never even taken our pants off together”
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“I just thought maybe it went through the layers.” You’ll expect more fireworks or maybe tears when you break up, you expect more pain. When you said you loved her, you meant it, and every time she whispered, “I love you too,” your entire body tingled. You’ll realize that neither of you were ready to wield that kind of power – to tap into that world. When you’re in love with the idea of love it doesn’t take much. Sometimes when you talk to your dad you can sense the loneliness in his voice. Also, sometimes you feel responsible for your mom’s premature engagements. It’s so much easier when she doesn’t have to find a babysitter to stay at his place, if he moves in. You wonder if she could have her pick of the single guys, not just jump into it with the first one who tolerates single mothers. Before you graduate you will have been in four weddings. They were all your parents’. When you first meet Sonja Patterson you know she will break your heart. You’ll know your own tendencies to become someone who you are not, but you’ll try to make her love the real you. When you find yourself driving to the vintage clothing store before every date to find something hip but used (so it looks like you were always this cool), you’ll know then that you failed. You’ll fall in love with her. You will fear the end before it begins, so you’ll know it can’t last. When she says, “I love you,” the first time, it startles you, and you’re not sure if that’s what she said, but you say, “I love you too.” You’ll never know if she was just too surprised to correct your hearing.
She shows you things that open you. She takes you to the roof of the tallest building in the town you grew up in to watch fireworks. There are no lights but intermittent flashes illuminate her face. When the sky ignites, she holds her breath and after the red and gold flecks sprinkle away she makes a sound that’s like a sigh. At some point you will realize that you have given her your heart. It wasn’t a decision you made, although given the choice you wouldn’t have hesitated. She will have all you have to give and when that isn’t enough for her you’ll realize that you can’t ask for it back. It’s hers now, and you’ll miss it almost as much as you miss her. She tells you she’s not ready, that she can’t give you what you need. You never asked anything of her, though, so you struggle to understand what she means. You tell yourself she had commitment phobia, that her parent’s relationship wasn’t a healthy one so in turn she had to fear committed relationships. But, you fear deep within yourself that you just weren’t enough. It’s hard to tell whether your parents are better off unhappy in their new marriages or still lonely. They have made a choice, to sacrifice happiness so that they don’t have to sit alone at restaurants when they go out to eat.
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After Sonja you meet Tara. She’s not Sonja. You both know it but neither of you mention it. It’s not love, but you’re not without someone, and when she laughs, you feel worthwhile. She vaguely mentions an ex while you not so vaguely stare into the lamp at the table, commiserating in silence; it is then that you realize you’re playing a role too. It ends with Tara slowly, by growing distances in the space left between you on a couch, by the words left unsaid, quietly it is faded out. A relationship that existed entirely within the blank spaces. You feel slighted by love, for escaping you, but mostly you feel empty like a forgotten balloon floating away from a boy it once made so happy.
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Your step-mom is closer to your age than your dad’s, but that doesn’t give you a reason to bond. She’s not nice to your dad so you rarely see fit to be nice to her. But, mostly you don’t like her because you used to go on vacations with your dad but now there was only room for her dog. Sometimes when he falls asleep she makes faces, she’ll flip him off, she mouths foul words and curses him for being too fat and boring. She kicks him when he snores and when he offers to move to the couch, she says, “Well I do have to be at work in the morning.” You watch her argue for attention, and when you see the tired look on your father’s face you realize that he understands who she is. She doesn’t come with him to visit you. You never figure out if it’s because she doesn’t care to, or if he doesn’t invite her.
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After your mom gives up Buddhism she marries a minister of the Disciples of Christ church. She eats double-cheeseburgers and leads bible studies in the basement of her ranch-style home in Iowa. You still remember the taste of the soy-gluten-wheatgrass patties she used to try to pass off as meat. You still remember her inner-strength. You remember when she dated the blownglass artist and how they tried out his line of pipes in the backyard, how they laughed harder and turned up the volume on your CD player playing the CD he brought. You wonder if the minister knows about blown glass. You meet Dana at work. She’ll ask you about your scarf, you’ll ask her about the book she’s reading. She shows you music that you love, and likes to go on walks.
You ask her about her day and sometimes she forgets to ask about yours. When you look into her eyes you see the reflection of someone else, you have a hard time making out who it is. You wonder if it’s how she sees you or if she wishes for someone else entirely. Sometimes Dana will walk through life in a daze, you’ll ask her what’s wrong, but she’ll say, “Nothing,” or “I don’t know.” She doesn’t seem happy, but she doesn’t seem sad either and when the two of you fight she never gets mad just frustrated until she leaves -- when she calls you in the morning she pretends that nothing happened. Problems will never be solved, you’ll want to fix it, but you won’t know how. You know that there are times that she floats, times where she snaps into color while everything around her fades to grayscale.
You’ll watch her be happy and wish that you were the cause. When you learn that you’re not you wish you were more surprised. At some point you’ll ask, “Why am I not enough?” “Its not you, I love you, this is the best relationship.” “What is it then?” “It’s just something that’s always been there, and I don’t know how to be happy sometimes, I need things that aren’t possible.” In the silence you’ll search for her meaning, while she searches for the right way to tell you the things she knows will tear you apart. The things she won’t tell you, but you will be able to guess, are really only one thing, or one person. She met him through a friend that always smirked at you like he knew all the things about her that you wished you knew. “He’s someone that means a lot to me, but it isn’t meant to be.” You’ll learn later that she calls him a soul mate. “I do love you,” she says. “It’s over with him.” When she says goodbye to him she cries out loud, she convulses and begs him to stay, she kisses him with lips wet from the tears he coerced. He says nothing, he only watches in awe of the power he has over her heart. You avoid asking the questions you know you should ask, they scream at you from the back of your mind. You’re afraid of her answers. “Do you want to be with me?” “I don’t know.” You fall asleep holding each other in the loudest silence you’ve ever heard.
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— Mac Baumwell
Kari Jackson
I thought a few more legs would have fallen off by now. Only one floats in the puddle of Raid you’re twisting in. Most fall instantly when the poison shocks the eight limbs. Most scramble opposite the spray. Most shrivel in spasms until folding into a spot of carbon in a linoleum corner.
Are you the one who spun the home on my patio? It had two captures. Did you ever dine? At least Papa swallowed seven gummy worms before he seizured, staggered through the front door, and shivered down to a heap of fleshy poison. From across the room, your carcass looks like a crumb of mud. I think I’ll let you dry first.
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the legendary terrordactyls
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danny pound band
ku fine arts department
stormy story dj jason
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[68 – 69] berthold grotesk
[86 – 87] box
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[72 – 73] helvetica neue
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[14 – 15] janson
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[78 – 79] helvetica neue
[96 – 97] hammer thin; hairline
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[82 – 83] din
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entire book and as the body
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copy for all literature.
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