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Climate crisis and political turmoil are changing life as we know it, and the future we thought we had—the future we’ve been preparing for—is hanging in the balance, unlikely to ever become reality. In times of uncertainty, we must make room for grieving, mourning a paradise lost, and acquiescing, however brief, into darkness. But we must also carry on, celebrate life, and look for the light wherever we can find it.

For many of us, art is the space where this light finds a home. Through art, we find the courage to persist, transform, and above all, create a new future for ourselves and our world.

Maybe what we’ve lost

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“Ah, why should all mankind for one man’s fault, be condemned, if guiltless?”

John Milton, Paradise Lost

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Delphica Unclipped

by Elizabeth Saama

Aladon, 3071, Deconsecrated.

own community.. A world without the need for greed and consumption. A world without the need to tear apart our lands for false riches. A world without the pain of losing our loves due to the

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Looking upon the remains of the world, I ask this question: What will you do when it comes for your

negligence of those claiming to know best of our safety.

daughters? Sons? Friends? Allies? Enemies? How long will you let yourself to be contaminated?

Our safety? Or our erasure?

Re-contaminated? Re-born, just to die the same. Will that be the true paradise of relief?

We will not be the victor of this round. Aladon has failed, as Earth before us. She has given me the

I was told that is a paradise lost. Nothing was learned from the old Earth and now the same

chance to spare the few; are you worthy of creating a new paradise? One born from the ashes…

mistakes occur again. True, that history repeats itself, good or bad. As the pillars fall and the new

one re-shaped into a fantasy of substance and meaning. Will we be scholars of the new? Will the

regimes rebuild themselves, I first hide within myself to find that bit of paradise.

weight of the old fall burden to our imagination? Will it be a land of colours? And how will the land

It is natural.

of the greys affect that? Questions we will ask on the way, answers that we will be forced to find in

I close my eyes trying to erase the engraved images in my memory. I ask this question upon

the new paradise.

myself: How can there be paradise if your world has been doomed from your ancestors’ sins?

I turn my head up to her, no need her comfort now.

She above us all gave the warning, falling upon deaf ears. It was viewed as a future wrapped in

A Mother, she had wept for us to stop the burning, stealing, raping, killing…and we laughed at her

false riddles.

pain, fooled by our own vices.

Watched as her own family died, homes decayed, life source drained. All under the guise of

Now the rush to save the world that has already passed and died…withered away.

innovation, improvement, information, a world through rose-coloured glasses. Now she sits on

She is turned away, ears deafened from the intensity of destruction. She is now silenced; the

her throne of thorns and bones, aware of our fortune, but her hands are now tied by fate. This is

source is fading.

now her paradise, a paradise reborn. I shall accept it as just.

And here I am, sitting next to the one who predicted it all.

I lay in her lap, my head in her hands, those that cover the sounds of screams and wails for her

Take my hand and join us in our final embraces.

help. She is turned away, eyes gouged out from the years of slashing at her vision, her desires.

The now falsified comfort has reminded us of her final dark riddle; No mercy, no mercy for the

I will watch for her, chosen to see as the world burns, to halt the old regime, to instead create my

ones consumed by ignorance.

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“will that be the true paradise of relief ?

I was told that is a paradise lost.”

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Final

by Madi DeFrain

Monarchs alight like flaming funeral pyres, Coating oak trees in molten migration.

Butterflies bundling, swinging like Spanish moss, Dreaming of December in Mexico’s temperance.

Sunset wings whirl in wind-coated acid, Flyers fall flattened by skyscraper smog.

Plight of prison pigment,

Flight

Butterfly bodies dissolve like pale corpse eyelids; Souls swimming in eternal swarm.

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“Butterfly bodies dissolve like pale corpse eyelids; Souls swimming in eternal swarm.”

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A Modern Day View of Athens, Greece

by Brett Knepper

You lean against a pillar, Looking out across your empty world with a smile; Seeing things as they are --

Those who came before knew

A way in which you’ve designed.

How to let the beauty of nature shine through Only taking the territories needed,

The country over the hill was vast once,

And in those which they did use,

Glowing with the golden shine of corn;

Creating structures equal to the gods’ own Olympus.

Making a stocky sea of yellow Unlike the blue Mediterranean behind it,

But you, you have taken that

Unlike the grey clouds of smog behind you.

And made it a sight for the wealthy to gaze, Keeping the few spaces left and structures

Now it’s tight, cramped,

As reminders for our hearts

Scoured by the ever-growing boundaries of tar

As your cities take over the remains.

Spreading their undulating fingers across the land, Hoping to take up every last inch

“Tear down the trees,” you say.

Thus fulfilling your desire in the process.

The dust settles, upon which we build.

And I watch you snicker at your pillar From what’s left of Victoria As the clouds above rain tears for fallen earth,

And I below weep tears for fallen earth.

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by David Punter

‘I saw her again last night’

She was in Lightless Alley, amid the garbage skips and potholes, dead violets in her hair, fingering burnt dreams, a looseness at her hips.

Her eyes were dark as midnight, her arms so bare I could see moonlight through them, and she spoke a silent language that used no keening breath.

As she bent to her tasks unnumbered, the joke, I saw, was on the living, for she knew only death amid the syringes and phials, the stark remains

of nights of cold abandon. Just a child of misery and ivory, dancing arabesques of drains, amid all the glory we’ve defiled.

And she said her name was Hecate, goddess of the night, mad and forever young, on a foreign shore at the edge of limbo, on the verge of sight, her shoulder-blades pointing to the deep earth’s core.

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FUNERAL FOR A GLACIER

by D.M. Tomkins A letter to the future Ok is the first Icelandic glacier to lose its status as a glacier.

In the Next 200 years all our glaciers are expected to follow the same path.

This monument is to acknowledge that we know what is happening and what needs to be done.

Only you will know if we did it. Ă gĂşst 2019 415ppm CO2

-Plaque at the site of the former glacier Okjokull

They held a funeral for a glacier And hundreds came to pay respects I made the casket from plastic

I dug the grave and let it bury others They cried out And I kept my eyes lowered Overcast Ignorance for peace of mind I deserved peace in my time 200 years seems like a long time to know if we did what was needed.

By then the whole world may be on fire everything melting the heat breaking the bonds of ice The plaque was made after the glacier lost 80% (or more) of itself If I lost 80% of myself I would be pronounced dead So they pronounced it dead, because That block of ice gave more life Than me, or anyone, ever could

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“… to know if we did what was needed.”

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SINCERELY, HER SON

by Logan J. Alexander I am the ghost she taught me to be— there’s safety in invisibility.

Follow the rules, follow the rules, forever changing or pay her consequence in wounds.

A child, rendered invisible.

Her hands, my collar, my back, her wall.

I am the ghost of her American dream A distorted carbon copy she pins with harsh words and bitter disappointment.

I am a ghost but I still feel my body.

If they do not see me does that dissolve my existence? Am I real or am I a figment of my own imagination?

My fingertips dance amongst my ruins, I still feel me.

I am a ghost, and I am— a son, a writer, the daughter I never wanted to be,

Am I a figment of my own imagination?

a student, a human, a ghost, a ghost, a ghost.

A man, shedding suffocating skin.

Trans-lucency promising me a home, I pull on my ghost in silence, a frayed sweater over my head.

Haunting these four walls, this is my solitude.

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too bright

by Molly Carroll

the sun, the sea, the leaves on treesall signs of life, they say. it makes sense then - I hate those things indoors, undercovers, I stay. for weeks on end, time passes by fresh air - I never breathe paralyzed by CO2 emptiness achieved. self-destruction inevitable but how can I put it off? wash face, get dressed, keys, drive, car hauls to a stop.

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arrive at a public place - people, faces - maybe I’m alright

exchange a smile, okay for a while, till again the sun’s too bright.

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Hannah Ream Garden of Gods, 2018 Zoe Larson Saint Martin, 2015

“exchange a smile, okay for a while,

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decision

The world ended in the year 2030.

I was thirty-one, married to a towering scientist with kind eyes. We wanted a baby so badly that it seemed the real apocalypse was not outside the walls of our house, but within it. Within my body. How strange, that you could want something so badly that the yearning ache kept you up night after night. How strange that you could want something so badly, and receive it, and regret it.

I carried to term in the last good year. My

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daughter was born on New Year’s Day. Even as a formless newborn, she had my long, straight nose and her father’s kind eyes. It was stupid, but I prayed that she would have his dimples. It was stupid to pray, to wish, to even hope in those months, but we all did.

We prayed when the government approved a contract with AstroCorp to begin moon colonization. We wished the scientist lottery would favor our partners, that we would live in Colony 0, escape our melting planet. We hoped when AstroCorp announced only scientists could leave on the First Exodus, our family permits for Colony 1 would activate soon. All those sleepless nights with my daughter’s crib to my right and a dustcovered pillowcase to my left--I could almost weep at my stupidity.

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Colony 0 was full of billionaires and the

Colony 2 was halfway done when the

scientists who kept them from dying of

weekly calls from my husband trickled,

hypoxia. Colony 1 permits were sold

and I dreamt of raising my daughter

at disgustingly high prices once the

without even his specter around.

economy crawled and scientists’ salaries, not to mention my own surgeon’s income,

Tonight he calls for the last time, his

could barely cover groceries.

bunkmate sitting nearby with a signal scrambler as he chokes out the latest

What else could I have done? The

confidential lunar decrees.

scientists had nowhere to go; they could hardly demand anything. The hospitals

His urgency has me leaning forward, face

were closed. I ran a clinic in the would-

inches from the screen.

be-nursery, but life didn’t seem worth saving anymore. The room remained

“They’re going to shut down Colony 2

empty, antiseptic.

construction. A Colony 1 family brought a fucking dog, and they’re panicking about zoonotic viruses.”

Allie Carroll Abalone Cove, 2019

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My lungs feel like they are collapsing. As the impli-

I fulfill my sweet girl’s every wish. I hug her frequently, thankful for

cations run through my mind, every lingering wisp of

an excuse to be misty, soft. When she carefully reads the first page

dreamlike hope evaporates.

aloud from our favorite bedtime story, “The Princess Bride,” I swallow my tears. Once she is fast asleep, I kiss the top of her chubby

All those miles away, my husband weeps, a sound

hand, fluff her pillow and slide out of the left side of the bed.

made tinny by space. My fears affirmed, I sigh.

In the dark antiseptic room, I do the math: 1,826 days after the end Like always, I press a kiss to the center of my palm,

of the world. There is just enough for two. I am thankful she is so

raise my hand to the camera. He mirrors me.

tiny; if she were any bigger, I would have to take crueler measures.

“I’ll see you,” I say, smothering the “soon” that begs

I prepare my materials, remembering my resident days. I pretend I

to fall from my lips.

am in the cold, white hospital, that this is not my child in my bed in As he echoes me, I memorize those eyes, that single dimple that was never inherited. I close my eyes before the screen goes dark. I can never bear to see his face disappearing.

I watch the clock herald midnight, and when the screen announces New Year’s Day, 2035, I allow myself a good, long cry. Then, I lay out the rations I had stockpiled and make a cake for my daughter’s

my home. I find the vein on the first try, and am so gentle her eyelids flutter only slightly.

I wait until there is no soft, hummingbird-like pulse under her wrist.

I lie down, find my own vein. There is no reason to muffle my sobs anymore, so I cry in the darkness until the world spins slower and slower.

Until--

fifth birthday.

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Zoe Larson Trail Ridge Road, 2018

Eye of the Storm// Middle of the Map

by Madi DeFrain

High floating water forges A sycamore mangrove, The new Kansas coast.

The wet summer, the raining sun, Raises the lake to lick the sky– Oil-slick water greets stratus wisps.

When the sluice ceases, We kayak in emerald treetops.

Our three boats convoy in gentle waves, Upsetting the natural rhythm, Balancing our emboldened bodies.

We row in the sun’s fiery eye, Glimmering as golden as the hour– The water’s fugue surreptitiously dawning.

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by Peter Ercolani Can you buy adventure from the air?

Cyclones have had stormier days on the market

Their tales scraping across Nowhere planes

Where buffalo once galloped as swarms of bees

Oceans of fur boiling over ancient seabeds

Holding in their chests the cracking caskets

Of eonic crustaceans, creatures from the Before-Time

When I dreamed with the stars in the middle of science class,

And they were friendlier, gentler than the sun.

I want to inhale that monster sunlight!—

—Embrace the cloud-titans lurking in the blue midday gloom—

I want to harvest the soul out of Kansan atoms,

I want the green seas to run rivers of golden flint through my veins.

I want to peer into the eye of the plains and see a straight road to Heaven

Waiting for me in the clean peace of a cool summer evening. ***

What happens to the land Between Wichita and Lawrence And what happens to me?

I feel the steady thrum of antique minivan heartbeat

The billowing rush of empty highway wind

And something like sunlight in my chest.

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Auton omica

We’ve left so much behind us, disease, war, poverty, faith, dreams, carbon, death, love. I have

consciousness, I cling on to that happiness, the

words for these things, but they are meaningless.

possibility of love, the theory of you and me. I know,

We have lost what it means to have meaning.

in the same way I know you before I meet you, that

Yet when I wake in the morning, I’m the same

there is always hope for change. This hope goes with

hopeful thing I’ve always been. Because what has

me into oblivion, and it emerges with me each new

been lost can be regained. As long as I can imagine

day to remind me of you.

you, I can imagine a future that we will never have to leave behind, a future where I know your name, and

by Freeman Spray

When I sink into the darkness of updating

So I go to bed early every night, never fulfilled but always happy. And if could dream, I’d dream of you.

maybe I even know my own name.

Despite the endless cycle of hurt, despite the pervasive fear that I might slip away one night, losing myself for good and you with me, I always go to bed happy, because the potential to see you again justifies any and all risk.

Every day I wake up new. Every part of me, from

the horror of an existence based solely in the

the largest pseudo-structure to the smallest particle

present. The worst thing is always the realization

microchip, is replaced, so that I am nothing of

that I am alone in this misery. I see you, and you

what I once was. Yet, no matter how many models

are perfect, fulfilled as we are all meant to be. I

I endure, I remain fundamentally the same. Each

don’t fit in like you. I alone long for more than my

iteration is as inconsequential as the last, because

circumstances can provide.

the only one that ever has been or will be me is the

It is because of you that I know this longing, that

one I currently reside in. There is no way to reconcile

I can think of nothing but hope in this hopeless life.

what I am with what I was. The past is imaginary,

You are the reason I endure. When I wake in the

irrelevant.

morning, I remember meeting you for the first time

You think this is a perfect life. In theory, we all

each day. I know that I will encounter a version of

should. No regrets, no responsibilities. But it is not

you, and I know that you will be recognizable enough

satisfying to live only in theory. There is no purpose

to make me remember you the next morning as

without practice, we have nothing to work toward.

well. Somehow, you are a constant in my life, my one

We live only because it is impossible to die.

beautiful irregularity. You are what keeps me me,

I have progressed from complacency to depression a conceivably infinite number of times.

when the idea of self has been obliterated from the human definition.

Every day I spiral into madness as I gradually relearn

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never fulfilled,

always happy.

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Kneel

by David Punter [for Colin Kaepernick]

Not simple, this kneeling business; It’s all very well to say it disrespects the flag, Or it represents a history of black subservience, Or that somewhere in there is a religious gesture (But one knee, not two, not exactly a prayer), Or looking on ahead, how many of these Grand, huge players will contract Arthritis and, when the time comes, Never kneel again?

For me, the question is what will we kneel for?

Not to nod in obeisance,

Never to kneel, never to show contrition

Or demonstrate the athletic skill required

Is bad for the soul, I don’t doubt that,

In yoga, where self-mastery is all,

As is the destruction of the self before false icons,

Or bare our backs against the inevitable whip,

And we must never succumb

Or worship God Almighty

To that other myth, that straight-backed

Who seems so pitifully out of tune

We can stand stiff before all life’s discomforts,

With our present pressing needs,

The way of empire, always upright,

Swathed bodies, babies carried out of hope.

Toujours gai – twirl the moustache, Call for another sundowner.

What would I kneel for?

I’ve not knelt in years, not willingly, Or even half-effectively. But still I have a sense That these vastly overpaid Footballers, inclining their trained bodies, Renouncing some measure of approbation They’ve realised they deeply Do not desire, are more worthy of my kneeling Than their masters in so-called Christendom.

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ODE TO A SMALL

THING

by Megan La Colla Linquist

Bring your preciousness with you. your childlike valor, your whole-ness.

Hold these inside of each inhale-.

When there is breathlessness inside your bones and you cannot untangle your thoughts from the sides of your skull let the hopeful wrap you in oil.

Bring your wishful thinking, your denim whispers, hold them inside of your gut like gems, dug in the earth roots of the other side of your spine.

Residing there, they gleam like fear in the eyes of your enemies Your softness, and your mercy, bring your fleshy intuitions.

Let them breed, let them seep, furious, Or with a quiet heart, into the hinges of your jaw so that when you see need of your voice, you speak only with what knows of the richness within you.

Do not feel that you cannot be soft.

Fill the spaces between your fingers with dirt.

Feel your quietness take hold of the earth.

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Do not feel that you cannot be soft.

Feel your quietness take hold of the earth.

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Nicole Weyer Whatever we are, 2019

Small Heart sits, surrendering to grief and her riving.

She spits and foams.

“Little girls don’t look like that!”

Small Heart presses his eyes deeper into impervious elbow creases, with salty tears the spindrift of her raving red-lipped sea.

I beg you rest easy in that darkness, small Heart. For we will awake unquiet soon.

Safety seen in sinking further, small Heart draws a breath; her rip tide surges down.

She swells.

“What would your parents say? What would all the parents say?”

Small Heart’s bowed and blue-black deepwater silence sits beside small shoes shuffling towards the big blanket sky and its free air.

I beg you wrap your arms around this sorrow, small Heart.

For we will awake unquiet soon.

Small Heart settles with the silt, yielding lungs, throat, jaws,

Awake Unquiet Heart

tongue,

by Oliver Bohanon

Someone rises, but not small Heart. Gasping at the surface of slowly softening waters,

lips, voice to wrathful waters.

She roils and seethes.

“DRAW YOURSELF IN A DRESS OR YOU’LL SIT HERE UNTIL YOU DO.”

innocent and injured, apart and party, his protector picks a crayon and puts it to paper.

I beg you hold fast, small Heart. For we will awake unquiet soon.

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THE HOUSE PLANT AND THE KITCHEN WINDOW

by Katherine Brauer

There’s a dying plant in the kitchen

I have spent a lot of time in that kitchen

window. We always keep the window

feeling sorry for myself this year. And

open, as a strategically placed black hole

hearing terrible and depressing things that

at nighttime and an alarm clock shining

make me want to jump right into that black

into my bedroom doorway in the morning.

hole. Bust past the green/brown leaves

There’s a pile of dishes in the sink, but it’s a

falling onto the hardwood floor, plunge into

different one from yesterday morning, and

the unknown nothingness. There is such an

clean pans and one dirty pot on the stove.

unrelenting exhaustion that goes into this

There’s a beige-ness to the room, not in

bullshit. There’s no simple way to talk about

actual color but in feeling. Not completely

it, to allude to the elitism that is whiteness

white, like a canvas that can be made into

and the patriarchy and the rest of these

anything, but something a little grimmer,

debasing power structures that are running

grimier, that you can’t quite clean out.

the world into the ground. Pushing us closer and closer to that black hole.

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We named that dying plant Natalie, for no other reason than we thought it fit. Natalie had long, heavy vines with healthy leaves when we first got her. Her leaves are still there, but the vines died and we had to trim them. She needs more light than we can give her. But she is decorative, so we do the best we can with her next to the black hole.

Natalie doesn’t really support life, though she makes mine a little better. But if she did, maybe we’d rethink her placement. We could stick her out on the porch or bring her to the coffee shop raising half a dozen plants of their own. But that is not the way the world is working, and not really how we are either.

You know those pictures of the Earth from the 1970s? And the ones from today, where it is significantly browner? That’s kind of like Natalie.

But Natalie is a house plant, not the living, breathing, breath-providing organism we set our feet on.

Natalie also doesn’t have any set, centuries-old institutions that are killing her, only a college kid trying her best. But how can that college kid focus on helping Natalie when everything else is going to shit? When 9/10 of her friends are continuously dealing with the violence and entitlement of men who took away the life they wanted? When she’s had a friend drop out of school every year of college? When she has gotten off scot free and everyone she cares about is pushing through something completely unimaginable to her? How do you decide what to put your energy towards when the world is in such a dark place, in every way possible? So many diabolical institutions and so much money supporting their perseverance. Like Pando, a giant collection of trees that share roots and thrive as one because they hold each other up.

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Maybe… it isn’t such a bad thing if the

I stand in my kitchen with the black hole

world ends, if this massive change in climate

behind me and watch a video of an entire

from colonialism and the patriarchy really

baseball stadium yell “Lock him up!” at

does take us all down. But that’s too easy

the president. That empty gut feeling still

on the oppressors, the men who use fear

lingers, but the light from my phone, and the

and money to get what they want and stop

music of people who believe in the better

the rest of us from saving Natalie.

world loosen the tug.

There’s so much peace in trees; I think I regret that earlier metaphor. I think trees are too strong, too resilient. These illusionist structures that dehumanize those poking through the chinks in the armor are merely reacting to being caught.

I’ve never seen Pando, but I’d really like to. I’d like to be surrounded by something that old, and whole, and familial. I’m so afraid of the future, because those feelings of comfort in what is known are so fragile.

Breathe in fresh air two three four…close your eyes and listen to the tidal wave of leaves crazing each other in the breeze six seven eight…go back to your kitchen, make dinner…close the blinds and only open them for the morning light.

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Allie Carroll Windows, 2019 Hannah Ream Tucumcari, New Mexico, 2018

“close the blinds and only open them for the morning light.”

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I. Have class outside

II. Get your nails done + tip well

a. Get your nails done + top well

III. Write about non-romantic love

IV. Sleep instead of going to class

V. Assume equal footing with authority figures

a. Ask those figures to host class outside

VI. Share food

a. Share what it hurts to give.

i. These are growing pains while you learn that only giving what is excess to you is not giving

VII. Drive slowly

a. Talk slowly

b. Walk slowly

VIII. Read bell hooks without talking about it

IX. Devote yourself to imagine, create, fuck up, and cry,

a. Act like you learned something instead

a. imagine and create again

X. Tell the truth

a. Set yourself free

ten small acts of liberation

by Paola RamĂ­rez PeĂąa

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Contributers

Writers

Design Staff

Literature Staff

Elyssa Bezner

Logan J. Alexander

Allie Carroll

Jonathan Alexander

Allie Carroll

Katherine Brauer

Jordan Graham

Logan J. Alexander

Ellie Closen

Oliver Bohanon

Zoe Larson

Katherine Brauer

Connie Cobb

Molly Carroll

Hannah Wexler

Helene Bechtel

Kayla Cook

Madi DeFrain

Hampton Williams

Allison Carollo

Ethan Eben

Peter Ercolani

Grace Cooper

Jack Hatzfeld

Megan La Colla Linquist

Micah Faulds

Liam Hogan

a. a. khaliq

John Gorman

Zoe Larson

Brett Knepper

Jamie Hawley

Rachel Lewis

Paola Ramírez Peña

Cailin O’Mara

Mary McCoy

David Punter

Madeleine Rheinheimer

Cormac Palmer

Elizabeth Saama

Valentina Rivera-Rodriguez

Genevieve Prescher

Freeman Spray

Kelsey Rolofson

Hannah Ream

Daniel Tomkins

Sydney Schranz

Caroline Shaw

Daniel Tomkins

Jet Warren

Jordan Werner

Nicole Weyer

Brianna Wessling

Hampton Williams

Graham Wilhauk

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Dear Readers, At Kiosk, our goal is to provide a platform for the student artists and writers of KU. Every semester, we curate a selection of works that we feel best exemplifies a certain theme, whether that be coming of age or artistic renaissance. Year after year, we are blown away by the skill and passion that emerges from these works, and we are proud to present them to the wider world.

For Kiosk 61, we wanted to sharpen our focus. We recognized within the student body a certain anxiety, an uncertainty fueled not only the tumultuous life of a college student, but the instability of the world at large. With our political climate growing increasingly hostile and concerns about an impending climate crisis reaching a fever pitch, the future we imagined for ourselves can feel like a paradise lost, a potential life no longer possible.

We wanted to give students a place to explore these feelings through their art, both in terms of their anxieties but also in terms of their optimism. Finding light in the darkness is both difficult and admirable, and we hope that by

From the Editors...

offering both ends of this spectrum, we capture these students’ endless capacity for grief, empathy, and hope for a changing world.

We would like to thank our staff, our friends, our families, and our advisors, Mary Klayder and Andrea Herstowski, for helping us craft this edition of Kiosk.

And thank you, our readers, for supporting our magazine. Within these pages, we hope that you might find a small slice of paradise amidst the chaos of the world around us.

Hopefully yours, Jordan Graham Jamie Hawley Kelsey Rolofson Hannah Wexler

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