1965 - The Act

1965 About the Act

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1965 About the Act

1965 - About the Act For the first time I discovered a new reality not happening in my person but in the world. I found the “Walking” an inner journey outside of myself. Before that, the “Creature” was emerging from me and provoking an obsessive explosion – throughout all my senses. But now for the first time and with the “Walking”- it is the opposite that happens. I feel the wholeness of the world in one sole rhythm, a global one, as something like going from Mozart to a football math on the beach.

The architectural space disturbs me. To paint a surface or make a sculpture is so different from living in a architectural reality. Now I don’t feel alone anymore. I am absorbed by the others and have the intense feeling as if I was being uprooted. The feeling of being unstable with space work on me as disintegration. To live perception, be perception in itself…

I feel sick all the time. I can’t swallow anything and my body abandons me.

Where is the “Creature”? – me? I become an abstract existence drowned in strange depths without reference of my own work which now seems far away from me. “Did I make that”?. Disturbed, I feel tied only by a string. My body has left me-“Walking”. Dead? Alive? I feel invaded by tactile sensations, smells, the heat of the sun, the dreams.

A monster emerge from the sea surrounded by fish, the sun is bright and suddenly goes away. The fish: dead. Then the sun shines again, the fish are alive, the monster goes away. I am safe.

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1965 About the Act

Another dream: an interior which is the external, a window and I. Through this window I want to go outside and this for me is the window and I want to go outside and this for me is the inside. When I wake up, the window of my room is the one in the dream, and the inside that I was searching for is external space. From this dream was born the “Creature” which I named “Inside and Outside”. It is a structure made of inox steel, elastic and deformable. In the middle of the structure there an empty space. When we handle it is this empty space gives the structure new spaces. I consider the “Inside and Outside” the result of my researches about the “Creature”.

For many times I woke up at night and found myself standing by the window of my room looking for this external space as fit it were the “inside”. Space can frighten me –but it is in it that I reconstruct myself. During a crisis it runs away from me. It is as if we where all the time playing tricks with each other.

I am the before and after. I am the future in the present. I am the inside and the outside.

What really touches me in the sculpture “Inside and outside” is the fact that it changer the knowledge I have of myself, of my own body. It changers me, I have no form, shape or defined features. Its lungs are the same as mine. It is the introjections of the cosmos and at the same time it is my own being crystallized in an object in spade. “Inside and Outside”, a living being open to all transformations. Its inner space is a sentimental space.

In contact with my piece “Inside and Outside” the person feels his own precariousness. He, like the “Creature”, does not hava a single feature that can be identified. He discovers the ephemeral in opposition to any kind of

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1965 About the Act

crystallization. Now, space belongs to time continuously changed by the action. Subject-object find each other essentially in the act.

Completeness. I am overwhelmed by senses. Each time I breath became aware of my “cosmic lung”. I enter in the total rhythm of the action. I became aware of my “cosmic lung”. I enter in the total rhythm of the world. The world is my lung. Would death be this fusion? Why has this fullness the flavor of death? I am so incredibly alive… how can one unite these two ends? For many times in my life I have found the identity of life and death. It was a discovery that each time had lees pleasure. One night I had the perception the absolute could be this “emptiness-fullness”, this totally from the interior of the external that I talk so much about.

We are a totality in temporal-space. In the immanent act we don’t notice temporal limit. Past, present and future all blend together. We exist before the after-but the after anticipate the act. The after is there in the act making itself.

If time exists in moment of the act, what comes from the act is incorporate in perception of absolute time. There is no distance between past and present, when we look behind, the remote past and the recent past and present, when we look behind, the remote past and the recent past have blended together.

Maybe this is not clear, but the evidence of the vision that I had is the only thing that matters to me.

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